My Promise to You Chapter 19, a twilight fanfic

*hides behind Damon* Hi people! I know, I know, I haven't been updating lately. And yes, I do feel horrible for it. Especially since you all have been so kind enough to review :). Thank you for the reviews I got last chapter. You have no idea exactly how much it means to me. So thanks! Same thing for the Author Alerts, Story Alerts, Favorite Stories, and Favorite Authors I've been getting! Unbelievably enough I have over SEVEN THOUSAND HITS for this story! This was my reaction to that: EEEEEEEEP! Thanks guys…so much. Okay, I apologize for the TITANIC sized cliffhanger I left for you last chapter :D. I know it was evil but I was trying to see how much fear I would get out of you :D I scared some of you pretty badly. My apologies to Twilighterzxox for making her rant so much and my sympathy to those she ranted at :)

And now, our story continues *snort oink oink snort*

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*Steph hides*

Jacob: Hey there Steph! Who ya hiding from?!

Me: Ugh…you idiot! Be quiet! Can't you see I'm hiding from Dimitri from Vampire Academy?!

Jacob: uh why?

Me: Well…because I may have….kind of…influenced his girlfriend Rose to…uh… kind of… kill him. And now he's mad at me. But I have a good reason! He's Strigoi! So he's evil! And it hurt me just as much to suggest it!

Jacob: Um…Strigoi? As in evil vamp?

Me: Yeah now did you have something to say? Or are you just purposely harassing me?

Jacob: Yeah…I just wanted to know if you own Twilight.

Me: *groans* Was me not hitting you on the head with a club enough to drive into that thick skull of yours?! No I don't! Now move before Dimitri finds me!

Dimitri: Too late

Me: Oh crap! EDWARD SAVE ME!! JASPER!!! DAMON!!! SOMEONE!!!

Dimitri: Whoa whoa whoa….calm down! *holds up hands in surrender* I maybe Strigoi but I'm not going to hurt you.

Me: *confused* So why are you here then and why are you chasing me?

Dimitri: Well since Rose dumped me *glares* I need a new girlfriend. Will you be my new girlfriend? Just turn Strigoi for me and we'll always be together.

Me: Um Dimitri you know I love you no matter what form you're in and this sounds unbelievably tempting but no thanks! I don't want to be evil! And *mumbles* besides I…um…kinda like Adrian! Sorry! BYE!!

*Steph runs away as Dimitri is struck dumb by her refusal*

Chapter Nineteen

EPOV

"BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP! Get up you big idiot!" I heard Alice's voice in my ear.

"Wh-what?" I asked disoriented. I looked at her. My little pixie of a sister was standing next to me fully dressed. She held a blow horn in one hand and her face was pissed. Rosalie was standing next to her also fully dressed and she too looked mad as hell. She sounded the horn again and kicked my side. I was wide awake. I blinked, "Alice, what the hell?!"

"What the hell?!" she screamed at me. I winced at the sound of her loud voice. My head was pounding and I felt nauseated. I couldn't remember a thing about the night before. I didn't even remember how I'd gotten to my room. It had been my birthday right? Ugh it hurt too much to think.

Alice yelled, "Is that all you have to say for yourself?! What the hell?! What is wrong with you?!" She punched me and started scratching me all over.

I yelped and tried to get away from her. "Rose, control her!" I shouted. Rosalie just stood there watching Alice attack me.

"You deserve it!" she said, smiling smugly. I tried fighting Alice off but she was too strong for someone so tiny. "Alice!" I bellowed as she got my left eye, scraping above it. Her nails were long enough to draw blood and when she realized this she pulled away. I held my hand up to where she had scraped my forehead and pulled it away. It was covered with crimson blood.

"Alice!" I shouted, "Look what you did!"

She glared at me and said, "You deserve after what you did last night." Rose was glaring at me too and I looked at them confused. They seemed to understand that I didn't know what they were talking about and they shared a look.

"He doesn't remember," Alice said quietly to Rose.

She shook her head, "That doesn't change anything Alice. He said what he said. And she isn't going to forgive for that. I know I won't."

Alice nodded. "I feel the same way. I think we should show him the tape though."

I looked at them completely baffled. "What the hell are you to talking about? And why did you attack me Alice?! What the heck is going on?!" I asked, shouting my last words.

They exchanged looks and Alice answered while Rosalie crossed her arms and looked sour. "We'll just let you see a little tape of yours and I'm sure you'll remember everything," she said icily.

Alice and Rose grabbed either side of me and began lugging me downstairs. I went with them willingly, absolutely bewildered.

