Is It True?

by Marchgirl

Lucifer, the extremely popular Japanese band. Each member is gorgeous and talented and therefore has tons of female fans. No more so than front man Sakuya. He already has the love of his life but a rabid fan wants him for herself. Aine,the band - alive?

14. Chapter 14

From The End to a New Beginning

Mary Lockhart's body was sent home to her grieving parents, the victim of a freak accident. Marcy Page was accused of assault, breaking and entering, terrorism, murder, attempted murder, kidnapping and extortion. In an attempt to flee from police after a botched ransom demand, Ms. Page over-corrected coming out of curve and was sent tumbling down a steep embankment. Ms. Page's car burst into flame and she was killed instantly.

In the hours after Sakuya had been found and reunited with his family, these actions were put into motion. Some of it was done with the cooperation of the Japanese government and the help of the Yakuza. No one could accuse Rupert Grazer of not thinking ahead. He too had witnessed the events of that night all the way in America.

Of course none of this information was made public just yet. Lucifer had just been honored by a celebrity-filled musical event that had yet to be aired and so they waited. Lucifer and family were given a chance to be together and make sense of everything while they waited for Saturday.

As it turned out, the memorial had the highest ratings ever for a musical type program. It was even shown on the big screens in downtown Tokyo, Shibuya and other hot spots. It was aired during prime time so it garnered much attention from the young and old. Immediately after the show was over the Master thanked all the bands and wished everyone a good evening then the screen switched to a night scene of Tokyo. There was a podium with several microphones set up and waiting before a large window looking out on the city. Ralph Grazer entered the picture and stood behind the podium.

"Good evening Japan. I hope you all enjoyed that tribute to Lucifer. Though and the other bands did this out of love and respect for their friends, it took a lot of work to bring everything together on such short notice. I hope you will let them know how much you appreciate them and their talent." He smiled at the cameras before his look turned concerned.

"I just wanted a few minutes of your time to update you on the current situation concerning Lucifer, Sakuya and the person responsible for the despicable acts that occurred almost a week ago." Ralph paused again standing taller and gesturing for someone off screen to join him. Takayama Hitoshi moved to stand at his side. "This man had been accused of those crimes but he is innocent. I repeat Takayama-sama is innocent of all charges. He was framed by the person who was actually responsible for all this horror. Takayama-sama and his family would appreciate it if everyone would acknowledge his innocence and stop targeting them. The culprit guilty of causing these heinous acts has now been identified." Ralph moved to let Hitoshi speak.

"Good evening." Hitoshi looked solemn as he bowed his head then stared directly into the camera. "The criminal was Marcy Page, Lucifer's publicist. For some reason unknown to us, Marcy began to hate Lucifer. She felt we…owed her something. We believe that Marcy had a mental illness but we'll never know because she died early Saturday morning." He stopped as if giving the watching fans a moment to assimilate the information. "There were many other attacks not made public that were committed by Marcy herself or someone in her employ. Her hate for Lucifer was so great that she targeted not only the band members but their families as well. Yes that is what happened to Yuki's wife, Atsuro's girlfriend and the women in Towa and Santa's lives. She wanted to hurt me as well and when I didn't die in the attack on Jupiter Records, Marcy tried to frame me for her crimes. After this broadcast there will be more information on your local news." Hitoshi nodded at the camera then moved to one side allowing Ralph to speak once more.

"Ladies and gentlemen, I doubt we will ever know the full extent of Marcy Page's intentions but I should tell you that Ookochi Sakuya has been found. He was in fact kidnapped and held for ransom by this woman. The night of the memorial, myself and Yukimura Aine met Ms. Page and she tried not only to leave with the money but tried to kill Yukimura-san whom she also held great contempt for." He shook his head in remembered disbelief and pain. His wound was undetectable by the camera and he was keeping not only his arm but his body as still as possible. "Suffice it to say she did not succeed in killing Yukimura-san and during this exchange, unknown to Ms. Page, Ookochi Sakuya was rescued." Ralph looked to Hitoshi and both of them smiled at the camera. "Sakuya is alive, safe and well!" He made room for Hitoshi to speak again.

"My friends, Sakuya is here tonight but he is not alone." Some of his pleasure dimmed as he gripped the podium and leaned forward. "I pray that you'll understand and forgive us. Their lives had already been threatened once and not one of them got away without injury. In order to protect them and their families, we lied and declared them dead but in truth…LUCIFER LIVES!" Hitoshi's smile broke free once again and he waved a hand to one side, the camera followed.

The backdrop was black with the band's name written in white above their hands. It was Lucifer but they were wounded. Out in front were Towa and Santa both in wheelchairs. Behind them were Atsuro, Sakuya and Yuki. All wore short sleeves so the burns and bruises could be seen. They all smiled and waved at the camera. Yuki, the leader held a microphone. Not leaving Sakuya's side he spoke.

"Hello Japan!" Yuki smiled and took a breath. "As our producer said, we live. It was amazingly close that we survived. Towa was shot, Santa grazed by a bullet, Atsuro burned and I received a head wound and burns. Sakuya was held captive. We have all suffered because of the events set in motion by Ms. Page. Worry has ruled our lives since Sakuya went missing – we for him and him for us, each believing the other to be dead." Yuki dropped his head for a moment and he shivered visibly. When Sakuya threw an arm over his shoulder, Yuki was able to speak again.

"Lucifer fans we want to apologize for the deception and ask for forgiveness and not just from our fans but our friends too and those who have supported us – it just couldn't be helped. We understand that you have questions but we ask for a little time. We need time to heal and recover from this experience but we've vowed to not let this slow us down. We still plan on taking Lucifer to all four corners of the earth!" Yuki smiled widely as his band members cheered this statement then turned to the man next to him who was more subdued than usual. "Sakuya, you wanted to say something." He handed the mike to Sakuya.

Sakuya had smiled when they were introduced but it wasn't the high voltage, charming smile people were used to. It was a tame smile plus he was wearing dark shades hiding his eyes. Sakuya took the mike then slowly removed the shades revealing very solemn blue eyes that were bruised looking. "I just wanted to say thank you. I know how everyone was looking for me and I learned of your heartfelt emotions for me and my band mates – it really means the world to us. Also…you showed Aine a lot of love and respect while I was missing, I couldn't have asked for more. You helped her through this crisis. I – we thank you." Sakuya, Atsuro and Yuki bowed while Towa and Santa nodded and waved goodbye.

The camera moved back to Ralph. "As you can see, all of them are mending. Besides the physical wounds, these men and their women are dealing with a traumatic experience. They will be giving interviews in the near future but we ask you give them a little space to recover. Oh and I'd like to announce that their manger and production manager, Sasaki Koichi and Takako Kai also survived along with Lucifer. They are alive! Everyone who works so hard to make Lucifer a success is back and ready to do it all again! We ask for your continued support and offer our thanks in advance. Good night." Ralph and Hitoshi bowed then the camera focused once again on Lucifer before fading to black.

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Ralph bought a house or rather a mansion. It was a good investment to be used not only for his personal use but for clients of his security firm when they needed a safe haven, such as Lucifer. The day before the previous announcement, everyone was moved from the hospital into the huge house.

After Marcy's death, things got kind of awkward for everyone. Though Aine and Sakuya were together again, they were not. When Sakuya came face to face with his band members he cried and hugged them all but later could look none of them in the eye. Before anyone could try talking to him, they were off to the hospital where the staff fussed over him, Ralph, Towa and Santa.

Exhaustion hit Sakuya hard after he was treated and he slept the rest of the day not waking until late in the evening. He was blessed in that it was a dreamless sleep. Tension, worry, anger and fear had been his constant companions the whole time he'd been Marcy's prisoner and finally, finally he could rest knowing that she was dead and that everyone he loved was safe.

Ralph like Towa had been shot cleanly. The bullet passed through his arm and into the wall. There was muscle damage and it would be a while before he had full use of his arm again. Still all things considered, it was a wound he was happy to have since he could be dead instead.

The police detective plus a few officers arrived shortly thereafter demanding answers. They'd received a report from the police out in the country about strange activity in a supposedly empty house and signs that someone had been kept there against their will. Whoever that person was had left and the men still at the house refused to answer any specific questions and referred them to the police force in Tokyo. On the way to the hospital the detective had been informed of gunfire at the Cradle but his people had arrived too late to talk to anyone but the Master and a couple of Ralph's security people. It was as he was trying to get in to see Sakuya that the detective received a phone call telling him to back off.

With a tired smile Ralph informed him that everyone involved would answer questions the following day. He'd already talked with his father assuring him that Sakuya was safe and that Mary was dead. Rupert Grazer had quietly thanked his son for saving Sakuya, told his eldest son to get some rest and that he would contact him later with the needed cover story. In America, the eldest Grazer thanked God that both his sons were alive.

