Title: Sinful Thoughts
Author: Readingmama/Vampiremama
Beta: AcrossTheSkyInStars

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters. No copyright infringement is intended.

Continuity: AH/AU
Rating: M cause you never know when a lemon writes itself.

A/N- I have put an entry in for the "Kill a Cullen" contest. Please stop by my profile and take a look.

Chapter 19

BPOV

The days leading up to Alice's visit were the worst I could remember in my whole life. I failed a paper and botched a test because of the stress I was feeling. Edward and I were both on edge which made it hard to be around each other.

We literally had no idea what we were going to do. There was almost no way that she wouldn't find out unless we kept her locked away in our apartment, and believe me, we didn't throw that idea out very quickly. But even with keeping her captive, there was the chance that Riley or Victoria could come over. So we decided to do the only thing we could do, and that was to tell her. That was if and when we got caught. We would do our best to keep it from her while she was there, but if our hand was forced, the truth would come out. Yeah, now that I see it, it was a colossally bad idea.

Edward and I were sitting on the couch awaiting Alice's knock. We sat stiffly, neither of us wanting to acknowledge the huge clusterfuck our situation was about to become. Her Aunt and Uncle picked her up from the airport the previous night and she told us she was going to catch a cab to come see us first thing in the morning.

Knock.

Knock.

Knock.

Okay, her knocks didn't sound like big, foreboding clangs, she rapped a cute little beat on the door, but they felt like an executioners knock to me.

Edward stood up from the couch and I immediately joined him. He looked at me nervously and then grabbed my face, smashing it to his. It felt like goodbye and I hated it. He then walked over to the door, put on his game face, and opened it.

"Edward!" Alice shrieked, jumping up and wrapping her legs around his waist. The force of her knocked him back a few steps. She then saw me and detached herself from Edward and flung her body at me. "Bella!"

Once she had her arms around me, I felt instantly guilty. She wasn't some bad guy coming to ruin our life, she was our friend and we both loved her very much. I knew right away that there was no way we were going to be able to keep the secret from her while she was here, but I couldn't find the nerve in me to tell her.

"How was your trip?" I asked, leading her to the couch and then sitting beside her. Edward joined us, choosing to rest opposite of us on the floor.

"Great…long. Why did you guys have to move so far away?" Edward's eyes met mine and we shared a moment. We knew exactly why. "So my aunt and uncle want me to invite you guys over for dinner tonight. Then maybe we can go out or something."

"Sure, that sounds nice. We thought maybe you and Edward could go shopping in the morning and I'll meet up with you guys for lunch," I said.

"Sounds great. I'll give you the address before I leave tonight. It's not far from here. My uncle works on campus. I'm such an idiot, maybe you know him. Dr. Carlisle Cullen?"

The name sounded familiar but it didn't register until I watched all the blood leave Edward's face. It was his professor. His professor that had saw us kissing outside his classroom numerous times.

"He's one of my professors," Edward said meekly.

"Uh, oh. Why do you say it like that? Is he a jerk or something?" Alice asked nervously.

"No, no. He's my favorite teacher actually. It's just; I had no idea that he was related to you."

"Yeah, he's my mom's brother," Alice replied. "This is so exciting. I can't believe I am here with you guys."

"Alice, can you excuse us for a minute. I just need to talk to Edward for a second." Alice looked at me strangely. I couldn't blame her, it was a weird request.

Edward followed me into the bedroom.

"We have to tell her," I said.

"I know, but what if she is upset? What if she tells her uncle or our parents?" Edward replied.

"I don't know what else we can do. She is going to find out we are a couple when we show up at her uncle's place. He has seen us engaging in some sort of frottage outside of his classroom, almost daily."

"We aren't that bad," Edward defended. I raised my eyebrow at him. "Yeah, okay. Let's go do this."

We emerged from the bedroom to find Alice flipping through Edward's CD's on the entertainment stand.

"Are you guys going to tell me why you are all weird now?" She asked.

"Alice, there is something we need to tell you and we would really appreciate you keeping an open mind," I started.

"Okay," she said slowly.

"You see, when Edward and I found out he was adopted, well, we were kind of relieved."

"Why?" She asked, genuinely confused.

"Well, I've never really seen Edward as a brotherly figure."

"Well yeah, you guys were always more like friends than siblings, but I don't see why you would be relieved that he wasn't your brother. I mean it's not like you can't be friends with your brother."

"No, but you can't be your brother's girlfriend."

The room went deadly silent as Alice took in the information. She looked frantically back and forth between Edward and me, possibly trying to figure out if we were trying to punk her.

