Chapter 12: Family

"Rise and shine sweetheart." I heard a sweet voice purr from beside me. It took a minute for my eyes to adjust but there he was in all his glory. I couldn't help but thank my lucky stars to have someone such as him…so beautiful from the inside and out laying there beside me.

"Hey." I finally said sitting up. Jasper smiled his adoring smile.

"Hey yourself." I stood up rubbing my head and made my way to the bathroom. Jasper continued to talk. "I just ordered you some breakfast it should be hear any minute."

"Thanks Jazz." I said softly while turning on the pipes for the shower. I walked back out to grab my bag of toiletries and a change of clothes and ran back to the bathroom. When I got out I could hear Jasper shutting the door. I assumed my breakfast had arrived.

I walked out wearing a simple pair of shorts and a tank top with some flip flops. I pulled my hair in to a ponytail and walked out. Jasper stopped in his tracks and looked me over with lust filled eyes. By the time it registered it was already gone. I walked over to him and smiled at his little set up.

"Now that you're fully awake…" He said pulling out my seat. I simply sat down and took in the smell of Belgian waffles with a side of eggs and bacon. There was a perfect red rose set on top of the tray I picked it up and smelled it.

"Thank you." I said with a smile. He just uncovered my tray and I began to dig in while he watched.

"What's on your mind cowboy?" I asked looking at him worried. Jasper seemed to be so deep in thought about something. I began to feel anxious. He looked up at me and no reassuring smile appeared on his face. I felt a twinge of worry creep through me as I stared into his emotionless blank stare.

"Jasper?" I asked. My voice cracked.

"Bella there's something I think we need to talk about." He said sternly. Oh god please don't tell me he's leaving me to. I began to panic. Jasper didn't calm me down. I'm guessing he was either to engulfed in his own feelings or he just simply ignored mine.

"W…what is it." I said to afraid of hearing his answer.

"Last night when I found you ….Edward was on top of you…did he…" He couldn't finish his sentence. I felt the tears fighting its way to make an escape.

"No." I whispered shaking my head. I shook the memory away not wanting to remember that night.

"I'm sorry Bella for asking. It's something that's been eating away at me. I knew he wouldn't have the guts I just needed to hear you say it." I looked at him confused.

"What do you mean he wouldn't have the guts?" I asked.

"Edward is too stuck in his ways to allow himself to do such a thing Bella. Yes he was desperate and wanted to hold on to you but he would never go that far." I was too shocked to speak.

"Bella?" He asked

"But his eyes….they were so dark. You could see the lust in them. It was me saying that I didn't love him anymore that made him stop." I said not believing him.

"Bella that just proves my point. For us vampires it's next to impossible for us to stop when we get like that." So if that was true, did Edward ask me to tell him that I loved him to stop himself? And even if it was and he had some sort of self control why didn't he stop himself from hurting me. I glanced over at Jasper and it hit me.

"He knew you were coming. He had to have heard you." Jasper simply nodded. Did Edward do all of this just to get back at Jasper? I was once again stunned. Jasper gave me a few minutes to let my thoughts register before speaking again.

"So any ideas on what you'd like to do today darling? I assume you'd actually like to get out of this room." He said giving me the smile I was looking for earlier.

"I was thinking about heading to the library or town hall to find any records of your family." He glanced outside it was a cloudy day in Houston. "Sounds like a plan." He said heading over to his bag and pulling out a light jacket and a baseball cap and quickly throwing it on. Jasper walked over to me and took my hand.

"I'm sorry I wasn't there for you sooner. But I would never let him anywhere near you again." He pressed his frigid lips against mine and took my hand anxiously leading me out the door.

We first headed to the towns library searching the archives for anyone with the last name Whitlock, but unfortunately came upon nothing. So we headed over to town hall and were more fortunate. It was a bit odd that all the information we were looking for was already laid out for us. Jasper noticed as well but found no vampire scents on the documents or anywhere near the building.

Not only did we find a living descendant of Jasper's brother, but we found his current address and decided to pay a visit tomorrow. We headed back to the hotel and I sensed the nervousness projecting from Jasper. He sat on the chair in the corner of the living room. I walked over and sat on his lap. He had a book in his hand that was closed.

"Jazz are you alright?" I asked looking into his eyes. He wrapped his hands tightly around me and pressed his forehead into my stomach.

"Yes and no." he replied. I ran my fingers through his curly locks and sighed.

"I know I can feel you're nervous." He tilted his head upwards briefly to glance at me then sighed.

"I'm sorry darlin' guess I wasn't paying attention." He said softly.

"You know it's understandable for you to feel nervous Jazz. I mean after all this is your family and you have no clue what to expect."

"Bella it's not only that. I abandoned my family to join the war. Can you imagine the pain they went through when I never returned?"His voice was strained. I cupped his chin and tilted it upwards for him to look at me.

"Jasper everything that occurs in our life is for a reason whether it's for a lesson or simply fate. If you never left to join the war and ran into Maria you wouldn't be the man you are or even be alive. " I began thinking about life without him. I would have still been with Edward and because Jasper didn't exist there would have been no birthday incident or worst nobody would have stood up for me. I shivered at the thought causing a smile to form on his lips.

"Did I mention how much I love you today?" He said.

"I'd rather feel it than hear it." I felt this intense warm feeling in my heart that seemed to make it swell and race a mile a minute. This was his love for me. It was infinite that had no beginning or end to it. I smiled. I loved his gift.

"I love you to." I whispered as I thought of my own love for him that grew stronger with each day.

"Bella I want to ask you something."

"Go ahead."

"I know you want to become an immortal but are you sure that's what you want?" here we go again.

"Of course it's what I want."

"Do you understand what you'll be giving up?" I was starting to get annoyed. How could he ruin such a perfect moment.

"Does it really matter Jazz, I'll be spending an eternity with you."

"Yes I know darlin' and I'm not trying to upset you because I want it just as much but you'll be giving up your humanity and your ability to have children. Why do you think Rose is so bitchy?" So that's what this is about.

"Jasper is that what you want …a family?" I asked softly.

"Well since we've been here I've been thinking of it." I couldn't help but smile imagining a mini Jasper running around the house.

"But is it possible?" I muttered.

"I've heard rumors about it." I thought about the idea for a moment the more I thought of it the more horrific the thoughts became. It was bad enough the Volturri wanted me changed or else I will die but bringing a child into the world that would be exposed to blood lust. And what kind of baby would it be anyway?

As I thought of it I couldn't deny this to him. Jasper has and would always give me so much. Can't I just give him this one thing that no one else could provide? Is it worth it though...Yes it was. I smiled.

"I guess I don't have to be changed right away. I mean after all you are twenty …technically."

"Are you sure? I want you to do this for you not because it's what you feel I want." I caressed his face and looked into his eyes.

"Jasper I want to do this for the both of us. You've done so much for me already; it would make me happy to give you one thing nobody else could. But I want us to research into this." Jaspers face lit up brighter than a light bulb. He pulled me to him and kissed me repeatedly.

I could feel his love for me once more coursing through me. I soaked it all in proudly and I returned it letting him know the feeling was mutual.

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I'm so sorry it took me so long to update it's just that I really didn't like this chapter to much and wasn't to sure this was the road I wanted to take the story. So let me know what you think. I tried thinking of an alternate conversation and came up blank. Please let me know your thoughts you know I always love to hear them. Love you all always!