Title: Sinful Thoughts
Author: Readingmama/Vampiremama
Beta: AcrossTheSkyInStars, Writer of Please Forgive Me (Go and read it!)
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters. No copyright infringement is intended.

Continuity: AH/AU
Rating: M cause you never know when a lemon writes itself.

A/N- Thanks to everyone reading!

Chapter 5

BPOV

Packing for Hawaii was more of a challenge then I expected. Living my whole life in Forks had not allowed me to accumulate much of a summer wardrobe. Renee took me to Port Angeles the weekend before the trip and we had picked out a few pairs of shorts and matching tank tops but I had forgotten a swimsuit. I did have one; the problem was it was from when I was twelve. The tiny bikini wasn't scandalous when I was all legs and arms but now that I had some bum and boobs it was a little provocative.

I held up the dark blue suit and scrunched my nose. I threw it into the suitcase figuring I would have a chance to pick up a new one when we were there. A nice one piece, maybe even with a skirt, maximum coverage would be my goal.

I tossed my bathroom bag in and closed the zipper. Charlie materialized moments later to grab my suitcase and take it down to the car. Edward and Renee were waiting when I came down the stairs. Edward shot me a small smile before grabbing mom's carry on and going out to the car.

We took a plane from Port Angeles to Seattle and then had to stay the night before leaving at six am the next morning for Honolulu. Charlie had found a cheap airport motel so we had two rooms, the girls in one and the boys in another. Even after a short flight, I fell asleep the moment my head hit the pillow.

I awoke the next morning to a moist finger in my ear. I smacked Edward's hand as I rolled over trying to get rid of the feeling.

"You're disgusting!" I said groaning.

"Takes one to know one," he replied. We both reverted to children on vacation, it was fun.

I hopped out of bed and Edward's head snapped away. I furrowed my brow and looked down. I packed for the island weather so I was wearing a small pair of shorts and a tank top. Edward was used to seeing me in flannel pajama pants and a long sleeve shirt, his reaction only made me feel more naked. I both wanted to hide and have him look at the same time.

I jumped in the shower not bothering to shave if I was just going to be growing stubble on a plane all day anyway. I threw on my travel pants and shirt, packing up the rest of my stuff as I waited for Renee. Edward had gone back to his own room and I heard a banging through the wall.

"Come on Edward, you've been in there twenty minutes. What are you doing in there?" Charlie called, his voice coming through the wall crystal clear.

"Geese dad, I'll be out in a minute," Edward's voice called back. His tone sounded embarrassed which only lead me to wonder what Edward was doing in the bathroom. My vanity wanted it to have something to do with my short shorts but I resigned myself to never knowing, it wasn't like he would tell me he was pleasuring himself in the bathroom.

We passed through security fairly quickly; the airport wasn't too busy at five am. They didn't have four seats close together so Edward and I sat at the back of the plane in row eighteen while Renee and Charlie sat together in row twelve.

Once we were airborne, Edward pulled out his IPod and splitter. I grabbed my earphones and we sat quietly listening to music for the majority of the short flight to Los Angeles. We had four hours to kill in the airport before our flight left for Honolulu so Edward and I played cards while Renee and Charlie did crossword puzzles.

We ended up with a similar seating arrangement as our last flight. Edward and I sat together and our parents sat eight rows a head of us.

"So how are things with Irina?" I asked Edward once the seatbelt sign was shut off.

"Good I guess," he replied, "how about you and Mikey?"

"Okay, things are kind of weird. We are just kind of working out the differences between being friends or more. You know?"

"Yeah, I know." We sat in silence for a few minutes before Edward spoke again. "So Charlie gave me the ole pep talk."

I nearly snorted my tiny plastic cup of orange juice out my nose. Edward and I had this competition going since we were ten. I was currently leading by one but he almost had me. Whenever one of us caused the other to spew their drink out of their nose gained a point. It brought a smile to my face thinking of the chocolate milk incident of last Christmas.

Priceless.

"What did he say?" I asked once I was able to swallow.

"He gave me a rape flyer and told me that 'no means no'."

"That is so dad," I said picturing the whole thing. "If it makes you feel any better, Mom gave me the talk too. She is putting me on birth control when we get back."

"What!" Edward said clearly angry. I had expected him to find it as amusing as me but I guess the thought of his sister having sex freaked him out.

"Relax Edward, it's not like I'm having sex. She just doesn't want me to be uncomfortable once I do start." I knew my voice sounded annoyed but it was a cover for the hurt I was feeling.

I stared at the back of the seat ahead of mine trying to sort through the slew of emotions running through me when Edward's soft voice broke my trance. "I'm sorry Sweetpea."

"Don't worry about it," I replied as honestly as I could.