Emmett, Jasper, Carlisle and Esme all stood in the living room talking. They became quiet when I entered the room and I got cold, angry stares from Jasper and Emmett and disappointed ones from Esme and Carlisle. I cringed at their hostile gazes and fell down on the couch which Alice and Rose had deposited me to. They all stood silently to the side as Alice slipped something into the DVD player.

"What's going on?" I asked, still puzzled.

"Just shut up and watch the tape," Alice ordered frostily.

Baffled I began to look at the video playing. It was a party, my party I remembered. I watched the guy taping everything moved to outside where a crowd had been gathering. He pushed his way through and two people came in sight. They were kissing fiercely. I watched dumbstruck as I recognized the guy. It was me. My jaw must have fell right open.

I watched as I kissed this girl sloppily and then watched in horror as the camera fixed on Bella's face. I felt my heart break into as I watched her expressions play out on her face. Disbelief, shock, hurt, anger were all clearly expressed. The hurt was the most horrific to me. I saw determination form and watched as she marched up to me and the girl who I recognized as my old friend, Maggie.

Maggie and I had known each other practically our whole lives. Her parents, Siobhan and Liam, were Esme and Carlisle's good friends and Siobhan and Carlisle had known each other since high school. Siobhan was a doctor like Carlisle and she was an extremely intuitive person. Maggie had been my first kiss when I was ten and we had been going out since we'd turned thirteen until Siobhan had gotten a job in her native Ireland. Then they had moved. I had been devastated and made up for my loss with the other girls.

I watched as Bella's face returned back to hurt before she spoke in a whisper. "Why?" she asked brokenly. I wanted nothing more than for me on screen to hold her and comfort her and beg her forgiveness for kissing the completely insignificant girl. But I watched in horror as I began to insult her calling her all kinds of explicit names. I saw her tears spill over and I cursed myself. As I watched, I began to remember all the things I said and I felt my heart ache. Alice should have hit me harder after all that I had said. I watched in horror as Bella took everything quietly. Then sudden anger flared up in her and she began to throw everything back at me. TV me was shocked into a drunken stupor.

Then Bella spoke her last words, "I hate you, Edward. Goodbye." Then she stormed away towards the guy with the camera recording everything. I saw angry tears spill over and the person cowered as he looked at Bella and handed over the camera stuttering. Bella took the camera and the last image of the video was Bella turning off the camera with angry, hurt tears streaming down her face.

I was absolutely horror-struck. Tears began streaming down my face as I thought over everything that had happened the night before. How could I have done this to her? How could I have done this to my Bella? I had hurt her so much…I didn't deserve to live after everything I had told her. She would never forgive me for this. I would never forgive myself for this. I'll lose her, I thought despairingly. I'm going to lose the only woman I have ever loved. I remembered everything, including her kiss with Demetri. I felt anger as I remembered but then remorse as I saw everything from her point of view. She had been confused, ever since Demetri had come back. I could tell since after the ball she was always off in another world, always thinking about something ever since he had came back. I had been angry at first, at him for coming back, at her for feeling what she felt, at me for being so trivial. I remembered how I had felt when I had seen them together kissing. I felt so incredibly jealous. It had brought me back to those days when Bella had been new at high school and she had chosen Demetri over me. It brought back all the hurt I had felt. But it was nothing to what I had done to her. I had cheated on her before her very eyes out of plain spite. She would never forgive me; she hated me now.

I had lost her, lost my Bella, the woman who conquered my mind, heart, body and soul. Forever.

"NO!" I shouted at that thought. Everybody looked startled at my outburst. I looked at them wildly. "I can't lose her! I can't!"

They all grimaced and looked a little less hostile. I looked at Alice beseechingly. "Alice," I begged, "Kill me now. Please I'm begging."

She looked startled at my request. "No Edward," she shook her head. "You have to face this. It was your idiocy to do it, even if you were drunk. Apologize to Bella at least before you beg for that. You owe her that much," she sniffed icily.

I shook my head. "She'll never forgive me for this, not after what an ass I've been to her," I said sadly. No one cared to say anything.

Rosalie was the one to break the silence. "She may not forgive you now, but she will, Edward. Eventually. Bella loves you, not matter what she said on tape and she even acknowledged it. Ask for her forgiveness, try to win her back. Who knows? You may get her back after all."

"But what about her?" I said. "Shouldn't I be the one to forgive her after what she did with Demetri?" I meant that another way but Alice and Rose both flared up at that.