Of course before the police could talk to Ralph and the others, the car that Marcy had been using was found having crashed down an embankment with a burned corpse inside. Her ID and passport were in the car as well as some of her possessions along with some Lucifer and specifically Sakuya paraphernalia, most of it desecrated. The search for Marcy Page was over. The only thing left was giving the police details of what happened before the crash. Details which the detective knew would be doctored – neither he nor anyone outside the Lucifer circle would ever know the full truth and for the peace of mind for those concerned, that was probably the best. These people lived in the public eye and rarely had any privacy as it was. They shouldn't have to relieve their private horrors for public consumption.

~mg~

When Sakuya woke that evening there was a dim light on and he jerked awake pulling on his chains. "Argh!" Immediately he realized that his arms were free and he'd practically come up off the small bed and that someone gasped loudly at his side.

"Sakuya! You're okay, you're safe!" Aine felt her heart beating three times as fast as it usually did. Carefully she approached the bed holding out her hands. "She's gone. You're with me now; we're together as we should be – Sakuya…" Aine took his hand and clutched it to her chest. Sakuya? He's looking at me like he doesn't remember me! His eyes are so dark and somber…how much did she hurt you? Oh Sakuya! Aine dropped her eyes unable to stand that look and raised his hand to her mouth. His wrists had been bandaged; they'd been rubbed raw from his chains. Aine kissed each finger, his palm, his covered wrist then just held his hand against her face.

He thought it was a dream. He thought she was a dream but Sakuya looked around. No longer was he in that house or bound in that room to that bed. This was a hospital room. It smelled like a hospital. The walls were a pale green but there were white flowers in a vase providing a fresh scent. But most of all, the proof that he was in another time and space, far away from Marcy and her influence, was Aine. And she was crying and holding his hand to her face. Gently he let his thumb trace over her skin. "Aine?"

Aine opened her eyes daring to look at him. Sakuya looked confused and a little scared now. "Yes Sakuya." She moved closer still keeping his hand in place until her other hand reached out to touch him in the same way.

Sakuya shivered from head to toe violently. He'd missed her loving touch. Sakuya savored it for several minutes before removing her hand and pulling back his own. "Don't…touch me." Quickly he got out on the other side of the bed.

Aine gasped in pain and clutched the sheet. "…Why Sakuya?" She gasped again as Sakuya stumbled on weak legs.

"STOP! I'm fine." Sakuya realized he'd yelled at her. Her tears were tearing at him. "I want you but…she touched me. SHE TOUCHED ME DAMMIT!! SHE PUT HER FUCKING HANDS ON ME!!!" Sakuya yelled again looking down at the white pajamas he wore realizing the hospital staff had probably put these on him. "I need to shower. I need to wash her touch away. Dirty, I feel…I need to shower." Sakuya whispered as he walked around the bed heading for the bathroom when Yuki burst into the room.

"You two okay?" Yuki had been alerted that there was yelling going on inside Sakuya's room and wondered if the teen was having nightmares. "Aine? Sakuya?"

Aine dashed away her tears. "Fine. We're fine; Sakuya's going to take a shower." She took several deep breaths. "I've got clothes for you. Your own clothes, I'll bring them in to you okay?" Aine turned around and gave him a brave smile.

Sakuya slapped a palm against his forehead. "I'm sorry Aine. I don't mean to make you cry. It's just…" He shook his head and felt a few tears of his own slip from his eyes.

"Sakuya, I know." Aine's smile was sad now. "I had to shower too." She could only speak in a whisper. "Go – wash Marcy away. She's tainted our lives for too long. I'll be here when you come out. I'll wait for you Sakuya. It's okay, go." Aine nodded at him.

Sakuya stood up taller. She did know. "Stay with her." Sakuya said to Yuki then abruptly turned and slammed the door of the bathroom shut.

Yuki looked down at the floor for a moment. Sakuya may take the longest for all of them to heal. He was a proud man and didn't share his feelings very well. He sighed but it didn't matter, they would be there for him and for Aine. "Aine?" Before he could catch her, Aine ran out of the room, down the hall and into the women's bathroom. "Aine!" Though he shouldn't, Yuki followed her.

Aine scrubbed her hands; she washed them repeatedly then soaped up her hands once again and began scrubbing her face. Twice she washed her face though Yuki tried to stop her until she screamed at him to let her go. Finally when her skin felt a little raw and dried out, did Aine rinse away the soap suds. She'd practically emptied the dispenser.

"What was all that for?!" Yuki asked somewhat angrily as he took several paper towels and began to wipe Aine's face dry like she was a two year old. "Your shirt is soaked." He saw her slight smile and was glad she wasn't as manic as she was before. "Care to tell me why you needed to wash so badly?" He finished drying her off then held her close to his side as he escorted her back to Sakuya's room.

"Rape isn't just a violation of the body but of the mind too." Aine said quietly. "No I wasn't raped but it was close. He touched me…he put – his hands on me. I didn't want him to. I didn't ask him to touch me. I damn well didn't give him permission to touch me! …But he did and I couldn't stop him. He was taking something from me that I didn't want to give – my body. Having someone touch you when you don't agree and by force, it makes you feel weak and dirty – less they you were before." Aine's hand gripped Yuki's shirt where she held him about the waist. "You feel the need to wash and wash and wash that person's hands, presence and smell from your skin. Sometimes it's the only thing that keeps you sane." They entered the room to hear the shower running and see steam from beneath the door. "I held his hand, I touched his face and placed his against my face. He hadn't had a chance to wash yet and so he was dirty and so was I. I have to touch him Yuki." Aine looked up at him as she pulled some clothes out of a suitcase. "So I washed her away." Aine walked over to the bathroom door then looked back. "Even so, it may be a while before he's comfortable letting me touch him again." She blinked and nodded to him before slipping into the bathroom.

"Aine…" Yuki whispered as he was left alone. Of course he knew what happened to her but he really hadn't thought how it had truly affected her and now the same thing if not worse was happening to Sakuya. Men were the stronger species by nature and they were cocky about that fact, were proud of that but Sakuya had bowed down before Marcy to survive. He'd been drugged and had to submit to God knows what from that mad woman. "Sakuya could be feeling like he's less of a man than he was before. Jesus…" Yuki sat and held his head between his hands.

She watched him. He was a dark silhouette behind the opaque curtain. He stood beneath the scalding spray, hands braced against the wall. Sakuya's shoulders were shaking. Suddenly he punched the wall then picked up some soap and began vigorously washing his chest, stomach and genitals. Periodically Sakuya would open his mouth swish the water around then spit it out.

"Sakuya!" She called out to let him know she was there. Aine saw him jerk then look cautiously over his shoulder. She turned around. "I brought you fresh clothes and I'm going to lay out a toothbrush and toothpaste for you. Are you hungry? There's a kitchen here…I could fix you something." Aine stared into the foggy mirror barely able to see her own reflection. She started when a wet hand touched her head.

Sakuya couldn't hold back anymore. "Yes, please. I'd like that Aine." He stroked her hair, twisted it around his fingers and brushed her neck. "I'm not quite done yet but yes, I'd love some food." She's right here! My Aine… Sakuya could hardly believe they were in the same room, that this was truly real.

Aine smile through her tears. "Then I will cook for you, Sakuya. I washed too." Aine said softly turning to once again take his hand and repeat what she'd done earlier.

Sakuya could tell. Her face was clean of makeup, the hair around her face wet. "You understand…I'm going to need…time." She nodded into his hand. "And Aine - I'll need…you." Sakuya held his breath as she let out a sob.

"You have me! I love you Sakuya!" Aine kissed his hand once more before hurrying out of the bathroom. She didn't want him to see her breakdown. Yuki was there and she gratefully collapsed into his embrace.

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Sakuya entered the room still drying his hair to see Yuki sitting in the visitor's chair and watching the late news. No surprise, it was about Lucifer.

"So have they found the wreck yet?" Sakuya asked softly moving towards the bed. While he'd been in the shower, the sheets had been changed. Aine. He sat throwing his legs up and stretching out. Sakuya found his muscles to be severely weakened and found it hard to stay on his feet. The shower had worn him out.

"Yeah, you missed that." Yuki said muting the sound on the TV. He stared at Sakuya as he vigorously dried his head then stopped and tossed the towel at the bedside table. "You okay?"

Sakuya sighed and shrugged. "No idea." He glanced at the screen seeing one of their many publicity shots. "How is everyone else? Things were so hectic before. Towa and Santa were shot?" He leaned forward anxious for the truth.

Yuki spent the next fifteen minutes explaining about everyone's various injuries and how everyone was on the mend. About the time he finished speaking Ralph knocked then peeped inside.

"So you are awake." Ralph breathed through his mouth and inched into the room. He was grateful when Yuki got up and helped him to the chair. "Thanks." He was in PJs and a robe.

"You look like hell." Sakuya said noting the sling and bandages around his brother's arm. "Is it bad?"

Ralph tried to shrug and grimaced. "Said it would take a while to heal. I'll need physical therapy later. Hurts like hell now though." He looked at his baby brother from wet head to bare feet. "What about you? Those bandages need changing."

"Huh?" Sakuya looked down at his arms and a shiver hit him. He hadn't felt them, hadn't registered them but seeing them about his wrists, Sakuya began to tear at them.

