I'm really nervous about this Chapter… I'm not sure if it's any good but I'm hoping for the best.
So, I got a couple of private messages asking me what if I had a specific song in mind of what Edward's lullaby to Bella sounded like. And yes I do have something in mind. I have the link up in my profile along with a couple of other songs. So check them out! His lullaby is the Evanescence's piano tribute piece for "Imaginary" I think it fits perfectly!
Anyways, I'd like to throw out there 3 of my favorite Fics that you all should read. They are all pretty long, but they are complete and amazing! The info on them will be in my bottom AN with their links!
Enough with the long ass AN Jan! Start the chapter already! OK, okay… Here's the next Chapter!
Lights! Camera! …Read!
Edward's POV
I drove as fast as I could. I had to clear my mind. I don't know what is going on with me. It was so unlike me to be so rude and leave like that. Where did all these alien feelings come from? Why was I full of jealous rage?
I took the turn off and I saw the first few homes at the entrance of La Push. I sometimes came out here to think and get away from everyone.
My family isn't allowed to step on Quileute grounds, so I knew they couldn't follow me.
Of course they'll be upset with me now. And I'm sure they'll be even more upset at the timing I chose to disappear from Alice's radar. I hope they don't worry too much about me though.
They know the wolves wouldn't hurt me unless I threatened them or was a vampire.
I drove to the other end of La Push where First Beach was. At this time of day there shouldn't be very many people there and it would be the perfect place to just sit and think without the invasion of their thoughts passing by.
I parked in the vacant parking lot and took my shoes off leaving them in the car. I rolled up my pant legs so I could walk down along the shore. I love walking down the beach's edge and letting the waves crash down on me, the sound is very soothing. I looked out into the water; it's quite the beautiful sight. Crystal clear waters, soft white sand, and farther down the shore there are big rocky cliffs the Quileute boys sometimes jump off of for recreation. I've always thought about trying that one day, but I can never seem to have the guts to do it.
I walked along the shore and climbed up the rocky cliff. Once I got to the top I sat on the edge with my legs over the side. This was my favorite place to just sit and get away from the outside world; the perfect place to think.
I thought about what happened today. I knew this day would come sooner or later. The Volturi isn't just something you can avoid. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't at least a little frightened. They could very well just kill me for knowing their secrets. I don't think I have to worry so much about it though. My father was a good friend of theirs, I'm sure he'll work something out.
What I couldn't help but worry about was the Volturi that did come, Demetri. Will he take my Bella away? I'd hate to loose my best friend. And is he her mate? It seemed like it. I still don't see why she didn't tell me about him though. I thought she could tell me anything. Why would she keep him a secret? Is there something I'm missing here?
Jealous, I was definitely jealous that he could give her things I could not. Is he an exception to her usual rules? Is he the only one allowed to get her expensive gifts? Would she rather his surprises? His company?
I was mostly jealous that he could be in such close proximity to her. I could barely be that close to her without having her bloodlust going through the roof. Which makes me feel horrible for doing that to her. I must have tortured her last night with asking her to stay with me in my room. I know I'm a constant temptation to her. How could I have been so selfish?
I only wish I could make it easier for her. I know that when bloodlust takes over, it would be instinct for her to drain me. If she were to accidentally kill me I would never be angry or blame her for my death, no one should. What would hurt me the most is the pain it would cause her to have to live the rest of eternity knowing she gave into temptation, that she had taken my life.
God, I have to stop thinking that. She can control herself. She would never be able to hurt me like that, I'm sure of it.
But what's going to happen now? She said she missed him too. Will she leave Forks? Alice? …Me?
I sighed. I need to stop thinking about her. It's not like she's mine. She has the right to do as she pleases and leave if she wants. But I know I'll feel like an empty shell again if she decides to just leave me here alone.
I pushed those thoughts to the back of my mind. I didn't want to dwell on the 'what if'.
I breathed in deeply and smelled the salty beach air. This place is so beautiful, even the smells are exquisite. I should come here more often.