"You idiot!" Alice shouted whilst Rose yelled, "You don't even understand, you ass!"

Alice continued, "Do you have any idea how Bella felt? She loves you Edward but that doesn't mean she's perfect. When Demetri came back, just imagine how Bella felt. She was guilty for everything she'd done to Demetri, a guy who had never hurt her but still ended up getting hurt and why was that? Because of you. Demetri never did anything wrong did he? He loved a girl who didn't love him back but was that really a crime? We don't have any control over we fall in love with, Edward. You know that as well as I do. Bella still felt attracted to him too. That made her feel even more guilty because of you again. And then her attraction towards Demetri made her feel confused? It made her think. Did she really love you as much as she thought she did? Or did she love Demetri too? You should've seen her Edward the day she came home after recording with Demetri." I looked at her shocked. What was she talking about?

Rose seemed to realize my confusion because she explained in an icy tone, "Bella and Demetri met the day after the ball to record. Bella didn't want to go at first but out of guilt she went. She didn't tell you because she was afraid you'd get mad."

I took in all of this whilst Alice carried on, "I've never seen Bella like that. She was so confused and she felt so guilty. It was tearing her apart, Edward. She tried to ignore what she felt to Demetri but when he told her that he still loved her last night and when he kissed her, she didn't stop him. She couldn't. I know that you think that by kissing him she was cheating on you but you have to understand, Edward: If you were attracted to your old girlfriend still, if you felt like she was still a person you could connect with, if you felt so torn between your current girlfriend and that old girlfriend and if you found out that she still loved you, wouldn't you kiss her back if she kissed you?"

I nodded slowly. Rose continued for Alice, "And if Bella saw you with her, do you think she would have gone and done what you did? Would she out of spite go and cheat on you with another guy? And do it right in front of you too? Just imagine Edward, how it would feel if you came upon the same scene as Bella? How would you feel?"

I imagined Bella with another guy kissing another guy out of pure malice and felt my heart break. "It would…hurt…so much," I whispered brokenly in the same tone as Bella had.

Alice persisted, "The kiss between Bella and Demetri…it wasn't out of spite like you did with Maggie. It was something that might have been an accident on Bella's part. Demetri isn't at fault either. He was just trying to win her back. He loves her Edward, maybe even more than you."

Rose finished for her, "And Bella doesn't love him. Not like she does you. And she knows it. Deep down, she knows who she loves most. And it's you. After all she did leave Demetri to go after you when you found them. She hasn't realized it yet but it's quite obvious by her actions."

Tears were flowing down my face as I felt the guilt for what I had done to Bella pile up higher and higher. It must have been higher than the tallest mountain by now.

"I have to win her back," I said quietly, "I have to try to apologize to her." I nodded as the resolve formulated in my mind. I wiped away the tears and looked at Alice.

"Alice, where is she?" I asked, begging for her to tell me. She surveyed me with her moss green eyes and sighed.

"She's at the studio. With Demetri. She was supposed to have a meeting today with the music producers." She gave me directions to the studio before smiling wryly, "Our little Bella may become a star."

Then she exhaled heavily. "Go, Edward," she ordered urgently. "Go before it's too late. If Bella signs that contract we could lose her forever." I looked at her puzzled and she sighed again and looked at Rose to continue as though she'd been tired out by all the talking.

"If she signs that contract," Rose carried on for Alice, "she'll go on tour with Demetri and we may never see her again. I'm sure she's probably thinking that if she takes the contract she could successfully avoid you for the rest of her life."

No, I thought, I can't let that happen. I thanked Rose and Alice quickly and received a stiff nod from Emmett and Jasper, a hug from Esme and an approving look from Carlisle.

I went upstairs and quickly threw on a t-shirt and jeans. Within less than five minutes, I was speeding away from the house in my Volvo. It was already 12:30. I had slept a long time and now, here I was going after the girl of my dreams to beg her forgiveness for being such an ass.

I reached the studio and was able to dazzle my way past the three skinny receptionists who giggled and flirted and slipped me their numbers before letting me pass. As soon I was clear of their stares which were boring hard into my butt, I crumpled up the numbers and threw them in the first trash can I saw.

They had directed me to a studio on the second floor and I walked into the elevator which had Taylor Swift and the Jonas Brothers looking stiff and uncomfortable. The atmosphere itself was taut as Joe and Taylor glared at each other and his other two brothers were trying their best to studiously ignore them. But I didn't stop to think about anything but my Bella. I concentrated on what I was going to say. But could you possibly say after all the crap I'd done?

