Sorry this took so long...*sigh*...i have been busy but i have finished it! So enjoy!

Chapter Sixteen: Rage

The air was tense yet excited in the studio. Everyone seated in the audience was practically jumping in their seats. The crew were also like this but had to retain a professional air so they kept their excitement hidden behind a mask of indifference. The stage had been set up the night before hand and prepared for anything that might occur including an audience riot. Nothing slipped by the stage crew even on a day like today.

Today was the day that Touching Darkness began to reveal their hidden pasts one day at a time only no one knew who was going to be first. Fans all hoped that it would be Shuichi Shindo since they desired to know the events that leaded him to quitting Bad Luck and start a new life in America however this was highly unlikely.

The audience all calmed as a spotlight fell upon the hostess, Miyuki-chan signalling the beginning of the program.

"Welcome to World Music the show that brings you the latest gossip about music. For the next four days we shall be airing a special live show based on the lives of Touching Darkness members Chaos, Sorrow, Mello and Rage. It is with great anticipation that we welcome our current guest Kamijo Higurashi also known as Rage of the band Touching Darkness."

The hostess waited patiently for the crowd to stop cheering as Kamijo entered the stage and sat down oposite Miyuki-chan. Everyone knew Rage was famous for his short temper even when it came to the fans. Kamijo however was surprisingly calm.

"Well shall we get started with the simple questions them?" Miyuki-chan asked.

"I suppose so." Kamijo simply desired for this entire evening to go as fast as possible though he doubted that would happen.

"Every band member from the former Touching Darkness has a hidden past. Where does your past begin?"

Kamijo wasn't looking forward to revealing any of this past on live television but it was part of the new contract with NG so he had no choice but to oblige or Touching Darkness would be looking for a new drummer.

"I suppose it all began when I was in high school. During this time I lived in America. My mother was Japanese but my father was American so we moved to be closer to him. I grew up learning both languages and it was there that I fell in love-"

The audience all sighed as he mentioned the word 'love' and Kamijo desperately had to control his anger. He hated when girls went all silly because of the one word and then began chattering about their 'destined one' or some rubbish like that. It was a complete waste of time or so he believed so he ignored them and continued.

"I met Lillian Morton in my tenth year. We we different from the other students. It was my heritage that set me apart from the rest but it was Lillian's personality for her. She wasn't like every other girl that paraded around like she owned the place. The air around her was calming and helped me relax because even then I was short tempered."

Kamijo paused to catch his breathe then. He had never talked so much before let alone about something so personal. Yet years of heart ahce began to melt away as he revealed more.

"Naturally we attracted each other and began to form a friendship that developed into love. It was so simple and we both enjoyed each others company whether we were simply sitting or making out. None of that mattered as long as we were together. There was only one problem though, my best friend, Carlo Lakefield. He had been my friend since we were five. Our likes and dislikes were the same and for that we were inseparable. Well that was until I met Lillian, the one difference in out lives. I loved everything about her while Carlo hated everything about her."

"No matter what I tired to tell Carlo about Lillian he would never come to meet her. It was as if he were repulsed by the very thought of her. These thoughts just kept esculating until one day Carlo snapped."

Again Kamijo had to take another break. Things were now coming to the conclusion of his tragic past and he never wanted to hear another word of this after tonight. He simply wanted to move past everything and live with Lillian in his mind forever as the innocent girl she had once been.

"I spent hours searching for them wondering where they would go considering Carlo hated Lillian. When I finally found them behind the Gymnasium Carlo was standing over Lillian a common butchers knife in his hand. He didn't utter a word but I could see the mad look he had in his eyes. It was desperation. It was then that I understood. Lillian had loved me but Carlo had been with me for years and felt the same way. Lillian was buried with her grandparents while her parents and I stood over her grave. Carlo was sent to prison for thirty years an when he gets out he will discover I want nothing to do with him."

Kamijo had finally finished with as much detail as his heart could handle. He didn't want everyone to know the exact details of what occured that day considering he didn't want to remember himself. Simply seeing Lillian lying there with glassy expressionless eyes was enough to make him angry not to mention the conversation that he had with Carlo afterwards. It was all too much for him to handle and wouldn't wnat anyone else finding out about it.