I'd love to have my family join me for a day at the beach. But they can't necessarily get up and go to the beach or go on any regular vacations and what not when ever they feel like it. Being vampires limits them to where they can and can't go, and when we can go.
I'm sure six sparkly creatures and I would definitely catch the attention of clueless humans enjoying their sunny day at the beach.
It's frustrating not being able to do normal human activities.
We can't do anything together out in the sun. No beach, no swimming, no sailing, we can't go on a cruises, or go to the park and spend a sunny day there lounging. Of course we could do those things in the rainy or cloudy day, I suppose, but where's the fun in that? We can't go to school on sunny days because we have to give the excuse of 'camping'. But we never really go camping. They'd go hunting or do their own thing. I mostly just sit around the house doing nothing in particular just waiting until the next boring day came. I think I would actually enjoy a real day of camping, but there's the risk of exposure still with the rest of them there. And it wouldn't be any fun going camping by myself.
We could never really play sports together. Yes, we do still play them, but the game is never fair. I know they always hold back, it's not fun for either of us. I usually just give up during the game. They pretty much always win anyway, and when I 'win' I know that it's just because they let me win.
Then of course there are things on my own I'm not able to do, due to family "camping" trips and all the constant moving. I never try to make friends in fear of losing them. I never play on school sports teams because there is always that possibility of never finishing the season. Not only that, but if I had a game my family probably wouldn't be able to show up to any of the games anyways. I'd rather them be there for me if I was to play.
I always have to be on constant alert at home and at school making sure I never hurt myself. If I were to spill any blood, anyone in my family could slip up and kill me in a split second decision. It only takes one stupid mistake to mess everything up.
I know that first hand. I've seen it happen dozens of times.
We're always moving around because of it. Everyone has slipped up at least once, except for Carlisle and Esme.
Jasper is usually the worst about. His slip ups are more often, but I can understand why. He's the newest to try their diet. It's not easy for him to be around so many humans all the time. It must be horrible for him to have to feel all the emotions of disappointment thrown at him by the rest of us when he does mess up and we have to leave.
Alice is probably the least to slip up. She's always at least a little helpful when it came to prevention. She usually got a vision about it before hand and everyone would be on alert. But there are some times when split decisions are made, causing her to not see what will happen. She always blames herself every time someone does mess up. She thinks it's her responsibility to watch out for those things. When she misses something she feels it's her fault for not doing something to prevent it in time.
Rosalie always angered me the most when it came to these things. She's had quite a few scandalous 'slip ups'. The three people she "accidentally" killed seemed to have been popular girls who were known to flirt and tried to get the attention of Emmett. No one dares to talk about her fuck ups out loud though. I always had the feeling she really did kill them on purpose. I'm still pissed off at her for being so rude to Bella all the time for almost killing me. That incident was a lapse in control, an accident. So she has no right to judge Bella on honest mistakes.
Then there's Emmett. It's hard for me to think that Emmett could lose control like he has done at some point or another. He's the typical protective older brother always looking out for me. Though sometimes, to me anyways, he's like an over grown 5 year old. Then again, to anyone else besides my family he looks huge and deathly terrifying. The last time we had to move it was because of one of his mishaps. One day during school, this shy girl that always stayed away from everyone, fell and hurt her knee leaving a gash and blood flow. Emmett was the only one close by. He hadn't hunted for a few weeks and when he got a whiff of her blood he couldn't help himself. He whisked her away into an empty class room and drank her dry. We had to stage her death as an accident before we left.
When something like that happens we just move and try to look the other way. I try not to think of those times but every day is a constant reminder of what could happen. I guess that's just what pushed me over the edge, it made my decision to stay human. How could I live with myself if I ever slipped up? Not only that, but I want to try my hardest to just be normal.
As much as I love my family, I still don't think I could become a vampire. Just being in this family has already deprived me so much of a 'normal' childhood. I want to experience college, and love, and maybe build my own family one day.
