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Lights! Camera! …Read!
Edward's POV
I woke up, the light blinded me slightly. I looked for Bella but she wasn't in my room.
I listened for thoughts around me but everything was silent.
I got up and walked out the door. "Bella?" I called out. There was no answer. I looked in all the rooms on my floor. She wasn't in any of them. I made my way to the next floor and did the same, she was still no where to be found.
"Bella?" I called out again as I reached the last step, walking into the living room. "You down here?"
Tap.
Tap. Tap.
Tap.
I followed the tapping to my music room. I opened the door anxiously.
She was sitting on the couch, Indian style. She had headphones in her ears and a Biology book in her lap. She was moving her head to the music and keeping the beat by tapping her pen on the edge of the book.
She closed her eyes briefly and I heard her inhale deeply.
"Good Morning, Edward." She said right before turning to look at me with her 'dazzling' smile.
She swiftly ran to me in less than a second and placed a chaste kiss on my lips.
"You're going to be late if you don't hurry and get dressed."
I looked at her confusingly. Was it Monday already?
"Late?" I asked.
"Yeah, Come on. I'll help you get ready." She slightly lifted me up and we were in my room in 2 seconds flat. I was set down and she rushed into my closet.
"You should wear this one today. You always look quite handsome in it." She said as she handed me a dark grey suit. I furrowed my brows in confusion.
"Why would I wear that to school?"
She frowned and kissed my lips urgently. She pulled away but quickly brought me in a hug, holding me close to her. I could feel her chest heaving.
"Bella? What's wrong, love?"
I pulled her away from my chest to look at her.
"Oh, I'm sorry, Edward! It just gets to me sometimes…"
"What does?"
She looked down, not wanting to meet my eyes.
"When your memory slips like that…I just can't help but feel scared…Scared that you'll forget me too."
"Bella…" I cupped her cheek. "I would never forget you." I leaned down and kissed her. I then placed my forehead on hers. She half smiled and handed me the suit again.
"Get dressed. We don't have much time left. Your meeting is at 9 and I have to be at school at 8:30. I'll go make you something to eat while you finish up."
I was beyond confused but nodded anyways.
I took a few steps towards the bathroom but I suddenly felt dizzy. Bella caught me as I started to stumble.
"Hey are you ok? Would you like me to call Carlisle?" she asked concerned.
"No, I'm fine." I stood up and steadied myself.
"Are you sure?" She frowned.
"Yeah. I'll meet you downstairs for breakfast." I smiled.
She nodded and walked out of the room without another word.
I walked over to my dresser to get a pair of boxers but found the drawer to be filled with night shirts that I assumed were Bella's.
Slightly covered by a pair of silk shorts, I found a couple of pictures.
They were of Bella and different men next to her. One had her on a couch on top of some guy. I couldn't see his face because her hair covered it. Another was her and someone that looked about 30 something and she was kissing him. The last one was her hugging a guy that looked old enough to be her father.
I felt instantly angry and jealous. Who the hell were these men...and more importantly why was Bella with them…
"Bella…"
She was in my room instantly. Her smile fell when she saw the pictures in my hands.
"Oh…I'm sorry… please don't be mad." She walked over and took the pictures out of my hand placing them back in the drawer. "I know you don't like seeing them…But I like to look back at them sometimes."
I opened my mouth to ask her why and who they were but she just placed her finger on my lips to silence me. "We'll talk about it later, right now you have to finish so we can go."
She pushed me towards my bathroom. I turned the shower on and went to the sink to brush my teeth.
In front of me a man with a wrinkled face and very pale skin stared back at me. His hair was grey with hints of bronze. Slightly over weight with broad shoulders. He looked about 65, give or take a few years.
His eyes suddenly widened and he had a shocked expression on his face.
I raised my hand to touch the mirror and the old man raised his hand as well. I took a step back when I came to realization.
That's… me?
What the hell is going on…
I felt a sharp pain in my arm. I clutched onto a towel rack as fell backwards causing it to come down with me. My chest tightened and my breathing was erratic.
"Edward, is everything alright in there?" I heard from the other side of the door.
I tried to call for her but I was gasping for air now.
