Sorry it's been so long! I've totally had this terrible writers block…but was listening to my zune, this song came on, and suddenly I was inspired! I hope you enjoy it! This occurs on the honeymoon…this is actually a song by a christian band called The Afters—the song is entitled "Keeping Me Alive"—I thought it was absolutely perfect…hope it's worth the wait
EPOV
I could stay like this forever—my arms tightly around Bella's small frame, holding her close to me. Her head laying on my chest, feeling her every breath and heartbeat. She truly was an amazing creature to behold, and despite the fact that I had seen and done many things in my long life, none of them could even compare to this—this woman being my wife. And as the sun rose that morning, I couldn't help but be thankful for another day that we had together on Isle Esme. This truly was perfect…I had been so nervous, so worried, so anxious, and yet, so excited at the same time. And aside from the bruises I had given her on our wedding night, the ripped pillows, and the mangled bedframe, nothing went wrong, surprisingly. Bella truly is the perfect woman for me…I can't imagine being with anyone else for eternity but her.
She stirred slightly and closed her eyes tighter as the sun rose. I smiled, kissing her forehead gently, and she wrapped her arms tighter around me.
"Morning, beautiful." I whispered.
A small grunt was all I got in response.
I snickered. "You're so cute when you're frustrated."
"Babe, you're sparkling again…" Bella groaned and I laughed.
"It's part of the package. Take it or leave it."
She smiled, kissing my lips gently.
It's like I've never lived
Before my life with you
So much was missing here
I never even knew
I still picture the place we were
When I fell into your world
We laid there in silence, just holding eachother as the morning began.
"Do we have to get up?" she asked.
"We could just stay in bed all day." I raised my eyebrows, and she laughed.
"As much as I want you," she began, as her fingers traced along my stomach, up my neck, and to my lips—I shivered—"I'm hungry."
I rolled my eyes. "Do I look like your personal chef?"
She nodded. "You're my husband. It's your job."
"Husband…I still love the sound of that."
She laid back down on my stomach, and I wrapped my arms around her, gently rubbing her back. How did this beautiful woman become my wife? The wife of a monster—a vampire—of one who deserved so much less?
"What are you thinking?" she asked me.
"You. What else?"
She rolled her eyes. "Specify."
I smiled, recalling the day I met her. "Biology."
She giggled, kissing me gently. "I thought my life was complete…but then I knew that my life would NEVER be whole without you in it. It's like all along, for the past 90 years, a part of my heart has been missing, but I found it when I found you, Bella."
"I've heard this before, but it never gets old." She smiled.
"I just hope you realize how much I love you, and how blessed I am to be with you."
My heart is in you
Where you go you carry me
I bleed if you bleed
Your heart beats inside of me
You're keeping me alive
"The way you think of my is ridiculous." She chuckled.
"You're my only reason to live, Bella..."
"Please don't say that. You know how accident-prone I am." She joked.
"It's not funny, Bella…don't even joke about that."
She frowned. "You need to lighten up."
"Do you think I'm kidding? Really, Bella…you're absurd."
"Maybe so, but you love me."
I smiled. "You know I do."
I don't know why I feel this way
But something's right
You're like the morning air
Before the night arrives
No more lonely and no more night
No more secrets to hide
"Do you ever regret meeting me?" She asked, as she sat back in bed and I handed her a plate with french toast, scrambled eggs, and bacon. She put some food in her mouth as she waited for my response.
"Haven't we been through this?"
"You never gave me the honest answer. You gave me the 'I don't want to lose you' answer. You're my husband now. You're stuck with me. So now you can be honest."
I rolled my eyes at her logic. "Maybe a little bit. Initially, I was. I was scared…all Alice saw was me killing your or changing you. And I didn't want either. So I figured hiding the truth from you was the easiest thing. But as soon as you figured it out…well, Bella, there was really no turning back for me. Even when I left, the enitre time, all I wanted was to be with you. I had nothing to hide from you…you were and are my reason to live, Bella."
She smiled, stuffing her mouth full of food again. "I've been so hungry lately. I really don't know what's wrong with me."
"It happens, Bella."
She looked worried, but I shook it off. "Bella, you're hungry. You're human. You're supposed to be hungry."
She nodded, chuckling nervously, as she stuffed her mouth full again. She chewed what was in her mouth with a contemplative look on her face.
"I need to run an errand."
"I'll go."
"No. I want to do something special for you tonight. Let's go into town. Please."
"If that's what you want…"
She nodded. "Please. Let's do it….just you and me."
I smiled. "I like the sound of that…"
"I just want to run to the store real quick. Get some stuff."
She was acting…funny, there was no other word for it. I raised an eyebrow at her, wrinkling my brow.
"What? Why are you looking at me like that?"
"Why do you want to go into town?"
"I want to do something special for my husband…is that so wrong?"
I kissed her forehead. "I'll get ready."
My heart is in you
Where you go you carry me
I bleed if you bleed
Your heart beats inside of me
You're keeping me alive
Bella and I spent a nice day together in town. She insisted on going to the store alone, so I decided to go to a small flower shop and jewelry store, purchasing a bouquet of roses and a pair of small diamond earrings. We met each other at the boat, riding in silence back to the house.
