Disclaimer: (Stephenie Meyer owns everything and I own nothing...this disturbs me)

CHAPTER TWO

Goodbyes and Hellos

His eyes were tense just like his body, but he let go of his statue like stance to put his hand on my shoulder. It was cold.

"Edward", I said again "I made up my mind…and I chose Jacob". Why did I say his name? That would only make it worse…and it did. I could see the hurt in his eyes. He removed his hand and penetrated his gaze into my eyes. He spoke.

"Are you positive this is what you want?" Why did he have to be so good about this. I deserved much worse. Meekly I said "yes".

Edward leaned in and kissed my forehead sending shivers down my neck and through my spine. I was in awe at his ability to make me feel like this. I had just ripped away all that we had and still I welcomed his touch. He clutched the crook of my neck and pulled me in. I didn't stop him. Our lips came so close that I could fell his ice cold breath tingling my nose.

It was like a moment of frozen solitude. As if I was meant to have chosen Edward, but I knew better. He slid his free hand onto the small of my back and motioned a circle with his finger.

God I wanted him, I wanted to choose him. I wanted to be capable of that. It could have been so easy but I had to make it so hard…like I did with everything.

Continuing the motion with his fingers he leaned further in, our lips slightly brushed against each other- then a cry came from the woods. It was Jacob, it was a wolf. I instantly stepped back. Edward retraced his thoughts and kissed my cheek.

" I will always love you Bella Swan", and he was gone, leaving me standing in a deserted road of wood.

Now the road didn't seem so long, in all reality it probably took me no more than fourteen steps to get to him. It was dark now and the wind started rustling the leaves. I was cold.

"Jacob get out of the woods, I can see you". He didn't come. It didn't feel right, why wasn't he there? I waited two minutes that felt like a lifetime. Then I ran.

The trees were a blur, my heart was pumping and suddenly my foot made contact with a rock. Tumbling to the dirt path I hit something hard, but instead of the ground it was a person.

"JACOB!" His face formed a smile verging on the side of cocky. Then he grinned.

"What took you so long". I was lost for words, how was he here when I'd swear I'd just seen him in the woods a few yards back. My mouth spoke without permission from my brain.

"Something…in the woods", I stumbled. His smile grew.

"That was just Seth"

"What!? Why?"

"He was looking out for you"

"You have other wolves watching me now!" If It we're possible his smile grew even more.

"I had to make sure you made the right choice". I smirked. I could beat him at this game.

"And what might that have been?"

"Me". He grabbed my hands and pulled my body as close to his as possible. The heat of his chest against mine made my heart skip a few beats. I could tell in his eyes that he could feel it. I blushed.

He smiled. "Are you nervous Bella?"

"No". I lied. I had only just made the most important decision of my life.

"Good". He moved in closer with a speedy fashion, his mouth attached to mine. His lips were so hot I could actually feel mine sweating against his. He slowly moved his tong against the corner of my lip then grazed his hand down my back sending shivers everywhere. Had I no control? Could I fall into something so easily?

The more he rolled his tong the hotter it got. Even with my eyes open all I saw was red. Our pulses had become one, working in synchronization. The heat was nice. Jacob slid his hand down past my hip and his lips moved to the crook of my neck. He grabbed the back of my knee and thrusted me against his body. I gasped in surprise, this was good.

Almost as quick as this happened it stopped. Jacob paused and took a step back.

"I swear I'll be right back" I was confused.

"Where are you going?"

"There might be a problem about a mile down the path, I just need to check it out. I'll be right back". I put my hand against his russet face and smiled.

"I understand. Wolfy business". He went to step closer to me, but second thought in hesitation turned and ran.

"Five minutes", he yelled. I stood there. I knew Seth wasn't just there to watch me, he was protecting me.

…

Two hours later Jacob was still gone and I was stranded in the woods. It was dark and I didn't have a sweater. The wind was growing stronger and my body started shivering uncontrollably. A blur formed about fifty yards down the path, I didn't even have time to be scared. Alice stopped in a graceful jerk.

"Alice!" She didn't wait a second to speak.

"Bella we need to go, quickly"

"…but what's happening, why is Jacob not back?"

"Jacob, what?…that doesn't matter, the problem is Edward!"

"Edward?" I shyly questioned. I knew of coarse that he must not have been having the best night. "What's wrong with Edward?" Her face became a sea of emotions. Sadness, regret, desperation then anger.

"He left to find the Volturi". I was in shock.

"Why would he do that!"

"Don't you know Bella, are you dumb? He's got nothing left here, he's gone and he has no plans of returning. His family, his life, he's left it all. And because of you!" My face turned a deep shade of red. I could feel it.

"But why…"

"Bella we have to go now!" With that Alice picked me up in one great wisp. However dainty she appeared to be the real strength could never have been guessed. She ran.