Author's Note: Ok so I got a few reviewers who are willing to star in my story to all of you thank you, luckily some of my friends have let me write about them too, I don't know how well this is going to go, we'll see… (oh and also tell me what song you would sing or I might just choose)

Disclaimer: I do not own twilight, American Idol, Welcome to My Life and the song Suddenly I See

"Next up Jasper Hale!" called Paula

JPOV

Panic was rushing through my in-mortal body, 'no it wasn't my own fear' I realized but it was close enough. On top of this uncontrollable fear --ok it was controllable – was excitement and that's what jolted me out of my seat when Paula called my name. (AN: Again I forget what happens in Vegas week)

I walked up to the stage, my mind racing more than a human mind should but as a constant reminder I knew I wasn't human. I was a vampire, a blood sucking good for nothing—'ugh Rosalie', I thought to myself trying to calm myself. I sighed an unnecessary breath, collecting myself, staring out on stage. 'Why were so many afraid?' I wondered, 'but more importantly why was I Jasper Hale-Cullen afraid?' I had fought in the war, I had fought other vampires time and time again I had the battle scars to prove it.

Yet here I was afraid. 'Was I afraid of not passing through Vegas week to find my journey ending here?' I knew I was better than any other male out here- 'ugh Rosalie again why was I so in tuned with her today? Why did Alice have to make a fool of herself ruining her chances of stardom? Why did she have to leave me with the idiot?' I thought staring off at Emmett who was lost in fantasies, 'so glad I'm not the mind reader' I thought.

"We don't have all day Jasper," Simon said tapping his pen on his pad of paper.

'Right I'm on stage I'm supposed to sing, how did I wind up here again? Why was I so confused? Why did I feel everyone was watching? Wait everyone is watching' I sighed again composing myself.

"Right, sorry," I said nervously. 'Nervously? 'Why in the world am I nervous? I'm a vampire I could kill everyone in here why should I be nervous, suddenly I heard each heart beating at a different rhythm I could hear the blood flowing through each body. I felt the venom fill my mouth then out of nowhere I remembered what Alice had told me earlier.

"Stay calm Jasper, pretend you're singing for me," she said

I smiled breathing in again I began singing, picking up the mic another unnecessary human object.

"Her face is a map of the world
is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on a word
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page of a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower (yeah)
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see (yeah yeah)
(Suddenly I See)
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me," I finished yes I knew this was a girl's song but this sounded so close to how Alice acted. She was psychic and though I knew K.T. Tunstall wasn't psychic it still matched. It was as if Alice was watching me, which in her case she probably was, I smiled at that thought walking back down to my seat waiting for my fate

"Julia!" shouted Paula

JPOV (Julia's) (AN: Remember you my reviewers can add yourself too! So review!)

I sat up grinning; I didn't care if I was to make it or not I was here for the hell of it.

"Julia!" called the judge who seemed to be a bit out of it.

I got out of my seat and walked down the rows, some people were grinning, some were crying, and other were in such deep hysterics I could swear Paula had lent them something.

I composed myself; I didn't want to anger Simon 'again…' I thought mischievously 'or maybe I did'. In the end I decided to be good now and goof off later,' I wonder if I can sneak out to a casino after this…' I thought letting my thoughts trail as I thought about the cash I could win and the boys I could see. I hadn't realized I was staring at Randy who seemed a bit scared at my intense stare. I moved my eyes away and began singing.

"Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life ," I turned towards the audience my hands clenching on the mic, I continued singing but this time louder and harder as my lips molded around the words.
"Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me ," my voice grew softer again
"To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like," if even possible my voice became soft, as I stressed each word through my German accent, the words flowing through softly meeting with the nonexistent melody.
"To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life-," I held the last word and finished, my heart pounding in my chest. I turned towards Simon before exiting down the stairs back to my seat I saw him quickly jot down some notes I smiled to myself as I sat back down. 'Not bad,' I thought 'no, not bad at all.'

A/N: You know the drill R&R! And I'll get the next chapter up as soon as possible! This is my first try at writing in real people's POV so hopefully it wasn't so bad.