Title: Sinful Thoughts
Author: Readingmama/Vampiremama
Beta: AcrossTheSkyInStars

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters. No copyright infringement is intended.

Continuity: AH/AU
Rating: M cause you never know when a lemon writes itself.

A/N- I need to give out an extra shout to my beta Tanya who rocked it out with this chapter, cause I was sick and made all sorts of bad mistakes.

Chapter 10

BPOV

School all of a sudden seemed different. While I couldn't come out with my attraction for Edward, I still felt like there was a huge weight that had lifted off me. I found myself smiling more and more. Of course, as soon as you look like you are having a good time, the wolves descend.

"Hi Bella," Tyler Crowley said. He was on the football team with Emmett and not a bad looking guy. "You look really nice; did you have a good summer?"

"Yeah, I did. How about you?" I replied.

"Not too bad," he said just as the bell rang. "I gotta go, but we should hang out sometime."

I stood there, shocked, unable to answer. Besides Mike, who was in my social group, I had never had a guy ask me out or pay any attention to me at all.

"Close that beautiful mouth of yours and get to class, Swan," Eric Yorkie said, striding by me while giving my behind a firm smack. His surprising action caused me to snap out of my haze and head for my class.

The first week back was similar to that. I went to the bathroom twice just to check if I had grown huge boobs over the summer and missed it. I, however, wasn't the only one to notice the extra attention I was getting.

"This is killing me," Edward said, dramatically falling down on his bed. It was the first Friday and I was looking forward to the weekend.

"What's the matter?" I asked.

"Bella, you have no idea what those boys say about you in the locker room."

"Just tell them to knock it off. They won't think anything of it, you're my brother…hey wait, what are they saying?"

"Bella, if you haven't noticed recently, you're kind of glowing."

"What, like a pregnant lady?" I said astonished.

"No, like a girl in lo… like a girl in a relationship. Boys like the chase, and they want what they can't have."

"Who says they can't have me?" I teased, but instead of laughing, Edward's face became defeated.

"Maybe you should date one of them," he mumbled.

"You don't want me?" My voice came out strained.

"Of course I do, Bella, but how can I have you?"

"We could keep it a secret for now. I already told mom and dad that I'm taking a year off after this so that we can share housing when we go to University. I think it's best if no one knows. Once we get out of this town we can be whoever we want to be, no one will know us as anything but a couple."

"It's a lot to risk," he replied.

"You're worth it to me. Edward, one minute being yours is worth it."

"I need to kiss you."

"Then do it."

He stood up off the bed and he rushed to me. In any other situation, I would have been frightened by his intensity. One hand reached around and grabbed my lower back, bringing me closer to him. My head tilted up, awaiting his lips. He placed his forehead on mine and stared into my eyes.

"There is no going back on this, Bella. Are you sure?"

I answered with my hands around his neck, pulling his lips to mine. The first kiss that we had shared on the beach was intense and wonderful, but there was the underlying guilt and shame. This kiss had none of that. Our lips danced together, working on instinct. When Edward's tongue touched my lips I pushed away the reflex to pull back. I sighed and opened my mouth, allowing him entrance. The low groan that came from his throat when I did this spurred me on. I pulled my body impossibly closer to his, feeling his hardness pressed against me.

Edward spun me around, never unlocking lips, and walked me backwards. When the crook of my knees hit the bed I fell over, bringing his body with me. We lay on his bed and kissed until we heard the front door close. I bolted up first with Edward close behind me.

"I think I better head to my room," I said, worried that Renee would find us together swollen-lipped and flush-faced.

"Yeah," Edward agreed while adjusting himself. I couldn't help my eyes from darting to the bulge in his pants, causing him to clear his throat and me to blush even harder.

I quickly exited his room and went across to mine, only to change my mind and head to the bathroom instead. I looked at myself in the mirror and took in my aroused face. My hair was tangled and full from lying on the bed and my lips were plump and smiling. For a moment I no longer felt bland, I felt almost pretty.

I wanted to keep the look, to show everyone how Edward made me feel, but I knew that I couldn't. so I splashed some water on my face and cooled my cheeks back down to a pale white. I ran a brush through my hair, flattening it to its normal height. Then, when I saw her, the plain Bella I knew so well, I opened the door and headed to the kitchen for dinner.

"Hey honey," Renee said as I came into the kitchen.

"Hey mom, is dad working tonight?"

"Yeah, he is on the late shift," she replied.

"Do you need any help?" I asked.

"No, I'm just heating up some leftovers."

Edward walked into the room then, and I could feel my skin react before he even made a noise. I silently wondered if Jasper and Rosalie had this same connection or if it was more than a brother/sister thing. I turned and looked at him, unable to hide the smile from my face. He returned it with his crooked grin, the one I had seen him give to girls before but never to me. I may have swooned a little.

"You two look awfully happy," Renee observed.

Panic set in and I could see it was the same for Edward. Getting caught would end up leaving us both broken. The stakes were too high; we were going to have to try harder.

EPOV

"Hey Edward," Alice said, sitting down and joining me at my table in the library.

"Hey," I replied closing the book I was studying from. I had been spending the last few days working in the library over lunch. Part of the reason was that I wanted my homework done so I had free time to be with Bella in the evenings, and the other part was being afraid that I wouldn't be able to control my emotions in front of my friends. It was hard before to keep my looks brotherly, but now that I knew she felt the same way, all I wanted to do was shout it from the mountaintops.

"You've been spending a lot of time here," Alice stated. "Is there something wrong?"

All that studying must have sharpened my brain because my reply was quick. "I found out this summer that I was adopted."

"Wow. Are you okay with that?"

"Yeah, it just hurts that they lied to me. They even kept my real birthday a secret cause it's so close to Bella's."

