Phoebe's POV
As I held my sister close to me, I stayed silent not sure what to make of this whole ordeal. I know I should be saying comforting words to her, who was clearly still freaked out about what happened…yet I found nothing to say. Thinking all these things…I only knew one person that could talk with her was Leo.
"Piper…" I said softly, and I felt her nod her head. "I am sorry that what I did drove you over the edge…but I need you to listen to me ok?" She nodded her head once again. "I know that losing Leo hurt you really bad Piper…" she started to get up from my hug, and instantly I tightened it.
"You love Leo…" I said sternly… "You love him with all your heart, and he loves you Piper…the way he talks, looks at you, thinks about you…and nothing will ever replace him in your heart. Piper you need to tell him this…he wants…no needs you so bad in his life, and he is hurt thinking you don't want him here. Piper you are a fighter, and I need you to fight for him…" she can't disillusion herself thinking she can just use Dan as a booty call whenever she pleases.
Piper's POV
I felt my tears over whelm me and I used my fighting skills to use and fought them down; there was no way I could let Phoebe see that her words were getting to me. I couldn't have Leo, couldn't Phoebe see and understand that.
Leo Wyatt is a white lighter for God's shakes, we tried to make it work but when the damn Elders found out about us; they sent Leo away from me, without telling me first. All Leo was allowed to tell me was that the manor was taken care of and that if I needed another handy man to give his boss a call. Than he left. Just like that. Like a snap of the finger. Poof. I was heart broken.
But than Leo returned in the attic suddenly with an arrow in his arm; and Phoebe was the one who told me that he was a white lighter. A white lighter; as in angel. As in dead. Leo Wyatt wasn't living any longer. He had died in World War II when he was trying to save one of his men. I fell in love with a dead guy. I couldn't blame myself, seeing how Leo wasn't the first dead guy to turn my head or to worm his way into my heart. I remember Mark. But at least Mark didn't force me to fall in love with him; I knew that once we found his murder than he would be joining his father in Heaven. But with Leo it was different. Leo Wyatt willing led me on and broken my heart.
Leo Wyatt made love to me; he reached the deepest reaches of my soul where only my soul mate could reach. He was my soul mate and I can never have him. I can never tell him. Because than it would make him fell guilty. Even more so than he all ready has. He says that he loves me and is willing to fight the Elders for us; but I am the one who is thinking clearly and I know that there is no way that the Elders would allow Leo and I to be in love, to get married and have a family together.
The Elders believe that white lighters are the sole protectors of good witches and they need to be on call 24/7 and have nothing on their minds; but their charges. Witches are under attack against evil every second of the day and needing their white lighters to heal them. If a white lighter is distracted in any way shape or form than the witch could die. That's why the Elders have band white lighters to fall in love. Leo is lucky that he's a favorite of the Elders that he hasn't been dismissed being a white lighter and his spirit finally getting to move on to Heaven to be with his own family.
So I'm willing giving Leo Wyatt up. I have too. I can't allow him to die again. I can't live my life without seeing him; even if it's just as my white lighter. I can live with that. I can. I have too.
So when Phoebe is encouraging me to tell Leo that I love him and fight for our love, she doesn't know what she's asking. I wish I could tell her; but I can't put this into words.
Phoebe's POV"Piper…you aren't going to say anything are you?" I asked her after I got done with my little speech, and waited for a few minutes, and still she said nothing. "You cannot live in denial about this…and I know you know that you cannot just view Leo as a Whitelighter…not now or ever again," Piper just shook her head, still not saying anything. "Piper don't even think about thinking that you and he aren't going to be together, and I am not stupid either. The Elders forbid any Whitelighter from falling in love with one of their charges,"
"But…I don't want Leo to suffer if he gets caught…" Piper whispered.
"So you aren't going to fight for it all?" I asked incredulously. "We both know Leo has been willing and still is willing to fight for you…." And I could tell this wasn't going to convince Piper anymore than my other speech. "I can't believe you Piper…I understand you don't want Leo to get hurt, but you are hurting him more than the Elders can ever can," I ended it, getting a little fed up with Piper now. "I promise I won't go call Leo, but I want you to think about what I told you while I check the Book of Shadows for a vanquish for the Water Demon," and I left Piper alone to think about what I said.
