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Chapter 12 - Light On

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Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn't be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there's no point in grieving
Doesn't matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I'm leaving

You know we've been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don't know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

Sometimes it feels like we've run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brain
You'll start my heart again
When I come along

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it's late at night you can look inside
You won't feel so alone
David Cook - Light On

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Rika POV

Rika took a sip from her glass. She was sitting at the bar counter at Joe's, drinking her favourite - grapefruit and pineapple Fanta. She wasn't really much for alcohol. Her thoughts had been on Sam all day, even if they hadn't seen each other. It was already twilight outside and she had decided to get to the café just to get her mind off things.

That night Rika hadn't slept that well. It was partially because of her wound and her shoulder hurting, but that had been fixed after taking a painkiller. The main reason for her lack of sleep, however, was Sam. The demon was dead, and he and Dean were done with their hunt. Rika knew what it meant, they would be leaving. She didn't want to face it, even though she knew goodbyes were inevitable. She didn't want to lose Sam, she loved him too much for that. It scared her that she had become so dependent of him in only two days of knowing one another.

Suddenly, she heard the bar stool on her left being pulled out, and she looked over, only to see Sam sitting down on it.

"I thought I might find you here", he said.

"Yeah."

"Listen...", he began but she interrupted him and looked into his eyes, trying to make out what he was thinking about.

"You're leaving."

"Yeah."

"I figured as much."

"I-I..."

Rika didn't want to have this conversation. She knew this was the way things had to be. But they wouldn't have to let go of eachother completely. She had a few months left of school and they could stay in touch, emailing and calling eachother.

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"I'm not going to say goodbye", she interrupted Sam before he could continue and he looked at her in confusion.

"I'm serious", she said with a smile. "I'm not going to say goodbye to you, I just can't. We can always stay in touch. Look, I get that you and Dean are leaving, that's the way it has to be. Don't worry about it."

"You could come with us."

Rika bit her lip. She was very tempted to take up on his offer. She had been alone for such a long time, and now she had met someone who was so much like her. She could be happy with him and Dean, and she loved Sam very much. However, she knew going with them wasn't an option, at least not yet. She had fought for a normal life so long, and she couldn't give up on school, not with only two months left.

"As much as I want to, I can't, not yet. I have to finish college, I've only got a couple of months left."

"Yeah, I know", he replied with a sad smile. "I couldn't ask you to leave everything behind you just because I've fal...", Sam interrupted himself before finishing the sentence. Rika's eyes widened - she knew what he had meant to say.

"Because you what?", she asked. He looked at her, and then he smiled.

"Because I love you."

"I love you too."

He gave her that puppy dog look again, and he looked as happy as she was feeling, despite the fact that he was leaving and that they couldn't be together. Not yet, at least. Then he reached out and touched her face, and she shivered slightly at the electricity she felt when his fingers met her cheek. He cupped her face with his hand and their lips met in a passionate and desperate kiss. It continued for minutes, Rika felt like she was in heaven once more and even though she was reluctant to, she pulled away.

"You should probably get going, I bet Dean's waiting for you outside."

"Yeah, you're right", he said and got up from the chair.

"See you later, Sam Winchester", she said and gave him a brave smile. "You know how to reach me." He just nodded, apparently he was as reluctant to say goodbye as she was.

He disappeared with a smile and a fast "I'll call you". Rika sighed. And so he was gone with his hands casually in his pockets.

She stayed at Joe's for another hour, trying not to think about Sam and Dean. "I can't sit here all night long", she tried telling herself. "I might aswell go to Hugh's place and see if he has a new mission for me. I never thought I'd feel like this, but I actually feel like slaying tonight. I need to kick some vampire ass, just to get something else to think about." She got up, paid the waiter and walked out the bar, starting to walk towards her watcher's place.

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When Rika got to Hugh's house, the lights were turned off, the house was completely dark. Not even the porch light was lit. "Strange", she thought. "He's usually at home at this hour, he should've gotten out of work a couple of hours ago. Wonder where he is."