Could I really go on living like this over and over again? Should I stay and keep myself in constant danger? Would I eventually be happy? Would they forgive me for going my own, separate way?
My thoughts came back to think of Bella, sweet innocent Bella. She has such a pure heart. I feel like I'm too selfish when it comes to her. She's the first true best friend I have. I have long since forgiven her for what happened when we first met. I could never keep a grudge. I had no idea then that I would become so close to her now. I really don't want to lose what we have.
And then it hit me.
When I leave my family, I'd be leaving Bella too.
My stomach tightened and I felt sick. A life without Bella?
I've only had her in my life for such a short time. It just doesn't seem fair that it will end all too soon. What if I never see her again after graduation? What if she did want to leave with Demetri?
I want Bella in my life. I feel like if I left her or she left me, my life would be incomplete.
My body felt weak and my vision blurred.
I composed myself and looked out into the distance again. I must have been caught up in my thoughts for hours. It was now twilight and I was still sitting at the cliffs.
What's he doing here again?
I quickly turned around to look for the thought's owner.
"Jacob."
"What are you doing here, Cullen?" he asked.
"Just needed to get away."
"Oh." He walked over and sat next to me. "Family problems again?"
I met Jacob a couple of months ago when I first started to come out to La Push to think. The first day we met, his pack was a little hostile towards me at first. He and his pack had caught my scent around town and confronted me. With my scent mixed strongly with the scent of vampire, they were on alert. When they found out I was human and that I was a Cullen, they weren't pleased at all. I told them my story of how they raised me as a son and they were a little uneasy about it. Jacob agreed since I was human I would be allowed on their land. He stayed with me awhile after his pack left that day and we talked for awhile. He was intrigued that my family had me with them. He never really gave much thought that vampires had the capability to love and care for anyone. But then he remembered that they weren't 'normal' vampires to begin with so he accepted the fact that they must be different in many ways.
After that day, I usually ran into him again every once in awhile. We would sit and talk to catch up. We weren't really friends but he was good company. He always seemed to give great advice when it came to family or school problems though. It's kind of ironic that a werewolf would give family advice to a human with a vampire family.
"Uh, sort of."
"Girl problems?" he asked.
I frowned and looked away from him to stare at the crashing waves on the rocks beneath us.
"I see." He said. "Want to talk about it?"
I sighed. "I don't know. It's just, there's this girl and we pretty much became really close friends. We tell each other everything, well at least I thought we did…" he listened intently. "and well, I found out today that she might have a…boyfriend. She didn't tell me about him and now I'm worried it'll mess up our friendship. I think she might be leaving Forks with him now too." I frowned.
"Do you like her?" he asked.
"Of course I like her. She's my best friend..."
"No, I mean do you like her, like her?"
"What? No. I mean…I don't know. I can't explain it. She's special to me but it's just, complicated."
"Well it looks like you have two options. But before any decisions, you have to figure out what you're true feelings are."
"And what would those two options be?"
"Option 1 is to let her go and let her do what ever she wants. Option 2 is to fight for her to stay in your life."
"I can't fight for her…she isn't mine to fight for…"
"Then maybe you know what option to choose already. Just make sure you follow through with the option you could live with for the rest of your life. You don't want to regret it later."
"You know Jacob, if our families weren't mortal enemies, we could have been really good friends." I smiled.
He chuckled. "Doesn't mean we still can't be. Come on, you need a little fun in your life. Billy's having a barbeque tonight. Want to join us?"
"Sure. I really don't want to go back home right now anyways. And I haven't had anything to eat all day…"
We walked through the beach and back to the parking lot where I had left my car earlier in the day. Jacob had walked to the beach so I offered to drive us there.
When we got to his house there was a lot of Quileute's wolves present. Most of them, the older wolves from the pack, didn't like that I was there. But with Jacob being the Alpha and him inviting me, they really didn't have a say.