Piper's POV
Doesn't Phoebe realize that Leo is all I think about? Even with my anger with the situation with dad and Paige, Leo is always in my thoughts. How can he not be? But I also know that Phoebe and Prue think I'm selfish, and quite frankly stupid for not fighting for Leo. But that's not it. I really don't mind fighting with the Elders, I mean I know dad wasn't too happy when Leo and I dated, he didn't think Leo was the right man for me. But he was even surer that Leo wasn't the right man for me when we found out that he was a Whitelighter. The Elders would have been 'dad' on Leo's end of the bargain and I wouldn't have minded fighting and proving that I am worthy to be Leo's wife and mother of his children.
But I know what would happen to Leo if I did fight the Elders. The Elders would either send Leo away from me for all time or they might take it upon themselves and revoke Leo's Whitelighter status and send his soul to Heaven. They would allow Leo to die for the second time in his life and for good. I know that Leo loves being a Whitelighter and able to help innocents, so I can't be selfish and fight for Leo. I love Leo enough to willing give him up so he can continue doing what he loves to do in his life.
I wipe my tears from my checks and stood to my feet. I walked over to my closet and pulled out a fresh outfit to put on. I realized that my outfit still smelled of sweet. I changed and turned to the mirror and grabbed my brush and I quickly brushed my hair pulling it back with a headband I fixed my make up. I turned and left my bedroom.
Prue's POV
Ok…I know that Leo wasn't going off to a charge, he usually had a far away look at his face when he got called for. Probably something to do with Piper knowing our poor Whitelighter. It's none of my business though, and I sighed walking out of my office and to the garage. Well with Jack's help I managed to do double the work, and half the time. Maybe he isn't the dumb ass I think he is. I climbed into my car and headed for home.
I got to the manor and opened up the door. "Phoebe…Piper I'm home!"
Leo's POV
I had listened to Piper and Phoebe talk; so I know all about Piper's booty call with Dan Gordon. My heart broke as I thought of Piper sleeping with another man. I winched as I heard that Phoebe physically attacked Dan when she honestly thought that Dan meant to rape Piper. I wanted to come visible once more when I heard Piper scream "I WAS A DIRTY HORNY SLUT AND YOU KNOW WHAT PHOEBE, I LOVED IT. I LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT".
But I didn't. Not because the Elders forbid me, but because I knew Piper would be humiliated if she knew that I heard about her booty call. Also very angry. Angry enough to blow me up. So I didn't. I just stayed where I was invisible and listened to Phoebe try to get Piper to give into her love for me and fight for me.
I watched as Piper pulled herself together slowly, yes I did turn around while Piper dressed. No demon was in sight so I gave Piper her deserved privacy to change her clothes. I watched as she re did her hair and make up. I orbed out after she left the room.
I orbed to Dan's house and with the Elders permission I healed Dan and than I used memory dust so Dan wouldn't remember anything. He doesn't even remember his booty call. I thought it would be best for Piper if their wasn't any awkwardness between her and Dan.
Phoebe's POV
I walked into the attic, shaking my head at Piper's weird behavior…and I can't call Leo again…I do not want Piper any more mad at me then she already is. Walking to the Book of Shadows, I couldn't help, but smile. This whole entire book was our gift from our ancestors filled with not just spells, but history of our past.
Opening up the book I started to look for demons composed of water, and it took me awhile just to find the page since it had no picture, and while skimming I had passed the page. While running my hand down the page, I suddenly tensed up and let out a small gasp as I was forcefully thrown into a premonition. Mom…I see Mom…she was looking in the Book of Shadows at the same exact page I was looking at, when abruptly she closed it, and got out a pad and a pen, and started to write down a quick note, and before she rushed off she kissed her two fingers and put it at the bottom of the letter. Abruptly the vision ended, and I slowly opened my eyes to see Piper in fresh clothes.
"Phoebe you ok?" Piper asked me.
"Yeah…I just had a weird-," I started when I heard the door slam close, and Prue's voice traveled up to the attic.
"Phoebe…Piper I'm home!" I nearly let out a sigh of relief, glad to have one sane sister home.
"In the attic," I called back, and I heard her trudge up the stairs.
"So…did you find anything about the water demon?" Prue asked folding her arms and walking over towards me.
