Believe it or not I still do not own Twilight
Chapter 2- Broken Blasphemy
Years Later
Alice
"The promise given was a necessity of the past: the word broken is a necessity of the present." ~Niccolo Machiavelli
You ever had one of those days where you just wanted to be by yourself and away from all the mundane things going on in your life or should I say existences in my case, today was one of those days for me. Not even shopping seem to lighten my spirits and the day I Alice Cullen says that shopping does not lighten my spirits is definitely one of the blackest days ever.
The boys were outside wrestling, Rose was upstairs admiring herself in the mirror, Esme was tending to her immaculate garden, Carlisle as usual was at the hospital and I was well just there but not really there. I kept trying to search the future to see if I could find anything pertaining to that baby because that day was one of the strongest visions I've ever had. That vision was not one of what was to come but it was one I was experiencing it first hand as it was happening and the pull I had to the dying mother and her daughter was so strong. I regret to this day making a promise to the dying woman and once I realized how impossible it was to keep that my promise it felt like I've committed the biggest blasphemy ever, However every year on September 13 I've always light a candle for honoring the memory of them both.
Jasper, Esme and Carlisle understood to some degree why this affects me while Rose and Emmett tended to placate me when it came to these "Mere Mortals" or "Insignificant Humans" as Rosalie would call them. Edward he understood the most maybe that's why I he's my favorite sibling but then again I always felt that this affected him as well too.
I went outside and lay on the hammock while watching the boys wrestle amongst one another when I felt the strangest urge to head south and that I was going to needed their in 2 days which made me realize September 13 is in two days. Hmm I thought I wonder if………
I love myself, I want you to love me, When I'm feelin' down, I want you above me, I search myself, I want you to find me, I forget myself,
I want you to remind me I don't want anybody else, When I think about you, I touch myself, I don't want anybody else
Oh no, oh no, oh no
Edward stayed eyeing me suspiciously but I knew if he pick up on my real motives, as understand as he is to this subject he'll try to stop me but I needed answers and a peace of mind to those haunting memories. I jump up suddenly extremely excited and happy on the prospect of finding some answers when.
All three of them stopped what there were doing to raised an eyebrow but Edward broke the silence before Jasper could even question me "Alice what exactly are you up too?" I do not know what you mean Edward can't a girl just be sing a song in her head, "So why are you singing that particular song blocking your thoughts then?" What can I say Edward Jazz just has that affect upon me! "Edward what song is she singing this time to block you?" Emmett asks, I gave Edward a smug smile telling him in my mind "I bet if you were human your face would be bright as a tomato" knowing what Emmett reaction is going to be once he told them. He mumbled so fast I touch myself I nearly killed over with laughter. I hated what I was about to do to the rest of the family and Jasper but this was I trip I had to take on my own besides they'll forgive and it's not like I'll be gonna forever.
Bella
This cannot be happening I refuse to believe this can be happening again, why is it that everyone I love leaves me? I'm I a bad person? I'm I being punish for killing my mommy? Two days ago everything was so perfect; daddy had just picked me up from school and we're putting the finishing touch on the greatest fairy theme Birthday party ever for this coming up weekend. Daddy always wanted to make my birthday special; he felt that on my birthday the bond between my mother and me is extremely strong because she fought so hard to have to me and that she's with the other angels watching over me.
Even though I never met my mommy I dream about her and she's always with another angel whose face I've never seen because her back is always towards me. The angel reminds me of a fairy for some reason though and she's always holding my mommy telling her everything is going to be alright she'll never let any harm come my way. Every time the angel speaks I cannot help but to be enchanted by her voice its high pitch like a chorus of sopranos and hearing that voice makes me feel safe.
Daddy had dropped me off at the babysitter house he's been working a lot of extra shifts lately so he could have enough money to make my birthdays special also so that he can have the whole entire weekend off. Before leaving he gave me the biggest hug and said "Bells, do you know how much I love you?" I always joked with my daddy by shaking my head saying no and motioning with my hands starting off small saying do you love me this much? He'll answer me by tickling me while shaking his head. Its little things like this that makes me love my daddy so much because no matter what happens in our lives he reminds me everyday how much I'm loved.
However that was the last night I saw my daddy, when my daddy never came the next day to pick me up from the sitter I felt deep down inside something was wrong. Daddy was never late to pick me up for anything because he'll state nothing is more important than his baby girl and nothing could ever keep us apart and he even pinky swore it and crossed his heart.
Whenever I ask the sitter where my daddy was she never answered me therefore in made me extremely sad and I began crying for him and wanting to go home. I eventually cried myself to sleep and dreamt about my mommies' angel who was holding me while I was crying in a bright field with beautiful wild flowers and a waterfall. She kept telling me "do not worry little one things are going to be alright because she'll never let nothing happen to me and that even though things are about to change she's only a decision away." Her words comfort me at first but that last part confused me what did she mean she's only a decision away? As I lifted me head off her lap to look at her I'd woke up to someone gently shaking me.
When I finally was fully up I looked up to see my sitter and her eyes when extremely red which worried me but the first words I blurted out were "Is my daddy finally here?" she shook her head and looked down at me and said "Bella I have to something to tell you that's going to make you extremely sad." I looked up at her and I knew whatever she was going to say I did not want to hear but I sat up on the bed Indian style and the words she spoken shattered my life.
"Bella there was a car accident today and God came down to take your daddy so that he could join your mommy in heaven so they can both watch over you together now."
At first I did not say anything I just let the words sink in..... Mommy and Daddy both in heaven? And then it click and I just began screaming out "NO YOUR LYING MY DADDY WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME, HE PROMISE AND DADDY NEVER BREAKS HIS PROMISES TO ME" I looked up at my sitter by the tears blinded me when I ask her "my daddy doesn't love me anymore Paula is that why he left me?" She cradle me in her arms tightly and said "Of course your daddy loves you that'll never change even when he's living in heaven you'll still be his baby girl" I struggled to get out her embrace while crying out "That I want my daddy, I want my daddy now!" She started whispering "Bella I'm so sorry sweetheart it's ok to cry." But her words meant nothing to me because for the first time in my life I felt empty and alone, my daddy broken his promise to me he pinky swore he'll never life me and now I have no mommy or daddy who's going to love and take care of me now.
Nothing no one said could comfort me and that was the last time I spoken to anyone because it hurt too much to even think, talk, or do anything normal; most importantly I officially hate my birthday and wished I was never born. Surprisingly enough the only comfort I found was in my vivid dreams because in my dreams daddy was still with me and I also had my mommy and my angel.
A lady had came the next day and even though I heard her words I just never answered her I just stared out into space wishing to fall back to sleep again or to wake up and find out this was all just an awful nightmare. The lady had said how she came to take me to my daddy's funeral so I can say a proper goodbye to him and that she'll have to find somewhere for me to live afterwards.
Today I should been the greatest day in my life I just turn 7 but no instead it's the saddest because I have to sit through my daddy's funeral. I brought my knees to my chest and wrapped my arms around them and cried softly while I sat in church staring at my daddy's coffin. I was deep into my thoughts when I swore I heard someone whispered "don't worry little one" I froze it was the voice of the angel but how could it be her voice I'm not sleeping and it sounding so real.
I dropped my legs and slowly turned around to scan the church and at first I saw nothing but as the sun shined into the windows I saw a very small woman standing in the back. This woman was dressed in all black from head to toe with a veil over her face and just as the sun hit her I swore I saw something sparkle.