"I'm gonna go get a shower." She announced after walking in the door.
"I'll join you…" I hinted, and she shook her head. "Actually I'd like some time alone if that's ok?"
"Are you alright, love?" I asked, genuinely concerned now.
She nodded. "I'm great. Honest. I'll be down in fifteen minutes."
"I'll be waiting."
I watched Bella walk upstairs, then sat down on the couch in the living room, pulling out my cell phone and calling my sister.
"Hello?"
"Hey Alice…how's everything at home?"
"We miss you, but we're great. How's your wife?"
"That's what I wanted to talk to you about…have you seen anything?"
"Edward, you know that's not fair."
"Have you?"
"No."
She was lying. I knew it.
"Alice…"
"Talk to Bella. Don't ask me. That's not fair, or right to use me to get out of talking to her yourself."
"Is she okay? Can you at least answer that?"
"Fine. I swear. Just talk to Bella. Everything's fuzzy now anyway."
I groaned. "Thanks for nothing."
"That's what I'm here for!"
"I'm gonna get off of here. Bella's grabbing a shower and we're gonna hang out tonight."
"Enjoy it! Talk to you later!"
I pressed the 'end' button, laying down on the couch and flipping through the channels. Before I knew it, Bella entered the living room.
"Sorry I took a little longer than I thought."
"It's ok, babe." I stood up, kissing her cheek gently, and she smiled.
"You need to go hunting. Your eyes are dark."
"I'm fine." I lied.
"Please. I'm cooking a romantic dinner for one. You need to hunt. Please."
"Let me cook, Bella. Seriously. I'll go hunt…won't take me long. You grab a nap…I'll set your alarm for an hour. I'll have an outfit laying out on the bed for you…change and get down here."
She smiled. "You're the best husband I could ever ask for..and I am tired…"
"Let me take care of everything. Sleep, love." I kissed her, and she smiled, walking back upstairs.
I went on a quick hunt, came back and began cooking some spaghetti and bread for Bella.
I'll hold you near
Together, we'll never die
Your love is keeping me alive
Your love is keeping me alive
After I had finished making dinner for her, I went upstairs, dressing in khaki shorts and a royal blue short-sleeved polo shirt. I lit some candles, placing her food on the table and pouring her a glass of wine. I sat at the table, waiting on her. She suddenly came into the room, wearing a white sundress, looking incredibly stunning, as per usual.
"You look gorgeous." I stood up, kissing her on the lips, pulling her chair out for her. She sat down, looking at the spaghetti on her plate.
"This looks delicious. And so do you." She giggled.
"Isabella Cullen…you naughty girl…eat your dinner first."
She smiled, eating a forkful of spaghetti. We made small-talk while she ate, and before I knew it, her plate was completely clean.
"You really are hungry, aren't you?"
She smiled. "Guilty."
I paused, choosing my words carefully. "Are you okay?" Maybe not what I wanted to ask, but safe enough.
She nodded. She took a bite of her bread, then set it down, a contemplative look on her face as she chewed.
"We need to talk."
"Ok…"
"Go upstairs?"
Uh oh. I nodded, following her silently up to our bedroom.
"We have the house alone, Bella. What's going on?"
She shut the door, her back to me as I waited for her to join me on our bed. She turned around, looking incredibly nervous.
"Baby, what's wrong?"
"Edward…we've been here how long?"
"Three weeks."
"Ok. I don't even know where to start….Edward I've been feeling nauseous, I'm tired all the time, I'm hungry a lot…"
"Do you want to get home? Are you sick?"
"Not exactly." She twiddled her thumbs, sitting beside me on th bed. She took my hand in hers, as she stroked it with her thumb, looking deep into my eyes.
"Edward…you're going to be a daddy."I froze. I searched her expression, and realized that she wasn't lying. I continued to sit on the bed, stunned into silence. She got up, and came back holding four pregnancy tests, all of which were positive.
"I'm pregnant, Edward."
I took the tests into my hands, seeing the small '+' symbol on all four tests.
"Please say something."
"Never in ninety years did I think I would find someone like you, but I did. Never did I think that I would love someone enough to give up my life for them, and I did…and I never thought I would be a father…"
"But you are." She finished the sentence for me, placing my hand on her still flat stomach.
"Our baby is in there." She stated the obvious, yet that made it so much more real to me.
"A baby…we're having a baby."
"Yeah we are." She smiled, tears running down her cheeks.
"Just when I think life couldn't get any more perfect…" I grinned, holding her in my arms, lifting her up and spinning her around.
"I love you."
"I love you too." I kissed Bella's lips, then leaned down, kissing her stomach gently. "You're my life…both of you."
My heart is in you
Where you go you carry me
I bleed if you bleed
Your heart beats inside of me
You're keeping me alive
Keeping me alive
I didn't wanna write about her being pregnant again, but I really hated how that happened in BD…I mean, I get why Edward was upset, but I think it'd be so much cuter if he was adorable about the whole pregnancy thing. So that's what I did!
Hope you enjoyed it! Please review! Suggestions, throw them my way!
