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By the way- takes place in Book 2 of Breaking Dawn.
So you're the one
I've waited on
The one I've been dreaming of
Now that I know
It's hard to let go
I don't wanna lose your love
"Can I have a few minutes alone with my wife?" I asked, looking from Rosalie, to Jacob, to the mountain that was Bella's stomach, and then at Bella's beautiful face.
"Edward, I sweat to God…" Rosalie stood, fists clenched at her sides as Jacob stood from his spot on the floor by Bella's head.
"Rose…please." I pleaded, and she rolled her eyes.
"I won't let you hurt her! Either of them!" She cried.
"You think I would or could do anything that would hurt her, Rosalie?!" Scratch that; the proof being the half-breed baby that was killing her now.
"Please, Rose. Give me an hour. I haven't had a second alone with her since the island."
"Yeah, and look what happened then." Jacob muttered.
"Shut up, Jake." Bella said, closing her eyes and groaning in frustration.
"Do you really trust him Bella?" Rose asked, looking back at her.
"You're asking me if I trust my husband? Rose…I trust him with my life."
"I won't hurt you. Please."
Rose looked from me to Bella, who nodded, then back to me."
"If you hurt her…" she started.
"She's my wife, Rose. She's everything."
She sighed, defeated. "I'll go find Emmett. We all need to hunt anyways." She went upstairs, and soon came down with Carlisle, Esme, Alice, Emmett, and Jasper, all walking out the front door with Jacob following close behind. I smiled weakly at him, who turned and walked outside, meeting up with the rest of his pack.
I walked over to Bella's side, pulling a chair beside the couch and sitting on it, taking her hand in mine.
"I love you. Please know that." I started.
She smiled. "Of course I know that, Edward."
"You're the one I've been waiting for my entire life. Every time I would think of the future, it was so unclear until you walked into my life. And then everything made sense."
"Why are you telling me this? I mean- it's nice to hear- but I know that, Edward."
"It just feels like I don't tell you enough."
"Yes you do. I know you love me every second of every minute, Edward."
I sighed, stroking her arm with my hand, then looking up into her eyes. "And because I love you so much, it's hard for me to let go....because I want to be selfish and keep you forever."
"What are you talking about?"
I scooted off of my chair, onto my knees on the floor.
"Bella…I need you to take care of this, Bella. And then, I need you to leave me.
What can I do?
I can't make you stay here
But if you should choose to go your own way
Wherever you're going
Whenever you turn
Remember this moment
Remember these words
I will
I will
Her eyes darted back and forth, searching my face for some sort of reason or explanation.
"Please stop, Edward. That's not funny."
"I'm one hundred percent serious, Bella." I whispered.
"I don't understand."
"I'm killing you, Bella!" I yelled, getting off of the floor, walking over to the window, staring out into the dark night. "Do you have any idea how that makes me feel?"
"Don't blame yourself, babe…"
"But it's my fault! I never should've agreed to this! And I'm sorry that I did!"
"What the heck?! Edward- you're what I want. You and our baby, Edward!"
"You need to kill it before it kills you, Bella."
"That's your son or daughter we're talking about, Edward!"
"We can't, Bella! You can't go through with this."
"And why not?" she challenged.
"Because I refuse to be responsible for killing my wife!"
I paused, running my fingers through my hair and sighing. "That's why I need you to leave; so that I can never hurt you again."
Give up my life for you if you want it
Give you my heart, you already own it
I'll do anything
I'll go anywhere
It's true
I will
I will
I will
"You don't love me?" She asked, as tears began to stream down her cheeks.
"Don't cry…" I whispered, running to her side and sitting down on the chair again. I wiped her tears with my thumbs, kissed her cheek, and then cradled her face in my hands.
"No, Bella. That's not it. Never think that."
"Then what, Edward?"
"I'm doing this for you. So you can be a mother. You knew darn well the day you married me that we could never be biological parents, Bella."
"Then what is this? Why am I pregnant, Edward?"
"Because I'm a monster! And I had no clue that this was even possible!" I yelled, and immediately lowered my voice after gauging her obviously upset reaction.
"If you want to be a mother, you should be. But just…not to this baby, Bella."
"Why are you asking me to do this?" She whispered through clenched teeth as she rubbed her stomach soothingly.
"Because it's the only way to save your life. And if saving your life means that I lose mine- lose you- then so be it."
I look in your eyes
And I see our life
So full of happiness
Do you see the same?
Or just someone you'll blame
For things that you might have missed
"I don't want to be with anyone but you, Edward. You know that."
"But Bella…this baby will kill you."
"Not necessarily, Edward. Carlisle and I have a plan."
"But—"
"Let me explain before you interrupt." I stood up, beginning to pace the room. She smiled and continued. "If we deliver the baby by cesarean in another week or so, there's a very good chance that both of us will survive. The plan is to deliver the baby and then change me almost immediately after."
"But—"
"But what, Edward?! The plan is flawless! I'll survive. So will our baby. Unless—"
"Unless you really don't want a baby."
I groaned. "Bella, I just didn't think it was a possibility for me. Until now." I stopped pacing and sat back down, taking her hand in my own, kissing it and then looking into her eyes.