"Edward?" The door opened and she stepped in. "Edward! Oh god, what's wrong? What happened?!"
"Bella, I…" I gasped.
"NO, Edward don't leave me!"
Everything went black as I heard her scream out in agony.
I sprung up and was panting hard, sweat was running down my face.
Good lord. I was having a nightmare…
I leaned over my body with my elbows on the bed as I buried my face in my hands.
What the hell was that about?
"You ok?"
I twisted around to face Alice sitting on my couch.
"What are you doing here Alice? Where's Bella?" I asked anxiously.
She sighed.
"I had a vision last night that you had a nightmare and told Bella about it when you woke up. After you told her, she freaked out and thought you didn't want to be with her." She paused. "So last night after you fell asleep, I told her since she's going to be spending a lot of time with you now that she should go hunting more often. I suggested she go with Jasper a couple of hours ago. She should be back soon. I'm sorry. I just thought it would be best if you didn't tell her about your dream, at least not right now."
I nodded.
"So you know what my dream was about?" I asked.
"Yeah."
"What do you think it means?"
"I'm not sure…But it could probably be just your subconscious creating a scenario on how things could be with you and Bella years from now. You alright though?"
"I don't know. I can't really tell how I feel right now…"
She gave me a sad smile and then stood up to kiss my forehead.
"Everything will be ok." Yes everything will be ok. It has to be.
"Thanks." I said as she walked out of the door.
I let myself fall back onto my bed.
How do I feel about all this?
Will I be able to live out my life and grow old with a never aging Bella by my side?
Will things get so crazy as to where I have to introduce her as my daughter instead of my girlfriend, my partner, my wife?
I was knocked out of my thinking with a vision Alice had.
"Well, we thought it would be nice to spend the holidays with our extended family." Eleazar said. Dad shook his hand and smiled.
Carmen, Kate, Irina, and Tanya stepped into the house while the rest of my family appeared to greet them.
"It's wonderful to see you guys again!" Tanya said excitedly. "Where's Edward?!"
Well this should be an interesting visit.
Edward, they'll be here in about an hour. So get dressed and come downstairs. Esme has breakfast made for you already.
Alice's voice rang in my head. It was going to take some getting use to having everyone know I can read their minds now.
I hadn't seen Tanya and the rest of the Denali coven in over three years now. I wondered if it would be a little awkward between Tanya and me.
We had lived in Alaska the last time I saw her. We were starting to become friends but then we left when my parents became a little worried about her.
It all started with my curiosity on her control over human blood. Tanya, along with Kate and Irina, has a habit of dating humans and I didn't see how that could be possible.
"Tanya, can I ask you something?" I asked.
"Sure, what's up?"
"Well I was just wondering…how you keep so much control when you're…you know…with a human. I mean being a vampire around humans is already hard enough, right? How do you manage to have relationships with them, and let alone kiss them…and… with, with the bloodlust and all… I don't understand how…"
She giggled and I blushed.
"Well it's not easy. The bloodlust is still there. I usually warn them the best I can without actually telling them I'm a vampire, I tell them to take things slow. You know, no sudden movements, no groping me, not too much tongue. Ect. Ect."
"Oh…" I said as my cheeks flushed redder.
"Why the sudden interest though? You want to date me or something?" she asked nudging my shoulder.
"No! I was just curious. I never thought it was possible is all. You must have a hell of a lot of control."
She smiled.
"Well, I've had a lot of years of practice. And I've gotta say, having sex with humans is much better than with vampires. So it's good that I can control myself to be able to…well just enough control anyways." She said in a cocky tone.
"Jeeze Tanya. I asked about your control not your sex life!" I laughed.
She rolled her eyes. "Well, I'll see you later. I have a…a date."
"Mhm."
Later that night I heard a car pull up and I peaked out the window. Tanya and a man that looked about 21 or so walked up to the front door.
"I had a great time." He said.
"We should do that again sometime." Tanya replied. He smiled and leaned in to kiss her.
He leaned in slowly placing his lips on hers. His hands began to roam over her body. She entwined her fingers through his hair. He pulled her to himself tighter. His hands started to rise up under her skirt.
