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Goodbye
As I lay quietly in my bed, I began to rethink everything today. It surprised me, that while I was thinking, I could only hear my voice in my head. Not 'Edwards' voice. Maybe he was giving me time to think......?
I needed to hear that voice. Just to know it was still here for me. I quickly paced around the room, trying to think of a way to make the voice return. Even just to say one word. But I can't deny it, I was hoping for many more words than just one.
I thought about faking suicide. But than I realized that wouldn't work. You couldn't exactly 'fake' suicide. You either were going to, or you weren't. There wasn't any faking.
I thought about trying to do something I was completely incapable of. Like what though? I had no idea.
Than a thought hit me. I didn't need that voice anymore. I had Edward. Is that why it had disappeared? I certainly hoped not. It wasn't like I was going to go up to Edward and tell him I was regretting my decision of telling him my feelings for him. That wouldn't turn out too good. Probably just make everything worse. I didn't want that. Things finally start to get good, and BAM. Everything turns bad because, once again, Bella messed up. That wasn't a thought I wanted to constantly return to my head.
Was the voice seriously gone? Why? Did it hate me now? I hadn't been turning to it for my problems as often anymore, but still...
I hadn't been turning to it because I had other people. I had other people to turn to. I didn't need it anymore.
I felt like a little child who had just passed first grade, and thought it was the best thing ever.
I looked at the clock and saw it was only 7:25. I quickly wanted to walk around the neighbor hood to burn off some of this energy.
After getting a puzzled expression from Esme when I told her what I was doing (walking around the neighbor hood, not celebrating the fact that I had real people to turn to), I was outside.
I didn't even notice the temperature outside, it was just to irrelevant. It wasn't like it could change my mood anyways.
As I was walking, looking at all the houses, most being almost alike, I heard somebody behind me call my name. As I looked, I instantly knew who it was. Tanya.
She was rushing to catch up to me. I stopped to let her. When she caught up, she smiled at me.
"Hey Bella!" Why was she so enthusiastic?
"Hi." My patience was running thin right now. She was wasting my time.
Her face became instantly annoyed. "No wonder everybody hates you. Who would want to be around someone like you? You can't even say a simple word like 'hi' without messing it all up. Like, seriously, Bella. Can't you, like, go somewhere else?" When she said this, I instantly remembered her voice from somewhere. The washrooms.
Anger bubbled out of me. She had guts. To say something like that, to my face? Who did she think she was?
I realized how much trouble she had caused me. That one little conversation she had had in the washrooms had ruined me.
Without thinking, I pulled my fist back and it sprung out, hitting Tanya in the middle of her face, making her fall down onto the cement.
Authors Note: Okay, really short chapter. But I just needed to get this out of my head. I have been having this planned for so long, just never had the chance to write it.
Sorry for using Tanya, but I didn't want to introduce a new character. And everybody's Tanya seems to fit this.
So, last chapter 1 had 64 people read. I think that is pretty good. I only had 7 reviews. 7 REVIEWS!!! That is such a little amount compared to how many people read.
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Whoa, that was totally not cool. It was all rhyme-y! Lol!
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