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By the time we had arrived at the hotel I was feeling that layer of airplane scum that settles on your skin when you fly. I was looking forward to a hot shower and a warm bed. Edward and I were given our own keys for the room and I was the one to unlock the door. I wheeled my suitcase into the room and took a look around.

"Hey dad, they forgot Edward's cot," I said noticing the two queen beds in the room. Charlie mumbled something under his breath before dropping his bags off at the door and heading back down to the front desk. "Anyone have to pee, cause I'm taking a shower," I announced while opening my suitcase and pulling out my toiletries.

When I emerged from the shower Charlie was sitting on the end of the bed in front of the TV switching through the channels. Edward was laying on my bed with his earphones in and Renee was unpacking her things in the drawers. 'It's not relaxing to live out of a suitcase,' she told me on a trip when I was around eight.

I had planned on jumping into bed when I got out of the shower so I had on my pajamas. I looked at Edward stretched out on my bed and wondered briefly what it would feel like to curl up next to him. He had his arms behind his head and the front of his hair hung down in his eyes. The confidence in his posture created mystery and allure. This was the first time I consciously wondered what it would be like to kiss my brother.

"Dad, when are they bringing Edward's bed up?" I asked startling Charlie.

"They made a mistake with the booking; they don't have any cots left. You two are going to have to share."

I snapped my head towards Edward and noticed he had a small smirk on his face. If I didn't know he was listening to his music I would have said he was happy about this development. However, that could have just been wishful thinking. I pulled back the covers and Edward stood up heading for the bathroom. When he returned he was dressed in his sleeping clothes. I should have made the connection in my head when I packed smaller pajamas. Edward was shirtless and wore a pair of pajama bottoms made of silk.

They were black, because I know anyone that reads this will want to know.

The normally large queen sized bed seemed to shrink as Edward slipped under the covers. He jostled the bed as he got into a comfortable position. He faced me on his side. I gave him a small smile.

"Goodnight Bella," he whispered.

"Goodnight Edward," I replied.

Under the blankets I slid my arm over his and succumbed to sleep.

EPOV

I may or may not have called the hotel a week ago before the trip and cancelled the cot. Nothing in this case has ever been proven but waking up with Bella's limbs intertwined in mine would have been reason enough.

I glanced at the clock and it read seven am. Charlie's rather robust snoring was still filling the room so I knew that he and Renee were still asleep. I wanted to gather Bella up in my arms and snuggle but I knew that there were too many ways it could go wrong. If either parent woke up and saw us like that there would be questions that I wouldn't want to answer, or worse, if Bella woke up I would have a lot of explaining to do.

I unwillingly pulled my arms and legs free from hers. I thanked my body for taking advantage of our unconsciousness and go after what it wanted. I couldn't be held responsible for what happened when I slept. I just wished I could remember all of it. Once I was free from the bed I ran my hands through my hair. I looked down at the sleeping angel asleep in my bed and smiled at her stillness. She was always the most beautiful when she didn't know anyone was looking.

I turned the shower on and began my morning routine. Even after practically being caught by Charlie the day before I couldn't stop myself from providing a release. I had noticed that my pajama pants had smelled of her and it drove me crazy. It was the sweetest torture to have her so close the night before, I wouldn't have traded it for anything.

By the time I exited the bathroom the rest of the family was up and about. Renee was making coffee in the tiny pot on the counter. The smell permeated through the room ridding it of Bella's scent. I scowled at the coffee pot and then noticed Renee giving me a strange look.

"Did the coffee pot do anything to offend you Edward?" She asked holding in a laugh.

"Naw, the coffee just stinks," I replied lamely. "So are we hitting the beach today?"

"I wanted to get a new suit before we went to the beach," Bella said rather panicked.

"You didn't bring one?" I asked.

"Uhm I did, but it's a bit old."

"Your father and I are going to the main desk and checking out what there is to do around here. Why don't you kids spend the morning on the private beach out front and we will meet up for lunch," Renee said while pouring two cups of coffee.

Bella and I exchanged a look. A morning without the parents on vacation was a great idea.

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We laid out our towels on the beach. It had taken close to an hour to get away from Renee. She had given us a long speech about looking out for one another, like I would be able to take my eyes off of Bella in a swimsuit. It had been a long time since I had seen her in one and I'm pretty sure I was still thinking girls were icky at that point. Bella undid the button on her shorts and I was unable to look away, I stared like a deer in headlights. The soft fabric of her brown shorts fell revealing the tiniest blue string bikini bottoms. I reasoned with myself, if the lord didn't want me to covet my sister he certainly would not be doing this to me. She pulled up her green tank top agonizingly slow. When her top was finally out of the way I took her in. She was stunning and she was the only girl in the world off limits to me, it wasn't fair.

I looked away and pulled off my own shirt leaving me in a pair of olive green Hawaiian swim trunks. I threw my shirt to the ground and when I looked back down at Bella, she was staring at me with an unusual look in her eye. I had never seen it before but it caused a fire in my chest.