He started to kiss her more passionately, roughly. She seemed to be getting lost in him. He pushed her against the door with a loud 'thud' and started to pant heavily moving his lips to her neck, his hands still roaming her body.
I looked at Tanya's face. She looked like she was in pain, but I knew better, nothing could hurt her.
I heard her hiss and growl loudly. The man lifted his head to look at her and he tried to pull away but she fisted his hair and grabbed his arm not letting go.
His face was full of fear as he kept trying to get out of her grip. Her lips pulled up and she flashed her teeth.
Suddenly, her face was in the crook of his neck. The man whimpered and struggled against her.
My eyes widened in shock as my brain registered what was happening. I couldn't say anything. I didn't dare speak a word. If she realized I was there her instinct would be to pounce on me too.
After what seemed like minutes, though I'm sure it was only seconds, his body went limp and fell to the floor.
"Shit!" Tanya growled.
I gasped.
She turned to the window where I was looking out of.
"Edward…" a voice called from behind me.
I turned and leaped into my mother's arms. She held me tightly.
"Edward, what's wrong?"
"T-Tanya….S-s-she…a human. He's…oh god…He's dead." I stuttered.
"Shhh…Calm down dear." my mother kissed the top of my head and swayed me in her arms.
The next day my parents decided moving would probably be best because it might not be safe for me after Tanya had lost control. She hadn't lost control in well over a hundred years.
We had everything packed within hours and we were leaving the next day.
Tanya came to see me before we left to apologize. My family stayed in the room to make sure nothing would happen.
Her eyes were blood red and it scared the shit out of me but I understood. I didn't blame her for what happened. But I was still a bit scared and it was quite awkward.
I couldn't help but feel sorry for her, and the man she drank from, though.
Apparently she had started to grow fond of the man and was having a really hard time herself dealing with what she did.
I hugged her and tried my best to comfort her.
She also felt really guilty of being the reason for our sudden departure.
To be honest I'm sort of thankful for that experience. With what I learned about her and her relationships with humans it helped me to know what to do when it came to Bella.
I made sure to take things really slow and cautious when I took her to my meadow yesterday. I wanted everything to be perfect and safe. I was always careful when I kissed and held her.
After what happened with Tanya, I knew what could happen if I lost control like the man had done, going overboard letting the lust take over him.
I couldn't take things too far, too fast with Bella. I don't want to tempt her more than I already do.
I got up and went to my bathroom to get dressed for their arrival.
I looked in the mirror and sighed in relief when I still looked like my 17 year old self.
After my quick shower, I put on a pair of faded jeans and a button up long sleeve white shirt. I made my way downstairs and to the kitchen.
"Good morning, dear. I put your breakfast on the table. Oh and the Denali's will be here soon." Mom said as she kissed forehead and then walked into the living room. I sat at the table eating the scrambled eggs and bacon she made for me.
I barely remember eating it. M mind was too busy replaying everything that had happened yesterday with Bella.
I still can't believe she loves me too. I have no idea what I did to deserve such a perfect, beautiful, smart woman. But I'm thankful for her walking into my life. So much has changed in the last couple of months. I never would have imagined that first day of knowing her that it would end up like this. I'm glad it did. I can't imagine myself with anyone else. I can't imagine myself in anyone else's arms or kissing anyone else. She is all I've ever wanted and more.
Edward they're here. So finish up, and come out here! Alice thought.
Seconds later I heard Eleazar's greeting.
"Well, we thought it would be nice to spend the holidays with our extended family."
I got up and put my plate in the sink and walked into the living room just as Tanya spoke.
"It's wonderful to see you guys again!" Tanya said excitedly. "Where's Edward?!"
"Right here." I said with a small smile.
Oh my god. Look at him!
She thought as she raced over to capture my in a hug.
"Edward! I've missed you. How have you been?" she asked as she pulled me to sit with her at the couch.
"I've been good. How about you?"
"I've been getting by…" she sighed. Missing you like hell. Lonely. Bored. Wow, I'm pathetic. "But I'm better now."
I smiled.
"I really have missed you, Eddie!" She wrapped her arms around me and laid her head on my shoulder. It was a bit awkward really. "We have to catch up, what have you been u–"
"Edward…?" My love called out to me. I immediately twisted around in the couch to look at her. She was walking into the living room followed by Jasper. I grinned and got up off the couch to greet her. I walked over to her and caressed her cheek. She leaned into my hand and smiled.