As the elevator reached the second floor, I walked out of it as fast as I could to the studio that the receptionists had directed me to. I paused outside of the door my hand hovering above the door knob. I took a deep breath and grasped it. As soon as it was open, the air was filled with beautiful music. There were seven people inside the room, none of whom I recognized except Demetri. I poked my head in and no one even saw me. Their eyes were glued to Bella who was singing the most beautiful song. It was beautiful yes but filled with sadness. Bella was inside the other room recording the song and everyone's eyes were glued to her as she sang.

Baby, is this where our story ends
When I turn out the light
Fantasy and reality fight

It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder,
Could someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)

Someone wake me up

Even though it's over now, it still kills inside
'Cause for so long you have been my life

(Someone wake me up, someone wake me up)

She was singing about me I realized. My heart twisted painfully inside my chest. How could I have done this to her? She looked so beautiful, so sad. I had hurt so horribly. I was going to hell for sure after what I had done to my angel. She looked up from her playing and spotted me there. Her eyes went wide with shock and then settled into an emotionless mask. She looked at me her eyes shining with all the pain and hurt I had given her and began to sing, to sing to me.

oh, baby you were my first time
I will always keep you inside

She broke our connection and looked back down and sang the last few lines for the song. I couldn't take this. It was too much. I began to close the door before I realized that Demetri had seen me. He looked at me, his eyes not what I expected. Instead of looking angry, they looked at me with pain and understanding and he nodded ever so slightly. I closed the door and walked away.

I couldn't do it. I couldn't hurt her. Not again. I had already given her so much pain. I didn't want to hurt her anymore. Which is why from now on, I would leave her alone. I would let her go. She could be with Demetri if she liked. I didn't care for myself. As long as she was happy. Demetri would be able to keep her happy. And on the positive side, he would never hurt her, not like I did. It would kill me to give her up but this wasn't about me. It was about her and her happiness. As long as she was happy I was happy.

I will go away, I thought, to Dartmouth since Bella wouldn't be there. I'd immerse myself with pre-med and medical school and try my hardest to block out the pain I felt for losing my Bella. I'll do that, I thought, I'll go away from her life. Let her live her life free from any pain that I would undoubtedly give her again.

But as I walked to my car, I was attacked and when I looked at my attacker, I knew that my plan was never going to happen. Without a word, I was punched in the gut and I doubled over in pain. Then something was slipped over my mouth and everything was fading. I could feel myself being lugged into the trunk of my own car and feebly I tried to protest but in vain.

Then I knew no more.

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BPOV

"Alice? What happened to Edward?" I asked anxiously.

The she said those three words that tore me apart.

"He is missing," she sobbed.

"What?!" I yelled into the phone, horrified.

She sniffled, "He went out to the studio to apologize to you and no one has seen him since. Both he and his car are missing and the security camera footage showed him being mugged and carried away. We haven't been able to submit a missing persons report to the police yet since it hasn't been over forty eight hours but Carlisle called one of his friends and they've been helping us look for him."

"Oh my god," I whispered, starting to feel my eyes tear up. What had happened to my Edward? Then I realized what she'd said, "Wait, Alice, what do you mean to apologize?"

"Just that. We showed him the tape yesterday morning and he had to come to apologize to you. He didn't even remember a thing until we showed him the tape. He didn't mean a thing he said that night, Bella. He left right after that and that was the last time any of us saw him," she wept.

The tears split over as I remembered the last time I had seen him. "H-he was coming to apologize?" I said, stuttering over my words, as I began to cry. This was all my fault. If I hadn't gotten so mad at him, he would have never had to come to apologize and he wouldn't be missing now. I knew it was irrational but I couldn't help but feel responsible for this.

"Carlisle and the guys are out looking for him right now. Bella, please don't feel guilty about this. It isn't your fault. This is no one's fault. You get that right?" she said worriedly.

"Alice, I'll call you back later. Tell me if you hear anything okay?" I sobbed into the phone. She promised and we hung up.

I cried as I got up and got dressed in a purple t-shirt and dark blue jeans. I quickly put my hair up in a pony tail and slipped on my favorite black and white Converse. I wiped away my tears quickly and grabbed my jean jacket on the way out. I hopped into my car which had been returned by one of my friends sometime during the time I'd been asleep.

I was going to look for him myself if I had to. I knew it was completely stupid what I was doing. But I had to know if my love was all right. I knew that even if I found him I wouldn't be able to handle his kidnapper but as long as I could die with him, I was okay. I chuckled unstably at that. What a morbid thought.