"Um…I just opened the book up…and I got a premonition from the page. Prue gave me the look that clearly said spill…so I did, "I saw Mom…she was looking at this page, and then the she wrote a note. I am not sure to whom though; it almost seemed like a love note…letter?" I said, trying to remember how she was writing it.
Victor's POV
I looked up and smiled as I saw my daughter orb in. "Welcome home Paige. Dinner is almost ready."
"That's good because I'm simply starving." Paige said with a grin. "Leo …" She called out.
Leo orbed in with a depressed look on his face,
"Are you all right Leo?" Paige asked concerned as she walked over to the young Whitelighter; whom is truly very much my own age, and put her arms around his waist and hugged him.
"Yeah." Leo said but Paige and I knew he was lying.
"It's Piper isn't it?" I said with a slight frown to my own lips as I checked the chicken on the grill. I looked back up at Leo. "I'm sorry that everything is such a mess between the two of you Leo. But you know that the Elders would never consent to you and Piper."
"We could fight …." Leo sighed deeply. "I'm willing to fight for us, Victor. I love your daughter with my entire being. She's my soul mate."
Paige pulled away from Leo and touched his check. "Piper will come to her senses Leo, she'll realize that you guys are the meant to be in love, and you two will be married have a family and grow old together." She said with such sureness in her voice that even I believed her.
Prue's POV"Don't stress if you can't remember all of the vision," I told her as she clearly tried hard to remember what Mom had been writing, and patted Phoebe's shoulder. I took a look at the book, and looked for any type of vanquishing spell…or potion and of course there isn't any. Great. I wonder how Mom was going to try and vanquish this demon. "Ok…I think we are going to have to go to the lake then…see if we can find that Scruffy idiot that stopped me from saving that innocent. Then maybe we can see if Leo knows anymore about the water demon then he is letting on," Piper kind of cringed at hearing Leo's name, but instantly her face went back to being neutral.
Paige's POV
"I'm glad that I have you in my corner, Paigey." Leo said squeezing me tighter to him as he finally smiled a genuine smile. "So what's for dinner, Victor?" He asked after he stepped away from me to walk over to the grill. "Steak, awesome."
Dad grinned as he looked at Leo. It took some time but daddy considered Leo the son he never had. He had to get over his anger against whitelighters; because of who my father was. But once he started to learn more about magic and protecting me, and having Leo by his side and healing him, dad started thinking of him more as a son than as a Whitelighter. This makes me happy because Leo truly was like my big brother.
Piper's POV
"So a trip to the lake tomower than?" I said finally finding my voice. It was a little raspy for not rushing it since my break down a few hours previous. Which was truly only an hour ago.
"What's wrong with your voice Piper? Are you coming down with cold?" Prue looked concerned at me. But than her face changed. "What's wrong Piper?"
"It's nothing." I said trying to get my voice back to normal.
"It's Leo isn't it? You have been crying over Leo once more." Prue sighed and frowned. "Why don't you just finally admit that you love Leo and you are willing to fight for him? Elders be damn."
"You don't fucking understand anything, Prue Halliwell! I wish you and Phoebe would just leave me the fucking alone where my stupid love life is concerned. It's not any of your business any how." I stormed over and sat on the bed that that was pushed off to one wall. This was the bed that Leo had told me how he became a white lighter. And this was the bed that I realized that I could never have Leo Wyatt as my soul mate. I wanted to get up; but I felt close to Leo on this bed; so I allowed myself this time to remember all that I have lost.
Leo's POV
"Prue saw the water demon and Sam today?" I said as we were sitting down to dinner. I saw Victor nod and the relieved look on Paige's face. "You are one step closer to telling your sisters who you truly are?" I smiled at the younger woman.
"Yes." Paige simply said. "Once the shock and the anger is through with the fact that mom had an affair with her Whitelighter than I will tell them that out of the affair came a love child. Me." She simply said as she cut into her steak.
"Might be a longer while than you think, Paige." Victor softly said. "Piper still hasn't gotten over the anger and betrayal of my adopting you and raising you knowing about magic after I abandoned her and her sisters." He frowned darkly into his glass of beer.
"Piper will forgive you. It's just going to take some time is all?" I remembered when Piper was eight and Victor left. I remember watching over her invisible as she cried herself to sleep just praying for her daddy to come back home to her. But I would never tell Victor this; it would make him feel even guiltier.