"How was your hunt?" I asked.
"It sucked!" Jasper said loudly. "I could barely get in a kill. She was extremely anxious the whole time. With all of it thrown at me in full force, I kept missing my kill and pouncing too soon."
"Yeah, I was a little anxious to get back to you…" she laughed.
Pssh… a little? Whatever. Edward she was driving me insane! What the hell have you done with her to make her want you so damn much?
Jasper thought while raising an eyebrow and smirking at me.
I rolled my eyes at him and wrapped my arm around Bella's waist.
"Bella this is the Denali Coven from Alaska. This is Carmen, Eleazar, Kate, Irina, and Tanya." I said motioning with my free hand to each of them.
"Nice to finally meet you all." She smiled.
Who the hell is she…and why does he have his arm around her...
I could see Tanya glaring at Bella from the corner of my eye. My grip became tighter around Bella's waist.
It's probably nothing…nothing at all. Just friends. That's right. I still have ch–
"Tanya, I heard that you started school again now." Alice said suddenly. Tanya turned around to face her.
"Yeah. A few months ago I started at the college you went to last time. After that incident three years ago I hadn't gone back. I think I now have my control back to how it was before. I was getting extremely bored at home and needed something to do."
Her mind replayed the night I watched her slip up. It seemed much worse from her point of view. I could practically feel her hunger and bliss as she drank from him.
I winced.
"What's wrong?" Bella whispered.
I tapped my temple and she nodded in understanding.
What's up?
Just something Tanya was thinking about. The incident she mentioned.
Bella listened in on her mind and saw that night for herself. Her eyes widened in horror when she noticed I was watching that night from the window.
Oh god, Edward. You could have been hurt…
Nothing happened though, that's what matters.
I guess you're right.
She bit down on her bottom lip. She looks so adorable when she does that. She smiled.
I love you..
And I you.
"So, what's Bella's story?" Kate asked pulling us out of our silent conversation.
We sat down together on the couch where Tanya and Kate were sitting. Bella told them how we all met. How Alice is Bella's sister and how we all go to school together now. She didn't mention anything about the Volturi or my gift.
Pretty soon we were all lost in casual conversation. Hours had passed and it was already midday.
My stomach growled involuntarily. I saw a few of their heads turn in my direction and a few of them in silent laughter. I instantly blushed. I hated having to be the only one to need to feed so often.
Bella turned to me and whispered in my ear.
"I'll make you something. Want to join me?"
I smiled and stood up to take her hand. We walked to the kitchen where she started to pull out ingredients to make me some pasta.
"I've missed your cooking you know." I said as I stood behind her with my arms wrapped around her waist.
"Well that's good, because I've missed cooking for you." She turned in my arms and kissed my lips gently.
We put the pot of water to boil on the stove.
I pulled her into another kiss. It was soft and loving. I could feel all the love she sent me through every kiss we shared.
I had tuned everything out and was just concentrating on Bella. I hadn't noticed we were swaying and moving around a bit. That is until we accidentally hit something. I felt something instantly burn my arm. The sensation made me throw myself back causing me to stumble and fall back.
When I opened my eyes, Bella had the pot of boiling water in her hands and was placing it back on the stove. She turned to look at me and her eyes widened. She was next to me in a second pulling me close to her.
That's when I felt it.
There was a sharp pain on the back of my neck I went to rub the area with my hand. When I pulled it around there was blood on my fingers. I looked from my red finger tips to Bella's eyes. She had them closed and I could tell she had stopped breathing.
"Carlisle!" she said in a weak and desperate voice.
In a second's time, I went from being in Bella's arms to sitting in my father's chair in his study. He was kneeling in front of me looking at my arm.
It was bright red from the palm of my hand to the inside of my elbow and it burned. But the pain there I couldn't feel as much as the throbbing at the back of my neck. My hand went to the back of my head again and I winced in pain.
My dad stood up to look at it.
"Is it bad?"