"Stop it!" Yuki said grabbing his hand. "They're just bandages. You're free Sakuya." He spoke softly now and rubbed Sakuya's back as he slumped forward.

They sat in near silence for a while all lost in thoughts, most of them bad until Aine and a nurse pushed into the room. Both paused to see the three men looking sort of lost then they did what women did – they comforted and fussed.

"Time for bed Grazer-sama. It's time for another dose of anesthetic. You should really take the painkillers the doctor prescribed." The nurse chastised.

"Tomorrow after we're in our new home." Seeing Sakuya's look of concern and confusion, he explained. "We're moving out of here before the sun comes up so I didn't want to be doped up until after that. I bought us a house." Ralph smiled with real humor. "We all need a place to recuperate – away from the fans and news people. Its huge, room for everyone to breathe – swimming pool, yard for the kid, a studio, even a piano." Ralph told Sakuya hoping his brother wouldn't refuse.

Sakuya stared into the eyes that were so much like his own then nodded. "Sounds good. Go to bed Ralph, rest. And thanks." That last was said quietly but with feeling.

Ralph looked down then nodded. "No problem." He let the nurse led him to the door before stopping and pulled something out of his robe pocket. "We, umm – we made up a cover story for you. You know, for what happened while you were…gone. Read it over and let me know what you think. The police will come by before we leave so, if we need to make some changes…" Like himself, Sakuya was a proud man and didn't like other people making decisions for him but he'd been through so much that he just didn't want Sakuya worrying about stuff he was more than capable of handling.

Sakuya took the paper from the nurse but didn't open it. "Okay. I'll let you know." He nodded without looking up. "Sleep well Ralph."

"Yeah you too Sakuya." Ralph found a smile then waved at Yuki and Aine before leaving. The nurse said she'd be back to change his bandages.

"Time to eat Sakuya." Aine said fluffing his pillows then pulling over the table for him. "Since this is more of a recuperating hospital, they had all kinds of things in the kitchen but I kept it light since I hope you'll sleep a little more." She didn't look too carefully at him or get too close. Aine was going to let Sakuya set the pace.

Sakuya did smile when she took the cover off. There was seasoned rice, steamed fish, soup, some cut up vegetables and Jell-O. He chuckled. She always could surprise and spoil me all at once. "Thank you Aine." One long finger stroked her cheek and her pleased blush only made him smile more.

She sat at the foot of the bed, Yuki in the chair and they found some anime on TV and watched that while Sakuya ate. It was too soon for real conversation. The nurse was in and out quickly though Sakuya frowned the entire time as his wrists and ankles were taped up. The silence was easy because they were together. Aine and Yuki actually got involved in the anime about young band named after a freaky-looking dog when Sakuya sighed.

"Sorry Aine, I'm full." Sakuya said even as he scooted down in the bed. Actually he'd eaten everything but a few of the vegetables and his Jell-O. He yawned.

"Shh, go on to sleep." Aine said hopping up and moving the table out of Sakuya's way. She covered him with the sheet then gasped when Sakuya grabbed her hand.

"Aine?" Sakuya's lids were heavy and reality was slipping from him

"Yes Sakuya, it me Aine." She leaned forward to cup his jaw. Aine smiled. "Sakuya do you remember that day when we had the amusement park to ourselves? And the roller coaster that scared Atsuro so bad that he screamed like a little girl?" As she watched, Sakuya smiled and relaxed. She continued talking until he was deeply asleep. Even though he slept, Sakuya still clutched her hand.

Yuki came to stand behind her, cupping her shoulders. "I'd forgotten about Atsuro screaming. That was such a high note he hit – it probably could've broken glass." He chuckled kissing Aine's head. Yuki hugged her lightly. "You won't be going through this alone Aine. We're all going to help get Sakuya back on track. You'll try to rest won't you?" He watched as she very lightly ran her finger over the white bandage.

"Yes, I know. She's dead but still she hurts him." There was anger in her tone but Aine shook her head. "I'll rest, promise. Now go back to Maria, I'm sure she woke the minute you left her." Aine looked at him over her shoulder. "She might think you're flirting with that pretty nurse!" She teased him.

"No way – jailbait. I'm a man but not a foolish one!" Yuki kept his tone humorous and hugged Aine once more. "I love you Aine."

"I love you too. Night Yuki." Aine watched him leave then carefully pulled her hand free from Sakuya's grip. She would have loved to continue holding his hand but wasn't sure of his reaction considering how he'd woken just a little while ago.

She ended up pulling the chair close to the bed and wrapped up in a blanket. In the dim light, Aine watched him sleep until she too drifted off.

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A week went by then two. The third week came and Sakuya was still adrift. He had bad dreams and often spent a great time walking outside in the gardens with only little Yukihiko for comfort. He and Aine shared a bedroom but not the bed. Except for the time in the hospital, he would sleep in a chair or even on the floor.

The five of them – Lucifer would sit together and talked about nothing at all, just whatever popped into their heads. Sometimes Ralph would join them spicing up the conversation with talk of the entertainment world in America.

Hitoshi and Sasaki dropped by often to check on them and keep them updated on the revival of Jupiter Records. Kai, while she stayed at the mansion as well, also went back to work. Each member of Lucifer but Sakuya had already given interviews. To keep their whereabouts private, they went to the reporters. All but Towa had given at least two interviews already. The fans wanted to see Sakuya too but no one was going to force him if he wasn't ready so they stayed silent.

Finally Ralph announced that in another week he'd have to go back home. There was business that needed his personal attention and he couldn't put it off any longer. For some reason the news upset Sakuya for the next night he had one of the worst nightmares yet. He woke in a cold sweat and immediately rose from his pallet to take a hot shower. Sakuya dressed in a pair of jeans and sweater then making sure Aine was okay, that he hadn't woken her, he slipped from the room.

The whole time spent in the house, Sakuya had avoided the piano and the studio though he knew the others had been playing music. But tonight the urge to play was too great to ignore. Luckily the piano was in a room to itself and far from the bedrooms. For several long moments all he did was stare at the ivory keys.

Yuki had woke up as well. He wasn't sure what robbed him of his peaceful sleep but he got up anyway. Yukihiko was fine and so was Maria. Yawning he decided to go downstairs and raid the refrigerator before trying to go back to sleep. As he exited their bedroom, he saw Sakuya's dark head go down the stairs. He followed Sakuya.

Sakuya didn't see him enter for his back was to the door. He blinked at the thunder that pounded from Sakuya's fingers. So lost was he, in the sound that Yuki jerked when someone tapped him on the shoulder. It was Ralph. No it was Ralph, Santa, Towa and Atsuro. Somehow all them had woken and ended up here to watch and listen to Sakuya play.

It was amazing to watch and painful too for they could feel Sakuya's pain. It wasn't a simple piece at all. In fact, it was worthy to be a symphony. Along with the piano, the song called out for drums, symbols and horns. It would transport any who heard it to the eye of a hurricane to be swept up and away. Sakuya played for almost half an hour – that's how long it was. When he was done, Sakuya was again sweating and breathing hard. He leaned forward and rested his head against the baby grand.

"That was amazing little brother." Ralph said finally moving further into the room.

Sakuya looked like he'd been hit with a tazer as he turned, jumped and fell back into the piano in all one movement. "WHAT THE HELL?! WHY ARE YOU ALL HERE?! NOBODY WAS EVER SUPPOSED TO HEAR THAT! DAMMIT!" Rage and shame flowed through him. Nobody was ever supposed to realize the depth of his pain.

"Something woke us up. I guess it was you, your pain. We needed to be here and to hear your song." Santa said not taking offense that Sakuya had just yelled at them. "And for the record – the world should hear that. Ralph's right, that was utterly amazing." He moved forward slowly as if approaching a wild animal.

"Yeah, Sakuya. Really, something that – awe inspiring should be shared with the world. I mean I know you're good at composing but that was – excellent!" Atsuro said with quiet awe. He supported Towa.

"He's right. I could see it being played by the greatest orchestras all over the world." Towa smiled gently at Sakuya.

Yuki strode forward and though Sakuya almost crawled over the piano to get away from him, pulled him forward hard, struggling with Sakuya until the boy broke down and clutched Yuki like he was drowning.

"Sakuya. Finally. You've been holding this in for too long." Yuki said holding on tight. He nodded to Ralph when the blond came up to them and he put an arm around Sakuya's waist. If anything the young man cried harder.

Towa and Santa sat on the piano bench each touching Sakuya on his back and arm. Atsuro squatted down and leaned against Sakuya's leg. This wasn't something they were used to from Sakuya in fact it was extraordinary but because he needed them and they needed to help him, it was the most natural thing in the world.

Time passed, nobody knew how much but finally Sakuya wound down. Yuki looked at his friends, glad to have them. "How about a drink? Water for Towa and Ralph!" He teased trying to change the mood.

Ralph grunted. "Damn arm. Yeah, let's go into the library." There was something else they needed to tackle and tonight was as good as any time.

