You know what? I really don't like writing depressing chapters! Ah well ... enjoy. .
"Rita stared at her. So did Harry. Luna, on the other hand, sang "Weasley is our King" dreamily under her breath and stirred her drink with a cocktail onion on a stick." - Order of the Phoenix
Narcissa
arrived at the funeral grounds dressed in black, accompanied by
Remus. Draco was being looked after by a relative, but he was of
little importance to her at the present time. Remus found them both
seats in the middle with a respectable view. He burbled on, trying to
relax the atmosphere, but it was all in vain. She stared at the
large, black coffins at the front of the depressed ceremony. Everyone
appeared to be crying or holding back tears, all reunited in their
grief for the passing of Lily and James Potter. Pillars situated
either side of the two black coffins and the stand for were the
conductor would be, intwined with climbing ivy and roses. A powerful
aroma of flowers overcame her and she felt quite sick. She never had
liked Roses. Lilies were her favourite ... oh no. Even the name of
classic, beautiful flowers brought tears to her eyes.
"Are
you alright, Narcissa?" asked an old but powerful voice somewere
in front of her.
She wiped her eyes frantically, before retorting,
"Does it look like it?" There was a short silence, and she
remembered her manners. "I'm sorry-" she began to
apologize, but was cut off by the pleasant voice.
"Not at
all, my dear," chuckled the voice, and it was only when she
looked up she recongized Albus Dumbledore smiling waverly at her. The
twinkle from his blue eyes had dissapeared, and an anger she had
never seen before on his face replaced it. Another voice cut through
Dumbledore's harshly. "You've got a nerve, showing your face
here."
Narcissa glanced up to see the aging face of Bathilda
Bagshot glaring at her with redemption. "What's that supposed to
mean?" she said, completely
nonplussed.
"Your husband is a death eater," said
Bathilda with a cold overtone to her usually sickly-sweet voice, "and
so is your sister!"
"That doesn't mean I am, Bathilda,"
snapped Narcissa, her eyes blaring with new found dislike for a woman
she had once respected. Dumbledore intervened by placing a hand on
the accusor's shoulder, and said quite pleasantly, "Not now,
Bathilda, respects ought to be shown to whomever has turned up in the
honour of James and Lily."
"I don't care," shrieked
Bathilda shrilly, causing people to turn and stare at her and
Narcissa with a gaining interest, "I don't care if all of your
Death Eater pals-"
There was a few shrieks at this remark.
Bathilda looked proud at this and continued: "Are going to get
revenge . . ."
"They've been confined to what appears to
be an eternity of imprisoment," said Narcissa apphrensively, "So
I doubt they will be 'seeking revenge' any time soon." Bathilda
snorted disbelievingly but turned away, scowling. Remus looked with
concern at Narcissa but she pretended not to notice; and instead
concentrated on the view infront of until it became a bleary view.
Suddenly, some drums begun to play as the ceremony begun. Heads
turned as the conductor of the ceremony walked up in the middle of
the aisle with watery eyes.
"Deary beloved, we are gathered
here today for the funeral of Lily and James Potter ..."
Narcissa drifted off as the conductor began to relay a very long
speech about how they did not deserve to die. Narcissa wasn't the
only one who had begun to cry. Remus was holding her hand so tightly
it began to hurt but she didn't bother pulling away: there was no
point. After the long ceremony, people began to leave, but some
remained to pay final, personal contributions to her best friends.
She and Remus made her way to the front by the coffins. Remus
delicatley stroked James' coffin and looked as if he was about to say
something, but became too choked up and turned away. Narcissa,
however, managed to speak a few words. "I'll miss you. We'll
keep an eye on Harry ... don't worry." That was all she managed
to say before bursting into tears. Remus pulled her away from the
coffins with suprising force, and he walked with her out of the
ceremony grounds.