"Holy shit," Alice said quietly.

"You can't help who you fall in love with," Edward said, chiming in.

"Holy shit, you love each other? Like love, love each other?" Edward and I nodded our heads at her question. "So do you guys, like…do it?"

We all stood staring at each other. Alice's personal question struck my funny bone and I started laughing, which in turn started Alice laughing, and before long, Edward was joining us. When we all got it out of our system, the room became quiet again.

"We can't tell our parents," Edward said.

"No kidding," Alice mumbled.

"So, my uncle knows you as a couple then?" She asked.

"Yeah," Edward replied, "you didn't tell him we were brother and sister did you?"

"No, I just said my friends. Thank goodness for that, right? Are you guys happy?"

I looked over at Edward and he came to me and put his arm around me and we smiled at each other. Without looking away, he answered, "Unquestionably."

"It's kind of weird," she said, "but I guess it's not wrong. And I love you both so if you are happy, I am happy."

"Oh, thank you Alice," I said tears starting to flow. I ran up and wrapped my arms around her. I hadn't realized how much I was holding in until I was able to let it go.

We had told our first person the truth and she had accepted it. It gave me hope that we could have our life together without cutting out everyone we cared about.

"Wait, I have a question," Alice said suddenly.

"What's that?" Edward answered as I was still blubbering like a baby.

"How do you get around you both being Swans?"

"I use my middle name. Everyone here knows me as Edward Masen," he replied.

"So you guys knew before you left?" I nodded. "How long?"

"A while," Edward answered.

"Before your grad?" She asked Edward. He nodded.

"Before our grad?" She asked me. I nodded. "Did you two have sex in the tent at graduation!"

"Define sex," Edward said and I smacked him.

"No, we didn't have sex at graduation."

"Oh man, what a trip," Alice replied.

Alice stayed all day and then late into the night. We caught up on our lives. Alice felt bad that she had missed out on all the girl talk. I admitted to her that I was sad to have been left out of the conversations with her and Rosalie regarding sex because I was too scared to talk about it.

Alice asked questions but she didn't pry. I could see that she was trying to figure out how our situation would work long term but I was glad she didn't ask because I didn't know. I was only sure that it had to. Edward was my present and my future and I couldn't imagine it any other way.

When Alice said goodnight, Edward and I retired into our room. We changed in silence; the weight of what we had done that day came down on us.

"I love you," I said as I crawled into bed and snuggled into him.

"So much," he replied.

"We can do this," I said honestly.

"Yes, we can," he said softly before we drifted off to sleep.

EPOV

Alice was to show up bright and early in the morning. I had let Bella sleep in as the shopping trip was just for Alice and me. I showered quickly and looked at the beautiful woman in my bed. I had envisioned her so many times growing up, how she would look in the throes of passion, how she'd say my name all breathy and how she would look sleeping peacefully next to me. Nothing could have prepared me for the real thing.

Bella was like a giant ball of love. I could feel it radiating off her and I fed on it. It made me feel masculine and strong but it also made me feel safe. She didn't have a hurtful bone in her body and I knew I could trust her with my heart. Her love gave me strength to love her even more.

I placed a small kiss on her temple and headed out to wait for Alice. I ate a quick breakfast of toast and jam and was putting my dish in the sink when I heard her knock on the door.

"Hey," I said, opening up the door to her.

"Let's move, there is an outlet mall with twenty-three shoe stores waiting for us," she said excitedly. I can admit there was a thrill that ran through me at that thought.

"All right, lead the way," I said following her out the door.

"So I assume since I never heard, that Rose and Emmett came back from Vegas unhitched."

"Yeah, Jasper is the worst guesser when it comes to stuff like that. He thought Bella would be going wild and you were out here reining her back in. Boy was he off the chart. You are probably the one making her go wild!" I laughed at the absurdity of us talking about this.

"So what else is new?"

"Oh, get this. Kate is preggers. Guess she met some guy named Sam down at the reservation and got knocked up last year. The guy totally left her in the lurch and she is working at the diner and seven months along."

"That's kind of sad," I said. While I had no love lost for Kate, I certainly didn't wish bad things upon her.

"Oh and the talk around town is Lauren has an STD. Almost the entire male population under thirty was at the free clinic getting checked out." That made me laugh.

"Guess I really did dodge a bullet."

By the lunchtime, Alice and I had bought six pairs of shoes between the two of us. You don't need to know anymore than that.

Bella met us at a little Mexican restaurant and we visited over Coronas and nachos. Well, Alice had a margarita, but Bella and I stuck to beers. We had found this place early on; it was listed on a student run website of places that didn't card.

