A/N: So again a little language. Jeez, even her family hates her. Wonder where Jacob is! You'll like the next chapter promise, cuz the 'Hate Mel Club' grows. Was that a hint?! I'm shaking with excitement, that's how much I wanna go write the story. Well review so I know if you hate Mel or if you understand what she's going through. Love, Peace and Pizza Son!

Chapter 17: What have I done?

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me

I cannot be without you, you're my perfect little punching bag

And I need you, I'm sorry

Da da da, da da

'Please Don't Leave Me' by Pink

I woke up and stretched only to find my family and friends surrounding me.

Last time I had woken up I was naked so I checked before I sighed and got out of bed.

I was so glad to see everyone that I beamed at them.

But the smiled faded quickly when everyone had their arms crossed and was glaring at me.

I looked from my mom to my dad, to Embry and Quil and lastly my sisters.

"Um, what's going on you guys? Aren't you glad to see me?"

My mom stepped forward and gave me a hug. I welcomed it; the room was filled with so much tension that I could have cut it with a butter knife.

"Of course we're glad to see you sweetie."

She smiled at me and I smiled back.

My dad said, "Vanessa!"

My mom jumped a little, "Right sorry, being mad starting… now."

She got back in line and folded her arms and exaggerated a frown.

"Okay, this is seriously weird. What's going on?"

"Why don't you tell us Melanie?" Quil said.

I shrugged, "What's there to say?"

Ana exploded and her body wouldn't stop shaking, "What about you tell us why you cheated on Jacob!"

"What are you-?" At first I didn't know what she was talking about, but then like a movie, a series of events hit me.

The fight, the kiss, I promise¸ the sex.

My eyes widened, "Oh my GOD!" What had I done?

"Yeah. Like what… the… FUCK… Melanie?!" Wendy said to me.

I was about to say something but nothing came out. I tried again but words wouldn't come out. I probably looked like a fish with my flapping mouth.

"Wendy, watch your language!" My mom yelled at Wendy.

"My language? You're concerned about my language when your eldest daughter is being a fucking whore? How about you straighten her out first?!"

My mom sighed, "I can't take this." Then she walked out.

My dad started to follow her but he stopped at the door and said, "Mel, you know I love you and I always will. But I'm so disappointed in you."

What my father said to me knocked me off my feet.

He closed the door and I fell back on the bed.

I put my face in my hands and silent tears ran down my cheeks.

What had I done?

"Now that they're gone I can really express myself. So like I said before Melanie, what… the… FUCK?"

I shrugged, "I don't know Wendy. I really don't know. I – I – didn't remember anything until you brought it up. I seriously don't know what came over me to do something like that."

Wendy rolled her eyes and folded her arms while cocking her hip. This was the stance that she took when she was about to make sense. But you know when Wendy starts being the reasonable one something's wrong.

"Okay, so let's say that you didn't mean to sleep with Sebastian. Then how'd it happen?"

I looked up at her, "I honestly don't know. I don't know what else to say."

Ana hadn't stopped shaking, she glared at me and said, "You have nothing to say because you don't have an explanation! There's no excuse for what you did to Jacob! He was utterly crushed, even now we don't know where he is!"

I looked at Quil and Embry, "You don't know where he is?"

Embry rolled his eyes, "Don't act like you care."

That hurt me to my core.

Softly I said, "I always care about Jacob."

"Really? Then if you do then why would you have slept your ex-fiancé who cheated on you in the first place! I can't believe that I was actually proud to call you my sister at one point," Ana yelled at me and walked out of the room.

I stared at the door, dumbfounded.

"I believe you Melanie. Even though you don't really have an explanation I don't think you'd cheat on Jake," Embry said.

I gave him a watery, weak smile, "Thanks, at least someone doesn't hate me."

Wendy sighed and came over to me. "Listen Mel, remember what Dad just said? We love you, it's just that we're disappointed. And the only reason Ana is so upset is because she had a crush on Jacob."

I looked at Wendy and my eyes widened.

"Don't give me that look. I'm sure you've noticed it," she said.

I shook my head and she turned to the others. "Come on Quil, you've noticed it haven't you?"

Quil shook his head. "Embry?"

"Nope. And don't act like it's because you have extra ESP or whatever because you only knew because she told you."

"Shut up Embry."

"Quil, can't you like reach him through your mind connections?" I asked.

He shook his head, "Every time he feels us there he changes before we can get anything."

"I can't believe this is happening," I said. I put my hands on my face and curled in a ball on the bed and cried.

Wendy covered me with the sheet and said, "Come on guys. Let's leave her alone."

When they closed the door I sent a silent plea to Jacob in my head. "Jacob, if you can hear me, please forgive me. I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me."