a Twilight fan fic

So here goes an other try at this story! I'm probably gonna keep changing between POV's but I love writing with Jakes, so here it goes:

JPOV

After I hid the keys to a place on Bellas porch I knew she would find them if she looked for them a bit, I just stared at the house. I sat on the step and tried to hear Bellas slow breathing. I felt like tonight was all a dream. That I had to make sure she really wanted me before I let myself get carried away. What if she would change her mind? What if I could never be what he was for her? Could I be the love of her life like she's the love of mine?

Yes.

I'm sure of that. But yet I found myself longing for her. Man, I'm crazy, I just saw her! But it feels so distant. I need to make sure now. I got up and walked below her window. Was she asleep? She did breath very solemnly.. What if she just wants to sleep?

I couldn't resist myself and I threw a rock into her window. This is so stupid, I kept telling myself until I heard a weak sound '' Jake.. please.. It's nothing.. NO EDWARD DON'T!''

In a second I was in her room looking at a very sleeping Bella. She must have screamed in her sleep. The covers were of the bead and the pillow on the foot of the bead. She was shaking, cold. Her whole body looked so pale. She was wearing short shorts and a white very see-trough top. Oh my god, you could see her hard.. No! I can't just watch her here like that without her knowledge.

Slowly I walked on the edge of her bead and sat down next to her. I pulled the covers to cover her up a bit and put my other hand around her so she wouldn't be cold and whispered to her ear ''wake up sleepyhead'' and kissed it.

She mumbled something like 'that tickles' and slowly opened her eyes. ''Jake'' she signed and looked at me from behind her black eyelashes.

''what on earth are you doing here?! Do you realize that Charlie is in the next'' I cut her of with a sweet kiss that was turning into not-so-sweet-but-hot when I pulled away. ''I know, Bells, honey I just had to see you once more before I left, is that ok?'' in my mind I begged for her to be okay with this.

''Jake it's fine, I'm just a bit startled.. Did you come from the window?!'' she gasped. ''Well yeah, I couldn't really use the front door'' I said smiling. She looked down but before that I caught a glimpse of sorrow in her eyes and then she just said ''Oh.''

''Are you sure you're okay with--?'' It was her turn to cut me off ''Yeah, yeah it's just that well.. umm..'' she mumbled.

This had to be about Edward. That stupid leech. Bella doesn't act like this if it's not about him. Shit. He ruins everything. I won't have any of that.

''That's okay, Bells, don't get upset. Forget it, I just wanted to say good night to you again, okay? And maybe steal a kiss from your lips'' I said with a smirk. That got her smiling and she leaned in for a kiss. Just as our lips were about to touch she whispered ''play nice, Jacob Black, or you're in for some trouble.'' Before I could even react she was all over me.

Kissing, pulling my hair, sucking my lip, licking my tongue, running her hands on my body.

W H O A

She was so amazing. And just as she felt my hardness for the second time today she pulled away and said '' Do you think that's playing nice, Jacob?'' She was devious! And I loved it. I must have looked dumbstruck when I mumbled ''You so don't play fair'' and planted a kiss on her forehead while getting up. ''I wasn't planning on it'' Bella said sheepishly. I had to laugh a bit and I got up to the window and turned to her '' I so don't wanna leave now, Bells.'' She smiled, got up and walked to me and gave me a hug. She whispered into my ear ''Jacob Black, I love you, now go home and get some rest so you have energy to play with me tomorrow.'' She looked me in the eye while biting her lip and tuned around to walk to her bead and all I could think of was damn!

I took one more look at her and jumped off the window while phasing into my other side. I heard her sigh when I was in the woods. I started thinking about all the things I will get to do to her when she's ready, and by the looks of it, I won't have to wait too long. But I don't wanna rush either. Give her time, I said to myself.

Oh, way to go man! I heard Quill think. Shit, I didn't realize anyone was up. I quickly tried to push the fantasies I had of Bella away from my mind. That was a hard task given what she just did to me…

Too much information, Jake! Leah was saying.

Well, get off my mind then! I thought back.

If only I could! Leah scoffed.

Wow, she's a big tease! Try to contain yourself man, Paul was messing with me.

Assholes, was the last thought I shared before I phased. I didn't need all of them in my mind while I was still hard at the thoughts of Bellas lips on my skin…

I let my mind wander while I ran home. When I got there I quickly got to my room and sat down on the bead. I was taking my shorts of when I heard a quiet knock on the door.

''Jake, are you home? Can I open the door?'' Billy asked. While pulling my shorts up I said ''Sure dad, come in.'' Billy rolled himself into the room. ''You sure got up here fast, you okay?'' he asked. '' Yeah, I'm more than okay'' I said with a sweet smile. ''Oh, that's great son. I just wanted to let you know that I'm gonna be gone all day tomorrow helping Sue out with Harries arrangements with Charlie, you know.'' Billy looked so sad. Shit. How could I have forgotten about this?! ''Right, sorry... Well, Bellas actually coming here in the morning, is that ok?'' I asked. ''Sure, son. I'll let you go to bead, good nigh'' he said closing the door. ''Night!'' I yelled after him, deep in thought.

I pulled my shorts of and got to my bead. I laid down under the covers and surprise, surprise started thinking of Bella. My Bella.

I guess she's becoming mine now. Finally. I can't wait for tomorrow.

A whole day with Bella all to myself!