"Bella, I look at you and I see it all—everything that I ever wanted—I want so to have that future with you—have lots of kids and grandkids, watch each other grow old, watch all of them grow old. But Bella, it was never possible. And as big as the part of me is that is upset and worried and angry, there's another part of me that's incredibly overjoyed, because I get to be the husband and father I've wanted to be."
Bella smiled. "Really? This is what you want?"
"Well, not with these circumstances…"
"All this time, I thought you just didn't want kids."
I shook my head. "Sweetheart—I look at you and see what could have been for you. If you make it through this, we can't have more kids…and I just don't want you to hate me for that."
I don't wanna weigh you down like an anchor
If that's how you see me now I would rather
Let you go free
Just sail away
If that's what you need
If that's what it takes
I will
I will
"Why would I hate you?" she asked, sitting up and patting the couch cushion beside her, motioning for me to sit down.
"Bella…if me letting you life your life as a human—as a mother—is what it takes for you to be happy, no matter what it does to me, I'll do it for you."
"But babe…" she paused, placing her left hand on mine, clashing our wedding rings together. She played with my ring with her fingers for a minute, and then looked up at me. She lifted my hand, pointing to the ring.
"As long as we both shall live, Edward."
"I just want you happy."
"You. And our baby. That's all I want. That's what makes me happy. And we'll adopt if we want more, Edward. I just want you and the baby for the rest of my life. Anything other than that is unnecessary. Appreciated, but unnecessary."
"I guess you've really thought this through."
She nodded. "We have a plan. One way or another, I'll be alive. Whether that'll be as a human or vampire is yet to be determined."
I cringed at the thought—that once again, she was being forced into this, all because her idiot vampire husband got her pregnant.
Give up my life for you if you want it
Give you my heart, you already own it
I'll do anything
I'll go anywhere
It's true
I will
I will
I will
"I can't say I'm happy that this is all happening the way it is, but I've waited a century to have a family."
"Trust me, Edward?"
"Of course I do." I replied without hesitation. "I just think you don't keep your interests at heart, like you should."
"I'm interested in you and the baby." I smiled at her joke. "We'll be fine, Edward. All three of us."
She paused. "What do you want?"
"I beg your pardon?" I asked, looking up and raising an eyebrow quizzically.
"Boy or girl?"
"Honestly?"
She nodded.
"Girl." I admitted.
I swear in that instant, she grinned from ear-to-ear. "Daddy's girl?"
I smiled in response.
"I really think it's a boy, but either way I don't care."
"We'll see who's right." I winked.
"We really need a name, Edward."
"We have a week."
"Yeah…a week to determine the name our child will have for eternity."
She smiled. "I want Edward for a boy. Or…Renesmee?"
"Renesmee?"
"Combination of Renee and Esme. Too weird?"
"Unique." I corrected, and then nodded. "I like it."
If ever your day is done, still you feel you need someone to hold you
I will
If you ever need to talk to somebody who really knows you
Yes I will
"Come here. I said, opening my arms, letting Bella lay into me, and I wrapped my arms around her.
"What's it like? Being pregnant?"
She sighed. "Scary. And amazing. But mostly exciting."
I nodded. "I wish I could be in your head…"
"I don't." she winked, and elbowed me in the chest. And I smirked, knowing it probably hurt her more than it did me.
"I'm sorry I've been such a jerk lately. I'm just…well I'm scared, Bella. I can't lose you."
'I won't hurt her.' I heard.
"Did you…say something?" I looked at my wife, who shook her head vigorously.
"What is it?" She asked as I placed a hand on her stomach.
"I thin I can…hear the baby?" I paused.
'I love mommy.' I shook my head in astonishment. "Impossible…"
"What'd he say?"
"That he won't hurt you….and that he loves mommy."
"How is that even possible?" She asked, placing a hand on top of mine, and I felt the baby gently kick.
"I have no idea." I whispered.
'I love you, daddy. I love you so much.' I heard again, and I swear I cried, even though I knew that was also impossible.
"What?" Bella asked, looking in my direction, her expression showing obvious concern.
"He said 'I love you daddy'…"
Give up my life for you if you want it
Give you my heart, you already own it
I'll do anything
I'll go anywhere
It's true
I will
I will
I will
"I love you so much, Edward." Bella said as she lay in my arms in our large bed that was now in my bedroom.
"As I love you." I said, kissing her forehead.
"It's been nice…having a whole day with you. I've missed this." She said, grabbing my hand and placing it on her stomach, then putting her hand on top of mine, squeezing it.
"Mmhmm…" I murmured. "I wish I wasn't afraid. I wish I could just enjoy this, but there's a part of me that keeps thinking that this is it, Bella."
"I'm going to be fine. We're going to be fine. I won't leave you."
I laughed. "This is so messed up—usually it's me reassuring you."
"I can't leave you, Edward. I'm not strong enough to leave you. Or the baby."
"I promise you this, Bella—I will love you. No matter what happens now." I pulled her tighter in my arms. "Both of you."
I will love you
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