She decided to go inside anyways, he wouldn't mind and he might be getting back in a short while. Rika was ready to pick her key to Hugh's front door out of her pocket when she took a hold of the handle and noticed the door was open. Something was wrong, she could tell. He never left his door open. Never.

She carefully opened the door and she smelled something strange. His house didn't usually smell like this... She quickly recognized the smell as gasoline. "What the hell?" She carefully walked inside the house, and made her way to the living room while looking around.

"Hugh?!", she cried, wondering if he was home. And then she saw him.

Hugh was standing in the back corner of his living room. His face was dark since there were no lights, so she couldn't see his face but she knew her watcher well enough to know it was him. Then she noticed it, a big red canister on the floor. Her gaze trailed across the floor, noticing it was wet.

"Hugh, what's going on?"

He didn't answer. He picked something out of his pocket, and then took a step forward. She still wasn't able to see his face. Then he raised his hand, and she saw he was holding a lighter. There where a few snapping sounds, and then his face got lighted up with the flame from the lighter. His eyes were completely black. She quickly realized what was going on and she was hit with terror. Then it was almost as if things were moving in slow motion. Hugh grinned and let go of the burning lighter, which started to fall towards the floor. Rika's eyes widened in shock, she quickly turned around and started running as fast as she could, but it was too late. There was a big booming sound from an explosion, and for a minute everything was light. And hot. The darkness was gone. A shockwave from the blast threw her into the air. She felt a sharp pain and flew across the room, out of a window. There was a clinking sound She hit the ground with her face on the concrete, hitting her head on a rock. She groaned and her vision started to get blurry. In the distance she could her the sound of an ambulance. Then everything went dark.

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Sam POV

Sam was sitting in the Impala next to his brother who was blasting his Guns N' Roses on almost full volume. Sam couldn't stand Dean's taste in music, or actually it was okay, but not at Dean's kind of volumes. And especially not now, when he wanted the quiet. Leaving Rika had been the hardest thing he had had to do for a long time. He missed her already.

"Dude, could you please turn down the volume?", he asked turned towards Dean.

"No way", Dean just replied with that wide smile that always irritated Sam. "So, how'd Rika take the goodbye part?"

"Actually, she took it really well", Sam said. "She got it. We didn't exactly say goodbye though."

"Lucky you", Dean said. "I hate clingy chicks. We could've stayed a couple of days more if you have wanted to."

"No, it's better this way", Sam said with a sigh. "Staying longer would've just made leaving even harder."

"I bet."

Suddenly Sam's cellphone rang. He jumped at the sound, he wasn't used to it ringing. Dean was basically the only one who called him, along with Bobby at some times. And it couldn't be Rika, not yet. He picked the phone out of his pocket and glanced at the screen. He didn't recognize the number, but he picked up anyway.

"Hello?"

"Is this... Sam Brody?"

That was the fake name Dean used for him while they were pretending to be journalists. Not many people knew him by that name, and he didn't recognize the male voice on the other end.

"Yes. Who am I speaking to?"

"I'm a nurse at Massachusetts General Hospital, and I was wondering if you know a Rika Johansson?"

A million thoughts ran through Sam's head at that moment, including images of Rika, lying dead on the ground. If they were calling from a hospital, something terrible must have happened.

"I do. What's wrong?"

"Well, there's been an explosion, and we have her in our care here at the hospital. She had put you up as an emergency contact. I'm her doctor, and I'd rather not discuss this on the phone. Is it possible for you to pay a visit to the hospital? We're trying to reach someone close to her."

"I'll be there." Sam hung up and Dean looked at him curiously.

"What's wrong?"

"Turn around Dean, we have to go back to Boston. There's been an accident, that was the hospital."

Dean didn't ask any questions and quickly did a u-turn and speeded back towards Boston. Sam was freaking out.

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