"Remus? Remus!" His head turned a
fraction at the voice that was calling him, and he saw it was Molly
Weasley, who was wearing a very tearful expression on her face. "I'm
so sorry, Remus, he was your best friend, and-"
"Not
now, Molly ..." he said, raising a hand to silence her. She
silenced, and looked at him sorrowfully, before placing a hand on his
arm in sympathay. He forced a smile before turning away with
Narcissa. They walked for some time in silence, down winding empty
streets she barely knew. "Do you want to get a cup of tea or
something?" questioned Remus hopefully, before adding, "And
some Chocolate ..."
"I don't feel up to consuming
anything right now, to be honest Moony," she said in a false
tone of voice. He raised an eyebrow but nodded, and gave her a quick
hug. "If you ever need me, just owl me, okay?"
She
nodded, and the hug ended when he disapparated. She hated it when
people did that whilst hugging her.
She spent a
long time that day staring into space silently. She had many, many
thoughts running around her mind, along with questions that would
remain unanswered and silly theories. Was that
why Severus had been weird with her that day in Diagon Alley -
because he knew of Lily's future fate and couldn't do anything about
it? And Sirius, in azkaban, forever until death ... the thought was
too horrible. He was innocent, but he was being plagued for a crime
he had not committed, along with Lucius. Although, knowing Lucius,
he'd bribe the Minister with a nice donation to get his sorry arse
saved. Maybe he could get Sirius out too ... she'd have to see. But
even that seemed impossible. She sighed again. But, all the other
Death Eater's weren't
guilty at all, even though they were totally to blame. Bellatrix had
been carted off to Azkaban laughing manically, swearing she was
faithful most to The Dark Lord as she was serving her time just for
him. Narcissa supressed a laugh. Deranged Bellatrix. Yes, that was
the perfect describing word for her. Deranged. Manic. Insane
...
"Mother?"
Draco's voice interupted her disturbing
reverie of creating insulting describing words for her sister, and
she snapped her eyes open so violently that Draco started. "Yes,
Draco?"
"When is father returning?" his little face
was now an angry scowl as he spoke of Lucius. Narcissa wiped her
suddenly damp eyes as he questioned her. She'd never cried over
Lucius before, never. James would of shrewdly put it down to
hormones, as he often did if she was in a temper. She begun to laugh,
and Draco looked a bit put out. His mother was so odd at times.
"I
... I don't know Draco," she said, tears threatening to spill
again. "Soon, I hope."
"OK. In that case ... can I
have pancakes?"
"Knock yourself out," she said
wearily, but she sat up suddenly as Draco proceeded to grab a heavy
book. "Draco, I was just kidding-" Too late. Draco had
whacked himself in the head with a heavy book, and a rather stupid
expression crossed his face as he crumpled to the floor.
"Damn
it!" she cursed angrily, lifting her son up to place him on the
sofa. He wriggled and fell out of her arms like a fish that didn't
want to be caught, and landed on the floor. His fall was cushioned by
the amount of candy that still remained there, and he giggled
stupidly. "Want pancakes me ..."
She rolled her eyes.
"Dobby? Can you get some pancakes for Draco, please?"
"Yes
mistress," said a timid voice from behind the door, before
leaving with a loud crack.
Albus
Dumbledore had saved Severus Snape from going to Azkaban - and
possibly being sentenced to eternal imprisonment. They both entered
his office in silence, and Dumbledore sat at his desk, indicating
with a swift hand motion that Snape should sit opposite him. He
watched as the broken man sat slowly, gripping the sides of the chair
as if worried he may fall. His head was bowed, his black hair
covering his eyes. Dumbledore was surveying him with a cold
expression that gave away no emotion. "You loved her, didn't you
Severus?"
"Yes, headmaster." Snape's voice was
nothing more than a choke; he looked up with tearfilled eyes.
"I
hope you remember your pledge, Severus?"
"Certainly,"
whispered Snape, his eyes spilling the warm tears down his face.
