Chapter 14: Emotions
It was silent for the rest of the ride. Neither one of us attempted to break it. What on earth was Edward doing here? I felt a mix of emotions but the most evident was rage towards him. Why couldn't he accept Jasper and I and move on.
After what he had done why couldn't he see that there was no coming back? Edward hurt me to many times. I had enough. I only prayed he would leave us alone but that was truly wishful thinking.
Once we pulled up to the hotel, Jasper didn't make a move to leave.
"He followed us didn't he?" I said softly.
"I don't understand what he wants." Jasper said furiously. I saw him now. The sun was setting and he stood at the peak of the woods right in front of us.
"Let me talk to him." I said moving to get out. Jasper grabbed my hand.
"Bella are you crazy? Do you remember my promise to you?" He had a wild look in his eyes that only made me more certain.
"Jasper you're too emotional to confront him. "
"I'm not about to have a repeat of what happened last time." He said with authority.
When you can't get your way simply meet them half way.
"Fine but let me do the talking." He didn't say anything he just simply got out the car and opened mine. You could tell in the way he moved he'd rather be alone. He wrapped his had around my waist as we walked across the lot and into the woods where no one can see.
"Thank god I reached you in time." Edward looked a mess. His hair was messy. His shirt stained and wrinkled and his body was shacking.
"Edward what's wrong?" I asked I went to step forward but Jasper pulled me back.
"Bella." He said as he reminded. I sighed then turned back to my disturbed ex.
"What are you doing here Edward?" I asked. Edward looked at Jazz wide eyed then looked down to the ground. His face seemed pained. It pained me to see him like this.
"Edward talk to me; why are you here? Did Alice send you?" That was a stupid question Alice would never betray Jazz and I.
"I'm sorry for coming and interrupting… Alice had a vision. There's going to be a fire at the house you came from earlier." Jasper growled at him.
"That doesn't exactly give you permission to come down here." Jasper replied.
"Bella's going to get kidnapped." He said rolling his eyes at him.
"But Victoria's dead." I said not wanting to believe what I heard.
"You're lying." I yelled. Edward gasped. I knew that hurt but I didn't care.
"Bella you know I could never lie to you."
"Even that's a lie do I need to remind you the first time you left." He was silent and my blood began to boil. I went to step closer to him but once again Jasper pulled me back.
"I can't believe you Edward. Why won't you accept the fact that I don't want you anymore! Why won't you just leave us alone? For once in my life I'm happy. I no longer have to worry about crossing the line or having someone walking out on me. Jasper isn't afraid to love me and he sees me as his equal. Edward you need to let go." I finished softly.
"Bella honestly I only came down here to see if you're alright. But if you want I'll leave."
"A phone call would have saved you a trip."
"You probably would have hung up." He said in defense.
"Bella let's go." Jazz said glaring at his brother. I truly hated to see the two this way, but Edward was the cause of it. There was simply no one else to blame.
I turned around and never looked back.
Once in our room I went straight to the bathroom and locked the door. I just wanted to be alone. I sat on the toilet seat as the conversation from earlier replayed in my mind. I tried to keep my emotions at bay not to alert Jasper, but as the seconds went by my emotions began to spiral out of control.
Why did he have to come here? The tears began to stain my cheeks as I cried silently. I hugged my legs and buried my face into my thigh. What was I truly crying for?
"Bella" Jasper called banging on the door. I didn't want him to see me like this.
"Bella open up darlin'…..Bella if you don't open this door I'll have to break it down." He warned
"Please I just want to be alone right now." I said in barley a whisper. I felt horrible. As the cries deepened it was getting harder for me to breath. I just wanted to be alone with my feelings.
"Bella your emotions are all over the place. Please let me in maybe I can help."
"Jasper please I just want to be alone with my emotions." He was silent.
"I'll go for a run if you need me just call ok."
"Thank you." I said a faint smile appearing on my face.
"I love you." He said softly. The smoothness of his voice along with the southern drawl rocked the inside of my core.
"I love you too." I replied feeling guilty now. Not soon after I heard the door slam and I was alone.
