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Chapter 2: Insecurities
As I turned and walked into the living room I immediately spotted her. She sat beside Edward with a hand on his leg. Great she was a blond. This should be interesting. "Oh good your home." Edward said smiling brightly as Blondie retract her hand and placed it in her lap. She looked me over from head to toe. "I should of dressed you." Alice whispered in my ear. I sucked my teeth and hugged Edward.
"Tanya, Irena I'd like you to meet my Bella." He smiled at me adoringly. "It's a pleasure to finally meet you." Irena said hugging me. "Same here." I said smiling at her. Brunettes sticks together. "Nice to meet you Bella." Tanya said not fully hiding her distaste. She like I feared was stunning. She even might give Rose a run for her money. This was a blow. "Nice to meet you to Tanya." Edward led me to the love set adjacent to Tanya. I caught her watching as Edward kissed my forehead and took my hand in his.
"Eddie do you remember the first time we hunted together." She said way to enthusiastically. I looked up at him and smiled as he burst into a fit of laughter. "How can I ever forget. I will never look at a moose the same anymore. He said between laughs. "You were such a show off." She continued. "And a messy eater as well. Do you remember when it tore your shirt off." He laughed even harder shaking the room. I never heard him laugh like that before. She eyed me and smiled cunningly.
"So tell me how exactly did the two of you meet?" She asked looking at him. "Oh we actually met at school. Bella was my lab partner in biology." "Oh…How exciting." scrunching her face with distaste. Ok that was it. I jumped up and glared at her. Suddenly I felt a wave of calmness pulsate through me. I looked up to see Jasper smiling at me from the top of the stairs.
"Excuse me." I said as I walked coolly up the stairs and into Edwards room. How dare she? I asked myself. I threw myself on the bed and grunted. "Are you alright? A deep smooth voice rang. "I'm fine Jazz." I replied. "It don't feel that way to me sweetheart." I sighed. Then looked up at him. "I should be asking you that. Alice told me about the divorce. How are you holding up?"
"Oh don't worry bout that I'm fine toots. Alice and I saw it coming long ago." I smiled halfheartedly. "Does that mean your leaving?" "Of course not. And miss you tripping down the isle I think not. I grimaced then giggled as I shoved him playfully. He wrapped his arm around me and sighed. "Seriously though why aren't you happy? I thought getting married is what every girl dream about as a child."
"In case you haven't noticed I'm not your average girl." "Well excuse me I stand corrected." I giggled. It was silent for a moment. I played with my bracelet and bit down on my bottom lip. "Sometimes I wonder if it's enough." "If what's enough Bella?" "Love. Is love real love enough to make a relationship last?" He sighed. "You wouldn't like to hear the truth." He replied rubbing my arm. "I need the truth." I replied quietly gazing into his eyes. He sighed. "No. It takes honesty, commitment, trust and communication to make a relationship last." There was a brief silence. "Do you regret marrying Alice?"
"I'll do it all over again if I had the choice. If it wasn't for her I never would have been here. And I never would have met such an incredible being as yourself." I blushed scarlet as he smiled. "Edwards a lucky man." He whispered as he kissed my cheek and walked out the room. If I thought the scent of Edward was intoxicating then I had no idea how to describe Jasper's scent. I was stunned as I placed my hand over the spot he kissed me.
Jasper POV:
Ever since the whole Italy trip I had to admit I've been ha- I'm in love with Bella. There I said it. I hated being in this position. Watching the one I loved get married to someone else. I have contemplated on leaving but I just cant bring myself to do it. I sped out the house and headed to the one spot where I could allow myself to think freely. It's bad enough Edward was a mind reader and I had to control myself around him.
She was having doubts about them. This meant nothing simply because when it comes down to Edward he could get away with murder. He just looks at her and she quickly forgives him.
Bella I just wish you could open your eyes and see what could be. Ugh this was frustrating. Regardless if Bella marries my brother or not I'll always be in her corner. Secretly loving her. I laid back looking up at the stars. All I could see was adoringly chocolate brown eyes staring back at me. "Jasper your hopeless" I mumbled to myself.
Bella POV:
I awoke to an empty bed . That's right Edward was out hunting with ….her. Bella your over reacting. Edward is yours. No one could take that away. I got up and looked out my window. It was the beginning of July and it was nice and sunny out. Witch means I was free of my vampire obligations since they couldn't be seen in public.
With the sun bright, I had the needing to be in the company of my own personal sun. I was going to La Push to see my best friend. I got up and got ready for my visit.
Before I turned the outdated engine off he had the door opened and was pulling me into a bear hug. "Bella you're here!" Jake exclaimed squeezing me tight. "Ok Jake I understand that you miss me and all but does that mean you should be squeezing the air out my lungs?" I asked breathlessly. "Oh sorry." he said setting me down. "So what brings you here?" he asked looking around as if expecting Edward to pop out of thin air. "Missing my pocket full of sunshine."
"What did he do now?" he asked rolling his eyes. "Nothing…I'm just stressed right now. With the stupid wedding. And Alice and Jazz divorce. It just.. I don't know. I'm just wondering if Alice and Jasper's relationship could fail after so long, could Edward and I last?" "Are you serious Bella your questioning the leech. This is front page news." "Could you quit being a jerk for five minuets. I'm serious here…. I just don't want to think about anything for the next couple of hours. Could you be my sun and brighten my day?" I asked batting my lashes.
He smiled at me. "Why don't we head down to the beach." He took my hand and lead me down to our spot were we shared so many memories. After putting me up to speed about the growing pack and and the newest imprinted. It was time for the talk I was trying to avoid.
