I don't own Harry Potter.

I was awoken the next morning at seven on the dot. I rolled out of bed and grabbed my wand which was on the stand next to me.

"Thanks s lot" I smiled at Madam Pomfery.

"anytime you need a bed" she put a hand on my shoulder and a sad smile played across her face.

"you'll be my first stop" I said as I walked out of the infirmary. I jogged to the Gryffindor dorms and to my somewhat luck the common room was empty, everyone was probably at breakfast.

I took a quick shower and pulled my wet hair lazily back, I didn't bother with make up it wouldn't hide the red puffy eyes. I pulled on the customary uniform, and quickly grabbed my bag.

I hurried out of the dorms and to dada class with professor Lupin. I arrived a mere second before the bell, and to my unfortunate luck there were two seats open, It looked as if Alicia and Angelina had tried to save me a seat but their attempts were in vain. There was a seat by itself in the front and a seat that was across the isle from him.

I walked to the lone seat up front and saw the sympathetic look from the twins, Lee, and the girls. But what also didn't fail to skip my notice was who he was sitting with, Trisha.

I dropped my bag and sat down propping my head up on my hand so I couldn't see any of my friends or any other unwanted visuals.

When Lupin walked into class he simply raised his eyebrows when he saw I was sitting alone. But when he looked at me his eyebrow raise turned into a slight frown, probably at my red eyes.

"All right today class we will be working on the patronus charm. We will be in groups of four, I will give you one minute to set up your groups. Go." announced Lupin.

I was in a group with the girls and Lee, I had stayed seated and they surrounded me. The twins were working with him and Trisha. But neither looked to pleased about the situation.

"All right Mr. Jordan your group will be here" he pointed to one of the cleared out areas, and we walked to the designated spot.

Five minutes later everyone was settled in their locations and Lupin was ready to start. "We all have studied what to do, now we will be putting action behind it." he announced "May I have a volunteer?" he asked no one raised their hands.

"Miss Teagan why don't you come up here?" he said with a small smile.

I let out a breath and stepped to the front and stood next to him.

"Now I want you to think of an event so happy it' will bring a smile to your face" he said so the whole class.

"you've got to be kidding" I whispered so that I could barely hear myself.

"What was that?" inquired Lupin as if he'd heard me.

"nothing sir. Nothing" I whispered.

"All right now think of your happiest moment." he repeated.

( 'thoughts / memories', "speech")

'running around my house with my Hogwarts letter, finally proof that I was a witch, other than my parents saying that I would be since they were both magical as well'

"now repeat Expecto Patronum" came Lupins' voice.

"Expecto Patronum" I repeated as I opened my eyes not having realized I had shut them. A stream of white shot out of my wand but only started to form into an animal but stopped.

"Well done Miss. Teagan for a first try that was definitely outstanding. What were you thinking of?"

"When I got my Hogwarts letter." I replied softly.

"And you got that result? My dear try to think of something that had occurred recently that has made you happy and you will have the most effective patronus. Now go on think"

'Finally realizing that I am in love with Oliver. I was sitting on the ground in the common room studying in he walks and just sits in front of me. I looked up and he grabs my face softly and kisses me in a soft loving way.'

"EXPECTO PATRONUM!" I yell and a white beam shoots out of my wand in the form of a phoenix.

'When he pulled back, I had been to stunned to say anything. "I love you" he whispered "I love you Jamie Teagan, and I always will" he stood up and walked up the boys' staircase, leaving me behind.'

I held the patronous for about half a minute until I felt pressure being placed on my hand. I turned to Lupin who had gently pushed my arm down, and was met by a shocked face.

"Professor?" I asked in a small voice.

"That was a phoenix, I only know one other person that's a phoenix, and that's Dumbledore" he stammered to himself.

"Im sorry sir?" my smile started to fade, had I done something worng.

I looked over Lupins shoulder to seek help from my friends but wasn't offered any. All of them had the same expression of curiosity on their faces.

I chanced a look at him but I instantly regretted it. Instead of his warm brown eyes, I was met by the icy hazel glare of Trisha.

After a moment Trisha smirked she stepped behind him tip toed up and kissed the base of his neck; he jumped in surprise.

I quickly diverted my gaze and bit my lip to stop myself from crying. No matter how hard I would try, the image would be forever seared to my mind.

'Bloody hell you finally figured it out did you?" Fred had asked. I nodded in response, "I love him" came my whisper. At the word love all the boys jumped up and hugged me. "well you may want to tell 'im that" laughed Lee. I ran out to find Wood. I immediately went to the pitch knowing he would be there. I didn't see anyone on the pitch but opted for looking in the dressing rooms. I didn't care, I needed to find him. I walked into the boys; dressing room and immediately wished I hadn't. There was Wood in a full out snog session with Trisha LaVan. The door closed with a loud 'BANG!' and the two broke apart. "Jamie?" came Woods husky voice. I let out a sob and ran out of the dressing room'

I was gently shaken out of my stupor by professor Lupin. I felt the tears coming and knew the inevitable would happen. I would start balling again "Miss Teagan are you all right?" asked Lupin sympathetically.

"can I leave please?" I begged.

He looked at me with sad eyes probably matching my own, "yes you may. Do you need a friend to help you?"

I shook my head as I gabbed my bag and ran out of the room, not missing the pained looks in my friends eyes.

I ran to the music rooms, Hogwarts had a few rooms filled with instruments, my favorite being the piano.

I dropped my bag at the door and sat at the piano bench I took a deep breath and began to play. I didn't have sheets in front of me so I closed my eyes and let the music go where it pleased.

I the tune was a very sad one. But I hadn't really expected anything different after all I was crying while playing it wasn't going to be a sodding lullaby. I stopped when my tears had all been dried and my sobs were no more.

"That was quite lovely Miss Teagan" came a voice from behind me.

I turned slowly and was met by Lupins' small smiling gaze.

"Thank you sir" I smiled in return.

"Now Miss Teagan, I may not be a girl nor an adolescent but I have a fair guess as to why you are crying." he started softly.

"Well Im just an open book aren't I?" I laughed a small laugh.

"ahh but you aren't honestly. Now can I tell you something, and keep in mind this is coming from a person who used to be a teenage boy, It's really not worth crying over us" his smile became a bit pronounced.

I let out a small giggle. "Im fine, really"

"Well, Miss Teagan I think your tears say something different" he nodded to me and left the room.