I was beyond emotional to the point that I was questioning my sanity. I loved Jasper with all my heart. But somehow despite the past I still loved Edward. A part of me felt guilty for what I have done to him. Not only did I break his heart but now I was with his brother. I never took into account what Edward might feel. Edward was betrayed by both his fiancée and his brother.
This was the type of thing that you would see on those talk shows. Never in my life would I think that would be me. I felt so disgusted with myself. But what was I to do, I loved Jasper too much. Somehow I had to make this right.
I stood up and pulled myself together. I glanced at the mirror and nearly screamed at what I saw. I quickly ran to the door and gather my things to take a shower. I was glad Jasper didn't see me this way.
After my shower I got ready for bed throwing on a pair of shorts and a tank top to sleep in. It was one hot night here in Texas and for the time we've been here not once did I feel the need to turn on the ac.
I was missing Jasper now. I was yearning for my personal body cooler. I grabbed my phone and as I dialed his number the door opened. There he stood in all his glory. My heart began to race as he watched me intensely I'm guessing gauging my emotions. I was certain to the emotions he would find.
"I would ask how you're feeling but I can feel your answer." He said giving me that sexy smirk I loved so much. He stepped in and locked the door.
"How was your walk?" I asked as he began taking off his boots.
"Lonely. What was all that about Bella?"
"I just wanted to be alone with my feelings." I shrugged. "I'm sorry I just needed sometime alone to sort some things out. I mean we rushed into this without me sorting out my feelings for Edward." Japer stopped and looked at me.
"Are you having second thoughts Bella?" His face seemed so composed but his eyes showed his true emotions.
"Jasper how could you think that. You know how much I love you." My head dropped and watched as I fiddled my fingers. "I just feel awful for what we did to him."
"Bella are you insane? Maybe we should head home and have Carlisle examine you."
"Japer put yourself in his shoes, suppose it was the other way around and Edward and I were together. How would you feel?"
"Bella-"
"Jasper we betrayed him. He's hurting." I stood up and walked over to him. He stood there bare cheated. I wrapped my hands around his chiseled cold frame.
"Japer it's you that I want, but a part of me still love Edward just like you love Alice. Yes he's done wrong. But we've hurt him to. I feel so awful that things would never be the same. The two of you are family."
"Are you asking me to forgive him for what he's done to you?" He said holding my gaze. His smoldering golden eyes seemed to glow in the darkness. I pressed up against him wanting to feel the coolness of his skin and breathe in his intoxicating aroma.
"Bella I think you're asking a little too much of me. I just don't think I'm cap-"
"Please." I asked pouting. He took a deep breath.
"Do it for me." I said starting to kiss the tiny crescents that ran across his left shoulder. I had no idea where this courage was coming from. But I liked the feeling of his cool skin against my lips.
"Bella" He purred as he pulled me closer to him. He cupped my chin and gazed lovingly into my eyes.
"How could I ever deny you? I'll try." I smiled victoriously as he nuzzled his nose with mine.
"Have I told ever told you are the most incredible boyfriend ever?" he chuckled and kissed me.
"I believe you just did." He said. Every fiber of my being seemed to be raging with this smoldering heat.
"Gosh Bella your like a cafeteria full of hormonal teenagers all wrapped into one." He joked. Just for that I pulled away and walked over to the bed.
"Good night Jasper." I said crawling under the sheets. He followed and pulled me against him.
"I'm sorry darling I meant it as a joke." He said kissing my cheek. The smile evident on his face.
"I know. But I need some sleep if were gonna go visit the Whitlock's in the morning. And you have an important call to make to your brother." I felt him stiffen against me and couldn't help but laugh.
"Your right you do need some sleep." He said sending me a lethargic wave. My eyes immediately began to droop as I fought to stay awake.
"Good night my sweetheart." Was the last thing I heard before the slumber took over.
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Wow thanks for the overwhelming response. I truly made most of you hate Edward. -snickers- I guess I did my job. Anyways I noticed a lot of new readers. Thanks for finding me and I hope you enjoy.