Jacob introduced me to some of the younger ones that had recently turned. They were the easier ones to talk to. They were Quil, Leah, and Seth. Quil was the oldest of the bunch and Seth was the youngest. I learned that Leah and Seth were siblings. I felt a bit sad for them. They are so young, and it's my family's presence in Forks that started the chain reaction of their change.
They weren't sad about it at all though. Especially Seth, he's extremely excited to join the pack. He says that running is amazing and he couldn't think of a better way to travel.
The rest of the night seemed to pass in a flash.
Next thing I knew I was waking up on the beach by a lit bonfire.
I shot up, startled but then I saw Jacob sitting next to me.
"Hey. Sleeping Beauty finally woke up." He laughed loudly.
"How long was I out?"
"Not that long."
"What time is it?"
"2:45am."
"Shit. My family must be worried sick!"
"It's cool. I called them earlier and told them you fell asleep and that I'd call them back when you woke up. You'll be home soon."
I stood up only to stumble around. I was still half asleep and tired as hell.
"I don't think you're in any condition to be driving. Come on, I'll drive you."
He took my keys before I could complain and dragged me to my car. We drove in silence until he broke it.
"So, tell me a little more about this girl of yours…"
"She's not mine. But, she's smart and beautiful, a very unique being."
"What's her name?"
"Bella." I said with a smile.
He laughed.
"What so funny?"
"Nothing, just the way you look when you talk about her. Are you sure you don't like her? I mean maybe you could just deck the other guy and win her over."
I looked out the window staring off at nothing.
"No, it's…complicated."
The rest of the ride was quiet and then we reached my house.
"Oh shit, Jacob. How will you be getting home now?"
"Cullen. You know very well I don't need a car to get around."
"Right."
We got out of the car and walked to the porch where Mom and Dad were waiting.
"Hey mom. I'm sorry I'm late." I winced. I knew what would come next.
"Edward Anthony Masen Cullen! Do you have any idea how worried we were?" She said sternly.
I frowned. She rushed over and embraced me in a hug.
"I'm just glad you're home now." She whispered in my ear.
Dad stepped out towards Jacob and held out his hand to him. Jacob hesitated a little but took his hand anyways to shake.
"Thank you for making sure my son got home safely."
"Sure, sure." He said before he turned back to look at me. "See you around, Cullen."
I walked inside with my head hung low and my parents at my side.
They went to sit in the living room where Alice and Jasper were. They all looked disappointed.
I just stood there listening to their thoughts.
I can't believe he spent the day with wolves. He knows I can't see them…
What has him so depressed?
Poor Dear. He looks so tired. He hasn't been getting much sleep lately…
I wish he would have waited until after Demetri and Bella left to go anywhere.
My breath caught at my father's thoughts. Did she leave with him already? She didn't even say goodbye…
Before anyone could say anything out loud and stop me, I started to walk up to my room. All I wanted to do right now was take a cold shower, go to sleep and forget about this whole day.
As I reached the top step I heard a howl break in the distance.
Bella's POV
I drove up to the house and parked by the garage. I stepped out of the car and the smell hit me like a brick wall.
Werewolf.
And the scent was mixed with Edward's.
As I turned the corner of the house, walking towards me was a large rustic man, very tan with long black hair. His scent made me wince and I instinctively crouched low in stance.
"Who are you?" I hissed.
"I think the question is, who are you vamp girl?"
I hissed again but remembered the treaty the Cullen's had in place with the Quileute tribe. I stood up from my crouch.
"Isabella Swan. I'm a friend of the Cullen's."
"Bella?" he said.
I turned my head slightly to the right confused.
"So that's why it's complicated…" he continued.
He laughed for few seconds before becoming serious.
"I'm the Quileute Pack Alpha, Jacob Black. Do you plan on staying permanently here now? You're scent in town is very strong."
"Yes, I moved here a little over two months ago. I have an apartment in town."
"Are you familiar with the treaty we have with the Cullen's?" He asked.
"Yes. And I agree to stay within the treaty's boundaries. There will be no problems from me."
"Good. I would feel more comfortable if we made it official. I will send my second in command with the treaty here tomorrow for you to read and sign it."