Prue's POV"Piper…if we are going to be able to do this vanquish tomorrow, we are all going to be in perfect control of our powers, and the way you are heading…"
"Like my powers will go out of control and destroy the house like yours did?" Piper snapped at me. Piper is not going to intimidate me, especially about controlling our powers.
"Prue…just leave her alone ok? Why don't we go and…" Phoebe tried to think of something, but couldn't.
"Piper, seriously you need to quit the attitude, and you are right, it isn't me nor Phoebe's business to be messing your love life, but it is affecting our duties as the Charmed Ones."
Phoebe's POV"Prue…lets just leave her alone for a while. She has been through a lot today," I started to say, and then I clammed up. Crap…I saw Piper shoot me an angry glare, and Prue knew something was up.
"What happened?" she questioned.
"None of your damn business Prue Halliwell," Piper snapped at her. Great Piper, being angry will help your cause more.
"Look, I can see this isn't going to go anywhere, but a fight, so lets just end this now," I tried to step in between my sisters, but of course they ignored me. I was never that good of a peacemaker
"Shut it Phoebe," Piper snapped at me.
"Hey I was just trying to defend you," I shot back at her. It's not like I told Prue that Piper went over to see Dan for a booty call. "Fine…you know what, I don't care. Get interrogated by Prue, if you are just going to go and be all moody about it," and with that I turned and left the attic.
Paige's POV
"Daddy wants to go with the girls to the lake tomower and see Sam." I said looking over at dad who was still frowning and than back at Leo. "Is it a good idea, Leo?"
"Only if Victor can hold his temper." Leo looked meaningfully over at dad.
Dad took a deep long slow drink of his beer and when he lowered his glass it was a quarter empty. He took a deep breath as I watched emotions work through his face. He firmly nodded. "Yes, I can hold my temper with Sam Wilder." He suddenly looked at me in face and smiled. "He gave me. How can I not be grateful to the man?"
"I would go also, but I can't face my father. Not yet." I said softly. "He still doesn't know that you have adopted me." I shook my head. "He's still not over my mother's death or how she died. He still blames himself for not stopping her." I shook my head. "No I won't have contact with Sam. Not until my sisters and you …" I turned to face dad. "Can help him see that there wasn't anything he could have done to prevent my mom from doing just what she wanted to do." I patted my father's head. "Even you couldn't have prevented mom from trying to vanquish the water demon.
Dad sighed. "I shouldn't have left Patty. Not even after I learned of her affair with Sam." He took a deep breath. I tried to make it work even through she was pregnant with another man's baby. But it was too much and I couldn't handle it. He shook his head. "It's in the past and your mother has forgiven me for my fear and my selfishness." He turned his eyes on me once more. "She has allowed me to raise you after all."
Piper's POV
I glared up at Prue who was pacing back and forth. "Well you stop pacing all ready Prue. It's so childish." I growled.
"What is childish Piper Halliwell is how you are acting." Prue stopped pacing and turned around and glared down at me with her arms folded across her chest.
"Oh and just how am I acting childish?" I demanded jetting my chin out.
"By biting Phoebe and my head off when we are giving you the best and solid advice on you and Leo." Prue said.
I snorted through my nose. "Yea freaking right. You are only concerned about my love life is because you don't have one." I blinked at what I said. "I'm sorry Prue." I said softly.
"Forget it. This isn't a discussion about my love life, or my sole lack of it." Prue said with a shake of her head. Her expression had softened with my unthinking remark but it hardens right back up once more. "I am not rebounding with anyone because I don't have my soul mate." She shook her head. "What you are doing; Piper; isn't fair to Leo, Dan or yourself."
"Bugger off Prue …" I jumped to my feet and stomped over to the attic door. I turned back around. "Don't you dare tell me how to run my love life or my life." I finally lost my temper which I had tried holding in check. "I'm not a little child any longer, Prue; I'm a full grown adult."
"Than act like one." Prue stormed.
"I'm acting like one." I said stomping my foot on the attic floor hard and repeating several times. But than I caught what I was doing and I saw the sure you are look on Prue's face. I couldn't keep my anger in any longer. I just blew up at Prue.