The library had books from floor to ceiling but it also had comfortable leather chairs an entertainment center and a bar. The scent of good liquor took over the room as Yuki poured glasses of the stuff. Sakuya downed two then sat back with his eyes closed.

Ralph hesitated as he sipped some water then cursing lightly he got up and switched to brandy. "I have the DVDs. The DVDs of your captivity Sakuya." He winced when Sakuya jerked and his eyes popped open. The blue was surrounded with red, he'd cried so much. "I haven't watched them. I'll burn them now if you want." Ralph offered as he went to a safe hidden in the wall.

"Burn them." Santa said forcefully as he watched Sakuya sit forward clutching his glass.

"No. I want to see them." Sakuya said quietly.

"No! Why Sakuya? It's over. There's no need to see it – you lived it!" Atsuro was on his feet.

Yuki and Towa just watched as Sakuya tried to take in air but couldn't seem to get enough. They thought they knew why but kept quiet.

"I…I lost some time when I was with her. I couldn't physically run from her so, so I ran in my mind. There's stuff I don't remember, stuff where… things could have happened." He lifted his head sweeping his bloodshot eyes around the room. "I thought I didn't want to know but…now I do." Sakuya cleared his throat. "Play them Ralph."

Ralph took the DVDs, three of them out of the safe then revealed the hidden entertainment center and placed the first disk in the player. "We'll leave you alone then."

"NO! DON'T! No please." Sakuya looked at them and saw distaste in a few of his friends faces. "Somebody stay with me. I can't do it alone and I'd never ask Aine…" Again Sakuya dropped his head ashamed at his weakness.

"I'll stay." Yuki said standing to refresh his and Sakuya's drinks.

"As will I." Ralph said also refilling his glass. Both men sat next to Sakuya on the couch facing the TV.

"Me too. Can't I have just one drink?" Towa pleaded and he too got a small amount of dark liquid.

Santa and Atsuro stared at each other. Both of them were the good time guys. If you wanted to have fun, all you needed was to invite them along to whatever was going on and things were bound to be a laugh and a half. Neither had any wish to see Sakuya's suffering.

Santa sighed. "I'll stay, for you Sakuya. I'll stay but I can't say I'll watch. I don't think I'm that strong. That okay?" Seeing Sakuya nod, Santa got up and went to rub Sakuya's head. Then picking up a bottle, he went to stand by the window where he could see out and drink but clouds blocked the stars revealing only darkness. Shit.

Atsuro shifted from foot to foot before going to a shelf, pulling off a book then planted himself in a chair facing away from the TV screen. "Well go on. I'm going to read this book! Just know I'm here for you Sakuya." Atsuro made eye contact with Sakuya reassuring him that he wasn't alone even if he didn't choose to watch.

He let out a shuddering sigh. "Thanks. Ralph." Sakuya sat back to watch his own personal hell.

There was sound. Marcy liked to talk for the camera. The recording began before Sakuya had ever been kidnapped. She talked of love for Sakuya and freeing him of those tying him down. She generally angered each of them as she talked of their deaths. Luckily this didn't last long and soon came the part where Sakuya was dumped unconscious onto the bed. They watched him stripped and bound and finally his awakening.

Santa couldn't stop his eyes. At first he stared steadfastly out the window until he realized he could still see what was happening in the window's reflection. He gave up and turned to watch.

Atsuro's eyesight blurred as he tried to read the page of some unknown book but when he heard Sakuya get sick, he turned to check on him but it was happening on the TV screen. He watched from that moment until the very end with tears running down his face.

They went through four bottles of liquor as if trying to cover the taste of bile brought on by what happened to Sakuya. It wasn't only that it was Sakuya but the fact that they empathized with him so much that everything that happened to him, they could imagine it all happening to themselves.

There were long moments of silence on the DVDs. The silences were when Sakuya was alone, hiding beneath the sheets or sleeping. To combat the silences there were often curses and Sakuya yanking and pulling on the chains. They saw him staring at the TV and eating, not paying any attention to either. And they saw Marcy touch him, all but rape him then force him to please her. To Sakuya's and their relief, the actual rape never happened. But still his shame was there for all to see after each and every sex act, every time he was forced to use the bedpan and for each sponge bath. It was hard to say what hurt worse, seeing those acts or Sakuya's decent into nothingness.

Finally the end came and they saw Sakuya's desperate hope crash into despair and his disbelief as he was ultimately saved and reunited with his friends. The recording ended abruptly as Sakuya took the phone from Kai.

A glass shattered in the empty fire place. Santa also kicked a chair and cursed because he stubbed his toe. "I want to kill her myself! Once wasn't enough!" He cursed a blue streak and paced or tried to.

Atsuro ran out of the room without a word. Towa reached for some tissues and blew his nose loudly several times then passed the box along. Ralph had gotten up to pick up the poker and jabbed it at the broken glass turning them into slivers. Yuki put an arm around Sakuya while blotting his own tears.

Sakuya stared up at the intricate design work on the ceiling. "I can't touch her, at least not in –that way. We've barely even kissed!" He laughed sadly. "I won't even sleep in the same bed with Aine." He didn't look at them though he could feel them looking at him. "I feel like…I've cheated on Aine."

"Don't be stupid!" Ralph said angrily. He'd blotted his tears on his sleeve. He tossed the poker at the fireplace and it fell with a clatter. "Aine doesn't believe that! Hell she guessed for herself what happened to you without that!" Ralph gestured to the now blank TV screen. "She knew that whatever happened – Mary forced it on you!"

Sakuya did sit up then. "Damn, she's thought about it a lot?! God the things she must think happened!" It was horror mixed with anger that Aine knew or suspected the things that happened to him.

"Get a grip Sakuya. Of course she's thought about it, she's only human and the woman who loves you. None of us have discussed this with her." Santa said. "As men, it would have too difficult to see the pain it would cause her but Sakuya you forgot, Miya and Kai were there when we found you. Maybe they told her about the room and the state you were in." He frowned thinking about it.

"Even if they did, it's much simpler than that." Yuki said gripping Sakuya's neck. "Marcy hinted that the two of you were lovers." He paused as Sakuya cursed. "But Sakuya, you told her yourself, remember? You had to shower even before you would allow yourself to really touch her. Aine went through this too. How could she not think about it?" He reminded Sakuya gently.

He cursed loudly then jumped up to pace. Several times he stopped to punch the wall. Sakuya was angry at Marcy and himself. Never would he have Aine relive her attack but because of what happened to him, she was. Finally he leaned both hands against the wall spent and unsure of anything.

Atsuro came back barely entering the room without spilling the two trays he'd stacked on top of each other. With the oppressive atmosphere in the room he stopped. "What? What now?" He'd hoped things would have gotten better by the time he returned but it was worse if that was possible.

"Nothing. I'm just damned, that's all. Oh and I continually cause Aine pain – just that!" Sakuya said sarcastically before spinning around and sliding to the floor to rest his head on his knees.

"What's all that Atsuro?" Towa asked. Obviously his friend had occupied his hands in order to deal with what he'd seen.

Atsuro looked ruefully down at the trays. "Comfort food or so I'd hoped." He walked over to the table in front of the couch. Atsuro separated them then took the lids off. There were sandwiches and chips on one tray and the other held nothing but sweets. "I even found popcorn for later if we ate all this." He sounded glum as he looked over at Sakuya then whispered. "What did I miss?"

Taking a sandwich, Santa explained between bites. He found that after all that emotion; he was ravenous and nodded his thanks to Atsuro.

Atsuro was munching on chips as Santa and Towa filled him in then bit his finger as he realized something. He shifted around smiling widely then crawled over to Sakuya. "But Aine loves you anyway. She said it was just sex – not love. What happened between you and that bitch didn't mean a damn thing! Not to Aine! If she's hurting it's because she knows you are." Atsuro shook Sakuya's shoulders.

Yuki leaned forward. "That's right! I'd forgotten. I won't say that Aine doesn't care what happened but she knows it didn't mean anything. She doesn't think you cheated but rather that you survived what Marcy put you through! Sakuya!" He got up to remove the hateful DVD from the player. He threw all three of them into the fireplace then with the fallen poker broke them into little pieces. "Ralph! The memorial live – where is it?" He asked after he'd lit a small fire to burn the shiny bits of Sakuya's ordeal.

Sakuya looked up at Atsuro's smiling face then saw the hope on his other friends' faces. "She said that – when?" He was confused but let Atsuro pull him up and back over to the couch.

"Just you wait Sakuya – you'll see. You and Aine are fine, better than fine! That woman loves you." Ralph said after he put in the disk. Picking up the remote he hit fast-forward. "You can watch the concert later."

They were all anxious for Sakuya to see and hear Aine as she stood down Marcy. Water was passed around and Atsuro's food was being eaten without anyone really noticing.

Ralph stopped on the part where he'd been just about to tell Aine that Sakuya had been found. Silently he handed the remote to Sakuya. "Watch her."