"Very Well, I will be here waiting." He nodded and ran off through the woods and disappeared.
A howl ripped through the quiet night sky.
I walked towards the front door as Alice walked out.
"Hey." She greeted "Sorry I didn't warn you about the dog."
"Alice, don't call him that it's rude!" I heard Esme snap from the living room.
We walked in and sat in the living room. Jasper, Carlisle, and Esme were already there.
I sighed.
"Where's Edward?" I asked.
"In his room. He doesn't want to talk to anyone. Jasper says he's feeling angry and depressed."
"What, why?" I asked.
"I don't know. You'll have to ask him."
I listened upstairs and heard running water. I sat with them in the living room for awhile mostly in silence.
"We're all going hunting tonight." Alice broke the silence.
"Oh."
"Bella, will you please stay and take care of Edward until we get back? I'm a little worried about him."
"Sure. I'll stay with him. But why are you worried?"
"When I got my vision back after the do-wolf left, I looked into his future to see what was wrong with him and well, it's fuzzy…"
"Fuzzy? Has the happened before? What does it mean?" I asked anxiously.
"No. It hasn't. So you can understand why I would be a little worried."
I nodded.
After a few minutes I decided to go up to Edward's room and wait for him to get out of the shower so we could talk. I wanted to know what was wrong.
I waited on his couch. I distracted myself while waiting by taking in his strong lingering scent. The water stopped and a minute later Edward walked in.
The light was off so he couldn't see me sitting there. I stopped my breathing.
Edward was standing a few feet away from me. He was only in a towel.
It was wrapped up around his lower waist. His body was glistening with water droplets. I took in his godly body and imprinted it into my memory to remember it forever.
His legs are pure muscle cut perfectly, strong sturdy. The towel clung to his moist body just under his V cut stomach. The rest of his stomach was completely flat. I could tell it was tight but smooth muscle, it's just not as cut as his calves are. His chest perfectly chiseled. His arms have the right amount of muscle in the right places that involuntarily flexed as he reached into his dresser looking for clothes to put on. His jaw, perfectly squared off, raised cheek bones. His wet bronze hair was gently placed in a messy array over his forehead. And his eyes…those emeralds. They seemed to be glowing in the dim moon light.
After taking in his breath taking appearance, I cleared my throat to let him know I was there. He jumped, startled.
"Shit Bella, you scared the hell out of me."
"I'm sorry." I said frowning.
He walked into his closet and came back out in just sweat pants.
He should have put a shirt on. His body was such a distraction. I took a deep breath and instantly regretted it. His scent was exhilarating, clean and savory. He smelled so much better after a shower. I should remember that.
My venom pooled a bit but I swallowed it immediately and closed my eyes to control myself. I took only small breathes to get used to his scent again.
When I opened my eyes he was sitting on his bed staring at me.
"Bella, what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be with Demetri?"
"Uh, actually he left for Volterra already."
"Oh, you'll be going back there won't you?"
"Yes, but not this soon. I have to wait for Demetri to-"
"Bella," he cut me off, "I'm tired. I need sleep."
"Oh." I said releasing a deep breath.
He frowned.
He's acting so weird. He looks like someone has just punched him in the stomach.
I rushed over to him and grabbed his hand in mine. He responded by pulling it out of mine quickly.
He doesn't want me to touch him…
"Edward, are you feeling well?"
I was really starting to get concerned. He's never acted this way.
He's angry? Depressed? It seems like he doesn't want me near him at all right now. What's going on?
"I'm fine. I'm just…tired, is all."
"Oh." I said again this time turning my face away from him utterly confused.
I can tell he's tired but there's definitely something wrong. Something he's holding back.
"I'll let you sleep then. Everyone has left to hunt. But I'll be downstairs if you need anything." He turned away from me and lay in bed with out another word. He didn't even want to look at me.
It hurt.
I desperately longed for him to grab hold of my arm again as I turned away just like the pervious night. But that didn't happen. I walked out of the room and started down the stairs at a slow human pace.
