Touching Darkness Chapter 19: Sorrow, a gravitation fanfic

Chapter Nineteen: Sorrow

The final day of interviews had arrived and no one was more nervous than Shuri. He was the sole reason they were having these interviews in the first place. If he had kept a level head when Shuichi decided to reunite with his beloved Yuki then he wouldn't be in this situation. No matter what Shu-chan had said though, Shuri still believed that Yuki was a bastard and didn't deserve to be with his little brother. Though it didn't really matter what he thought. After all he was seeing a psychiatrist now and Shuichi was still with Yuki.

Now because of his drastic actions he was forced to be here revealing his past to all of those interested in watching. Not only that he had to risk Shuichi never trusting him again. Just the thought that Shuichi might never talk to him again worried Shuri to no end. He didn't want to lose Shuichi not like Ray.

Without even realizing that the show had begun, Shuri heard the host, Miyuki-chan begin.

"Now please welcome Shuri Kozuki also known as Sorrow previously the guitarist of the band Touching Darkness."

The applause for him were just as loud as it had been for Shuichi, Kamijo and Setsuna. That helped to lift his spirits.

"Where does your past begin Shuri-san?" Miyuki-chan asked.

And that was where this day hit rock bottom. Taking a deep breath Shuri began.

"I have lived in America for my entire life. My parents were both Japanese but they moved to America to be with friends. I had a normal life. My friends supported me in everything I did throughout school and I also had my share of relationships. Everything began for me when my friends and I met up with a person named Ray. We were getting a band together just for local performances to keep everyone entertained in our small town all we needed was a volcalist."

"Thats when Ray showed up in our favourite bar and proposed that he be our vocalist. Naturally we agreed. Ray and I quickly got into a relationship and we were seen everywhere together. Anyway a few weeks down the road and we were the most well known people in the town. Then Ray decided that he wanted us to sign up with a talent agency and get our careers as an actual band off the ground. We debated several times but eventually we agreed to give it a shot."

"A few months after that we met up with a scout and she told us that she would be able to help us. We were all so enthusiastic about it and couldn't wait but no one was more so than Ray. Slowly he began to spend more time with our scout and less time with me until I discovered that he had been cheating on me with her. With the help of my friends I confronted him and he promised never to do it again."

Shuri tried his hardest not to break down. He missed the feelings that Ray had bought him yet knew that running back to him would only bring more heartache. Knowing that everyone was watching he continued with as little emotion in his voice as possible.

"If only all people were truly that believable. Merely a week after the confrontation I saw him with yet another girl. I didn't take it to well and through all of his belongings out of our shared aparement before he came home. I was so distressed by this that I also quit the band and moved into the city where I saw the advertisment for a guitarist and went straight to the audition. From there I met Shuichi, Kamijo and Setsuna and wer formed Touching Darkness."

By this point the audience was in tears. Some were actually furious that he had been led on in such a way. This helped to ease Shuri's pain.

"How would you describe you relationship with your ex-band members?"

"Since I'm no longer considered a member of Touching Darkness I'm not sure of what they think of me but I would still like to be close to them. Kamijo and Setsuna were both really good at distracting me from my past."

He could remembered every single day that they spent together. It was as if he didn't have a care in the world.

"What about your connection to Shuichi Shindo?" Miyuki asked.

Shuri froze. He hadn't even thought about continuing his relationship with Shuichi in any way. He didn't believe that Shuichi would ever want to go anywhere near him again.

"Shuichi was like my younger brother and I was scared that if Yuki-san came back into his life that Shu-chan would forget about me and leave me alone like ... did. I only hope that he can forgive me for everything that I have done to him."

"Now we have a special gift for you Shuri-san. Tonight we present especially for you Touching Darkness."

Shuichi watched from the back of the room as Shuri revealed his story. He knew that Shuri was suffering from everything that he had been through but was glad that he was getting help for it now. He no longer had to suffer on his own.

"Now we have a special gift for you Shuri-san. Tonight we present especially for you Touching Darkness."

Shuichi smiled as the spotlight turned to them where they were standing on a raised platform behind the audience. As soon as the spotlight hit them. Kamijo, Setsuna, Suguru and Hiro began to play. Then Shuichi opened his mouth and began to sing over the instruments

I remember when
We used to laugh
About nothing at all
It was better than going mad
From trying to solve all the problems we're going through
Forget 'em all
Cause on those nights we would stand and never fall
Together we faced it all
Remember when we'd

Shuri sat listening to Shuichi sing about the times they'd spent together. He could see clearly every single trip they had been on especially for tours.They had spent endless hours together doing absolutly anything they desired. The only thing was they always had a time limit and after that limit was up K had come searching for them guns blazing...in the open public. He would never forget those days.

Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In a dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

I remember when
We used to drive
Anywhere but here
As long as we'd forget our lives
We were so young and confused that we didn't know
To laugh or cry
Those nights were ours
They will live and never die
Together we'd stand forever
Remember when we'd

Kamijo watched as Shuri listened to them play intently. He knew that there bond as friends had been frayed with the stunt that Shuri had pulled with Shuichi but he had a feeling that it would be alright somehow. After all it was Shuichi that had suggested to hold this event and if he wanted nothing to do with Shuri then why would he ask?

Setsuna was having the exact same thoughts as he played beside Hiro. It would take a long time to get use to playing beside someone other than Shuri however a change was best for all of them after all Shuri was still having phsychiatric help and he couldn't very well play and help himself. Someday they would return to being the band they had once been but for now this was all they could do.

Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong with us
Those nights belong to us

I remember when
We used to laugh
And now I wish those nights would last

As his friends played alongside his voice, Shuichi watched Shuri and never regretted any of his decisions. So far he'd had an eventful life and he wouldn't change that even if it meant he could have spent longer with Yuki. No he was happy knowing that he had Kamijo and Setsuna by his side now. He knew that Shuri would join them one day and when that time came he would be welcomed back with open arms. For now he would enjoy his life with Touching Darkness and Yuki by his side.

Shuichi smiled at Shuri as the song came to an end before speaking.

"Shuri, you'll always be my brother whether or not you are by my side. I won't forget you and when you are finally released I will be there to see the man you have become."

Shuichi knew instictively that Kamijo and Setsuna believed the same. Hiro and Suguru were a different matter. They still blamed him for Shuichi's change in personality and attempted kidnapping. But knowing that it would resolve itself when the time came gave hope to Shuichi. He just hoped that the future would turn out to be just as adventurous as he past three years.

And that's everyone's past lives! Finally! It is done! However the ending is drawing near or so i fear!!! Now the question is what is Daisuke planning??? ... what should i write next after i finish this story??? sighes i have no idea....

The song used in the end here is Those Nights by Skillet.

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