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The following night Jack was quickly putting the final touches to his Barbecue when his attention was drawn away by a swift knock at his front door. That knock could only mean Teal'c.

Shouting in to Daniel who was sitting silently on the sofa, 'can you answer that Daniel?'

Knowing that he wouldn't get a reaction he simply accepted that Daniel would answer it.

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'Daniel Jackson' boomed Teal'c, 'I hope you are well'

'Same for me!' said Sam as her head appeared past Teal'c who had managed to take over the majority of the doorframe.

Daniel just nodded his head, and stood back to allow them to enter.

It was at this point that Jack glanced up again in response to the cheerful sounds of his friends, 'Hey kids!'

Teal'c headed over to where Jack had called him from leaving Sam to talk to Daniel.

Sam took hold of Daniels arm and steered him to the sofa where they sat down.

'Daniel honey, how are you feeling?' she knew it wasn't necessarily the best question, but she needed to know something.

'Okay I guess'

'Well that's great' she said as she cupped his face, her heart ached as his face seemed almost blank.

'You coming outside?'

He nodded and she headed outside, constantly checking that he was actually following her.

'Colonel! She exclaimed on seeing him arguing the best way to barbecue with Teal'c.

'Carter, good to see you! Daniel you're out.' He said as a small smile touched his lips.

Daniel looked over at him and then sat down in one of the lounge chairs as his arms wrapped around his him in an infamous self hug.

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It was half an hour later when there was another knock at the door, but the banter between most of the team was such that no-one noticed until Daniel stood up to answer the door.

Before he opened the front door he rested a hand on the door frame and sighed, why was he even trying to fit in with his dead friends, they should hate him and yet they didn't and he couldn't comprehend why.

He opened the door finally and tried his best to look cheerful to Janet and Cassandra, who had run forward and hugged him, 'Uncle Danny!' it took him a second to overcome his shock and he then placed his hand on her back.

Janet simply smiled and left Cassandra with Daniel.

Cassandra grabbed his hand and pulled him over to the sofa a worried look etched on her face.

'You're feeling better right Uncle Danny? Mum said you would be, and that your were getting there slowly, she's right isn't she?'

'I-I guess she is' she stammered slightly taken aback.

'You can tell me anything, you know that, right? I know all about the Stargate'

'I know I can, but I shouldn't, it...' but he swiftly cut off by Cassandra.

'You can talk to me I'm not a kid you know'

'But you are' he tried to stress.

'I was but my life was changed, the Stargate made me grow up, I was changed forever and I can't turn back the clock and undo what has been done'

'Neither can I'

Cassandra edged over on the sofa and grabbed him into a hug. She remained in place as she felt tears sting her shoulders.

'You can't survive unless you're open about what happened; you're such an open person, what happened to make you clam up?'

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The Goa'uld smiled as Daniel was brought before him. This Tauri had proven to be stubborn, but he would break, they always did.

'Kree Jaffa'

Daniel was pushed closer to the Goa'uld who slowly raised Daniels head towards him, he tried to pull away but the grip on his chin held him tight.

'Your friends are dead' he laughed

'You're wrong' spat Daniel

The Goa'uld growled and screamed in anger, the white of his eyes flashing dangerously as his hand device glowed ominously.

Raising his hand up, Daniel closed his eyes he knew what was coming.

Energy burst out of his hand and collided with Daniels head, Daniel bit down on his lip to keep from screaming, the white hot pain seared across his forehead, burning everything in its path. His head felt like it would explode in agony, he felt something run down his chin and was loathe to admit it was his own blood. His friends would come for him, he knew it.

'no-one gets left behind' Jack had once said that to him and he clung on to that belief as he felt the intense pain decrease as the hand device stopped. He slumped forward, unable to prevent himself, as strong hands gripped into his arms to prevent him from falling to the ground.

'They're dead, and I can prove it' signalling to some Jaffa to his right they brought forward a golden orb which they place on the ground.

Daniel starred in horror as light burst forth from the orb and he was forced to watch.

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'CARTER! Where's Daniel?' shouted Jack.

'Sir, I don't know, he was right behind me!' she cried back all the while continuing to fire at the ever increasing number of Jaffa.

'Daniel Jackson is over there' boomed Teal'c as he swung his staff weapon round and fired at ever more Jaffa.

'Daniel, Damnit!' shouted Jack over to Daniel who was running towards his friends, 'I'm coming Jack!' he cried back.

Sam turned for a split second to see Daniel coming towards them; it was then that a staff weapon caught her side. Her face lit up in surprise as she fell to the ground, 'Sir!' she cried

Jack glanced to his side to see Sam fall, he wanted to rush over to her but he couldn't.

'Carter!' he yelled back as he turned once again to Daniel, 'Danny, come on!' he shouted as he lay down cover for Daniel. He cursed loudly as he saw the Jaffa closing in on them, once Daniel was here he could dial the gate and they could get out of here.

Teal'c had rushed to Sam's side and continued to shoot at the Jaffa, but no matter how many seemed to fall from the blasts of his staff weapon more seemed to be appearing.

Jack was torn between Sam, Teal'c and Daniel. There was nothing he could do for Sam now, but his worry overrode his logic and he braved a glance in her direction, quickly turning round again he failed to notice the burning sensation in his side. He had been shot. A moment or two later he fell to his knees on the ground, he continued to try and shoot at the Jaffa, but in his current position he was powerless as he was shot in the chest and finally let out one final gasp as he fell to the ground.

'O'Neill!' shouted Teal'c.

He moved in-between his two fallen comrades, and took over Jacks job of laying down cover for Daniel, he couldn't comprehend what was taking Daniel Jackson so long.

'Daniel Jackson, you must hurry!' he shouted over to him.

He kept firing, but it seemed like a never ending battle, there was no way he could do this alone, he had taken on hundreds of Jaffa before, but that was with support, and for every Jaffa that he downed, and two seemed to take his place.

He was surrounded and he tried to fire all around him, I was as he quickly turned to fire at a Jaffa that was threatening his current position, that he felt something burn into his back. Breathing in, he ignored the pain and continued to fight. However the Jaffa now seemed to have been encouraged by the fact that one of them had finally shot Teal'c, their attention turned solely onto Teal'c.

He tried to take down as many as he could as suddenly all shots were aimed at him.

Daniel kept running towards Teal'c firing his hand gun towards the Jaffa, but felt useless as he hardly made a dent on their numbers.

Teal'c could see out of the side of his eye Daniel firing on the Jaffa, as blasts hit their target and he felt himself fall to his knees; he simply nodded over at Daniel as his eyes closed for their last time.

'No!' cried Daniel as he kept running towards his team mates. He could feel tears roll down his cheeks, it had all happened so fast, if he had just been able to keep up, he stumbled once as a burning sensation ate at his knee but he kept going, he had to get to the team, he had to dial the gate; he could feel desperation tug at his heart.

He struggled to keep going as the sight of his friends was eclipsed as he was surrounded by Jaffa.

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'No! It wasn't like that' he cried, 'they got away, I saw them, they got away...'

'They died, you held them back, and they fought and died for you' laughed the Goa'uld

'No!' cried out Daniel again, struggling away from the Jaffa on either side of him, he wanted to lunge at the Goa'uld. It hadn't happened that way, it couldn't have. But there was the proof, doubt gnawed at him as he tried to replay the events of his capture over in his head, but his head hurt too much for it to be clear, all he could see in his head was what he had just seen, he had killed them.

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