"It's not too bad, just a small gash. It'll heal quickly. Your arm will take awhile." He went over to his desk and pulled out a first aid kit. He cleaned out the wound and placed a bandage like stitch where the gash was. He then spread a gel on my arm that I assumed was to cool down a burn and then he wrapped my arm in gauze.
There was a light knock on the door.
"Come in." my dad called out.
Bella walked in and I saw an extreme sadness in her eyes. My dad slipped out of the door leaving us both alone.
"Bella…" I whispered. She was next to me in a second and laid her head in my lap. I combed my good hand through her brown locks. I felt her slightly shake and heard barely audible noises coming from her.
"Bella… are you crying?" I asked her.
"I'm so sorry, Edward. I should have been more careful. I should have been quicker. I should have caught you before you fell…I should have…."
"Look at me." I said forcefully. Bella lifted her head to look in my eyes. "Don't blame yourself for this. It was an accident. Besides you can't be superwoman all the time, love. As much as you'll be there for me, you can't possibly be there every second. I'm bound to get hurt every once in a while." I placed my hand under her chin and kissed her lightly. "Everything will always be ok. Remember?" I smiled which caused her to smile in return.
"You still haven't eaten though. How about I take you out to eat?" she said.
I sighed. "I'm sorry Bella, but I don't eat mountain lion." I said sarcastically. She laughed and it was music to my ears.
"Damn, well that screws up our dinner plans."
I smirked. Her breathing caught and her lips parted.
"What?" I asked.
She smiled and brought her hand up to trace my lips.
"That crooked grin of yours will be the death of me, Edward Cullen."
"Crooked grin?"
"Yes, that adorable smirk you always give me. It makes my dead heart start beating again and makes me forget how to breathe. Add that with your captivating green eyes and you sir, have dazzled me." She lightly tapped the tip of my nose with her finger and smiled.
I lifted her up and sat her in my lap. She mindlessly caressed my burned arm and it felt much better to her touch. Her cold hands soothed the burning feeling. I kissed her forehead.
"So, we going out to eat then?" I asked.
"Of course. I'll take you where ever you want, my treat!"
I chuckled as we stood up and made our way downstairs. Tanya, Alice, and Kate were the only ones left in the living room when we got there.
"Hey Alice, have you seen my–" Bella started but was cut off by Alice throwing a pair of keys at her. She caught them and we started to walk out the door.
Where are they going…damn it! Am I ever going to have time alone with him?! Well at least I still have a couple of days left…
I was completely confused as I heard Tanya's mind fade as we drove off into town.
Why was she trying to get me alone…
We went to a small restaurant in town and I ate as Bella watched of course. It was really nice, just Bella and me.
"You know, this is technically our first date."
"Well, I guess it is." She laughed as she leaned forward closer to me.
"Hm…I don't know if I'm comfortable kissing on the first date."
She pouted and I couldn't help it. She was so adorable and her lips were too tempting. I closed the distance and kissed her softly. I pulled away. Her eyes were closed and she had a bright smile on her lips. She bit her bottom lip and it made me want to kiss her again.
"I love when you do that."
"Do what?" she asked.
"When you bite your bottom lip. It does to me what my grin does to you." Said grin in place as I spoke.
We lost ourselves in conversation and about an hour later left back home. Bella stayed with me until I fell asleep and then she left to hunt again. After being exposed to my blood and my still having the wound it's pressing at her control and I knew she needed to feed if she wanted to stay near me.
I suddenly woke up in the middle of the night. I looked at my clock and it was 2:34am. I was tossing and turning, I couldn't fall back asleep. I sighed heavily and then heard a soft knock on my door.
It's now or never…
Tanya?
"Uh…come in?"
She opened the door and stepped in. I sat up in bed and she came to sit by me.
"What's up?" I asked.
"I just wanted to come up and talk to you…"
"What about?"
"I wanted you to know that, well…" Damn it Tanya, just spit it out!
"Edward, ever since that night, you know when I slipped up... I haven't been able to stop thinking about you. I panicked when I saw you looking at me through the window. I never wanted for you to see me like that. And then the next day…you should have been running away from me. I saw how scared you were, but yet you still sat there with me. Shit, you even hugged me and tried to comfort me! No one ever cared about my well being like that. I was touched. I felt horrible for you having to leave, and I felt even worse because you left and I couldn't be near you…For the last three years all I've done is think of you. I missed you. I did everything I could to learn to control myself again to see you. I guess what I'm trying to say is, well. I love you Edward." There I said it!
