Chapter 3: Love Song (Sara Bareilles)

Sonny's POV

What was he talking about? What did he expect me to do? Compromise to him every single time I talk to him? That boy is impossible!

Head under water,
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
Breathing gets harder, even I know that

I just got off the phone with Chad. He didn't put it up YET. Oh so I have to wait to be humiliated, but at the same time not get a straight answer.

I sat on my bed and looked in my phone over my schedule for tomorrow.

Rehearsals…lunch break…more rehearsals…filming…Chad…CHAD?!?!?

What happened? Why is Chad suddenly a part of my schedule? Well it would be nice to see him again if he decides to be nice…

Make room for me it's too soon to see,
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

The next day I went up to him at lunch and asked why his name was on my schedule in my phone. He claimed he didn't know and just laughed.

"Didn't know you were that desperate," I hear behind me. Of course, it's none other than Tawni. Nico and Grady were with her, laughing quietly.

Instead, I ignored them and turned back to Chad. "So, did you make up your mind yet about humiliating me? Or am I going to have to do the dirty work and look it up myself? Come on Chad." I sounded sort of desperate.

He just laughed at me. Wait, laughed? That's not funny. I'm not trying to be funny!

"Don't worry Munroe. I didn't write anything. I told you I could be nice."

"Oh, um, well thanks." Wait. COULD BE NICE? Is that a threat or something? Because I am now officially confused.

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me

"See you around, Sonny."

"Not so fast, Cooper, you better explain to me what you meant by your comment there."

"It means I didn't write anything and that I could be nice if I liked."

I was still confused, "Okay, you just repeated yourself. I was asking you a question! What do you expect me to do? Be your translating scribe?"

"Sure."

UGH! I just glared at him for a few seconds and then left.

I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this

Walking back to the prop room I heard the rest of my cast in there because Tawni was singing to herself about how amazing she was; Nico and Grady were eating something and laughing at each other; Zora was telling Tawni to be quiet.

I walked in. suddenly the room became silent. I looked at Tawni with a questioning expression. She said to me, "I heard you and Chad flirting in the cafeteria. Sonny, come on, I thought we discussed this. You have no chance with him and we all hate him. Well, except you of course, then again, you are pretty strange to begin with."

"Um, thanks. Well first of all, we weren't flirting; I was trying to clear something up. Oh! By the way did you check his blog? Did he write anything? I mean, not that I care or anything, I mean I don't. And second of all I don't like him."

"Ok, well if you're so desperate to know, check your phone, second of all if you didn't like him you wouldn't be defending yourself so much."

At the end of her sentence my phone mooed.

If you're on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay, heeey
All you have is leaving,
I'm gonna need a better reason to write you
A love song today
Today, (yeah) today, yeehhh

"What do you want Chad?" I said.

"See, now I'm the one being nice. You're the one yelling…."he faked a cough, "diva…"

"I heard that! I'm not a diva! Why did you call?"

"Nothing, really, just to see how annoyed you really are, and to see if you would actually pick up. My research is done!"

"That's great Chad, goodbye." I hung up the phone before he could reply.

I learned the hard way,
That they all say things you wanna hear
My heavy heart sinks deep down under you,
And your twisted words, your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

"Stop denying it Sonny, you know you like him." I heard Tawni say from behind me.

"Tawni, if I liked Chad I would swoon all over him and be all hyper and fangirly, and I'm not!"

She just looked at me again. "Suit yourself. Don't make me say I was right! Again!"

Convince me to please you

You may think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

I knew she was right. I did like Chad Dylan Cooper. A lot. And secretly hoping he liked me back was just too complicated.

I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this
If you're on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay, heeyy
If all you have is leaving,
I'm gonna need a better reason to write you
A love song today

I had a plan to find out if I was going psycho over him. It wasn't very good but hopefully nothing will ruin it.

I thought too soon. I had to do Marshall a favor and bring a little girl from a charity on a tour of the studio. Children Having A Dream? Something like that? Never heard of it. Oh well.

ohh,ohh
Promise me (ohh,ohh,oh,oh) you'll leave the light on (ohh,ohh,oh,oh),
To help me see (ohh,ohh,oh,oh),
daylight my guide (ohh,ohh,oh,oh) gone (ohh,ohh,oh,oh)
'Cause I believe (ohh,ohh,oh,oh) there's a way
you can love me because I say, ohhh

It turns out that little girl was a huge fan of Chad's and a total brat and maniac. Her father was the studio head! To give her her wish I brought her to some "club" that Tawni, Nico, and Grady had invented from a sketch set called "The Basement".

When we got there, she we saw Chad walk in accompanied by Tawni and the little girl had her moment. I couldn't believe I was jealous that he gave her a hug. How sweet…wait what was I saying? She forced him to dance with her then I thought I heard him say that he wanted to dance with someone else.

I won't write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song,

I secretly wished he was talking about me, but the little girl was hanging on his leg. Ugh. And then her father came in right in the middle of his sentence.

We all watched as the set came down and we thought we were going to get in trouble. After everything was settled, we all started dancing again, even though it really wasn't with Chad and me, me and Chad…


'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this
Is that why you wanted a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this

After that whole incident was over, I went home and sat quietly in my room thinking about if I should call him or not. When I was about to, I got a text from Mr. CDC (Chad's Darn Conceited[not cute!!]) himself.

If you're on your way, I'm not gonna write you to stay, heeyyy
If your heart is nowhere in it,
I don't want it for a minute
Babe, I'll walk the seven seas when
I believe that there's a reason to,
Write you a love song today
Todaaaay, ehhhhh
Yeah, yeah

"thx for making me stay with that lil brat munroe. now i kno how u feel. now bcuz i helped u out u owe me agen. just fyi. i still think ur cool tho."

I read it and didn't know if those were mixed signals or if he actually had a point.