"Shit, Edward, that's huge," she gaped at me and then continued, "so when is the real birthday?"

"June twentieth."

"You know no one is going to care. You can just tell all of us, Edward, your friends love you no matter what."

"Thanks Alice," I said giving her an awkward hug while still seated.

After telling Alice, it became a lot easier to tell everyone else. As expected, no one cared. I guess when you are hiding a bigger secret, being adopted is no big deal.

I still had times of doubt and sadness about it though. I went to Alice and she was really helpful. I didn't feel I could go to Bella as it felt wrong to complain to her that I wasn't her real brother. I couldn't tell Alice the whole situation, obviously, but she helped me through some of my feelings of abandonment.

Things went back to normal quickly. I would spend my lunches with my friends and my evenings with Bella. We didn't get a lot of alone time, but even just watching a movie with her felt like heaven. I was quickly falling in love with her. I had always loved her, but now I was in love with her, and it felt wonderful.

The attention at school hadn't died down, for Bella or me. Tyler and Eric would flirt with Bella every chance they got and I was getting notes from several girls. It was pretty easy to ignore the girls but I had a hard time keeping my cool with the guys. That was until the week of Bella's seventeenth birthday. I was heading toward gym class when I was pulled abruptly into an empty class room.

Startled, I turned to see the blue eyes of a certain persistent girl staring at me. "What do you want Kate?" I asked.

"I heard you and Irina broke up," she replied, biting her lower lip. When Bella did it, it was sexy, but Kate was trying to be sexual, leaving her looking more foolish than anything.

"So?" I said, a little annoyed.

"Well, I thought maybe you might be ready for a real woman."

"I'm not really looking for another girlfriend right now," I said honestly. And even if I was, it would not be Kate.

"That's okay, we don't have to date. We can just have some fun together," she replied.

"Listen, Kate…" I was cut off by the feeling of her hand on my junk. I looked down, wide-eyed and completely dumbfounded.

My head shot over at the sound of the door opening, and to make my nightmare even worse, Bella walked in. She smiled when she saw me but then it fell when she noticed Kate standing there still in possession of my penis. Kate pulled her hand away slowly, not looking ashamed at all.

"Hi Bella, your brother and I were just talking," Kate said, her words oozing.

"I see that," Bella replied curtly, "did Edward tell you that you could touch him?"

"Uhm, no?" Kate said in a confused voice.

"Then I suggest you don't touch him again unless he tells you that you can."

Kate looked up at me for assistance. I stifled a chuckle and then responded, "That's really not going to happen."

Kate huffed and mumbled, "Whatever," before walking off.

Once she was out of the room, I approached Bella cautiously. I knew there was a chance that I was going to be in trouble for this regardless of how things conspired. My brain/mouth filter was not working though.

"Baby, that was so hot!" Bella's face flushed as she looked down. I tilted her head up so that I could see her face. "You know that I didn't provoke that right? She just pulled me in here and grabbed me."

"I trust you, Edward. We both have too much on the line to play games." I knew then that she got it. She got me.

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Bella's birthday was the most difficult gift giving occasion I had ever encountered. I wanted to find a gift that signified how I felt for her but wouldn't let anyone else know.

I settled on a simple charm bracelet. I wanted to buy a silver 'E' to go on it, but I knew that I wouldn't be able to, so instead I bought a little pea pod charm that matched her nickname. I knew most people wouldn't make the connection.

Bella had asked that we just have a quiet birthday with the family; she hated parties and attention even more. Our parents took us to The Lodge, a simple steakhouse and the only 'fancy' dining in forks.

Renee and Charlie had given Bella a camera and scrapbook so that she could catalogue her final year. She started by taking pictures of all of us at the table. I wanted more than anything to have them take our picture together, arms around each other, but that was just one more thing that we would never have.

When Bella opened my gift she had a hard time keeping her eyes dry. I felt bad immediately and cursed myself for not buying her a DVD to open now and saving the bracelet for when we were alone.

"Thanks Edward, I love it." She kept her eyes on the silver bobble as she spoke but I knew that she meant her words.

"When all the girls at school see what you bought your sister, you'll be beating them off with a stick," Charlie said, adding a different kind of tension to the table.

"You think?" I asked doing my best not to sound revolted at the thought.

"Sure, girls love when boys are nice to their sisters and mothers. It shows that they have respect for women," my mother replied.

It was about halfway through the year when things took an uncomfortable turn. Bella and I had kept our relationship a well guarded secret. She had officially convinced my parents that waiting a year for University was a good idea, and she even had a job lined up as a receptionist at the dental office after graduation. It was then that the offers starting filing in.

First it was Eric Yorkie; the boy hadn't given up on Bella even though he had some chick named Angela following him around like a lost puppy. He cornered her in bio class and asked her; she had felt flustered and said she would think about it. He asked her once a week for two months before she finally got up the courage to say no.

Then it was Tyler. He sent her flowers in her math class; she was so embarrassed she went home sick.

The problem in the end wasn't the guys, it was my mother.

"Bella, you have to have a date to graduation. You are a pretty girl; there is no reason not to."

"Well, Alice is taking Jasper, Emmett and Rose are going together, so if I don't take Edward then he won't be able to go. All his friends are graduating and I would hate for him to miss it." I listened to Bella from the other room. I felt she made a valid point.

"Oh nonsense, he can come and watch you walk across the stage, he just won't be able to go to the dance. You should go with a boy Bella, not your brother."

"Okay, I'll think about it," Bella replied. I knew our mother could be a lot to handle sometimes, but it hurt a little that she didn't fight harder.

E/N- I posted a new one-shot as well called Incomplete. Please go check it out.