Fuck.
She loves me?
Seriously?
Holy crap. I never expected this…
God, how am I supposed to tell her I've already found the love of my life?
Before I could even say anything she crashed her lips on to mine. My eyes widened shock and I instantly pulled away. It was wrong. Everything felt wrong. Her lips were cold and weren't inviting at all.
How do I tell her that I have never and will never have the same feelings back for her?
"Shit, I'm sorry Edward. I didn't mean to do that…" Yes, you did. And you know you loved it. "It just sort of happened."
I turned away from her to collect my thoughts.
I didn't want to hurt her, what can I say to make it easier?
"Tanya, I–"
"You don't have to say anything right now…just think about it." She got up off my bed and closed my door behind her.
Did this just really happen?
Well at least I have some time to figure out what to tell her now…
It took me awhile to fall asleep that night. The next 3 days were extremely awkward around Tanya. I didn't have the heart to tell her. And I still didn't know what to say. Every time she saw me close to Bella she would throw death glares at her. Bella and I tried to keep our relationship private and not out in the open for the family to see. And from Tanya's thoughts she always talked herself out of thinking that Bella and I were together. She wanted to be with me too much to even think that as a possibility.
Probably the worst things about her thoughts were what she thought about doing with me. Tanya was extremely graphic. She has a very…vivid imagination.
I tried to keep my distance as much as I could. I found every excuse possible to leave the house with Bella to get away. Bella seemed oblivious to what Tanya was thinking about me.
Today though I was getting to my breaking point. Tanya had started to 'accidentally' bump into me and brush herself on me any chance she got.
I was done with avoiding her, I couldn't take leading her on anymore.
I grabbed her arm as she walked passed me.
"Tanya, we need to talk." I said and she smiled.
I felt my stomach turn, I was going to feel extremely horrible about this.
We sat down on the couch and she scooted over next to me.
"About what you said a couple of days ago…" I started.
Her mind immediately went to graphic things she wanted to do with me. I winced.
Ok so maybe I won't feel as horrible doing this as I thought I would.
"I'm sorry but…" She furrowed her brows in confusion. I sighed.
"Tanya, I don't feel the same about you."
"That's ok we can work up to it." You'll fall in love eventually.
I shook my head. "No, Tanya. I…I don't love you. I love someone else."
Her eyes widened in disbelief.
"What? But…the last couple days…I've…and you…what the hell."
This is not happening. He will be mine. I always get what I want. I just have to…
I groaned and pinched the bridge of my nose to calm myself down.
"Who?" she asked.
"Me."
I looked over to my left and Bella was there walking towards me. She took my hand in hers and rubbed small circles into my hand.
Tanya took one look at our joined hands and let out a loud hiss. It seriously scared the shit out of me. My grip on Bella's hand tightened.
I faintly heard a growl form in Bella's chest. I didn't want them to fight so I loosened my grip on her hand and then gave her a light squeeze to bring her back to me and out of primitive thoughts.
"Tanya, Bella is my girlfriend. And you're just going to have to accept that. I'm sorry if I've hurt you, that was never my intention." I turned from her to look up at Bella. "But I'm madly in love with her. And that's not ever going to change."
Oh god…
I looked back towards her but all I saw was a blur and then she was gone. I tried to listen for her thoughts to see where she had gone and what she was thinking but she was too far away.
Bella tugged on my arm and we walked up to my room. I sat on my leather couch and pulled Bella onto my lap. We sat there in silence until it was dark.
"Sorry I didn't tell you about Tanya…"
"It's ok, I sort of already knew. I should have said something."
"How did you know?"
"Jasper's power. I absorbed it because I wanted to see how the Denali's felt about me…and well, when I got to Tanya I felt that she had annoyance towards me. So I tried to figure out what was wrong. I noticed it was every time I was with you. And then I noticed her love towards you…I knew you were dodging her the last couple of days. That's why I suggested we stay away from the house so much. That and I didn't really want her anywhere near you with her trying to feel you up all the time."
