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Jacob promise me you will live for them........ Don't give up on us............

Bella's POV

I've never seen him like this. I mean it's Jacob in body but he is as dead inside as I am. There is no light, no nothing. Renesmee has tried so many times to ease his pain showing him happy things but it just makes him darker. He's there for the kids he reads to them, he plays with them but the pain is still in his eyes. It took us a week to get him away from the body. Jane actually had to come in so Aro could take Mia's remains home to Volterra to be laid to rest with her mother. That was a month ago. He still lays in her bed at night at her house next door to Charlie. We've spent nights over there and could hear him crying until Braden would wake up crying for Mia.

"Shh little man it's okay." Jacob rocked Braden.

" want momma." Braden whaled and Jacob got to the point where they would just cry with him. Rosalie was his savior she was there every morning and would tuck them all in every night. Her relationship with Jacob went from an couple of old people bickering all the time to a big sister looking after her little brother.

" Morning little love." Jacob rubbed the tears from his eyes and picked up Sarah. " Looking more like your momma every day."

" Daddy is momma and angel?" Braden asked.

" Yes little man she is, she'll be right here always." he touched his chest.

" Why she not come back like gran and grandpa?" Braden asked.

" Momma was hurt real bad Braden, somethings can't be fixed. It was momma's time, I guess god wanted to make the most beautiful girl in the world the most beautiful Angel in heaven." Jacob held Both the kids tight in his arms.

" Hey boys, I made pancakes." I smiled taking Sarah to change.

" You know Bells I'm going to have to learn to this on my own sometime." Jacob forced a smile as Braden wiggled free.

"Panakes panakes." Braden jumped up and down.

" Go eat Jake." I smiled and he kissed my cheek with tears.

" Thanks Bells." He whispered. " Hey Bells ah tonight do you think Esme would mind if I brought the kids over, I've been pushing my patrols on the guys and I feel bad. It's Embry's birthday I thought I could take the patrol and the packs could party for a change."

" You know we all would love to have them." I told him.

Jacob's POV

I took the kids over the to Cullen's I still can't go in. Her scent it still strong. It hurts to much. It's bad enough at home it would hurt more because that's where she was when they took her. I took the whole patrol for both packs. I was actually hoping for some sort of confrontation but so far it's midnight and there was nothing at all. Hell at this time I wouldn't mind a wrestling match with Emmett. I found myself hanging out on the cliffs. It was so quiet I was alone there wasn't one that was phased inside my head. I closed my eyes and just pictured Mia.

" I love you my Jacob." she was standing on the beach in her wedding dress. " Don't give up on us."

" Mia I don't understand, it's so hard with out you, I still feel you there, I still smell you, hell I'm fuckin talking to myself right now thinking I'm talking to you." I said as I phased human looking into the sky.

" Don't give up.... I love you." her image faded and I was left empty again and looked up into the sky and a star shot across the sky.

" Wishing on a star again this one is empty that's for sure. But God I wish you were back here Mia. I love you and I'll never love anyone again." I phased back and went back on patrol just pushing my limits as I ran feeling the ache of my muscles that I haven't used in over a month.

The sun came up and I was still going none stop. I felt the pack wake. Sam was the first to phase. Then Leah, I could hear them bickering already fighting over who was finding me.

" Get back to bed I'm fine." I growled.

" Jake you've been running 12 hours straight go home sleep get some food." Leah said.

" I'm fuckin fine I'm the god damn Alpha Leah don't be telling me what to do." I snapped back and Sam spoke up.

" You're also a father Jacob. Stop acting like a child, Leah is just thinking of your health." Sam yelled at me and all of a sudden Leah took me out. She ran full speed right into me I could feel her holding me down and I went to attack and I caught her eye, I phased so did she.

" Jake, you're not you. This is not you. We all feel your pain and god I know your pain more than you think. When I lost Sam do to the imprint. I thought I was going to die. You lost more than love with Mia, we all understand that. But Jake you have to hold on to yourself. For the kids, your yourself, the Cullen's and us. Sam can't take back the pack, it's yours you need to straighten the fuck up." Leah was crying. I knew what she was saying. Hell Mia would be saying the same thing. This wouldn't be Mia she'd fight threw it. Hell she did. I felt my strength come back.

" Hell Leas you stay naked on top of me much longer you might get your wish." I smiled and she punched me.