If I could only read his mind without letting him read mind in return, I'd do it now.
I'm so confused. Am I just overreacting? Maybe he really was just tired.
When I reached the bottom of the stairs I just stood their not wanting to move, not wanting to feel. But I wouldn't let myself go numb.
I wish I could show him just how much he really means to me.
Edward's POV
"Shit Bella, you scared the hell out of me."
Was she trying to give me a heart attack?
"I'm sorry." I said frowning.
I noticed I was still only in just a towel. How embarrassing…
I went into my closet to get dressed. I put on a pair of old sweat pants and sat in bed. I looked at Bella and saw her with her eyes closed. She was taking short, shallow breaths.
When she opened her eyes, I could tell she was having some trouble with her thirst. Her eyes were a dark, almost black, brown color. Even with her thirst pulling at her for me, I couldn't help but still lose myself in her deep brown eyes.
"Bella, what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be with Demetri?"
It pained me to think of her with him.
"Uh, actually he left for Volterra already."
"Oh, you'll be going back there won't you?"
If she says yes, have I lost her forever?
"Yes, but not this soon." Not soon, but eventually. My stomach tightened. When she leaves it's going to kill me. "I have to wait for Demetri to-"
"Bella," I cut her off before she could continue. "I'm tired. I need sleep."
"Oh."
I frowned. I didn't want to know anything else about him and her. It would just hurt more.
She came over to me and grabbed my hand in hers. I had to drop it. I didn't want to get any closer to her if she's just going to turn around and leave.
"Edward, are you feeling well?"
"I'm fine. I'm just…tired, is all." I'm not fine at all, but I am tired. I just didn't want to have to deal with all of this right now.
"Oh." Was all she said before standing up and walking out the door.
As I heard the door click shut I sat straight up in bed and just looked outside the window, up at the stars. I wanted to clear my mind. I didn't want to let any emotions out. I just wanted to sit and just be with no interruptions.
I slowly found myself drifting in to sleep.
When I woke up in the morning, I heard a soft tinkering noise coming from down stairs.
My eyes strained for awhile from the bright sun seeping through my window. I pulled the shades down to block it so my eyes could adjust.
The tinkering continued. I got up and put on a pair of jeans and a button up shirt.
I listened for thoughts around me but there was nothing but that tinkering noise.
I was walking down the stairs when all of a sudden, the tinkering stops. I walked a little quicker now.
As I made it to the last step of the stairs, music started to play. But it wasn't just any music, it was my piano playing that music.
I continued to walk my way towards the soft eerie melody. I stood before the doorway to my music room. I was about to open it as I heard the most angelic sounding voice sing from behind the door.
Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The life that flows inside of you
Burns inside of me
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
My breathing caught.
Tell me you will live through this
And I will die for you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot
Bear it all alone
I slowly opened the door and stepped in.
Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, No
I couldn't believe the scene in front of me. It was heavenly.
Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away
She looked so graceful and angelic. Completely perfect.
You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant,
too shameful for us to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the imprint is always there.
I walked over beside her cautiously.
The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual
Shame we hide our eyes
To blind them from the truth
That finds a way from who we are
She turned her head to look over at me. I hoped she wouldn't stop playing because of my presence.
Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dawn will break the silence
Screaming in our hearts
My love for you still grows
This I do for you
Before I try to fight the truth my final time
She continued but moved over on the bench to give me room to sit.
Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, No
You're not alone, honey.
Never... Never
I sat next to her and she gave me a smile that made her glow.
But the imprint is always there.
Nothing is ever really forgotten.
God, please don't hate me
Because I'll die if you do.
The notes began to fade as she whispered the last lyric.
Because I'll die if you do.
She took her hands off the keys and put them on either side of her holding on to the bench. I still had my eyes on her. She had her eyes at her lap, but finally looked at me.
We gazed in to each other's eyes for a few moments and she gave me another heart stopping smile. Then she bit her lower lip.
"That was…Bella, your voice…It's beautiful."