"I shouldn't have let it get that far though." I frowned.
"Well at least you've told her now."
"She's not going to stop trying…I heard it in her thoughts."
"I think maybe I should have a talk with her tomorrow."
"I don't know Bella, what if things end up in a fight? I don't want you to get hurt…"
She laughed and rolled her eyes.
"I won't get hurt. Besides, if things get heated up I'll just use Jasper's gift. I'll be able to calm her like I did earlier."
She tucked her head underneath my chin and we sat in silence again for about another hour.
I involuntarily yawned. I didn't want to sleep but I was dead tired.
"Bed time for the human." Bella giggled.
She kissed my jaw and walked over to the closet. She brought me back a pair of sweat pants.
"What no shirt?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.
She looked away a little embarrassed. I grinned.
"Well…I…um."
"I'm messing with you, love." I kissed her forehead.
I stepped in my bathroom, quickly brushed my teeth, and dressed. When I went back into the room Bella was waiting for me in bed.
I flicker of images quickly drifted through my mind. I imagined Bella in a small lace outfit waiting for me in my bed. I would walk over to lie next to her and kiss her passionately. My hand would slowly move up her shirt and caress the sink of her navel and then at her back, up her spine. I'd bring her closer to me and hold her tightly, as I kissed her neck and…
"Edward?"
I mentally shook my head and walked over to the bed.
What the hell...stop thinking about these things…
It's too damn early to be thinking that.
Right?
I lay on my back and she lay on her side with her hand laced in mine on my chest.
I closed my eyes to try and control myself.
I prayed that she wouldn't get any closer to me for a few minutes.
If she felt…well if she felt that, I'd be so embarrassed.
I wonder if she has ever had thoughts about me like that…
Damn it! Let it go…she's going to notice if you don't calm the hell down.
"You're heart beat is racing. What are you thinking about?"
Oh god, please don't read my mind. Please don't read my mind. Please don't read my mind.
"Ok, you don't have to tell me." She giggled. She kissed my cheek.
"Now go to sleep, Hun. You need your rest." She said as she placed herself at the crook of my neck, taking in a deep breath.
Funny how I know I should be scared that a vampire is so close to me, that with one small movement she could have her teeth sinking in to me, and it doesn't bother me in the slightest. She could kill me right now, and I'd die in bliss. It's crazy, irrational for me to feel so comfortable around her. I know my blood calls for her. It must be extremely painful for her sometimes to even be around me, and yet here she lies beside me. Her lips are barely an inch away from my neck and I feel completely at ease.
The control she has amazes me. It shows me just how much she truly does love me. To make herself suffer and be in physical pain fighting the temptation of my blood, it just shows how hard she's fighting to be with me.
And I can only hope it shows her how much I love and trust her to let her be this close to me.
The next morning I woke up to face the angel of my dreams. I hoped it would be the face I would wake up to every day for the rest of my life.
We stayed an hour or two lost in each other's eyes until we thought it would be a good idea to get up and start our day. I took a quick shower and came out to a now fully dressed Bella. I smiled and then went to my closet to get dressed.
We made our way downstairs and I saw Tanya, Kate, and Irina sitting quietly on the couch.
Kate and Irina looked up as Bella and I walked into the living room hand in hand. Tanya just sat there with her head looking down at her lap. She seemed out of it, not her usually bubbly self at all.
Edward…take…she…forever…I…find…I…
Tanya's thoughts were scattered and fuzzy. I couldn't quite make out what she was thinking. I was confused and frustrated. I had never heard thoughts like that before.
"Tanya." Bella said. She looked up. Her eyes held no emotion. "I was hoping you and I could go for a run and maybe talk?" Tanya nodded and headed towards the backdoor. I kissed Bella's forehead as I held her cheek in my hand. She left a chaste kiss on my lips before going after Tanya.
I walked over to sit by Kate and Irina. Neither of them said anything, they stayed quiet, and for that I was thankful.
I waited.
Lol…Did I fool you guys with the dream at the beginning?
I thought it was a good twist. =)
And don't hate me for bringing it the Denali's they were needed in my story so, shush!
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-Jan