I searched the streets for any hint of Edward's Volvo. I saw plenty Volvos; none of them were Edward's though. I searched my head for any place that would be a good hideout. Suddenly I was snapped out of my thoughts by my ringing phone.

I answered it and a familiar voice asked, "Bella? Bella is that you?"

"Chelsea?" I asked distractedly.

"Yes Bella, it's me Chelsea. I'm just calling to ask if you've seen or heard anything from Demetri," she said frantically.

"Um, no, why?" I asked, becoming alert at her panic-stricken voice.

She chuckled nervously. "It may be nothing but I'm getting a little worried right now. I haven't heard anything from Demetri since yesterday when we dropped him off at his house. He's not home, he's not at the studio, he's not with you, he's nowhere! And frankly I'm getting extremely anxious! I mean this is totally out of character for him! He never goes anywhere without telling someone where he's going! And I don't know who to call anymore!" she finished, her voice getting more and more hysterical with each word.

"Okay, okay, calm down Chelsea, calm down,. Now have you called his cell?" I soothed her.

She took a deep breath, "Thank you for that, Bella. Yeah I did until I found it outside his house abandoned near the place where we dropped him off. I'm really getting worried, Bella. This is just so bizarre even for him." She took another deep breath before continuing, "Just let me know if you hear anything from him okay?"

"Okay," I said before I hung up.

Two people were missing both of them extremely close to me. First Edward now Demetri. What was going on? Why was everyone disappearing all of a sudden? Could the same one be behind both missing persons? If so, why?

I had so many questions and zero answers. That was it. Time to find some answers. Nancy Drew, get ready for your debut.

Now I had two people to look for. My best friend and my boyfriend. Fiancé, I remembered looking down at the ring I still hadn't taken off.

Okay facts: Similarities between the two cases- they both happened during the period of yesterday afternoon and yesterday night. What else did Demetri and Edward have in common? They went to the same school; both were insanely gorgeous, good guys. Besides that, there wasn't much and then why would anyone use those reasons for kidnapping?

I took a deep breath and resumed my search also keeping an extra eye out for anything that might lead me to Demetri. Once again, my phone buzzed meaning I had a text.

I looked at the screen. It said:

New Text Message: Edward

Wait what? I thought looking at the screen in disbelief. How could Edward be texting me if he had gotten mugged and kidnapped? Could he have escaped somehow? Then why hadn't he returned home? I didn't know but all I knew that he must be safe to have been able to send me a text. I checked the message with fumbling fingers. It read:

Meet me at the Twilight café.

I was stunned. He wanted to go out now? When his family was going crazy looking for him? Why did he want to meet me anyway? Especially now of all times? What was going on?

This was definitely not the Edward I knew.

I was confused to say the least.

I pulled over at the café and parked. I unbuckled my seatbelt and sat against the seat. I inhaled deeply and closed my eyes. I tried to forget everything that had just happened. Now, I was going to see my boyfriend and question him. Perhaps maybe we could even work out our problems.

I got out of the car and walked into the café. The place was as usual, crowded and busy.

I walked about the café, scanning the faces I saw for Edward when I came across an eerily familiar face that was staring right at me.

I froze in horror.

I had never once thought of the other similarity between Edward and Demetri.

There was really something they had in common.

I had never once given a thought to the fact that they had both had a romantic relationship with the same person.

Namely, me.

And, I thought with growing horror, there was only one person who would hate them for it.

And that person was sitting right in front of me as casual as ever, leering at me.

Jacob.

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Yeah I know cliffhanger yet again…but ya gotta love the suspense huh?

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Okay, if you are a HUGE fan of Vampire Academy and have read the newest book Blood Promise: WHAT DID YOU THINK??!?!?!?!? I was stuck to the computer reading it and read from about nine PM to one AM until my mom caught me and had me put it down and then I got up five hours later to finish it out! Anyhoo, I was absolutely floored by that book. I screamed so many times it was sad. Especially with the last letter from you know who and after that I went to my mom and told her the entire story. And I hated five people in all during the book until the end where they all sucked it up and owned to either being good or evil. Those five people were: Adrian, Rose, Lissa, Dimitri and Avery. I like them all still except Avery but then if you read the book you'd know why. Dimitri I still love though he is indeed Strigoi. I did love Christian still though cuz he was the only sane through out the entire book. If you read the book, please tell me your thoughts because I'm bursting inside to talk to someone about it. If you don't read Vampire Academy I strongly recommend the series. It's the best! It's not similar to Twilight but it does have vampires and hot guys! And on the plus side, no werewolves! :D

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