Before you begin to read this chap I want to address something. Children are extremely aware of their environment and just because they're young it doesn't mean they don't understand. That's the mistake most people make with children. Trust me I've work with them enough to know.
When it comes to Aiden…let's just say he's extremely special. Now enjoy the Chapter!
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Chapter 20: Changes
"No why now, why ever" Why was I constantly the target of these 'kill the fragile human' vampire games. Was this my punishment for knowing that those old myths and fairytales stories we hear are true?
"How much time do we have?" I heard my southern comfort ask in a stern voice.
"About two weeks from now. She's recruiting as she travel. I'm so so-"Jazz took Aiden from my arms and handed him to Rose.
"Esme, Rose look after him while we're gone. Carlisle I need you to set up your study for Bella."
"Jasper do you thin-"Edward begins to protest.
"Yes I do think it's an appropriate time to change her." He yells frustrated with his brother. He takes a long deep unnecessary breath and turns to me."
"That is what you want right?" He asked searching for any doubt.
"More than anything." I reply quietly without any hesitation. He smiled and stretches out his hand I take it and stand up. Jasper turned to the rest of his family.
"Take turns hunting you need all the strength you can muster. Alice get in touch with the mongrels. And have them over as soon as possible for a meeting. They need to understand the extent of the matter."
And with that he takes off with me in tote following Carlisle to the study. Jasper set me down on the hospital bed as Carlisle begins to hook me up to monitors. He pauses for a moment and looks from Jasper to me.
"Bella are you positive about this? Once the venom is in your system sweetheart there is no turning back." Carlisle says concern evident in his tone.
"Carlisle" I whisper placing my hand over his. "I'm ready for this. I'm tired of always being such a useless fragile target that everyone must protect. It's time I hold my own and fight with you." Carlisle smiles.
"Bella you are a part of this family. Wouldn't you do anything to protect any of us?"
"Yes, but-"
"No buts Bella. We protect you because we love you. Same goes for any other member of this family." I couldn't argue with the man. He was right. But I wasn't going to change my mind. It was already made up.
"The dogs are on their way." Alice yells from the hallway. Jasper smiles at me and kisses my head.
"I'm going to get Aiden so you two can spend some time together ok." I nod. Jasper flitted out the room.
"Bella I'm really worried you haven't thought this through." Carlisle whispers taking a seat beside me.
"This life isn't easy as you know. As a newborn with the constant thirst your mind is disheveled. You won't be able to focus on anything else. It would be months before you'll be able to even touch Aiden.
"Carlisle I understand you're trying to be the voice of reason and I truly do appreciate it but my mind is made up. I know what I'll be giving up and I know what I'll be gaining as well. In my eyes what I'm gaining seems to outweigh my lost. Besides Alice had a vision of me after I change and said most standards won't apply to me. I'll be fine Carlisle."
"What about your father?" He asks. My whole body froze at his name. I knew once I change I'll never be able to see him again. This was like a stab at the heart.
"We'll find a way." I whisper on the brink of tears. Jasper flitted back into the room with Aiden in his hands. He reached out to me and the moment our hands connected I felt his love and happiness.
He knew something was going on. It pained me to know that such a child could be so aware of his surroundings. I looked Aiden in his eyes.
"Sweetheart" I say softly. "Mommy will be gone for a few days. I don't want you to be worried or feel that we've left you. We'll be back to you as soon as we can. Mommy and Daddy love you very much and will never leave you." Jasper placed his hands on both of us and felt his love emulate from him. Aiden smile and hugged me. I could hear a commotion come from down stairs and Jasper and I exchange looks.
"It's Jake. He wants to see you." I knew he would have a hard time letting me go. I bit back the tears that threaten to fall.
"Let him in." I say as sternly as I could. Seconds later he was barging though the door. His eyes blackened with rage and disgust.
"Bella you can't be serious about this."
"Carlisle can you take Aiden?" I ask. He was already crying. Jazz sent him a lethargic wave and immediately fell asleep. The three of them left the room.
"Jacob" I said as calm as I could. "I've made up my mind."
"No" He said shaking his head. "He must have manipulated your emotions."
"No Jake he hasn't. Jasper and I talked about this….it's what I want, please accept it. I'm tired of being such a fragile being everyone has to protect. For once I want to be the one to protect my family."
"Bella have you gone crazy." I felt my ager boil.
"No!" I yell. "I'm sick of people trying to change my mind. I have made a decision and I expect everyone to respect them." I took a deep breath. Jakes eyes pled with mine. "Jake I love you, but I have to do this."
"For who Bella?" He asks softly.
"For me and my family." It was silent for an immeasurable moment.
"I'll talk to Sam about relinquishing the treaty so you won't have to worry about a war."
"Thanks Jake." I said holding his hand. His head dropped and suddenly I began to panic. I could feel him pulling away.
"Jake?" I ask. He pulled his hand away.
"I'm sorry Bella, I just can't stick around and watch him take your life away. "
"Jake please I need you." I beg. He kissed my head and jogged towards the door.
"I love you Bella."were his last words before he disappeared. I cried out his name over and over until Alice walked in.
"It's going to be ok Bella."
"No Jakes leaving Alice."
"He just needs sometime to accept it. Just give it some time, he'll be back Bella." She spoke so soft as she combed her dainty fingers through my hair.
"Alice I'm so scared." I admitted.
