Chapter 3

"Oh, hey Bella, how are you feeling." After a long awkward pause I was finally able to say something. Completely baffled as to what had just gone through me, I pretended that nothing happened at all.

"Better actually. Thanks." I could feel the awkwardness that had been aroused. I couldn't think of anything to say. I didn't want to just stand there and look like a fool.

"Oh, um, I need the, a, bathroom, to, a, wash off."

"Oh, right, yeah, sorry if it smells bad to you. I don't know what's been up with me lately."

"Its ok, I understand."

I walked in and shut the door, but for some reason I just wanted to open it and run back to her. What the hell was wrong with me? I though to myself. I don't even like Bella. At least I thought I didn't. Strange.

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The awkwardness hung in the air like a the smell of dying flowers. I walked back to the guest room and laid down on the bed. I couldn't stop thinking about that moment. For some reason I wanted to run back to the bathroom and grab Leah up and kiss her. What the hell is wrong with me? I thought to myself. I must be going nuts.

I heard a knock at my door then. Anxiously I got up to see if it was Leah. To my disappointment it was not.

"Hey, Bells. You look like your feeling better?"

"I am. Thank you, Jacob, for everything."

"Anytime." He paused. The look on his face told me that he did not want to say what came next. "Edward's here. Do you want me to tell him to come back?"

"No, its fine. Tell him I will be down in a bit. I need a moment to compose myself."

"Sure thing. You know you don't have to do this if you don't want to. I'm serious about kicking his ass, you know."

Chuckling I said, "I know. Thank you again, but don't tempt me. Please behave yourself until I get down there."

"I won't do anything I normally wouldn't do."

"And that's the part that scares me. I am serious, Jacob, BEHAVE."

Throwing his hands up, he gave in. "Ok, Ok, I will play nice wolf son-in-law, I promise."

I closed the door behind him, smiling to myself. For some reason I felt better. I didn't feel like loosing Edward was the end of the world. Instead, I felt like it was a new beginning, to what I do now know, but something inside of me knew it was.

When I had finally got the puke smell off of me, I went downstairs. Edward was sitting on the couch patiently waiting for me. I little twang of grief struck, not because loosing him hurt anymore, but because I had to loose him. My heart still remembered what it was like to love him and that is what I grieved. I grieved the fact that this part of my life, being with him, was over.

He looked up as I came down off the last landing. He stood up and meet me at the bottom of the stairs. "Bella, I know what I did was stupid, and it hurt you, but we really need to talk. Alone."

I just nodded. I agreed with him. This was not the place to say what I had to say. What I have been wanting to say to him for a while.

We walked in silence down to the garage. When we got there, he looked around and turned to me. "Bella…."

"Edward, listen," I interrupted. "I don't care why you kissed that bitch. I really don't. It doesn't matter anymore. I have been thinking, and I think this was how it was supposed to be."

"What do you mean?" For the first time in five years I saw the loving look in Edward's eyes. I saw the old Edward. The Edward that I feel in love with. Tears welled up in my eyes at the memory of what we used to be.

"I'm not completely sure. I just have a feeling that this is right. That we should go our separate paths now. I have no clue why. I don't know. When I saw you kiss her, it hurt. It hurt bad. I thought that was the end of my world. But now that I think about it Edward, I should have seen it coming. You and I, we, have changed since I became a vampire. We've grown apart. I've seen it in your eyes, I've seen it in the way your always so cold to me. I've seen it in your eyes when you look out the window at the sky." Tears were streaming now, but they weren't like the ones before. Instead of blinding pain, I felt relieved. I felt free. I felt like I was saying goodbye to a loved one who was supposed to go.

"Bella. I love you. I always will. If you want me to stay, I promise that I will never, ever, do anything like that again for as long as I live."

"If I made you stay, for how long will you live unhappy Edward? You don't want this anymore. I understand." A tear actually fell down his face. I had never seen him cry. "Edward, there is no need to drag this on. It's time to say goodbye."

We just wrapped our arms around each other in a final embrace. It felt right to say goodbye. It was the first thing that felt right in a long time. Shakespeare was right, parting is such sweet sorrow.

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