Dumbledore hesitantly offered Snape a Chocolate Frog, and to his
suprise, Snape took it, but did not eat it. "Eat,"
Dumbledore told him sternly, "it'll help."
"Wasn't
that the werewolves theory?" retorted Snape icily, but he had
begun to unwrap the chocolate. Dumbledore raised an eyebrow.
"As
a matter of fact, it is
Remus' theory.
Severus, you should try and be more pleasant towards him. He's going
through the same grief as you."
"He is grieving over
that arrogant Potter," spat Snape with vemence, shoving
chocolate in his mouth at the same time, "he didn't care about
Lily like I
did."
"Alas," said Dumbledore calmly, "When a
man experiences a loss like no over, he often believes he was the one
who loved the deceased most. Severus," he held up a hand to
silence Snape's retort, "I know you loved Lily alot - but so did
Remus. She helped him when no one else would."
"What ...
what do you mean?" stuttered Snape, looking curious despite
himself.
"I don't think I should tell you that," said
Dumbledore pleasantly.
Snape
looked aghast. "Please, Albus. I ... I need to know."
Dumbledore
sighed. "In that case, this information shall remain between you
and I soley, Severus." Snape nodded, and so he continued. "Remus
Lupin was, in his sixth year, a broken man. He had a hard time coping
with his werewolf affliction along with general troubles in life -
the fact he could not control his friends antics, for one, another
being his confused love for a certain girl, struggling with NEWT
preparation ... all the general stress of a sixteen year old boy.
Although he tried to talk to his friends, and they helped, he still
felt something was missing. Sirius and James were very
popular-"
Snape snorted.
"- very popular,"
continued Dumbledore, unwrapping another chocolate frog absent
mindedly, "and sometimes, I believe Remus felt pushed aside. And
let us not ignore the fact Peter Pettigrew was too ... intelligently
challenged to even begin comphrending what Remus was going through.
And so, Remus sought comfort and friendship with Lily. She helped
him, she understood,
she comforted him. She helped him get through his depression when he
was about to give up. He loved her quite alot, Severus - like she was
his sister. Not in the romantic perspective, whereas you," he
paused, watching Snape who was now listening intently, as if he were
a small child who needed alot of reassurance, "you truely loved
Lily Evans. Despite everything, always. And Severus, I am guessing
she loved you too. But fate intwined and here is were her journey
ended."
Snape swallowed. "I should of tried to stop
Voldemort-"
"Did you not say he forced you to believe
there were finer, pure-blood women out there who would take your
heart quite willingly?"
"Yes, but-"
"Then
you would of had no chance," said Dumbledore simply, a trace of
sympathay shooting across his face as he considered Snape. "Although,
a man can dream."
"I dreamed," said Snape, his eyes
glittering, "that she would be mine. She was my best friend -
the b-best friend I've e-ever had." He had began to cry again
now, sobs choking him.
"Severus, Severus ... I believe she
knew this."
"What?" Snape sat up straight now, his
sobs subsiding quickly. Dumbledore revealed the glimpse of a smile,
and took a bite of his chocolate frog before replying to him.
"Remus
mentioned it a while ago," he told Snape, "they were
discussing you. She felt sad your close friendship had ended, but
could never start it again. Too much tension between all of you.
However ... she told Remus she loved you very, very much."
"Oh."
Snape was at a loss for words now, and a faint pink tinge crossed his
face.
"So you see, Severus," continued Dumbledore,
swallowing the remains of his chocolate, "not all was
lost."
"No, no it was not," replied Snape. "I
need to rest now, headmaster ..."
"Naturally,
naturally," murmured Dumbledore. "Goodnight,
Severus."
"Goodnight, Headmaster," replied Snape,
bowing his head before leaving the office. Dumbledore went to select
another chocolate frog when, blasted skrewts! There was none
left.
"Typical," he murmured, "I knew I shouldn't
of gave one to Severus. Ah well ..."