"Bella I know your nervous about the pain you'll fe-"
"No Alice that's not what I'm afraid of, I'm scared of what will happen. This battle with Maria. Why does she want me and Aiden?"
"Bella you shouldn't worry about her. She'll have to go through all of us in order to get to you. She won't hurt you." I sighed.
"Let's hope not." I muttered.
JPOV:
"What was so important you wanted us here right away?" Sam asked annoyed.
"There is an army of newborn vampires making its way for Forks as we speak." I said.
"That's your problem not ours." He said dismissing the matter.
"Look we understand that you may not like us but isn't it your duty to protect?" Carlisle asked.
"Yes it is." He replied rolling his eyes. This man was trying my patients.
"New born vampires only have one thing in mind and that's to kill. They are unbelievably strong and fast. Even with our number it really wouldn't look to good." Carlisle said stepping forward.
"So you want our help is that what you're implying." Carlisle looked at me.
"Yes and to void the treaty." I replied.
"Why?" He asked. I took a deep breath.
"I want to change Bella. She has already made up her mind. The army is after her and Aiden and I can't st-"
"The answer is hell no!" Sam exclaimed.
"Look Sa-" I tried to reason.
"Let him do it Sam." A voice came from behind us. We all turned to see Jacob.
"Jacob you ca-"
"She wants to be a leech let her be one. Who are we to deny her?"
"Are you sure Jake?" He shook his head. Sam glared at me for a moment thinking over my request.
"What guarantee do I have that Bella won't be like these newborns?"
"I could control her emotions." I replied. He looked up to Jake and nodded.
"Fine you can change her and we'll help you out with the newborns but only because the fate of Forks depend on it."
"Great" Carlisle replied with a smile.
"We start training on Saturday. Meet us in the clearing at 3pm." He never replied. He just walked into the woods followed by his two pets and ran off into the woods. I turned to Jake who wore a face of disgust.
"Thank you Jake for understanding." I said softly.
"Don't thank me." He simply stated. I could feel his anger boil. I discreetly sent him waves of calmness.
"I just gave her what she wanted. Now the two of you could live happily ever after. Killing innocent lives." He ranted.
"You should know by now we don't believe in that lifestyle Jake." Carlisle defended.
"No but you would hurt Bella." He said in barley a whisper.
"It's what she wanted." I reminded him.
"Is it really or did you trick her like your brother did. Did you give her an ultimatum to?" He spat.
"My brother and I are two separate beings. My life is Bella; I could never bring myself to deny her of anything she wishes. I left this solely up to her. She knows of what she'll lose. No one forced her hand to come to this. Now if you don't mind she's waiting on me. Come on Carlisle." I was upset with the fact that he would accuse me of such things but then again I understood that he was upset. After all I he was losing his best friend.
"Give him time he'll come around." Carlisle said placing his arm on my shoulder as we made our way to the study. There lying on the table was the woman I would give my immortality to save. The one I wanted to spend my life with. She looked up and smiled.
"I love you" She whispered. That right there was all I needed to hear. I walked over and kissed her slowly and passionately. Savoring the way she taste and felt.
"I love you more." I whispered back.
"Are you two ready?" Carlisle asked. I looked at her who nodded. Carlisle walked over with a needle.
"What is that?" She asked as he injected her.
"It's morphine to help with the burning." He paused looking at me.
"I want to do it." I said knowing what he wanted to ask me.
"Are you sure Jasper?"
"I'm positive." I wanted it to be my venom that ran through her veins.
"When ever you're ready." He said as I moved closer to her.
"You're positive about this right?" I asked making sure she wasn't having second thoughts.
"Jasper just do it." She said sticking her neck out. I took a deep breath leaning in and kissing her jugular tenderly. I felt the vein pulsed against my lips. At that moment, there was nothing I wanted more than to taste her sweet precious blood.
"Jasper are you alright." Carlisle asked in concerned. I quickly shook the thought away and turned to Bella. I leaned in once more and tore into that pulsing vein. Her warm blood pooled into my mouth and I lavished in the sweet taste.
Never in my existence had I ever tasted blood so good and pure. I drank in pleasure.
"Jasper I think that's enough son." But I couldn't stop drinking.
"Jasper enough!" He repeated in a panic. His voice seemed so far away.
"Jasper" that voice stopped me. It was as if I she was in my head.
"You can do this." She encouraged. "I love you always." Her voice began to fade. I pulled away disgusted with myself. I licked over the wound to seal the venom in and stood back appalled with myself.
"Are you alright?" Carlisle asked. I didn't answer. I was so disappointed with myself how could I have been so weak. I looked over the monitors and was relieved that her heart was still beating although it was in an agonizing pace.
"It's alright she'll be fine. Why don't you go hunt." He suggested.
"No I'm fine. I rather be here with her...why isn't she screaming?" I asked suddenly worried.
"The morphine is working." He replied. I sat beside her taking her hand and kissing it.
"I'm so sorry Bella. I love you, always." In response I felt a slight squeeze from her hand and I smiled. Knowing that at this moment in time, my world was right.
UPOV:
It was a full proof plan that I knew even that stupid little pixie wouldn't see coming. I knew that everyone assumed that I was down and out, but I'll show them. I'll make them regret the day they ever fucked with me. Especially there stupid pet human they guarded so well.
I'll make that little tart beg for mercy and crush her skull with my bare hands. And then finally, I would claim the prize that had always belonged to me.