Love

I can feel my heart racing. Esme came up just moments ago and told me that dinner would be ready in half an hour. I would be meeting my 'family' in half an hour. 30 minutes. Half an hour. 30 minutes. New family. Half an hour. 30 minutes. New family. Oh no.

I need to calm down. Maybe a cold shower will help... I glanced to the right side of my bedroom. My own bathroom door was wide open. It's so tempting.... but I need to calm down. So cold shower it is for me.

Wow. A shower really had helped. I decided to keep my clothes simple. A pair of black leggings with a dark purple baby doll top. That was pretty simple. In the end, I decided to wear my dark purple flats.

I still had 15 minutes before it would be dinner time. I went to the mirror to make sure I looked okay. When I saw the reflection in the mirror, I wasn't pleased.

My shoulder length, brown hair, was everywhere. And I mean literally everywhere. I grabbed my brush and started yanking it through my hair to make it calm down. No such luck. My hair was still somewhat wet, so maybe I could just put in some leave in conditioner. I reached into my bag of bathroom items and pulled it out.

As I rubbed it into my hair, my hair seemed to calm down. But not completely. I frantically pulled the brush through my hair. Maybe I should just put it into a ponytail... Yes. Ponytail. That would be excellent. Not perfect though.

Okay, I think I was ready to meet the family. And only five minutes left. Well, I could quickly tidy up the mess I had made in the time I had been here. And I could make my bed. Maybe I could start hanging my clothes up in the closet too......

Before I realized it, it was time. My five minutes were up. Wow. Time flies when your cleaning. I opened my door and stepped out onto the soft carpet. Even through my flats I could feel the softness in the carpet. It was almost fuzzy. As I walked towards the stairs leading downstairs, I could faintly hear voices talking. I thought I heard three voices. Wait, three? Did they have guests here? None of the families who have ever tried adopting me had had other kids. Why adopt somebody like me when you can have your own kids? Nobody would. So it never worked like that.

Had I just imagined that extra voice? I had heard two more manly voices, and Esme's soft voice. Maybe it was on a T.V.? Well, there was only one way to find out...

I approached the kitchen carefully. When I reached the arch way to enter, I stopped. There were three people. Three people lived here. Now four, if you were including me. I had a 'sibling'.

I don't know why, but this made me blissfully happy. I had never had a brother or sister. Ever. Not even a fake brother or sister, like this one. It had always just been me and the 'parents'. And my mom, but I didn't enjoy thinking of her as my parent. More like somebody who damned me into this eternal hell. I could never escape hell. While on earth, I was living in it. When I died, I would just go to a different type of hell. Maybe that was why suicide never felt so bad. Or maybe it was because I knew nobody loved me enough to stop me from killing myself. Whatever the reason, that was very insignificant at the time. Right now I needed to meet my new 'family'.

"Hello Bella. I would like to introduce you to the rest of my family." Esme said, but when she said 'my', I seemed to feel the word 'your'. How she could make one word like that sound so different, I had no clue. "This is Carlisle," she said, pointing to a tall man. He looked to be about the same age as Esme, and also looked very young. He looked more beautiful than any movie star I had ever seen. Not like I was attracted to him, but like I could understand how anybody else would be attracted to him.

"and this is my son, Emmett." she said as she pointed to the teenage boy standing next to her. He looked to be about 18 or so, only about a year older than I was. His black shirt was skin tight, showing off his huge muscles. It looked as if he lifted weights often, because that was the only way he could've achieved those muscles. His face was also shockingly beautiful, just like his parents. I was sure that all the girls at his school must be fainting at the sight of him. But I didn't feel attracted to him in the least. That was probably a good thing. It wouldn't be that great if I fell in love with somebody who I was supposed to be living with.

"Carlisle, Emmett, this is Bella Swan." I could feel myself blush when she brought the attention to me. Damn. Why did I always have to blush at everything? I would rather have people see me cry than have them see me blush. Knowing that I was blushing made me blush even more, making me turn cherry red. Actually, I wasn't even being honest when I said that. When I blushed it was so red that it would make a cherry jealous. Yes, I was saying a fruit was jealous of me. But I'm sure that would be the only thing that would ever be jealous of me. But even cherries probably wouldn't be jealous of me.

"Hello Bella. Welcome to our home," Carlisle said.

"Yeah. You're going to love it here Bella. I'm sure all of my friends are going to love you." Emmett said as he came over and shook my hand. Hi grip was firm.

Esme laughed out loud. "Emmett, how do you know they will love Bella? You don't even know her! Not that somebody wouldn't love you Bella. I don't know what somebody wouldn't love about you." Esme said as she gave me an apologizing look. I smiled back at her.

Everybody was using another word I couldn't stand to hear-love. I never had loved anybody. Nobody had loved me before. Sure, the said they loved me sometimes. But deep down, nobody truly loved me. I was just one of those people who couldn't be truly loved. I could be loved on the outside, but it never actually reached the inside. And when it did, that would be the day. The day I escaped hell, and didn't go to a new hell. The day my life had a point to it. The day I would feel that I had a live. The first day that somebody truly loved me.

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