"Oh, I am so full," Bella said, leaning back and rubbing her stomach. It was times like this that I realized how lucky I was; my girlfriend wasn't afraid of an extra calorie here or there. Although maybe a non-eater would have been the way to go as I would have gotten more nachos. But it was too late; I was head over heels for my beautiful brunette.

"I think I better take Bella here home for a rest before dinner tonight," I said winking at Alice.

"Yes, please," Bella groaned.

"Okay, that's cool. I have to pick up at few things for my aunt for dinner. I will see you guys there later then," Alice replied, tossing her money on the table and then heading out.

I took out my wallet and paid our portion of the bill and then escorted my girl to the bus stop. It didn't take us long to get home, but carrying my shopping was a little tricky.

"What do you think we should wear tonight?" Bella asked as we entered our apartment.

"I don't know, I am more concerned with what we shouldn't be wearing right now and that is clothes."

She giggled and swatted at me playfully. I grabbed her around the waist and pulled her to me, lifting her slightly off the ground. A little naughtiness and a shower later, Bella and I were ready to head over to the Cullen's place. And don't complain to me about not telling you all about it. If I were to go into detail about every time Bella and I had had sex, this story would be epic huge. And now I have to resist the urge not to make an 'epic huge' joke about my manhood.

I had really enjoyed chatting with my professor during his office hours and I was looking forward to more interaction with him. Carlisle was an incredibly intelligent man who I generally enjoyed.

I called for a cab and then we headed downstairs to catch it. When the cab pulled up in front of our destination, I was shocked. I knew that college professors probably made decent money, but this was in the realm of Richie Rich.

The tall, Victorian style home had a porch on both the lower and upper levels that wrapped around the side of the house. The front door was grand looking and appeared to be very heavy. There were many windows garnishing every surface that I could see. I briefly wondered what it would have been like if I had been adopted by people like this, but then guiltily shook off that feeling. I wouldn't change having Bella in my life for any amount of money.

I took Bella's hand in mine as we ascended the three steps up to the front door. She pressed the doorbell and the door was opened a moment later by a woman who I recognized as Carlisle's wife from the picture on his desk.

"Hello, you must be Bella and Edward," she said as she held the door open for us. She was smiling at Bella, but when she turned to me, it faltered. I wondered if I had offended her somehow, but the friendliness came right back. "Come in."

"Thank you, you have a very lovely home, Mrs. Cullen," I said.

She cocked her head to the side as if studying what I had said and then answered, "Thank you, that is very kind."

We followed her into the giant home to find Carlisle and Alice sitting in a large living room.

"Edward, how are you?" Carlisle asked.

"Fine sir, this is my girlfriend, Bella," I said, formally introducing them for the first time.

"Nice to meet you Bella," Carlisle replied.

"You too, Edward has told me a lot about you," Bella commented.

"All good I hope," he chuckled.

"Of course."

"Oh, Edward has never said a bad word about anyone," Alice piped in, "Chief Swan would have kicked his ass."

I shot Alice a look, we had been there only a few minutes and she had already alluded to our family. Her eyes widened as she caught her mistake.

"Chief Swan? Were you in trouble with the law, son?" Carlisle asked.

"No, he's Bella's dad," Alice said, trying to get herself out of trouble.

"Swan?" Mrs. Cullen said so quietly I almost didn't hear her.

"Yes, ma'am."

"That's an uncommon name," she continued. "So did you two grow up together?"

Alice choked a little and then tried to hide it under a cough.

"Yes, ma'am," I answered.

"Excuse me, I need to tend to something in the kitchen," she said abruptly and then left the room.

Carlisle's eyes followed her with concern but he let her leave.

Dinner was delicious. Bella was a decent cook but our limited budget did not render us able to have four course meals. Mrs. Cullen cooked comfort food with class. All through dinner, Mrs. Cullen kept a focused eye on me. She had made me so nervous that I spilled my drink.

Bella had laughed at me and said, "Better you than me."

After a long day, we decided instead of going out we would just kick back and play some cards. Mr. and Mrs. Cullen had excused themselves, and although I try to stay focused on our game, I couldn't quite ignore the rushed voices I heard coming from the room above us. Nothing came through intelligible, but I could tell the tone and it seemed panicked.

After three games, Bella and I decided to call it a night.

"You'll have to thank your aunt and uncle again for the dinner," Bella said as we got up to leave, "and tell her I want that pie recipe."

"I'll let her know, but Aunt Esme is real secretive about her pie."

E/N- This will likely be the last chapter posted before Christmas, so I hope you will all have a good one. And in the season of giving, please leave a review.