Chapter 18: Bella, the Hypocrite

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

'I Want To Know What Love Is' by Mariah Carey

I didn't stop running until I got to my final destination, the Cullens' house.

I burst through the forest and there was Alice, Edward and Bella waiting for me.

I walked up to them and sat down.

They all smiled at me, and Alice said, "I saw you coming. Actually it's what I didn't see."

Edward frowned.

"Jacob, I'm so sorry," he told me.

The two girls looked at him then looked back at me.

"What happened Jake?" Bella asked me.

I sighed and laid down with my head on my paws. In my head I asked Edward for some clothes so that I could talk to Bella one on one.

He nodded and left with Alice tagging along.

Bella sat beside me and started to pet my back. Before she could ask me anything Edward came back out jeans and a shirt.

I thanked him and tried to smile at him but it fell flat.

"No problem Jacob. And I really am sorry."

I nodded and got up to go put the clothes on in the woods.

Bella waited patiently for me to walk back to her. I sat down then she asked, "What's wrong Jacob?"

I swallowed, knowing that if I didn't tip-toe around what happened that I'd start crying and wouldn't be able to stop.

"You know Mel had an ex-fiancé right?" I asked.

She nodded and I continued.

"Well, he kidnapped her and they slept together. She wasn't even forced, she did it on her own will."

Bella gasped and hugged me tightly. I didn't even realize I was crying until she wiped the tears from my eyes.

"That bitch. How could she do that to you?! I ought to kick her ass! I'm so pissed off!" Bella yelled.

I couldn't help but smile because she was so funny when she was mad. Bella isn't a person to get agitated easily.

Bella hugged me one more time, "You're sure that she slept with him willingly?"

I smiled wryly, "He taped it. Trust me, she wasn't forced."

She gasped again and then hissed.

I could hear the reason why she hissed. I could smell it too; the smell of vanilla and chocolate at the same time, if that was possible.

The running stopped then Melanie burst out of the woods with her hair all wind-blown. She looked like a freaking model and I couldn't help feel my heart squeeze.

I still loved her. How could I not? I imprinted on her, I would never be able to forget her or stop loving her. But that didn't mean that I had to like it.

Bella hopped up on her feet quickly and gracefully. It was times like these that I was reminded that clumsy, little Bella wasn't a weak human anymore but a dangerous vampire.

"What the hell do you want?" Bella said to Melanie.

"I just want to speak to Jake," she replied.

Her eyes were puffy and her nose was red. She'd been crying; great, she was here out of guilt.

She would probably tell me she was sorry that I figured it out this way. That she was going back to Sebastian and was going to have a great life together with him. And I would be stuck alone in the world, loving a girl I could never have.

Well, no way in hell was I just gonna stay here and let her do this to me.

So I got up, changed and ran out of there like a bat out of hell.

All I heard behind me was Melanie shout, "Jacob no! Wait!"

I ignored her and kept on running.

I watched as he ran out of my life. I couldn't take the pain in his eyes when he looked at me.

Like I betrayed him, hell, I did betray him and I don't even know why.

A few tears fell down my cheeks and I welcomed the pain. I deserved it, after what I did to him; I deserved everything bad that happened to me.

Like Bella talking about how she would kick my ass.

I turned back to her and she was glaring at me, "You bitch! What the hell were you thinking? Do you know what a good guy Jake is? He doesn't deserve this shit. How dare you."

I didn't even argue with her, "If you want to kill me, I'd welcome it."

She laughed harshly, "Oh don't act like you don't care."

That pushed me off the edge, "I'm sick of people telling me that I don't care about him! I made a mistake; you act like you've never messed up before. And how dare you to talk to me like that when you've done the same thing."

Her glare fell and then she put it back up, "That's different, I was torn."

She was no longer yelling and I could see her anger start to fade.

"Yeah right. Torn my ass. You're just as bad as I am. As soon as your precious Edward came back to you, you left Jacob hanging. No, you didn't leave him hanging, you toyed with his heart; so don't tell me that I don't care about Jacob!"

When I was finished I was breathing hard and Bella was no longer glaring but blankly looking at me.

"The difference between you and me is that he can't get over you like he did me. So yes, I do think you're worse than I am. Call me a hypocrite, but that's what I think."

With that she turned around and went back into the house leaving me out there alone.

I sighed and turned and ran into the woods. Changing out of my clothes I changed into wolf form as well.

I went to the one place that I knew where Jacob would be. And if he wasn't there, I knew he would go there eventually.

And I would be waiting for him. And even if it killed me, I would fix this.