So, here is my take at Edward's POV. Don't know if I'm any good with his POV though. A couple of you think this story is a lot like Twilight…. And I know it is rather similar but it's all for a reason. Just be patient.

I don't own Twilight!

keep in mind this is pre ECLIPSE!!!!

Chapter 4: Finding a resolution

(Edward's POV)

It was like repeating the whole experience of meeting Bella. Jessica's smell was very attractive. I was having trouble believing that this was happening to me again. My throat kept burning and my taste buds clung to the taste that her scent gave off. I knew that I would have to leave again. I also knew that I would hurt my family again.

After I left Forks, I didn't go to Denali again. I drove all the way to New York. I needed to be far away from anyone I knew. I needed space to think. To think about how horrible everything was turning out. We went back to Forks hopping that we could live like we did anywhere else. It seems we were wrong. Going back was a very bad mistake.

Jessica was too similar to Bella. It brought pain and old feelings to my dead heart. The way Jessica smelt was close to Bella. The only thing is that her smell seemed weaker.

I did realize that I would have to go back… like last time. I would have to leave a polite impression… like last time. Like I said before, it was like last time. My feelings were different though. I still felt a need to protect the girl but there wasn't a string tying me to her like Bella.

I never should have gotten involved with humans. I never should have agreed to move back to Forks. I think I agreed to because I held hope of seeing Bella one day. But that hope was starting to wear thin. She probably married someone, had a child or two, (Can you guess who? Ha Ha) she probably is happy. At this point, all I could do is try and be happy for her.

Thinking of Bella with anyone else but me made me rather uncomfortable. I knew I was selfish but I didn't think I was so selfish that if I didn't have Bella, no one else should. I really was a monster. Wanting what I thought was best for me.

I wallowed in my sorrow for more than enough time. And then I thought, I need to move on. I needed to force my self. Even if it meant trying again to forget about Bella. It didn't work to good last time I left her but I could try. I had to try.

I planned on spending at least a week away from everyone to get my mind straight and to get over my past. I felt like I was committing a crime by trying to forget someone as special and beautiful as Bella, and the worst part was that I was actually forcing my self to try. I guess you could call me a fool for all of my actions.

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Upon returning home, Alice called me an idiot and then refused to speak to me. I didn't blame her. Jasper wouldn't really talk to me on account that Alice wasn't and Emmett talked to me but kept calling me immature names.

I prepared myself for the next day at school. I knew it wasn't going to be exactly easy. I expected it to be difficult. When I pulled into the parking lot at the school in the morning, I was the last one to get out of the car. I felt great reluctance to go to class. I didn't want to be here. I knew nothing here would keep my mind busy as I continued to plan how to leave a better impression on Jessica.

Unfortunately, biology rolled around a little to fast. I didn't want to deal with my 'better side' now. I wanted to run… run away forever. But, I took the problem head on. I sucked in a deep breath of the moist air and walked into the class. The teacher greeted me and several people looked at me, including Jessica.

He's back? She sounded confused. Then a deep scowl embedded on her face. He's back! Her voice held anger. So I had upset her. I carefully took my seat next to her trying to judge her reaction. She unconsciously scooted over. I relaxed a little and she took note of that.

At least he doesn't look mad today. She thought. I thought I should make my first attempt at being nice.

"Good morning," I said very softly.

"Good morning," Her words slurred together while she mumbled and looked at the teacher. Dr. Celgraph started class a moment later and instructed everyone to finish their labs. Jessica's face became wary as the teacher approached us.

"Alright, since you've been gone Edward, I'm going to have Jessica explain the lab to you and you will have to start over Jessica. If you need to come in at lunch to finish, feel free to." He encouraged.

"But I already started the lab with you. Can't I just finish with you?" Her voice was almost desperate. It was obvious I made her uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry but no. I don't want to make Edward do a different assignment so please just restart." Jessica's face was etched with disappointment and frustration. Dr. Celgraph apologized again. She sighed as he walked away. She sure did sigh a lot.

After she explained the lab I started to ask her the questions. The answers she gave me about her mom reminded me of Bella. I tried to close that wound as quick as I could only to find I couldn't shut it at all. Soon the bell rang and Jessica got up and left. I left soon after her. The rest of the day past by fast.

After school, I had an insanely long time to think. What was it about Jessica that pulled me near. I almost hated her for making me feel this way. Anger had been a regular occurrence for me lately. And I have to say; I hated it. I had shut out emotions for a long time now, then I meet one girl and the strongest feelings burn with a certain fire within me.

I had decided then, I would find out what pulled me to the girl no matter what. Perhaps if I got close to her, acted like I was her friend, she'd somehow lead me to the source of the pull I felt.

From that moment, I knew what I would do; learn all I could about Jessica.

A/N: I know I haven't updated in a very long time. Sorry for the wait. Life has been crazy. I hope you enjoy. Please give some more reviews this time.... I'd really appreciate it.