"What?" I asked, unsure of what to do with her scrutiny.

"Can you do my back?" she asked pulling out the sunscreen from her bag. I wondered if I touched so much of her skin if I would be able to control myself but seeing as we were both near albinos I didn't have much of a choice.

I nodded and Bella flipped over, laying face down on her towel. I squirted the cream onto my hand before returning my gaze to my sister. I thought the word sister exactly twenty three times before I finished the task.

It didn't help.

When I finished doing a thorough job I said, "okay, now do me." The flush burned my cheeks as I realized what I had spoken. Bella looked up at me with her wide eyes and responded with, "Make sure you get your face, it's already getting red."

As we settled on our blankets I took a look around the beach. There were many young girls sunbathing. I knew that society wanted me to think tan skin was better but looking at the milky beauty lying next to me I think they were mistaken.

We met Renee and Charlie for lunch at the hotel. The buffet was plentiful in quantity but low in quality. Renee told us about a few of the activities that we could do while we were on the island. Bella wanted to go swimming with the dolphins and I just wanted to do whatever she was doing. We were split on the idea of a luau, Renee wanted the experience to tell all of Forks and Bella didn't want to eat anything with the head still attached. Eventually we decided that Bella and I would do our own thing and our parents would have a date night.

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Three days into our vacation and I was sorely looking forward to a night without the parents. Renee had decided to try and fix up a vacation fling for Bella, needlessly to say Charlie and I were vehemently opposed. Akoni looked willing but Bella just turned red and mumbled something about having a boyfriend. That earned her a scowl from Renee but I enjoyed the temporary pardon. I tried not to dwell on the fact that she had called Mikey her boyfriend.

"You kids behave, and just sign your dinner to the room," Renee said prancing around in her ridiculous Hawaiian print skirt. Charlie looked calm considering she had dressed him in a matching shirt.

"Yeah, yeah." Bella's muffled voice came through the bathroom door.

Renee gave me a kiss on the forehead and then they were off. I sat down on the bed and switch on the TV waiting for Bella. When she appeared my heart fluttered. She had chosen a dark green sundress with thin straps. Her cheeks were stained pink from her few days in the sun and she looked like an angel.

We decided that we would take a walk along the beach after dinner. There was a slight breeze and the rascally fifteen year old inside wished it would pick her skirt up a little higher. We settled down in the sand after a fifteen minute walk, dusk had past and the beach was dark. Bella in the moonlight was otherworldly.

"We didn't really get a chance to talk about your date with Irina. How did that go?" she asked. It wasn't something I really wanted to talk about sitting there with her but I was coming to find out I would never deny her anything, even a simple conversation.

"It was good, I guess," I answered.

"You asked me so I guess I get to ask you. Did you kiss her?" She refused to look at me while I answered.

"Why? Why do you want to know?" I asked suddenly curious of her motive.

"Well, it will be Mikey and my third date when we get home. I've never kissed anyone so I guess I am kind of nervous. I thought maybe you would be able to give me some advice."

My heart clenched at the thought of Bella's lips touching Mikeys'. I realized no matter how inferior the boy or how wrong he is for Bella, I would always be jealous of whom she was with.

"We didn't kiss," I said softly keeping my eyes on the ocean.

"I just wish there was some way to practice to try it out, without it being cheating, you know?"

"Well it wouldn't be cheating if it was your brother." The words slipped out of my mouth before I had a chance to rein them in. I couldn't look at her, the disgust in her face was something that I would remember forever. Instead, I said, "Forget it."

I made a motion to stand but Bella grabbed a hold of my arm. "Wait," she said, "that's not such a bad idea. I mean we could figure it out and then we won't be embarrassed and no one would ever know. It's kind of perfect."

I slowly turned my face to hers wondering if her words were in jest. The look on her face told me otherwise. She was serious; she wanted me to kiss her. I was going to get to kiss her; it was all I could do not to lunge at her.

"Okay."

I positioned myself on my knees and Bella did the same. I may have asked her one more time if she was ready but I don't remember. All I remember is the feel of her soft lips as I touched them with mine. I held myself there for a short moment before deepening the kiss. It was natural and easy, kissing Bella was like breathing but better. I heard a small whimper and my hormones kicked into gear. I pushed my tongue softly into her mouth.

Her body abruptly was ripped away from mine. If we hadn't have been alone for miles I would have thought that someone pulled her back. Her face looked panicked as she sat there wide eyed, her fingers touching the lips I had been enjoying. I wanted to apologize but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I would never regret what happened, it may be all I would ever get. I broke her gaze and looked back towards the waves crashing against the sand. When I looked back she had already stood up and was running back towards the hotel.

"Well, shit."

E/N- Huge kisses to all those who read and tongue kisses for those who review.