"Thanks, I…I wrote this last night." She paused. "I just felt like I had to write my feelings and thoughts down. I don't want to hold back anymore." And then she looked away.
I thought about the lyrics I just heard. They were pretty deep and dark. It was very intense.
Could she be talking about…No she couldn't…
In mid-thought, she suddenly placed her hands on the keys again and started playing a very familiar tune.
"Clair De Lune?" I asked surprised that she would learn to play it.
"Yeah, I learned it last night after I wrote my song…It's one of my favorites. I found it with your music sheets. I hope you don't mind me going through them… I won't go through them again if it bothers you. I'm sorry."
She's looks so adorable when she rambles.
I just smiled at her and said, "It's one of my favorites too."
Her face lit up and on her perfect marble lips she gave me the most beautiful smile I have yet to see from her. She truly was an angel.
I felt my heart skip a beat. At that moment I felt my whole body ripple with the tension of realization. I felt like I was gasping for air.
I can't lose her. I won't lose her. I need her. I want her. I'll fight for her. I…I love her….I love her.
How could I not have realized this until now?
It's the only thing that makes sense.
How could I have been so blind?
I love Isabella Marie Swan.
"Bella…" I breathed.
"Hmm…?" she hummed as she continued to play.
Would I tell her?
What if she doesn't feel the same?
Would she leave sooner?
What would happen to our friendship?
Would I lose her?
"Um…Thank You." I said as I mentally slapped myself.
"Oh…for what?" she looked a little disappointed.
What is she thinking?
"For being such a great friend." Damn, but how I long now to be so much more…
She just gave me a small smile as she continued to play.
I decided to join her and played an accompany piece to the song on my side of the piano.
I'll fight for her.
Ok, so I hope you all don't hate this chapter! I tried really hard…
The song that Bella 'writes' is an Evanescence song called "Understanding (Wash It All Away)"
I really liked the lyrics and I thought it goes well with how Bella feels at that moment. The only thing is that this song doesn't really have much of a piano piece to it so I imagined her song to have these lyrics (which I rearranged the order of), accompanied with the piano tribute piece of the song "My Last Breath" It's sort of dark and gets lighter in some parts of it. I was going for a pretty pessimistic sounding song just so that you could understand how hard Bella's taking the whole leaving Edward human thing. Cause she knows if he stays like that, he'll eventually die and she'll be lost without him.
I have links on my profile to the songs I've mentioned so you can hear what I think their songs sound like!
And please don't hate me if you don't like the wolves! =P
I've always liked the wolves…especially Jacob. BUT just to be clear: I didn't like him at all with Bella. lol Ok so that aside, I wanted him in my story and some of the other characters but I didn't want too much drama between them and the Cullen's.
I know my Edward probably seems a bit OOC…But yeah he's human so I didn't want him to be completely self-loathing, you know? Technically he's not a monster =P
My list of favorite Fics you all just HAVE to read, cause of their awesomeness:
BD: Immortal Soulsby Nostalgicmiss (Supernatural)
Link: s/4448128/1/BD_Immortal_Souls
It's an alternate Breaking Dawn! I have to say, as much as I loved Breaking Dawn and thought it was a perfect way to end the story, my opinion changed as soon as I read Immortal Souls. By far the best work I've read on FanFiction! (Totally has an awesome battle scene and plot!)
The Antidoteby jandco (Supernatural)
Link: /s/4636693/1/The_Antidote
This is a really interesting twist on the whole "La Tua Cantante" It takes affect right after Edward drinks Bella's blood and takes James' venom from her body. This story was written beautifully and I swear it's probably one of the best alternate endings to the series. Give it a chance!
Making Love Out Of Nothing At Allby Ashel_13(All Human)
Link: s/4060407/1/Making_Love_Out_Of_Nothing_At_All
Ashel is amazing! Read this fic, it has 80 Chapters! Seriously, you will not be disappointed. Especially if you love LEMONS! Lol. I love all of Ashel's fics go read them!