a Twilight fan fic

JPOV

After the little incident at out driftwood log, we wandered on the beach for a while longer, talking about all the things important to us. Just by talking, I knew. I knew that this was ment to be. Without all the magic bullshit, Bella and I belong together. We fit. The thought is frightening as hell and at the same time the most wonderful one.

Shit, I sound like a girl from a teen movie, for crying out loud.

But I can't help it.

Bella and I decided to step by my place before the bonfire. This bonfire was going to be intense. It was practically and other memorial to Harry, and I had to tell that to Bella. She took it well, said she wanted to come and show her support. Gosh, I love her. And I'll need her there. Everyone is gonna be remembering things about him, crying their eyes out, grieving. It's going to be hard. I must have looked sad, because after a long silence Bella took my hand and joined it with hers, giving mine a small kiss.

We walked to my place and I found a note in the kitchen table, left by Billy

Son, I already left to Sams, Seth gave me a lift. Come around seven, and bring Bella. Charlie will be there. See you then. Billy.

I showed the note to Bella and she nodded. At sad times like this, I loved that Bella was here for me, in the simplest gestures.

The clock was almost six, so we had about forty minutes to kill before it would be appropriate to make our way to Sams. ''So, what do you wanna do now?'' Bella asked and smiled slightly. ''I dunno. How about we just go to my room?'' I asked.'' Sure'' Bella took my hand and pulled me with her to my room.

My room was a mess. There were clothes and school stuff all over the place. My bed was unmade, like always, and the covers were in the floor. Man, I really need to clean up.

Judging by the look on Bellas face, she thought so too. ''Oh Jake'' she just signed with her hands on her hips. I had to laugh at the sight of her, and as she realized I was laughing at her, she poked a finder to my chest. ''Hey'' she laughed with me.

She sat down on the bed and I joined her. '' You gonna be okay?'' she asked, looking a bit concerned. I gave her a weak smile '' Yeah, it's just hard to see people I love in grief. Since I've been there, I feel even worse. I'm so glad I get to have you there for me tonight. Thanks for coming.'' ''Of course, Jake, anything'' she said and leaned down to kiss me. I kissed her back, sweetly slowly. '' I love you'' she whispered to my lips.

Then we just laid there, holding each other like the world had stopped.

Before I knew it, it was time to go. Oh well.

When we got to the truck I opened Bellas passengers' side door and she smiled at me. She looks cute tonight, I thought. ''You're beautiful'' I said, taking in the sight of her. Wow. And she was mine. Ha.

She blushed ''thanks Jake.'' Before I could stop myself, I cupped her face with my hands and planted a sweet kiss on her blushing cheek. She giggled but when our eyes met, the amusement was gone. She parted her lips ever so slightly and about a second later I was crashing my lips to hers. God she tasted good. All I wanted to do is to taste her all over, see what she tasted like elsewhere.. With out thinking I was pushing her against my car, grabbing her everywhere and planting kisses everywhere I saw bare skin. Man, you should really stop now, I thought. I used all of my willpower to separate my lips off of her body and took a look at her. She looked so innocent and pure. No doubt the most beautiful sight I've laid my eyes on. ''God, you're makin' me crazy'' I signed. She just smiled at me looking a bit dumfounded. ''Umm we're gonna be late if we don't start to leave, Jake'' she said all smiles. ''Oh... Right. Bonfire. Harry. Right'' I tried to put my thoughts together.

She took a step to me and gave me a hug. A sweet little hug to tell me that she cared. That she was here for me. I smiled, and kissed her ear. ''Let's go''

BPOV

The bonfire was amazing. At first I felt a bit on the outside, but Jake made sure that feeling didn't last long. He introduced me to all of La Push. It was amazing that the whole reservation was there to pay their respects to Harry. Everyone was there for each other. I felt so special when everyone took me in with both arms open.

After an hour or so, everyone gathered around a huge fire on the beach. Billy and other elders told stories about what happens after death. They told how Harries soul was alive and well. The stories had a huge effect to the atmosphere. Small smiles were shown and warmth in the looks people shared. When the storytelling was over, Jake said he wanted to take me home. Charlie stayed in La Push, to support Sue so she didn't have to be alone with her kids tonight. Everyone started heading home so Jake and I walked hand in hand to my truck.

''That was amazing'' I said in awe. ''I know'' he nodded and opened the passengers door to me. ''Hey, I thought I'd be driving, you know, it being my car and all'' I said smiling. Jake showed me a small smile ''Mmm just be a good girl, Bells.''

I had no idea what he ment but I quietly got into the truck. I didn't want to tease him at a time like this.

The drive was quiet but still it wasn't akward. I don't think things could get akward with Jake, They never were. Finally he pulled up in the driveway. Before I could even think about it he was opening my door. I smiled when he helped me out of the truck.

''You okay there?'' I said. He looked at me for a few moments ''Yeah, I guess, it's just weird, you know. He's gone. Like really, vanished, just like that. Brings up a lot of memories, you know.''