BPOV

I woke up at 8. Before I really got out of bed I had to think about Jake. I had no intention of letting things go as far as they did. But I so did not regret anything. With Jake I felt like a kid in a candystore. I could touch him, and he wouldn't pull away. Hah, like that's gonna happen! Now that Jake opened my eyes to him, I could see him clearly. Everything so great about him. He practically was the perfect man for crying out loud! How have I missed it?

Thinking thoughts like these I could physically feel the whole in my chest getting smaller. So what if Edward doesn't love me! My love for him has slowly been dying every since he left! Jacob does love me. And he's right here, where I can reach him! Why am I running after a dream I am not sure I even no longer want? Edward really messed me up. But Jake would never. He's fixing me. He's so honest. He's so in love. He's so gorgeous.

I remembered my hands running up and down he's perfect chest, feeling all the muscles. I just new I could do anything I want with me today. He wouldn't stop me. Of course not. And that though made my toes tingle.

No. I have to take things slower than that, I thought at my dirty thoughts laughing a bit. Or do I have o take things slow? I know Jake. He's my best friend. He's in love with me. I love him. The question is whether I'm ready or not. I don't wanna go in too deep and back out. That would kill Jake. But last nigh I so wasn't backing out… Again the dirrrty thoughts filled up my head with me licking every part of his muscular body…

I have to get out of bed.

I got up and went straight to the shower. The warm water reminded me so much of him.. and he's touch. Mmm. After I washed my hair I got off the shower, dried myself and put on a cute ensemble of cut out jeans and a white top. I went downstairs to eat breakfast after I put my hair in a lose ponytail, leaving some hair down. ''Morning'' I greeted Charlie. I refuse to blush. ''Well top of the morning to you too, miss Swan'' He said sarcastically. ''What's got you so down?'' I had to ask as he lifelessly stared at the wall. ''Ah, sorry, it's just that today I'll have to go help Sue with Billy, and she's going to be so broken, I don' know if I can see that after seeing you like that for so-'' He cut himself off as he took a look to my stunned face. ''Oh I'm so sorry hon., it's just-'' he started. ''It's fine, I'm the one who should be sorry. I'm sorry for everything, for me going a little crazy. But I'm getting out of it, no need to worry about me anymore'' I said kissing his forehead and giving him a small hug. ''It's nice that you show some support to Sue. She must be devastated.'' ''We try'' he just said quietly and thanked me. I told him where I was going today and he didn't even react. I took a sandwich with me and as I was leaving the kitchen I kissed Charlies head once more and said my goodbyes.

The ride went smoothly and my mood started to pick up again. As I parked to the Blacks drive, I saw Seth helping Billy into his car. ''Morning Bella'' he said when I got out of the truck. ''Morning you two'' I said back. ''You two holding up?'' I tried to sympathise. ''Yeah well, today's gonna be a hard day'' Seth said. '' I believe you. Well, is Jake up?'' I asked curiously. ''Yeah, he's sleeping, feel free to try and wake him up'' Billy said with a small smile. ''Okay then, try and hang in there'' I said while walking to the house. I made my way to Jakes room to find him naked on his bead, covers down, he's back to me.

Wow was my first thought.

''Jake'' I tried, ''Jaaakeee!'' I was beginning to say it louder. ''JAKE, c'mon!'' and still no response. I poked his back with a finger. ''Wake up sleepy!'' I said with love.

Nothing. I though that it would be nice to cover him up so I got the covers to his hips and started again.

This time he woke up. Finally. ''Bells! Sorry, I must have slept in! Come here'' he pulled me to his lap. Under the covers. Before I had the chance to complain about his lack of clothing he was kissing me. I mean really kissing me again. I matched him, kissing him every bit as hard as he kissed me, in his bed, while he was naked. I didn't care. It felt so good. My nails left marks to his back all the way down to his gorgeous backside from his neck. While I slid my tongue in his hot mouth my fingers where in his hair. He was everywhere. In my back, at my sides, in my hair. I felt my core get wet at the thought of him. At that he smelled the air and growled loudly. I had to giggle but I was serious again when he pinned me to the bed and I felt his hardness on my thigh. I signed he's name more then once and was starting to loose control. ''Jake I want you so much ah.. '' I said again. I couldn't catch my breath. He growled and pulled away. What? Just? Happened?

''Jake, are you okay?'' I asked, feeling so hurt. '' You're not ready for all of this.. You needed to go slow and here I am ready to just..'' ''Ready to make love to me like I want you to'' I finished his sentence. ''No, I mean well kinda wait what?'' he was confused. ''I want to make love with you, Jacob Black'' I said. He growled again ''BELLA ! you're killing me here! We can't! Not today! It's not safe, I need to make sure that it's safe..'' he mumbled. Ahh. Phasing. Damn. ''Oh. Right, I forgot. Umm, sorry, I guess?'' I giggled. ''Leave it to you to apologize for the best moments of my life'' he said with a frustrated expression. He had got out of the bed, and he was still naked. And hard. I liked my lips at the sight of him.

Control yourself, I thought. I walked to him and said '' don't worry Jake, we'll have all the time in the world for that.'' He kissed me slightly and smiled ''Got damn it, woman'' and put on a pair of shorts.

I smiled again.

''So what do you wanna do today?'' I asked exited.

To be continued! Tell me what you think of this with a review, please! It really helps to keep me writing, so thanks you all!