Sorry for the 4 day wait. I was going to update Wednesday, but didn't. I just didnt like the ending of the chapter. So I changed it. Thats it. And Alice refers to the rape in this chapter. She wont say the word though. I'll update every Wednesday, but since its Sunday, I'll update Friday. And then i'll keep udating every Wednesday, Kay? Oh. I need a beta, please. :) PM me or review, if interested. Please. And review. I love you guys:)

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Ugh. I felt seriously sick. I had finally come to that conclusion, now? It took me a minute to realize tears were streaming down my cheeks. I started sobbing in my pillow. I pulled my knees up to my chest. I realized that the one thing I actually had, and owned, and was mine, was gone. I was crying uncontrollably. I couldn't even breathe at this point. I choked on my tears, and started coughing. I finally took a breath after that. It was times like these where I wished I had someone, to love me enough to comfort me in these times. And not just anyone. Someone I could love, and they would love me. I snapped back into reality. Yeah, like anyone would date me. Date a dirty whore, like me, who lost her virginity at 13. In my own fucking defense, it was against my will.

Why am I even thinking these thoughts? Even if I did date, I would never bewhole. Whole enough, for anyone else. I pushed the thoughts out of my head. I glanced at the clock beside my bedside table. It read 5:56 A.M. Was I really having a nightmare for that long? Wow. I definitely wasn't going back to sleep. I was tired of the nightmares. I got up and got dressed in white short-shorts, and a pink and white striped tube top. I slowly walked to the kitchen. I made breakfast, which consisted of Pancakes, Sausage, and eggs. It was good because it kept my mind off of things, and looked at the clock. 7:47 A.M. I guess it really did keep my mind off things. I walked over to Sam's room and knocked.

"Come in!", She yelled in a sleepy manner.

I turned the knob, and walked in.

"Sam? I made breakfast. And Pancakes, your favorite. Come eat."

She shot up and got out of bed before I could even take another breath. She quickly got dressed in a revealing tank-top, and a denim skirt. She walked, no, ran, to the table in the kitchen.

" Seriously, Sam? You already have 3 pancakes buttered and have syrup before I even got in here. Your are crazy", I said amused. I rolled my eyes. Typical Sam. But I was serious again in an instant. I never told Sam about what happened in December. It was time I told her. She needed to know. I sat down across from her at the table.

"Sam? Can you stop eating?I need to tell you something important.", I asked.

That worked. She immediately stopped eating.

"What is it, Alice?", She questioned. I was startled. She never, EVER used my real name. It was always, always,always was Ali.

I readied myself to tell her. I thought about what I was going to tell her. A single tear rolled down my cheek. I let it stay there.

"Sam. Do you remember that party we went to at NYU in december?", I slowly asked her.

"Yes.", She replied simply. She looked scared. Sam should be. She had no idea what I was going to say, and how it would effect her.

"And that guy at the door. As soon as we got there, we started talking, and he invited me up to him room. I though we were just going to talk and chill out, but as soon as we got into his room, he raped me." I said, sobbing. I looked up at Sam. She was crying, too, I saw.

"Oh my god! Ali! I never knew! We need to get out of New York. And to a smaller town where you can cope! Let me call my mother, and we can move. She can switch offices, and set a house for just us. Thats what she always does for my brother& I. She never moves in with us. Just. Is that okay, with you?Moving?", Sam rambled on, sobbing.

All I did was nod. New town, new school. Sounds good to me. Get out of this town that held so many depressing memories.

Samantha already had dialed her mothers number and was speaking to her.

"-Look. Can we move somewhere else? Washington? That would take awhile to to get used to, but it could work. Okay. Thanks mom. I'll start packing. Kay. Bye.", she hung up the phone.

"Okay. My mom says to start packing.", She told me, not telling me where we're moving.

"Okay. But You didn't tell me where we're moving.", I said sharply.

"Oh. Right. Start packing your bags, Ali. We're moving to the beautiful Chicago.", Sam replied.

I quickly nodded and walked down the hallway to start packing my bags to a new life.

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A/N. Its 11:06 P.M. Where I am. So night. And this chapter was short, but next chapter is going to be very, very descriptive and long. It all works out. And review. And I need a beta... :)