" Well it's a start." Leah covered herself and pointed to the Cullen's. " Go home, sleep."

" God you're such a pushy Bitch." I laughed and phased.

" Damn right." Leah laughed and phased for patrol.

I found myself running the back woods to the house and phased human threw on my pants and went into the house. I could smell that Rose had been there and the house was clean and laundry was done. I fell across the bed giving into my exhaustion. There were no tears just good dreams. I found my way back out of the pit of heartache that I buried myself in. I went back to work, I became the person Mia would want me to be. Except at night, at night I belonged to her the bitch that threw me in the pit guilt, grief, pain, agony, emptiness.

" Jake, Braden's birthday is coming up in the next couple of months I was hoping that you wouldn't mind if we threw him a party." Alice asked me.

" Alice I wouldn't expect anything less." I gave the little leech a hug.

" You look tired, are the kids to much?" Alice asked.

" Nah the kids are great, Braden doesn't wake up during the night screaming anymore, Sarah still does but I've mastered the sleep and feed so it's all good. I don't know I guess maybe I should as Carlisle if he could give me something to help me sleep." I told her with a yawn. " I'm putting Braden in pre-school on the rez Rose is pissed but he needs to be with kids his age, Mia was planing on doing it anyway. She still will have Sarah, and her temper isn't as bad as the little man."

" Jacob, Aro called they laid her to rest the other day." Alice caught me. I wasn't expecting that, I thought she would just wake up that they could just do something. " Jacob, Jacob breath."

Alice's POV

" Carlisle oh god get over to the house." I called him urgently.

" She said don't give up they gave up they gave up." Jacob was curled up in a ball he was like a little kid. I held him but all he could say was they gave up.

Carlisle got there but he couldn't do anything he was afraid of any type of sedation do to the fact Jake could phase then what would happen. We got him upstairs and Bella and the pack took turns with him. He stayed catatonic for a month.

Joshua's POV

" I'd like to see Aro." I stood in the lobby of the leech infested palace.

" May I tell him who you are?" The human behind the desk asked.

" Joshua Uley. He knows me." I growled as the little blond that took down Jacob walked in.

" Aro knows you're here come in. We all could smell you coming." She hissed and walked into the other room.

" Well this is a surprise." Aro sat in his big fancy chair.

" I want to see her." I growled.

" She never woke Joshua, we laid her to rest." Marcus said.

" Take me to her now." I felt the wolf coming from me I had to suppress it.

" This way." Aro said we entered a large room and in the walls there was hundreds of names where the ashes of their fallen remained in the center of the crypt was a marble casket with honeysuckle on the top.

" That is Miriam." Aro said. " We will give you time alone."

" They all have given up, why haven't you waken this isn't how it is you are a fighter." I knelt down at the side of the casket. " I am so sorry my daughter, sorry that this is what I have cost you."

Jacob's POV

Get me out why can't I get out of this hole, god someone please. I was lost I could hear the talking of the pack and Bella. Alice had a vision something was going to happen at Braden's party she just saw everyone crying.

" Not on my watch." I snapped out of it. I went from the living dead into Alpha wolf in 2 seconds. Nothing was going to cause my son more pain than what he already had.

The Cullen's went into lock down Alice said we were all over reacting but we all agreed we wouldn't take that risk. Three weeks passed with heavy patrols. We all took the time to rest before Braden's birthday. He was so happy to be turning 4. That morning he got Snackers and went looking threw the house for his presents. Rosalie couldn't say no so she gave him one. His own set of tools and they fixed an old go cart together. It was an hour before the party the kids were all playing and Sarah was laughing at Renesmee and Braden chasing Snackers around.

Edward's POV

The worry is in everyone. The thoughts were what else could happen. So far something has changed the vision the party was fine the kids were playing the adults were worried but enjoying the company.

" Time for cake." Alice smiled and Braden climbed up on the table. Everyone sang Happy Birthday and Braden closed his eyes tight and blew out the candles holding his eyes tight like his wish was the most important thing in the world.

" What did you wish for little man?" Jacob asked.

" Can't tell won't be true." He said shoving cake in his mouth. " Sarwah come wit me." He pushed her little walker and sat down where he could watch the front door. " It be true I pomise."

" dada." Sarah laughed

" Da Da." Sarah yelled and everyone cheered.

" It work it work." Braden jumped up and looked at Jacob. My head was spinning. I was floored when I read Braden's mind could he have really wished this.