Authors Note: Thanks for the music! I loved most of it! ALSO be excited, because Edward comes into the picture in this chapter! Not much of him, but he is going to be in the next few chapters a lot. REVIEW PLEASE!
Nothing or Everything
After I had finished my relaxing bath, I got into my most comfy pajamas and flopped down onto my bed with my cell phone in hand.
First thing I needed to do was text Alice to tell her where I was.
Hey Alice. I'm at home right now. Please let Emmett know as well, so you guys don't get worried when you don't find me. -Bella
About a minute or so later, Alice texted me back. Obviously, she had sensed something was wrong.
What's wrong Bella? I will come see you after school. I need to go to my next class. -Alice
I really wished she hadn't noticed anything. But Alice was just one of those people....
I debated with myself whether or not to text her back. In the end I decided against it. I didn't want her to worry about me right now. It would be better off if I just let everyone forget there was something wrong.
I went to get my laptop and returned to my bed. I checked my e-mails, to find that I had none.
I randomly started searching the web for something to keep my mind on, but nothing appealed to me. Instead, I put my laptop away, pulled the covers up to my chin, and stared at the ceiling.
I thought about how much potential I had had when I first came here, and now look what I had done with it. I had messed it all up. I could have been more outgoing, and showed everybody a happy, friendly Bella. I could have showed everybody I'm not who they thought I would be.
But I didn't.
And once again, it was too late. I couldn't go back in time and fix all the mistakes I wouldn't have made. Or change some of the actions I did.
A tear slowly began to trickle down my face as I thought about that. I had been given a second chance – repeatedly – but all I did was mess up my life. Again.
I must have fallen asleep while I was quietly crying, because I woke up to somebody knocking on my door. "Yes?" I asked them. My voice sounded like I hadn't spoken for years.
"Bella, it's Alice. Can I come in?" Oh right. Alice had said she was going to come over after school. And I really didn't care if my makeup was smudged from the tears or from my face being buried into the pillow.
"Sure Alice." The door opened and Alice stepped into my room and paused by the door.
Unfortunately, she appeared to have somebody with her. And not just anybody. It was Him. Edward. The person who had the same voice as the only voice I ever heard in my head. The only person I had ever really and truly loved.
I suddenly regretted letting Alice in before I went to see if I looked okay. Which I obviously didn't, judging on Alice's expression.
First she looked completely horrified. Her face screamed what the hell did you do? Than her expression changed to sadness. Like she knew something bad had happened, and she felt sad for me but didn't want to try and comfort me because she knew that would only make things worse. She settled on sitting beside me on the bed and awkwardly put her hand on my shoulder.
Amazingly, that made me fell a tad bit better, just knowing that there was at least one person who cared.
When I looked at Edward, I was a little surprised. He was standing behind Alice, with an expression on his face that was a mix between pained and anger. I had no clue why.
"Who did this to you?" he asked in a quiet voice.
That caught me off guard. He had probably only spoken about 30 words to me since I got here, and only talked if I asked him a direct question. "Um... I'm not quite sure." His face turned into an expression that only showed confusion. "I heard some people talking..... about me." His expression turned back to pain and anger. "I really don't want to talk about this." I said. Alice looked at me.
"You're okay though, right?" I could always count on Alice to ask me something like that. Well, at least I could until I had do leave again.
"Yes. You guys can go, I'll be perfectly fine." I got up and walked to my bedroom door with them.
Before Edward left he turned to me. "What's wrong, Bella?"
Again, he had caught me off guard by talking before I talked to him first. "Nothing." I said quietly. He studied my face for a minute, as if he didn't believe me. Than he slowly turned to follow after Alice.
After he had turned away from me, I whispered "Everything." I could feel the tears pooling up in my eyes again.
Everything had gone wrong. And there was no way I could fix that now.
Authors Note: Please review. I will try and update tomorrow if I get lots of reviews! And I probably will be successful, because I have nothing big planned for tomorrow. Sorry for the long wait for this chapter. I thought I had put it on, but apperantly not!