He did. Sakuya watched with his mouth hanging open and his blue eyes wide. He was touched and awed by Aine. He respected her bravery and determination in the face of danger. Most of all he saw her love for him. She knew him. She knew his soul and what would make him happy. Aine wanted him no matter what. Sakuya hit rewind and watched it again and again.

"What I want to know was where she was hiding that stick thingy?" Santa asked helping himself to a cookie.

"She broke her fucking arm!" Ralph crowed. "You're watching it but I was there." He was grinning. "Aine really let her have it! She made that bitch hurt just like she did to us!" Ralph said proudly but wished he too could have lain a hurting on Mary.

"What she did was save your ass Ralph!" Towa chuckled. "I think we should remember not to get Aine mad." He looked at Santa pointedly.

"What? I only tease, besides Aine loves me!" He shook his hair back and grinned winningly.

They laughed but paused as Sakuya stopped the playback on him and Aine kissing. "Actually she loves me and Aine can save my ass anytime she wants." He looked at them finally smiling.

"About damn time!" Yuki said slapping his shoulders. The light of hope was back in his friend's blue eyes. There was much for him to put behind him but as long as Aine was with him, their future was bright.

Sakuya took a deep, refreshing breath. His first in what felt like months. He stretched then looked down at the trays, most of the food was gone. "When did you dogs eat all the food? I'm hungry!" He growled playfully at them then blinked as they laughed at him.

All six ended up in the kitchen putting together whatever they could get their hands on. They switched from liquor to coffee and tea. They were loud as they laughed and talked about this and that. None saw all six girls peeping at them from the hall smiling. Silently they left the men to their bonding and retuned upstairs, Aine crying tears of relief.

The guys with food for a small army returned to the library to watch the memorial live. They joked about their friends and how they were lacking in performing their masterpieces. They discussed their comeback and taking on the bands who had so honored them with the memorial but of course they were going to do it better.

Outside the sun was just touching the sky when Sakuya announced that he had a new song and asked if they wanted to hear it. With excitement, they went back to the piano and Sakuya played his new song. Again they were awed by his talent for composition.

Ralph sat and watched the five of them work on the arrangement for the song so that each of them had a hand in making it something they could use on stage. He didn't doubt that this song would be their next big hit.

---

Aine and the girls had sat up talking too but only for an hour or so. Miya and Kai had filled her in on Sakuya's state when they'd found him. They had wanted her know so she could better handle Sakuya's mental state. It had helped and it had hurt but even so, Aine knew she loved him no matter what had been done to him in that bedroom. The hardest part since coming to this house had been not babying him.

They had discussed this too. Sakuya hadn't been able to leave that bed and that had meant, Marcy had done everything for him. She forced him to depend on her for everything. Growing up as he had, Sakuya was uber-independent but he had enjoyed Aine doing things for him but still never to the extent Marcy had demanded of him. And so she'd refrained from joining him in the bath and shower or even fixing him a plate of food. Sakuya made the bed in the mornings even when he didn't sleep there. And she'd watched him talk to his friends but keep a distance from them as well but that had changed tonight.

Yuuka had woken to find Atsuro gone so instead of having his help to get to the bathroom, she'd used her crutches. No longer was she always confined to her wheelchair. Unfortunately she wasn't proficient on them yet and had dropped one in the bathroom, waking Miya in the next room.

Maria had been woken by Yukihiko. The baby had also been having nightmares about his mother and father being hurt. She'd rocked Yukihiko back to sleep then left the bedroom to look for Yuki and spotted Miya about to leave Yuuka's room. They talked and if three of them were without their men, what about the other three?

Kai had heard Santa get up but she'd gone back to sleep but that had been a couple of hours ago. Mizuki was a deep sleeper and it took them a few minutes to wake her in her lonely bed. Aine had been awake and worried about Sakuya. She didn't want to chase after him after each nightmare, so she waited.

They all checked on Yukihiko one last time, then leaving with the monitor in hand, crept downstairs to see what their men were up to. At first they couldn't find them but when they reached the library, they heard male laughter. Before they could get closer to eavesdrop the door open and they ran like children so they wouldn't be caught. Luckily Yuuka was slow so she was never in danger of being caught but the others raced and slid on the slick floor to hide.

Giggling, they hid until the coast was clear before inching towards the kitchen. From the depths of the dark hall they watched the men talk, laugh and joke and prepare food for themselves. It like it was before, no better and Ralph fit right in like he'd always been there. From there the girls went back to Yuuka's room and had a mini slumber party, happy that the men were happy and hopeful that Sakuya would bounce back much sooner than they thought.

Aine had gone back to her room but hadn't really expected to sleep. She had wanted to wait up for Sakuya if only to see that light in his eyes up close but she'd fallen asleep. Tension, worry and her own nightmares had made sleeping through the night impossible. But seeing Sakuya smile like he used to and look truly happy, was all it took for sleep to catch hold of her. She was sleeping deeply so she wasn't consciously aware of Sakuya getting in the bed with her but Aine turned to him automatically resting her head in that spot just below his chin and sighed with happiness to be where she belonged.

She woke late and couldn't have been more pleased. It was almost eleven but Aine did not care. She cried, not enough to wake him but she couldn't help herself. Her arm was around his waist, beneath the T-shirt he wore against his warm back. His long, hard thigh rested between hers and a large hand cupped her bottom. It made her laugh softly. Aine knew it could be awhile before they actually had sex but now he could touch her and she him. It was a beginning.

Aine lay there another hour and would have stayed longer but the need to use the bathroom was becoming urgent. Reluctantly, Aine disengaged herself from his loving embrace. She sighed regretfully, kissed her fingers then touched them to his sleeping lips. "I love you." One last look then Aine went to take care of business and shower.

As she scrubbed her hair, Aine heard the sliding door open and felt a rush of cool air. The next thing she felt were two large hands pulling her arms down. Aine tentatively reached for his hips as Sakuya began washing her hair. "I thought you'd sleep longer. You guys were up pretty late." Aine said just loud enough to be heard over the water.

Sakuya quirked a curious eyebrow. "You knew? Sorry if I worried you." He tilted her head up so the water would rinse out the suds. He slicked back her hair and ran his fingers through it until it was clean.

Aine finally opened her eyes to find him staring at her face. "It's okay. You're mine Sakuya and I love you, I'm supposed to worry about you. Eee!" Suddenly she was dangling in midair. Sakuya held her high enough to bury his head between her breasts. He turned so his back was against the wall and just held her. "Sakuya…" Aine rested her head on his black hair and her legs at his hips.

Eventually he spoke but his kept his eyes lowered. Her breasts and nipples were treated to kisses and heard his words intimately as he told her some of what happened and how it made feel and how it was still affecting him.

"I was her freaking pet! She rubbed and petted me like a good dog." Sakuya turned his head to listen to Aine's heart. "My body responded. I'm sorry Aine! I couldn't keep myself from - …"

Aine stroked his neck. "It was an automatic response Sakuya! It couldn't be helped. You like to be in control and she took that from you, there's no way you wanted what happened. I bet you were cursing her the whole time… and yourself too." She knew him well and his dry laugh proved it.

"I wanted her dead." Sakuya kissed her nipple. "I wanted to be home with you, to wake up from my nightmare. God Aine…I felt so…helpless." He pressed his face between her softness wanting to stay there and never leave. "…I didn't stop her. I let her use my body. And I – I…"

"You stayed alive for me. You had to Sakuya. You had to so you could come home to us. Sakuya think of it like acting! It was pretend – nothing but pretend. And now you're home again where everyone here loves you. We're what's real Sakuya. Your brother Ralph, Yuki and Maria, Atsuro and Yuuka, Towa and Miya, Santa and Kai and - ."

"You." Sakuya finished for her finally looking up at her. "You keep me sane Aine. I love you." He let her slide down his body until he could kiss her. Sakuya let her words play in his mind. Pretend, it wasn't real. I pretended for her. So simple – that's exactly what I was doing! I planned to do that but I let it mess me up. I got lost in the…part. Aine was right, I would hate acting for a living. I would be pretending to be something, someone I'm not and that's exactly what happened. Even though I was doing it to get back to Aine, I began to hate myself. "Don't ever leave me Aine. I wouldn't last without you." He whispered into her ear.

"I'm here Sakuya and I'm never going anywhere!" Aine clutched him with her arms and legs. They stayed intimately locked together but they didn't make love. It was too soon and actually this was better, they didn't need the sex to know they loved each other.

It was afternoon before the two of them showed up downstairs. As soon as everyone noticed the couple, they knew things were much better between them and though most had eaten already, they joined Aine and Sakuya in the kitchen while they fixed a meal and ate. The family was if not completely whole yet was well on its way to becoming that way.

---

A week later Sakuya gave his first interview. He spoke little of what happened during his captivity claiming that he'd been drugged most of the time. He was calm and spoke softly which told the audience that the experience deeply affected him. Mainly Sakuya spoke of his despair when he thought Lucifer had been killed and when he learned that his bodyguard had died trying to protect him. He spoke with respect and gratitude for all their security people and sent well wishes to those recovering in the hospital.