The entire audience was now in tears over his story which made Kamijo extremely frustrated. They weren't even finished with the interview yet! Why were these silly people crying? Were they trying to make him angry? Not that he wasn't doing a superb job of that on his own. He despised tears especially those of females. It simply bought back too many memories for his taste.

"That is simply so sad Higurashi-san. Let's move away from that traumatic experience. How did you join Touching Darkness?" Miyuki-chan said sensing his discomfort.

Rage sighed well at least that wasn't a long story.

"I began the drums to calm the rage burning inside of me. Then five years after that incident, I was already working for XMR when the thought of Touching Darkness was formed. From there I simply auditioned and Shuichi happened to pick me for the role."

"Did he know about your past?" Were these people ever going to leave that subject alone?

"No. One of the conditions was that the member's pasts would be left behind them and not included in the work life at all including use of names."

Kamijo was beginning to relax again since he could answer these questions with a single sentence. Paragraphs were simply too much for him at the current point in time.

"How is your relationship with the other band members?"

"Sorrow, Chaos and I are really good friends since we have practically been living with each other for three years."

"What about Mello?"

"My relationship with Mello is closer than that with Sorrow and Chaos," he said carefully, "We are like Sorrow and Chaos in the way that we support each other through our tough moments. He helps me to calm down when I'm angry like Lillian use to do. They have the same calming aura. Together I fell that I'm never truly alone."

The entire audience was in tears yet again though they were different now. Kamijo was barely controlling his anger. The thought that he had just ruined his status as 'Rage' both on stage and in personality was crippling to him.

"Thank you so much for sharing that touching story with us Higurashi-san." The hostess said between sobs.

"Tomorrow night we shall bring you the next band member of Touching Darkness who shall reveal their past. Let's hope that the next story isn't as emotional as tonight's was or we shall have to supply the audience with tissues. Until then goodnight."

The segment ended and Kamijo was finally allowed to leave. He didn't want to be around when the audience was let out in case they decided to try and console him. He despised people trying to console him especially when he didn't want it. Only one person was allowed to see him in such a weakened state and that person was waiting for him back in their new apartment. Together they would never be alone.

"Are you nervous?"

Shuichi looked up from the television to see Yuki sitting on the couch behind him. He had been watching Kamijo's interview even though they had told each other everything during the week. It somehow revealed more of there personality when they did present the truth on television. Shuichi could tell that Kamijo felt uncomfortable telling everyone about his past unlike when he had told Touching Darkness.

"What do you mean?"

Same old Shu-chan, Yuki sighed, his still as clueless as ever.

"Are you nervous about your interview?"

Shuichi looked up at him confusion clearly written on his face.

"Why would I be nervous about it?"

"You will have to explain the reason you left three years ago and about our relationship and how that has been affected."

Shuichi thought for a moment. Sure he would have to tell everyone on life television about his experiences and the real reason that Touching Darkness reformed after only three years together but he wasn't truly worried about any of that.

"As long as you are waiting here for me when I get home I have nothing to worry about." Shuichi said smiling like a Cheshire cat.

Before he could do or say anything else, Yuki had pulled him into an awkward hug on the couch. Some things never changed yet there were some that had changed for the best.

Shadows were cast along the wall as cars passed noisily below him. The television was still on and playing at this late hour of the night but the occupant wasn't even paying any attention to this. He was far more concerned about his life.

"How could they do this to me? Not to mention I was replaced by the one that quit!" Daisuke muttered to himself angrily.

He sat alone in his run down apartment now that he had to save ever single cent he still had. It felt like only yesterday that Seguchi-san had called him up to his office and told him in a polite yet harsh tone that he was no longer needed and if he were to try anything against Shuichi or the new Touching Darkness members he would end up in a bad situation.

Daisuke couldn't help but shiver. He knew what happened to the last person that went against Seguchi-san's orders and he definatly didn't want to end up like that. There has to be some way around this, he thought. There has to be some way to get my revenge...

One down three to go! Who shall be next I wonder?

You know what I just realized...this is going to take me ages!!! XD

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