"So seriously what has you doubting your relationship with the blood sucker?" "It's everything Jake. I just can't shake this feeling. It feels as if there's little subtle hints trying to tell me this is wrong." So if that's the case maybe the two of you should sit down and talk. I mean Bella your about to get married you should be on cloud nine right now."
"Well I'm not. Instead I'm just stressed out." I said rubbing my temples. Jake was right. I should sit with Edward and discuss what was going on. I truly needed his assurance right about now. I couldn't help but smile. Some how Jake made me feel brighter.
"Jake you just made my day." I said hugging him tightly and kissing his cheek. "Sure sure. I know I'm the best. Does that mean your leaving now? " He asked giving me the puppy dog eyes. "That wasn't necessary Mr. Black I wasn't planning on leaving. Edwards out hunting with Tanya." I said the name with a bitter distaste.
Jacob laughed. "Who's this Tanya character?" "Apparently she had a thing for him. Jake you should of seen her with him. It was as if she was trying to show me that I'm out of my league with him." He laughed. "Bella your letting someone else get to you. Are you kidding me? Who's getting married?" Jake had a point.
"I am." "So then start acting like it." I glanced up at him with an amused look. "Since when have you been on team Edward?" "Please Bella the only team I'm on is yours. I just want to see you happy whether its with that joker or someone else." I smiled and fought back the tears. He hugged me tightly. "You're the greatest friend anyone can ask for." "I better be." he retorted.
The sun was now setting as we talked about any and everything we could possibly think of. That's the thing about the sun. Even when you cant see it still shines brightly. "I should go Jake. Before Edward catches a heart attack." "Ok." he said getting up and whisking me into his infamous bear hugs. "Love ya Bells" He whispered. "Love you to Jake." I replied as I kissed his cheek again. "I'll call you later." "Sure sure." We walked back to my truck and I headed over to the Cullen's.
As I pulled in I could see the anger in his eyes. I was in trouble…serious trouble. I took a deep breath as he walked over to me. I jumped out of my car nearly tripping over a rock. But a steady pair of cool arms caught me. I looked up at him.
"Edward I'm so-" "You stink of him." He said coldly wrinkling his nose. I was lost. I had no idea what to say. "Do you have any idea what I've been through today? Wondering where you could possibly be. And then to top it off Alice couldn't see you. Bella I don't think you understand the circumstances of being around a werewolf. A young one at that."
"Edward Jacob is my best friend. Yes he's a werewolf but he will never hurt me." Edward went to say something but stopped and took a deep breath. "Bella I don't want you going back there anymore." "Are you serious?" I asked glaring at him.
"Edward I can't do that." Edward grabbed my wrists. "Bella if you value my sanity I suggest you never go there again." He snarled. "Edward your hurting me." I cried trying to pry my wrists from his grip. "And your not hurting me? Your choosing him over me. Cant you see?!" He yelled. "Edward you being ridiculous. I'm with you aren't I? I'm getting married to you." There I said it.
"Yea but is that what you really want?" He said letting goof wrists. He sped away from me. I could feel the panic attack creeping on me and my breaths went jagged. I had to hold onto the car for support. When I looked up I saw Tanya there whispering to Edwards as they went inside. She looked up at me and smiled.
What the hell was going on? I stood there contemplating whether I should go inside or leave. Then decided to go home. Once home I ran up to my room and slammed my window shut. I looked down at my throbbing wrists to see the outline of hand prints. I allowed the tears to take over now. I threw myself on my bed and cried myself to sleep.
Edwards POV:
She was choosing him over me. Why was I the only one who saw it? I sat down in the living room with Tanya right behind me. She sat beside me and began rubbing my back. "Are you alright." She asked as I pinched the bridge of my nose.
"Does it look like I'm alright." I snapped. "I'm sorry Tanya I did- I'm just upset." "Well you have a right to be. A werewolf?" I looked up at her. "Yes!" I exclaimed. "Her best friend is a werewolf. And even when I explain to her the dangers of being around one. A young one at that it's as if it doesn't matter." Tanya shook her head.
"She just doesn't care." She stated. "She doesn't care about me." I murmured. "Oh Edward I'm so sorry." Tanya cried as she continued to rub my back. I had to admit it was quite comforting. "I just don't know what to do anymore." "Well Edward the two of you need to sit down and talk. You need to let her know it's either him or you." I looked up at her. "Yes." Bella needed to make a choice. "Thank you Tanya." I replied.
She simply smiled. "Good luck" "I'm always here for you." she thought. I smiled at her then flitted towards the Swan's residence. Charlie wasn't home yet. I jumped up the tree climbed over to the branch that lead to Bella's window. It was closed. I paused to hear her crying. What had I done?
Bella's POV:
I awoke with a nasty headache the next morning. I sat up trying to figure out what to do. But that question was answered as I saw him sitting in my rocking chair. "How did you get in?" I asked. "I have my ways." He replied coolly. "What are you doing here?" I asked in an angry tone.
"I want to talk to you Bella." "That's what a phone is for. I don't want to see you." I said getting up and walking to my bathroom praying he would take the hint and leave. I took two Tylenols and washed up. Then walked back to my room. To my dismay he was still there. "Bella?" I climbed back into bed and pulled the pillow over my head. "Go away!" "Bella please." he pleaded. I pulled the pillow off and glared at him.
"I'm sorry" he replied with all sincerity. "I was just so upset about you and Jacob. I didn't mean to hurt you. Will you forgive me?" He was dazzling me. I shut my eyes and shook my head trying to clear it. "Edward I-" he was sitting on the bed beside me now. "Bella please forgive me." he pleaded. I gazed into his eyes. How could I say no to that face. He kissed me gently and I sighed. He laid beside me as I cuddled up to him. My doubts quickly fading away.