One other guard had been injured during his rescue. Ralph finally found out what was in that canister that Mary had obtained on the black market. On the steps leading to the room Sakuya had been held in, Mary had rigged trip wire to release a spray of acid. The security guard had used both arms to protect his face but had suffered severe burns to his arms and hands. That's why Daisuke had to abandon Sakuya's rescue for a while, to help his comrade and to make sure they cleared the stairs of any other traps. Of course Sakuya didn't mention all this but he wanted the public to be aware of the danger he'd been in and the brave men who'd done they're all to protect him and his friends. He wanted them recognized for everything they'd done for them.

Sakuya had always been a man people gravitated to. His mysterious upbringing and blue eyes led to much speculation. The situation had not changed, if anything his popularity and fans increased after this interview. Sakuya had been humble and somewhat shy but anxious to reassure everyone that he and Lucifer were fine and would be back making music just as soon as they were able.

With the initial interview over, Sakuya was finally feeling more at ease in all areas of his life. The band as a whole even visited Jupiter Records drawing a large crowd. Renovations were well under way and coming along nicely. Though they were excited about the new changes that were to come, their visit was a quiet one. They could still feel the fire and hear the explosions, gunfire and screams. Their lungs felt the choking smoke. Back came the pain and horror of it all. The five stood shoulder to shoulder staring at the place that had helped them become famous but also where there had been great tragedy.

"Let's go." Yuki said softly. Maybe when the building no longer showed scars would they be able to let some of those feelings go but right now it hurt to be there. One after the other they turned around. It was unintentional but the photo op was magnificent. It would grace their next album cover. Strong, somber and intensely sad faces for each of them. It broke your heart but at the same time drew you in.

Next they went to the Cradle where they met up with , Neon, D-Element, Jesus and Feel, all the bands who had participated in the memorial. Things were a bit awkward at first. Lucifer was afraid of how they'd feel about being lied to and the others were afraid this was all a lie and these were imposters. It took the Master, welcoming Sakuya and the others like long lost sons for everyone to loosen up and become friends again. Lucifer was mending as many fences as they could but found that it wasn't necessary – Japan was delighted to have them back.

---

The Lucifer Ladies planned a party for Ralph and Mizuki. In just a few more days the couple was heading back to the States. Besides themselves Kyo, Hitoshi, Sasaki and the Master were going to be there. Also most of Ralph's security firm was invited, including Shinji, Maria's bodyguard, who had recently been released from the hospital.

The weather was nice so once again, they planned on having the party outside. The women spent two days preparing for it – the food, games and the like. It was a going away party but also a survival party. Despite the threats and near fatalities, they'd made it.

The party lasted all day. They played football and soccer, those who could – women too. For those who didn't want to play or couldn't, there were board games and cards to play. Later they used the pool even though the air was growing cooler but no one seemed to mind. As evening approached, the guests began to dwindle until it was just the Lucifer crew, the Master and security people had to work the next day.

They were lounging around the pool feeling tired after a long day of play. But they were content. It had been a long time since they'd gathered like this or had this much fun. A day to remember.

Hitoshi looked over at Aine and Sakuya. The young man was stretched out on a lounger and at his side, Aine cuddled as close as possible. Yuki held hands with his wife as Yukihiko tried reading a story to his parents. It seemed so normal but he knew it was not. Maria still wore a light cast, Aine too. Each band member carried scars and so did their women. If not visible scars then mental ones. All of them had suffered immeasurable pain in one form or another, because of him. He stood.

"I'd like to apologize. It's my fault all this happened. I brought Marcy into our lives and I didn't listen when I was warned." He trembled as he bowed before them. "Please forgive me."

"Ah man, why'd you have to bring her up? I was just about sleep too!" Santa groaned then readjusted Kai who was dozing on his lap. He hid his face in her long hair. "Forget it."

Hitoshi stood rigidly. "No I cannot. I'll never forget any of it! Umm, I've looked into finding you all a new producer and have several candidates and I've fully researched their backgrounds. You just have to meet with them and find the one best for ensuring your success in going global." He withdrew a piece of paper from his pocket then walked over to Yuki. "I am sorry."

Yuki took the paper then looked up at Hitoshi who appeared miserable but willing to face whatever just punishment they would come up with. Next he looked to his friends. Santa was kissing Kai's neck making her giggle. Towa was unconsciously rubbing his wound while Miya removed his hand then leaned down to kiss the spot making him smile. Atsuro was on the ground beside Yuuka's chair helping her with one of her many exercises to strengthen her leg. Every few minutes he would reward her by kissing her toes. And Sakuya was laughing silently as Aine whispered something in his ear.

Only Sasaki, Kyo, Ralph and Mizuki paid this little scene any attention. As they watched, Yuki tore the paper into pieces then asked his son to go throw them away. Yuki wrapped an arm around his wife before speaking. "You're forgiven and like Santa said, forget it. Thank you." He smiled at his son as he came running back.

Hitoshi's hands went up then down. "It's my fault! I don't deserve to be your producer!"

"You can throw away the dagger Takayama – we won't be accepting seppuku today! You weren't pulling her strings. She did what she wanted to." Santa said.

"But I didn't listen - !"

"We didn't either." Atsuro said.

"It just happened, let it go." Towa said.

"Besides if anyone is to blame, it's me." Ralph said joining in. "I already tried to take the blame but these guys wouldn't let me either. So Hitoshi, I suggest you work your ass, umm butt off for these guys and get them to States within the next year if not before." It was hard to remember not to cuss in front of the little boy. Ralph grinned shrugging as Maria looked at him sternly.

Hitoshi looked at them all now grinning at him. He sighed nodded then bowed formally to each of them before resuming his seat and finishing his drink in one swallow.

Shortly Yuuka had to go inside so Aine volunteered to escort her. A game of poker got started now that everyone was awake again. After a while when the two women didn't come back, Maria took Yukihiko with her to see if anything was wrong. Miya won a big pot then exited the game. When she realized some of the ladies were missing, she followed by Mizuki who really didn't get poker, went to see what was up.

Kyo was losing so he too stopped playing then noticed most of the females had left and ever the ladies' man, went in search of them. Santa was put out that Kai was a better poker player and said he was going in for snacks but he didn't return either. Feeling a chill, Towa decided not to push his luck and went inside too.

As Kai again won, Yuki sat back slightly disgusted at loosing so easily then noticed that half the group was gone. "I think I'll leave before this card shark eats me alive and see what the others are up to." He said standing and yawning.

His words got their attention. They'd been so into the game they hadn't noticed that no one had come back and suddenly it was darker and cooler. Since everyone else was inside, they decided to move the game indoors. Everyone needed a break anyway after sitting for a couple of hours. But when they entered the house, it became obvious what had happened to everyone. Someone was baking cookies.

In the kitchen, people were laughing and talking, mixing, spooning and decorating cookies. There were four ovens and each of them were full of cookies. Yukihiko was running around trying to taste each batter or grab a cookie.

"Took you guys long enough!" Kyo laughed as he snapped a picture of their amazed faces. "We've already placed an order for more milk, eggs and flour. Everybody has their favorites and we're baking all of them!" So saying he went to one pan, picked up a cookie and almost ate it whole.

"Let me guess, it was Aine's idea." Sakuya laughed as he crossed the kitchen, dipped a finger into some batter that Aine was mixing. She was wearing one of those kiss the cook aprons and so he followed orders.

"I felt like something sweet and it just kept going." Aine told him once he'd released her mouth.

"Something like that anyway." Maria agreed then popped Yuki's hand as he tried to steal a fresh-out-of-the-oven cookie from her. "Yukihiko asked for his favorite then I thought of all the people we owed a huge thanks to and we started baking. So all of this isn't for us!" She said in exasperation as Yuki grinned at her while snatching four cookies from a different pan.

"That's right, we get to take some back with us." Mizuki grinned at Ralph as she dunked a chucky chocolate chip cookie into some milk. With a sobering look at Aine, she added, "Some are for your father."

"Father?" Ralph blinked then gaped at Sakuya for his reaction.

"Grazer?" Sakuya stared down at Aine for a minute then nodded. "Yeah, okay. I hope he likes them." Though his father had been the root of most of his earlier problems, Sakuya knew of all the old man had done to make sure he was back with Aine again. "So where do you want me?" His arms circled her waist and began to stir where she'd left off.

"Sakuya! I can't work this way!" Aine was trapped between him and the counter. She pushed her hips back only to feel him push forward.

"Careful or we might end putting on a show while we bake." Sakuya whispered in her ear then laughed as she blushed. Both remembered the last time they'd had sex in a kitchen.

At some point or another, they all acted like little children who'd stolen the cookie jar. They had cookies everywhere of all types and they all got samples. Some of them ended up with stomach aches the next day but it didn't matter, the cookies were great and the companionship even better.

---

They said goodbye out in front of the house. Mizuki was already in the limo. It was just the two of them under the new sun in the chill morning air.

"You'll call me?"