Right, his mom. This must feel horrible for him; get him thinking about her too. Jacob never really talked about her with me, and I didn't want to push. But I do wanna show my support. ''Come inside for a wile? I mean Charlie isn't coming home anytime soon, and your own house is empty since Billy also went to Sues. Just come, talk and all?'' I laid myself out there, just waiting to be rejected. Jacob smiled and just nodded ''Thanks Bells.''

JPOV

We walked inside and I followed Bella to the living room. We sat on the couch, next to each other. Bella looked at me with an inviting smile. She laid her head to my shoulder and breathed into my neck. ''God it was a long day'' she said while stretching her limbs. I pulled her closer to me, and put an arm behind her head. ''Mmmhmm'' I mumbled in agreement.

I flipped trough the channels feeling emotionless. I just stared ahead, not caring what I was seeing. After a while I thought Bells had fallen asleep but she lifted her head and looked at me. I didn't even bother to meet her curious eyes. She lifted her body up and to my surprise came to sit on my lap. What? Just? Happened? I must have looked dumfounded. She put her legs to my sides and sat down. ''Cheer up, will you'' she just said with a grin. She moved her hips a bit. That got me awake. All of me. Her hands were on my stomach and slowly she stared moving then to my upper body.

I had this amazing girl ready to fall for me and I was ignoring her do to my own misery. She was my cure. God, she knew me well I thought grinning. Her small hand reached my hair, and she pulled it pretty hard. ''Bells, you're killing me'' she's such a tease!

''Oh em I..' she whispered seductively. '' You know'' she said while kissing my neck, '' Charlie isn't coming home tonight.. I don't like to be home alone.. Why don't you sleep here tonight.. Protect me from, you know, vampires and such... it's clearly necessary..''

I was already getting hard, but this was just too much. The thoughts and fantasies that came into my mind, oh man…FOCUS I told myself. ''Umm stay here? Tonight? Sure, I could do that.. Why not'' I put my hands on Bellas tights. She giggled ''awesome.. So we don't own a spare mattress and this couch-'' she said and rocked her hips and legs harshly making the couch creek and me crazy. Focus I told myself while she continued ''-this couch, has seen better days. Besides, it's kinda small for you'' She grinned again. ''So why don't you.. Sleep in my bed?''

Who was this girl? Where's my shy little girl? But man, was I loving this Bella! I had no idea she could say stuff like this! I decided to play with her ''Well, how ever you please, miss Swan.'' She smiled a bit and kissed my neck, breathed to it making my skin tingle and she bit my neck. What? Well, she didn't really bite it, just a bit, well what? Before I could form a sentence she brought her lips to mine without letting them touch. ''I could get a nice hot shower, and go to bed. Why don't you.'' She kissed my left cheek''-go to my room-'' kissed my right cheek ''-and make yourself comfortable?''

''Mmmm umm eh yeah sure your room'' I managed to choke out. Why em I acting like a little girl here? I thought as Bella brought her lips an inch closer, and just when I decided to lean in, she baked out and got up and walked away to the bathroom I assume. Whoa, I mean whaaaat?

I got up and walked to Bellas room. It was all messy and Bella like. I could hear her showering in the next room as I looked around. There were clothes everywhere on the floor and the bed was unmade. I sat on the edge of the bed and breathed in Bellas sent. Ahh. I leaned to the wall and waited.

In a few minutes Bella came into the room. Her hair was wet and messy, her skin was wet and the strawberry sent was floating over her. She smiled at me and closed the distance between us. She grabbed my neck and kissed me finally.

There were no words to be said.

I grabbed her small frame and melted into her. She tasted so good. We fell onto Bellas bed and she was taking of my shirt. What? ''Bella! Isn't this a bit, I don't know, fast?'' I said trying to catch my breath. She smiled ''Well, I thought about it… look at it like this: I love you, you love me, I trust you with all I have, my life and my heart. There's no one else I'd like to share this with and we've known each other for ages, so why should we wait?''

She had thought about this a lot it seems. I smiled. ''You do have a point there, Bella'' I grinned and kissed her..

an: HA I had to cut it at that. SO HEY YALL! it's been a while, sryy guys! It's just that I had no motivation what so ever to write! I think that there's no one I'm writing to then me so I thought what's the point to make time for this? I've been super busy, you know, with LIFE and all. Highs School, friends, hobbies, parties.. There's a lot going on! Blaa Blaa who cares BUT since the holidays are coming and all of my friends are travelling elsewhere so I do have a lot of free time in my hands! I'm a poor writer, and I just got soooo overboard and carried away with the ending of that chap but can you blame me? I always am missing a bit balls for Bella, if you know what I mean. Well, that's that! Pliiiiiz find it in your hearts to review me even once, if not else, for Xmas sake! Happy holidays everybody!

I hope I can provide a Xmas gift of my own for ya, an other chap ha ha! We'll see, ta ta!