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Raven sighed, eyes closed as she sat in a lotus position atop her bed.

"Azerath…metrion…Zinthos."

Meditation had always been a way for her to sort through her thoughts and feelings, a means to control stronger emotions that often disrupted or influenced her powers, but even now that she had control of them she still found it relaxing, and so continued to participate in regular meditating sessions; sometimes even joined by Starfire. So it was very strange and foreign to her that such a thing, which had always come second nature to her, now felt forced.

She was distracted, and just a bit too anxious to relax and focus.

Raven opened one eye to glance at her clock, and decided it was still a little early to check in on Beastboy. He was most likely still asleep and she didn't want to seem overbearing, even if…

'Even if he's you're boyfriend' Love serenely intoned.

Raven closed her eyes against the words, although blushing slightly, and took in a calming breath.

However, try as she might, her mind continued to replay the events of the night before, focusing on one person in particular.

Beastboy.

It was not just her concern for Beastboy that made her thoughts flow back to him now, but rather her feelings toward him, and every small detail of their date. For some reason the smallest thing seemed more significant now; the way his larger hand fit so securely in her own, his eager and attentive face as he questioned her about her shopping experience, the shy upturn of his mouth whenever she caught him staring wonderingly at her, and the way the lights in the restaurant reflected in his emerald eyes and highlighted flecks of light green coloring that she had never noticed before.

She wondered vaguely if there was something wrong with her.

Was she feeling too much, too soon?

The thought was both terrifying and thrilling, and she was surprised to find that she didn't mind so much.

Knock. Knock.

Raven opened her eyes, letting out a sigh of frustration when she noticed several of her possessions floating around her. Whenever she was with Beastboy her emotions almost never influenced her powers, and yet the mere thought of their date now seemed to cause chaos around her. Mediation was now proving to be the exact opposite of what she needed. It was just another annoying thing that simply did not make sense, and it only made Raven long to be in beastboy's presence more.

The sudden realization of this almost made her want to laugh.

She never would have imagined ever longing to be around Beastboy before, and the fact that she felt calmer around him was almost absurd.

Knock, knock, knock.

With another sigh she got down off of her bed, wondering who would be up at such an early time of morning.

'But didn't Cyborg say he'd come get me if anything went wrong?'

A feeling of slight panic seized her as she made her way toward the door and it quickly swooshed open.

"Morning, friend Raven!"

Before she could even register the cheerful smile of the person in front of her, she was captured within a tight hug; a much stronger embrace than the thin feminine arms would lead you to believe.

"Uh…Morning Starfire?"

Raven acknowledge the greeting awkwardly, partly relieved that Beastboy must still be well, but also completely taken back by her friends cheerful intrusion-especially at such an early hour.

she eyed the tameranian inquisitively when she pulled away.

"I apologize if I have awaken you friend." Starfire answered, still grinning. "But I am most excited to hear of yours and friend Beastboy's date."

Raven blinked. "Oh."

It had never occurred to Raven, although she realized now how foolish it was, that her date with Beastboy would remain anything but a private matter between the two of them. Of course Starfire would wish to hear what had happened, and no doubt Cyborg would be questioning Beastboy as well- especially with the vague details she had already relayed to him about the evening.

As if suddenly coming back to herself, Raven realized that Starfire was still standing in front of her, hands clasped eagerly before her in anticipation.

"Well," she began, feeling oddly out of place and on the spot. "It was..definitely memorable."

Starfire nodded enthusiastically for her friend to continue.

Raven sighed. "I'm not sure exactly what you want to know."

'Or even what's appropriate to talk about' she thought to herself, her and Starfires 'girl talks' had involved the discussion of boys before, but neither had actually been on a date. Even stranger was the fact that this was Beastboy she'd be talking about- Beastboy who very much thought of Starfire as his older sister. Would discussing such a thing with her make Beastboy uncomfortable?

Before she could ponder this further, Starfire was suddenly asking questions.

"What did you wear? Where did you go? Did friend Beastboy perhaps confess his feelings for you? Will you be participating in the 'going out' again? Did you engage in the holding of hands, or perhaps the exchanging of saliva? "

Raven felt herself back up slightly from Starfire's rapid questioning, especially the odd phrasing of the last question- and the embarrassing emotions they brought forth in her.

Taking in a calming breathe she answered the best she could.

"I wore the blue top and fitted jeans. We went to a small diner I know. I was already aware of Beastboy's feelings so a confession was not necessary. Yes we will be going out again, and although I think that matter is quite personal, we did hold hands and we did kiss."

The professional and straightforward manner in which she answered these questions still did not stop the slight reddening of her cheeks at her final confession.

Starfire squealed in delight, looking positively giddy as she captured Raven in another tight hug.

"That is glorious news, friend Raven! I am so happy for the both of you!" she exclaimed. "You must tell me everything that occurred!"

By the time Starfire pulled back to look at her, Raven had managed to conceal the look of horror and stunned confusion on her face. Hadn't she said enough already? Did Starfire really expect her to recount the entire evening?

"Actually, Starfire." She replied with practiced ease. "I'm curious to hear about you and Robin. Don't you two have plans this evening?"

Starfire beamed, confirming this to be true, and soon the tameranian was excitedly explaining her plans for the evening, pulling Raven toward the bed so that the two could sit down and continue their chat. Raven smiled inwardly at having redirected the conversation away for herself and Beastboy, also pleased to see her friend so happy, but she did feel a surge of apprehension when Starfire suggested what she called 'the dating of doubles'.

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Dear Readers,

I apologize for not finishing this story- It's still one of my favorites- but I just don't have the inspiration/motivation or even the imagination to continue it. I didn't want to leave this story hanging in the air, and people wondering if it will ever see an end(i don't believe it will), so I'm letting you know now. I also apologize if the 'new chapter' alert got anyone's hopes up, which is why I posted a little something along with this (I've had this typed up for quite some time). It pains me to admit, but this story will not see another chapter after this- unless by some miracle I get inspired again. Other stories have stolen my attention and focus.

I appreciate everyone who has read and reviewed this story, I've had some of the nicest reviews and this is by far my most popular story I've ever written. THANK YOU SO MUCH! I appreciate all of your encouragement and I hope you accept my apology as I painfully admit defeat. If anyone would like to continue my story on their own, you are free to do so- I'd be honored. Thanks again.

Sincerely, toxic-dreamer-2 (Kayla)

Normally I'd say 'please review', but I'd rather not get yelled at, heh. No review is necessary.