"Yeah. You'll come back for our return show?"

"I wouldn't miss it. You guys finished that new song yet?"

"Pretty much. Its finished enough to give to Aine. She'll make the song with her words."

Ralph smiled. "No, both of you will make the song. You two are perfect together – in business and love." He held out a hand. "Take care Sakuya and if you need me, for anything, I'm a phone call away."

Sakuya took his brother's hand. "I think you and Mizuki will be good together too. I'll be expecting a niece or nephew soon." He grinned. "You can call me too you know in case the old man gets on your nerves or something. …Brothers should stay close right?" He stepped forward and hugged his brother.

"…Yeah we should. As for babies, well there's time for that later right?" Ralph joked but was touched. This was what he'd been missing. "I'll see you soon Sakuya."

"Yeah, later Ralph." He watched his brother's limo ease down the long drive. Sakuya took a deep breath. It was nice being on good terms with blood relatives, real nice.

~mg~

Rupert Grazer stared at the decorative tin full of cookies. Ralph had just returned and delivered a long report on everything that happened as well as this gift from his youngest son and his girl.

He hadn't said much as Ralph spoke of the goings on in Japan but it was interesting to hear his point of view. What he didn't tell Ralph and never would was that Yamaguchi had already told him much of this and more. Those DVDs that Marcy had made of Sakuya while in captivity – copies had been sent to him and he'd watched them. It was far too late to regret how he'd treated Sakuya growing up but he had felt his son's pain as he watched him suffer. He had shed tears while alone in his opulent office. Afterwards, he too destroyed the copies. That was Sakuya's past and he would work hard behind the scenes to be sure his youngest child realized his dreams.

Rupert stared at the tin. It held scenes of Japan – the Tokyo tower, a Japanese garden and a city scene. The last thing he expected was a gift from Sakuya. The boy had always expressed his hate for him very eloquently. But he'd just spent over a month with his brother Ralph and even Rupert could sense a change in his eldest son. Perhaps Sakuya had changed too. The two had come to terms and grown fond of each other.

He opened the tin an on top was card. The scent of cookies wafted out and tickled his nose. Rupert sniffed. He didn't indulge very often wanting to be fit and healthy so that he lived as long as possible but according to Ralph, Sakuya and his girl had personally baked these together. Maybe…but first he'd open the card which seemed a little heavy.

It just an ordinary thank you card but when he opened it, several pictures clattered to his desk. "Sakuya doesn't know I sent these but I thought you should see your son when he's happiest. You weren't the best father to him but when he needed you, you were there. Thank you." Rupert read and it was sighed Yukimura Aine. Sakuya had signed it as well but he doubted Sakuya knew about the rest – the girl's words or the pictures.

The first picture was of Sakuya playing with a child. They were tickling each other and laughing with great delight. The next was of Sakuya at the piano, his eyes closed blissfully as he played. There was one of Sakuya and Ralph arguing but in that friendly/brotherly way. They were in each other's faces but grinning as they tried to out talk each other. There was another of Sakuya with his band as they discussed music. His son was intent but his eyes showed excitement. There was a group photo with each member of Lucifer and their love interests. Evidence of Mary's handiwork could be seen but the group was happy, they were moving on. The last two pictures were of the girl and his son. Sakuya and Aine were lying in the grass laughing both dirty, Sakuya holding a soccer ball. The next, they were dancing arms about each other staring into each other's eyes, in love.

Rupert stared at the pictures for a long time before he gave into temptation and tasted one of the carefully wrapped and lovingly baked cookies. He'd never had better. Rupert looked at the pictures of Aine and Sakuya again. "So she can cook. Well son, though you may hate this fact, you take after me in many ways. I'm sure you'll work off all that good cooking in the bedroom!" He smirked. He may never be a real father to Sakuya but the boy was his and he was proud of him. "They'll be happy." He stated for if he had anything to say about it – they would.

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They spent one more month at the mansion hiding from the public eye. Rest and recuperation were their main objectives though they accomplished much more. The Lucifer Ladies went back to work on the website, creating new trivia games and giving updates on the condition of the band members. Lucifer worked as well on new arrangements of old songs and worked on new ones. They wanted to thank Japan so they were working on another album to be released before the move to London. One song in particular was special to Sakuya. The day he'd played it for Aine had been bittersweet for it touched on his time with Marcy but also reflected what had kept him sane during that time.

Aine had felt the same but after hearing the beautiful song only once, almost immediately came up with words to match the feelings behind the melody. She handed the words to the band the very next day.

Sakuya sung it with only the piano as accompaniment. Everyone was there and by the time the last note was played, no heart was left untouched. They'd wanted to play the beautiful song before when Sakuya had given it to them but now, with Aine's words – excitement filled them all.

Finally they all went home after two months of being hidden away from the world. It was an - experience. Fans had been visiting their homes daily hoping for a glimpse of Lucifer and finally they were rewarded. At all five homes, fans with flowers and cards, food and presents waited for them and screamed at their arrival. And that was just the beginning.

They went back to work full time with the exception of Towa, he had a reduced schedule but the commercials, the modeling, the autograph sessions and public appearances were all back on. With all that going on, the TV drama was released in the United States and with all the emphasis on Lucifer and what happened to them, the drama was shown in several other countries including Japan.

Soon there was a rumor about a concert going around on all the websites. The news and magazine reporters pounced on the news and soon, the temporary headquarters for Jupiter Records were being mobbed. Kai was pleased, her idea was working wonders. Judging by the response, they should book a huge venue for Lucifer's last concert in Japan.

~mg~

"That was nice. You know, you two are really very similar." Aine commented as she entered their bedroom. They'd just left Ralph's hotel. He and Mizuki were back for the concert just as they said they would. The four of them had spent the evening together. The show was tomorrow evening and it was sold out.

"I guess so. You and Mizuki were awfully friendly. No more animosity between you?" Sakuya removed his jacket as he watched Aine put her purse down then sat at the vanity to remove her jewelry.

"Well we're not enemies anymore. We're no longer fighting over you! Mizuki's got Ralph and I've got you!" Aine beamed at him from the mirror then took the shiny clip from her hair and let the silky stuff fall to her shoulders. She then proceeded to remove her makeup.

Sakuya slipped off his shirt and pants and threw them over a chair. In nothing but briefs, he went to stand behind her. Sakuya massaged her shoulders. "Shower with me?"

Aine closed her eyes in bliss. "Your hands are magic. That feels so good. Keep that up and I'll do anything." She promised looking at him the mirror. Her words were true but love was what truly controlled her and her love for him ruled her heart.

"Oh yeah? Sweetheart maybe you should have kept that to yourself!" Sakuya smiled at her with delight. He helped her to stand then unzipped her dress and slipped the sleeves from her shoulders and down to the floor.

Aine took his hand and let him lead her to the bathroom and there he removed their underwear. In moments they were showering under the hot spray. It was a normal shower. He touched her with love but not with intent as did Aine. She too washed Sakuya's body with care. They still had not made love. It had been almost five months since Marcy's death.

Though life was mostly back to normal again, each of them – Aine and Sakuya and their friends had bad days and even worse nights. Pain would flare from old wounds, memories of fire and explosions would haunt waking moments and nightmares of loved ones dying woke them in the night. Marcy and the things she'd done would live with them forever.

Aine let Sakuya dry her then she did the same for him. "You want anything or would you rather just go to bed? Wine? Coffee? Tomorrow's the big day!" Aine almost skipped into the bedroom with excitement. She found her body lotion, sat on the bed and began smoothing it on her legs.

Sakuya watched her and got hard. He always did. His Aine was a sensual woman and she always affected him. "Nah, I'm good." He answered absently. "Yeah, it was really weird being back on stage but like finally coming home too. That first song was awful though – we were all so nervous." He leaned against the door jamb as Aine played her hands over her belly then moved up to her breasts.

Aine laughed. She'd been at the rehearsal. Sakuya's voice had cracked several times. Atsuro had broken a guitar string. Towa had dropped his guitar and Yuki had played the wrong song. "That was funny but afterwards you guys got it together. Sakuya, you're pros and you showed that today and you'll do even better tomorrow." Aine hopped off the bed, to reach her back and bottom.

She's doing that on purpose! No, she's just being Aine. It's not like she doesn't do this after every shower but tonight – damn its really getting to me. Maybe, maybe it's been enough time. Marcy fucked with my mind even if my body was spared! I've ignored my wants afraid that I couldn't or that she would pop into my mind and ruin what I have with Aine. No, it's time. Tomorrow Lucifer takes back it place in the music world and tonight I take my woman back! Goodbye Marcy! Decision made, Sakuya stalked across the soft carpet and pushed Aine down on to the bed.

"Wha-! Sakuya!" Aine gasped as she bounced but before she could turn over, Sakuya was sitting on her legs. She shivered and wondered if…

"You missed a few spots. I like your skin soft so I thought I'd help you out." Sakuya had already put lotion on his hands and was rubbing it into her back. Soon his hands were caressing her buttocks. "I see all that time you've spent helping Yuuka with her rehab is really firming you up. There's a little less jiggle than before but I like it." He patted her like a set of drums.

