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Annie's POV

Michael was out for a matter of business and I was home alone. Janiya was attending her first day at a private school. I thought about Johnny. I was really letting him down by not seeing him at the old barn, but he kissed me. He kissed me and it's clear I don't love him.... (or do you?)

I don't. I sighed and turned over in my bed. I stared at the picture of me and Michael that he took when we first met. I was wrapped in a blanket with his hat on my head. He was hugging me and we were both laughing. I smiled. I remembered that day. I was still sick and Michael did his best to cheer me up and he (successfully) did. I sat up in my bed. I was really lonely and I kept thinking of Johnny, how lonely he was at the moment. I groaned and decided to go see him after all.

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I was at the old barn. I saw Johnny's car, but I couldn't see him. I figured he was inside the barn. I slammed the door of my car and headed for the entrance of the barn. I peeked in and saw Johnny sitting in a nearby haystack.

"Johnny?", I said, closing the barn door behind me. He looked up and grinned. he jumped off the haystack and walked up to me. "Hey."

"Hey.", he said, "Listen, I'm sorry for kissing you. I shouldn't have. I'm so sorry."

"Hey, don't beat yourself up. It's alright.", I said. He grinned.

"Oh, thank you."

We gazed at each other in silence. I had to admit he wasn't such a bad looking guy. He had well toned brown-blond hair almost to his shoulders, but he always wore a beanie over it. He had a little mustache and square glasses, which looked good on him. He always wore plain-looking clothes. I found myself leaning in closer...

Before I knew it, we were kissing. (no! no! no! stop! stop it! no! no! no!)...

He brought me down to the ground. (NO!) I kissed him back. (NO!!!)

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I snapped my eyes open. Someone was hugging me. I looked around. I was in the old barn. I gasped and looked at the person hugging me. It was Johnny... and we were bare... I gasped again and pushed him away from me. I scrambled up and he looked up at me drowsily. I gathered up my clothes and started dressing.

"What are you doing?",he asked.

"I'm leaving.",I said, shocked by what just happened.

"Why?"

"Because we just-! I just-! I can't believe I just-!"

"What's wrong with what we just did?"

"I have a boyfriend and a daughter with him and I just cheated on him with you! I love him! Not you!"

"If you didn't love me, why did you do this with me?"

I shook my head as I put on my watch. "I don't. I don't."

I stormed out of the barn and to my car, guilt swelling up in me until I was on the verge of tears. I looked at my watch. It was almost 3 'o'clock. I had to pick up Janiya. I jumped into the car and slammed the door, ignoring Johnny at the barn door. I drove off, letting out a sob.

"No. No. I don't love him.", I whispered. I couldn't believe I did that. What was I going to tell Michael? (don't tell him.) But I feel so... dirty... and guilty. (don't)

I was in front of the school now. Janiya pushed through the other kids as I got off my car. She saw me and grinned. She ran to me and I embraced her.

"Mommy!",she squealed.

"Hey, baby girl.", I said, tears almost falling. "Ho-how was your day?"

"Great! But I'm sleepy. When we get home can I take a nap?"

"Yes, baby girl." I helped her onto the car and we drove off home, all the while I felt the guilt swirling around me. (i don't love him. i love michael. i don't love johnny. WHY?!)

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I tucked Janiya into her bed. She looked extremely tired. I stroked away some of her hair from her face and I let out a quiet sob. (i have a daughter with the person who changed my life completely and i just betrayed that person... WHY?!)

I walked downstairs and saw Michael closing the door. He grinned when he saw me.

"Hey, baby.", he said, holding is arms open. I smiled and entered his embrace.

"Hey.", I said. He pulled away, a curious look on his face.

'Are you... are you wearing cologne?"

(johnny had cologne on... his cologne is on you... NO!)

"Um... uh..."

"What's wrong? Are you?"

"Oh my god..." I walked away, feeling the tears welling up. "I'm so sorry..."

"Annie, what's wrong?" Michael walked up to me, rubbing my arms.

"I-I..." I looked at him, my tears visible.

"Why are you crying? Please tell me what's wrong."

"I-" I got cut off when someone burst through the door. It was Johnny. "What are you doing here?!"

Michael looked at him then me. "You know him?"

"Annie, you can't just leave me! Not after what we shared!", Johnny said, coming near me.

"I don't love you!"

"You love this guy?! This freak?"

"Don't call him that!" I pushed Johnny forcefully. "He's my daughter's father and I love him!"

"Then why did you let me scr*w you?"

I froze. Tears streamed and I turned slowly to see Michael. He stared at me in confusion.

"Is that true, Annie?", he asked softly. I looked down.

"I didn't mean to. I didn't... I..."

Michael shook his head slowly and left the room. I started sobbing. I glared at Johnny.

"Annie, you belong with me. I know it."

"No. Leave. Leave now."

"But-"

"NOW!" I pushed him and hit him out the door.

"Leave now. Don't make me call the police."

"One day you'll realize your mistake." He left and I slammed the door, sliding down to the floor, sobbing.