AN: Longest so far... Kinda original, kinda a spin-off of a RP book I read. So just to be safe, anything you recognise isnt mine. See you at the bottom.

He was gone. It was nothing unusual but I was abnormally worried this time. Don't get me wrong I was a wreck every time he got deployed but this time it was so much more. His battalion would be the first of the marines to enter Iraq. Just thinking about it gave me panic attacks. I knew nothing about his mission, which again was nothing unusual, but I just knew that the things that awaited my boy would change him forever. Josh was a recon marine and before I met him it was his life. His job, and serving his country meant everything to him, and I would never even dream of asking him to give it up but it was at times like this that I wished he couldn't have just been a bank clerk instead. I had studiously tried to ignore the news, while simultaneously waiting for the news that I would never see him again. I couldn't even begin to imagine my life without him and I felt sick every time I turned on the TV or opened a paper and was reminded of the rising death toll in the Middle East. My heart clenched as I remembered his last words to me 'Don't fret sweetheart, I'll be back before you know it, and you will be yelling at me to stop leaving my dirty socks everywhere.'

I felt tears well up in my eyes as I turned over, facing the door of our bedroom and settled into another dreamless sleep.

I woke up to the sound of a door closing, I was usually a deep sleeper but I could never settle properly unless Josh was next to me.

I opened my eyes to be met with the most glorious sight ever.

"Josh!"

"Hey sugar."

"You're here."

"Yeah, finally."

This was the only thing I needed to hear. I flew out of bed and into his arms. I felt all the tension melt away as soon as his arms closed around me. I could feel him place open mouthed kisses on my neck and the feeling went straight between my legs.

"Miss me?" I questioned my voice coming out husky.

"Actually there has been something that I have wanted to do to you for along time now…" His voice seemed deeper and I gasped a little as he picked me up.

He walked us the short distance back to the bed and put me down in the middle of it. I waited some what impatiently for him to join me.

"Josh…"

This seemed to wake him from his daze as he leant forward and crawled up the bed to join me. His lips met mine roughly as his hands slid down my sides. I moaned quietly into his kisses as he brushed my breasts… he had been gone for so long, I had forgotten how much I craved his touch. His hands reached the bottom of the tank top I always wore to bed. He pulled it off only breaking our kisses for a second. We pulled apart slightly, panting harshly into each others open mouths – we were always like this when Josh came home.

"I've missed you so much." I managed to pant out as Josh pulled down the shorts and panties that I was sleeping in.

All rational thought fled my mind as Josh's hands ran down my body. Each limb that his hands touched arched into him. My eyes locked with his and a wicked smile spread across his face. With his free hand he pulled my face up to his and kissed me quickly. He then dragged his lips down my neck and towards my breasts. I felt his breath on my right nipple and before I knew what was happening his lips descended. I cried out as I felt his tongue draw circles across my skin. Moving quickly across to my left breast he repeated his actions. Soon, too soon, he pulled away and moved further down my body. His tongue left a wet trail as he moved towards my belly button.

"Fuck, darlin', I have been dreaming about this moment for months..."

I could only moan my agreement as I trembled beneath him. My hands itched to grip the hair that I knew was no longer there. I felt his lips trail along my inner thighs and my moans fell away to whimpers and my cries of his name turned into incoherent begging.

"Please... oh god, josh... please... need... you."

Smiling against my thigh he mumbled "Baby, all you had do was ask."

Without another word he thrust two fingers into me. My back arched violently and it took a couple seconds for me to realise that the scream that was bounced off the walls came from me. I glanced down to see Josh grin wickedly at me before he ducked his head and flicked my clit with his tongue. My hands fisted in our bed sheet and I took everything in me to not clench my thighs together and keep him where he was forever. As if reading my mind he threw his arm over my hips, keeping me still, he started to pump his fingers in and out of me while still flicking my clit. It was like I was no longer in control of myself as I thrust my hips into him. He groaned and I felt the vibrations reverberate across my body.

"God, sugar, you taste fucking amazing. I don't know how I survived without you for so long."

I didn't have time to even try and formulate a response before he returned to making me lose all sense of reality. His tongue replaced his fingers and I screamed out as I felt his tongue enter me. I knew it wouldn't be long before I came, feeling his tongue on me always managed to turn me into a boneless pile of satisfaction.

"Josh..." I moaned out "Please... I'm so close."

Knowing exactly what I needed his fingers brushed my clit gently before slowly applying more pressure. My legs started shaking and I could feel the coil in my stomach tighten. Suddenly his fingers pinched my clit and I came, hard. I swear I blacked out and then my world exploded into technicolor. Every muscle in my body relaxed and josh continued lapping at me until the tremors in my legs finally stopped.

Pulling his clothes off he crawled up the bed and curled his body around mine. He had left his boxers on and as I reached down to touch him he caught my hand and brought it back up to our chests.

"No, sweetheart, tonight is all about you." He breathed into my neck as he kissed my collarbone.

"But..." I started.

"Later sugar."

Content with his answer I settled into his side and just breathed him in. His fingers were tracing patterns over as much skin as he could. Nothing could explain my feelings as I lay there in his embrace. Finally I settled on relief. He came home to me.

I woke up to an empty bed and my heart broke. I was so sure that it hadn't been a dream that Josh had finally come home. Dragging myself out of bed I walked over to our bathroom and sat by the bathtub. I reached over and turned on the hot tap as the tears began to fall. I watched as the tub filled up with hot water and as soon as the water had risen high enough I pulled off my clothes and got in. Tears continued to fall as I sat in the water. It had felt so real; I could still feel his touch and hear his voice whispering sweet nothings in my ear.

I sat there for what seemed like hours remembering all the same details of my dream. The way his hands felt as they caressed my body, the pure joy on his face as I threw myself into his arms. My whole body shook as the sobs consumed me.

Then I heard his voice, I jumped and looked around wildly finally convinced that I had become delusional.

"Baby, why are you crying?" I heard him ask.

"Josh?" I whimpered.

"It's me sweetheart." He soothed as he walked closer to me.

"You're really here? Last night wasn't a dream?"

He chuckled slightly. "No, it wasn't a dream. I am really here."

Once again I launched myself at him not caring that he was dressed and I was still wet from the bath.

"Where were you?" I breathed into his neck.

"I made you breakfast. Just like you always want me to, sugar."

I laughed something I hadn't done in a while. I pulled away from him slightly and grabbed a towel. He frowned slightly as I wrapped it around myself.

"Well then I had better get dressed and prepare myself for your cooking."

As I walked out of the bathroom, I threw a wink over my shoulder and giggled at him stunned expression. I felt like I was soaring, it was strange. Going from feeling so low to being euphoric but I knew nothing could bring me down now. My boy was home and all was right with the world.

AN: *hides* first dip into smut writing, what did you guys think?