"Hey! There's nothing wrong with my butt!" Aine yelled and tried to turn over ready to argue with him.

"No there isn't." Sakuya laughed tickling her. "Like I said, I like it." He got off her to kiss each cheek. "Nothing at all wrong with this kissable flesh." Sakuya lay his head there a moment then slid one hand up her trembling thigh. "So does this flesh need lotion too?" His finger entered her.

Aine hissed softly and lifted her hips to give him better access. I've missed this! Not just the sex but the play too. I put aside my wants because he needed time just like I did. Has he finally decided that we'll make love or is this only for me? Either way, this is a step forward. He's, no we're finally breaking free of Marcy! "Sa – kuya…"

He grinned. Sakuya absolutely loved to hear her say his name like that. "Yes Aine, what is it?" His fingers teased even as Aine rose to her knees. She was pushing back on his fingers a little desperately. At her moan, Sakuya decided to stop teasing. They had both been without for too long. "Aine!" He tumbled her over and moved between her wet thighs to replace his fingers with his tongue.

Aine clutched his head with her thighs, one hand held tightly to his hair as she raised herself to his mouth. She threw back her head and screamed her pleasure. Aine blinked away her tears and tried to catch her breath. She trembled as Sakuya kissed her once more in that place then each thigh. Aine could feel him looking down at her so she tried to focus her eyes. "…Oh boy… Hi."

Sakuya licked his lips and grinned. "Hi, feeling good?" His hands slid up her hipbones until they reached her heaving breasts. Sakuya tickled the nipples making them stand up even further. He leaned forward to lick them.

Aine hummed in her throat and traced his ears with her fingers. She could feel him throbbing against her thigh. He was hot, hard and heavy and her body ached for him. "What about you Sakuya? How do you feel?" Aine whispered gasping as he bit her gently.

Sakuya raised his head and noted that Aine's eyes were quite serious. "I feel…like I'm in love and that I can't wait to be inside my woman." He leaned up to cup her jaw. "Can I come inside Aine?" It was a soft smile now that followed his pun.

Aine returned the smile. "Hmm, I guess so. We should do something about this before it messes up the sheets." Her hand held him tightly and Aine circled the head with her thumb laughing as it jerked violently in her hand.

"Let's see who messes up the sheets!" Sakuya growled and thrust forward making them both cry out. It was almost like the first time for Aine was extremely tight. She swallowed him whole and held on warmly. "Ai – ne! God, Aine…! Aine!" Sakuya pulled back and thrust again then stayed still. "I'm…sorry. So long, I denied us for…so long! I missed you!" Sakuya buried his head in her neck.

She could hardly breathe, she felt so full. Sakuya filled her beautifully, wonderfully – she was made for him. Aine shook her head. "Time. Needed time…and now is the…right time!" Aine lifted her hips to get him moving again. "Me too – I missed – you!" She gasped as Sakuya braced himself and thrust once more. Aine looked up into her blue heaven and got lost.

In and out he moved with hardly a pause. Her legs slid high about his hips and the bed rocked beneath them. Sakuya and Aine went at it and then reached the apex. Their voices echoed off the walls. Sakuya rolled over and clasped Aine tightly before pushing her up to take her breast in his mouth. "Again!"

"Ag-ain?" Aine blinked but could only hold on as Sakuya started rocking her hips. "Oh God!" She moaned but couldn't be happier. This was her Sakuya – insatiable when it came to making love and he only wanted her. Aine was in for a very long night. She laughed as she came yet again!

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The secret was out the minute they entered the conference room at the stadium. Sakuya was smiling like the cat that'd gotten not only the cream but the canary too! There was that just satisfied look in his eye and a pep in his step. The guys congratulated him. Poor Aine looked well but she kept yawing and walked a little funny but her smile never left her face. She was teased by all the ladies.

Knowing that Aine and Sakuya had finally gotten beyond Marcy, that they could be intimate with each other again, made everybody's day. As preparations were made for the concert that evening, the energy was high. Nothing was going to ruin this day.

The very front row had been reserved. The Lucifer Ladies, Hitoshi, Sasaki, Ralph and Mizuki had it all to themselves. Only one guest was missing and just now, he very nervously walked out onto the stage.

"GOOD EVENING JAPAN!" The Master greeted the twenty thousand plus fans in the audience. He wore a black tux and looked dashing but he kept fidgeting with his tie. As the crowd yelled and cheered, he stepped back overwhelmed. "Umm, I was asked to introduce them as I once did long ago. They were a bunch of kids then but now they are young men. They've seen some tough times and grown stronger for it – their music too. Their sound has grown, able to take us to new heights! So now I would like to introduce to you a band, no to the band that rules Japan! They'll be singing the title track to their newest album – IT'S TRUE! LADIES AND GENTLEMEN -LUUUCIFERRR!!!" Smiling, the Master backed off the stage.

The stage was pitch black but then a spotlight appeared on the left and Yuki walked out to deafening screams. He waved, went to his guitar and put it over his shoulder and waited. Santa entered from the right using both hands to greet the crowd before seating himself behind the drums. Atsuro came from the left and he bowed to the crowd before jumping up and cheering along with them then took his spot and tuned his guitar.

The screams for Towa were overwhelming. He bowed as well and blew a few kisses. He was extremely grateful for their praise and well wishes because he was responsible for Lucifer taking so long to get back on stage. Towa's recovery had been slow.

Sakuya had wanted to enter from the audience but had been talked out of it since it would only cause a mob scene. So he entered from the left as well smiling and waving. He took the mike and waited for the crowd to settle down enough for him to be heard.

"KONICHIWA JAPAN!" Sakuya laughed at the excited response. Again he waited and when he next spoke his tone was a little more serious. "Thank you. I, Yuki, Atsuro, Towa and Santa want to thank you and express our gratitude for your understanding, support and love these last few months. It's because of you, our fans that this night was possible." There was more cheering and as a band they all nodded and bowed slightly. "And now on with the show! We hope you like this new song; it is near and dear to our hearts. It's True." Sakuya looked at Aine then blew her a kiss.

The Master joined the others in the audience just as the music began to play. Sakuya closed his eyes and gently held the mike stand with his long fingers.

"When the waves wash out the sky

As the stars' light cross a thousand miles

And the moon wears a halo

Impossible but true

Just as I love you*

Through the ups and the downs it's you I want around

Even when it's me who makes you cry

I want to be the one who dries your eyes

When the pain seems too much to bear, I'll be there

Because it's true, I do love you*

When the waves wash out the sky

As the stars' light cross a thousand miles

And the moon wears a halo

Impossible but true

Just as I love you*

Don't believe any lies you hear these ties are true

I'll be there to take care of you

Your smile is what I live for

Your hand in mine, our hearts forever entwined

Because it's true, I do love you"

Silence as the song ended. They were in awe and then the crowd went crazy. It's True, set the pace for the night. Even when Santa was pounding out the beat and Towa setting the bass in their souls and Yuki and Atsuro were taking them to new heights – the smiles, the excitement the utter amazement never left. It was one of the best concerts Japan had ever witnessed. Nobody sat in the seats but stayed on their feet the whole three hours.

Up in a sky box, even Rupert Grazer was standing, tapping his foot to the music. He raised his champagne glass to salute his son and his band.

That high lasted up until and through the final preparations for the move to London. Lucifer decided to return home every few months because their fans loved them so. It would be good to come home where they knew they would always be loved and accepted. As it was there was a mob at the airport when they left. The fans sang to them, It's True as they boarded the plane and took off.

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It was strange new city that spoke a language that wasn't their own. It had music that was different from theirs but they weren't afraid. It was a challenge and every challenge set before them had been mounted and conquered. Each male had a female and they all had each other.

Sakuya held out his hand and Aine placed hers in it. He brought her hand to his lips. "Ready for this? This is all new for you and me, a new beginning." He smiled for her eyes were glowing with excitement.

"Yes! Oh Sakuya, as long as we're together – we can do anything!" Aine looked at him noting the same expression in his beautiful blue eyes that was in hers. She looked to Maria and Yuki then all the others. Each face was lit up so bright, the stars would be jealous. "Let's Rock This Town!" Aine yelled out and everyone hooted, yelled, whistled and cheered along with her.

Aine showed not one ounce of fear. She was sure they would succeed. Feeling more confident than ever, Sakuya laughed, picked Aine up and spun her around. "You heard the lady – LET'S ROCK!" The group ran out of the airport ready to shake London's foundation with their music.

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And it's over! Sigh, I kinda didn't want it to end! When I started this story, I had no idea just how far I would take it. I wanted to do a sequel to More to Love because I really do love Sensual Phrase and had missed the characters. Still this was a challenge for me, making the characters grow and show more of them that was seen in the anime/manga. A few of you have read from beginning to the very end and I do appreciate it. I hope I was able to entertain you for a little while.

Thanks and maybe I'll see you in another story!

Marchgirl