"You are my sister Prue, NOT my mother. You have no right to try to control my life. You have right to act like my mother. Granted my mother is dead and had been dead since I was six, but that never gave you the right to try to step into mommies place in my life or my heart." I felt hot angry tears fall from my checks. "I WISH I WASN'T TRAPPED IN THIS FUCKING HOUSE, THAN I COULD MOVE AWAY. FAR AWAY FROM YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO WANTS TO FUCKING CONTROL ME." I felt my blood pressure build up.
Prue's POVI just folded my hands over my chest as Piper yelled. She needed to yell at me to calm down, fine. As soon as she was done yelling, she waited to see if I had to say anything to her. My opinion, I have been acting more sisterly to all of my sisters. Phoebe, Paige, and especially been trying harder with Piper. Who couldn't tell she was heartbroken and just rebounding with Dan? Granted I really shouldn't be butting in her love life like I have been, but we are more than just normal human beings…we are witches and Piper can't seem to get that through her skull. I got over my anger of Dad bringing Paige into our lives. Hell I even physically attacked her with my power, trying to protect my sisters. In my screwed up mind in that point of time, she was a warlock.
I guess I thought everyone was a Warlock. Only a couple months after finding out we were actually the Charmed Ones, I couldn't trust anyone…not even Andy. Tears started to come to my eyes as I thought about Andy. No one could ever truly replace him in my heart, but at least she can at least fight for Leo. Andy was forced away from me, and I had no chance of bringing him back. "Are you even going to say anything back to me?" she shouted at me. Unless she doesn't let her anger out…we are never going to be able to talk again…not like before. She turned back around and was going to go out of the attic, but I stopped her from opening it, using my telekinesis on the door. "NICE FUCKING WAY OF SHOWING OFF PRUEDENCE!" she shouted at me. "LET ME OUT OF HERE NOW PRUDENCE HALIWELL!"
She may be saying hurtful things to me now…but I know something is up with her. It's not just me and Phoebe butting in on her love life, it is something else deep inside. And right now I am just chipping at her anger. "No," I said simply. "And just so you know Piper, I am not acting like Mom…she would have more patience with you, but you know what I got used to being second command of Grams, and for that I am sorry that I cannot ever be the perfect older sister you are so craving to have," I said in a calm voice, no hint of anger at all. "And for the past year I have tried to be more sisterly than I have been in the last twenty years, but I just cannot do that when you are tearing yourself apart Piper,"
"Just do me a favor, and stop caring," Piper snapped at me. I finally let go of the door and she started to storm out of the attic. Fine Piper, Mommy Prue is back, and you are grounded.
I focused my mind on her and suddenly she was off the ground. While keeping my mind on her, I opened up her door. "LET ME GO!" Piper shouted and I complied sending her flying into her room, and landing on her bed hard. I focused on her and the bed more as she started to thrash. She finally calmed down from the tears and eventually went to sleep.
"What did you do to her Prue?" Phoebe asked running up the stairs hearing Piper's last scream.
Phoebe's POV
Storming down the stairs I shook my head, trying to clear it. All I did was try and protect her from getting into it with Prue, but no she just had to say that. She is even lucky that I am still keeping this little booty call a secret from Prue. I sighed my migraine coming back at full strength. I rubbed my aching temples and sighed heading for the bathroom to grab some aspirin. I could hear Piper screaming at Prue, and was surprised to hear Prue not screaming back.
Piper please stop screaming, I mentally complained to myself clutching my head in pain. "LET ME GO!" That is it! I stormed up the stairs, and saw Piper levitating in the air, and instantly shot off towards her room.
"What did you do to her Prue?" I asked anger entering my voice.
"I tried letting Piper vent her anger at me, and not at you," Prue said weakly. I hadn't really paid attention to what Piper had yelled at Prue about, but I think it must have been bad seeing Prue acting like this. "Why is she acting like this Phoebe?" she asked me trying once again to badger the answer out of me.
"Its not my truth to tell Prue…" I said tiredly, staring at Piper on her bed.
"Phoebe…" Prue tried one more time.
"No…Prue, I am not telling you," I said firmly. Prue shook her head in defeat and sighed.
"Ok…" Prue said in defeat also looking at Piper. "I am going to head downstairs ok?" I nodded numbly and as soon as she went downstairs, I went into Piper's room. I bent down to Piper.
"I didn't tell her Piper…and when the day comes…I hope you remember that," I told her, even though she probably couldn't hear me. I walked out of her room, and went downstairs.
END CHAPTER FOUR