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Chapter 38: Waking Up

She was lost in so many different ways
Out in the darkness with no guide
I know the cost of a losing hand
There but for the grace of God go I

'Ave Maria' by Beyonce

I was in a meadow. And in this meadow was a picnic table but there was no one there and no picnic basket.

I frowned. It seemed like I came here everyday for the same reason. To see if any people were finally going to appear and keep me company.

Those people that I wanted were my family. I wanted Jacob and Chaska and Cassandra too. I missed them all, along with the rest of my family, my sisters, my parents and the rest of the pack.

I wondered why I was here, it seemed like I haven't seen them in a while. But I still knew everything that was happening to them.

This was the magic of the meadow; I'd come here everyday to hear their voices. They would tell me about my day and ask me desperately to wake up.

I guess that's what I was doing, taking a long nap. But every time I tried to wake up I couldn't. It was really frustrating because there were times that my family would ask so desperately that they started to cry.

And when they did the sunny meadow would grow dark gray clouds and start to rain. I would get soaked but there was nowhere I could go.

Sometimes I cried along with them, sometimes I tried desperately to wake up so that I could wrap my arms around Ana, or Cassie or ever Jake and comfort them.

I waited because I knew it was almost time. It was like clockwork, they always came and talked to me at this time of day. And sometimes at night they would come to wish me a goodnight.

Even though it seemed so routine, today I was going to break this schedule that I had, here, in this peaceful meadow.

Today, I was going to wake up. No matter what the cost, or how much it hurt; I was finally going to see my family again.

When I was about to become restless from the silence of the meadow, I heard a voice. It was one that I often got confused with Jacob's voice. But his deep voice cracked a few times when he got excited or sad. I knew it was my little boy Chaska.

I wanted to cry; I knew I'd been away for a while if my little baby was going through puberty. Boys went through this stage around 13-15 didn't they? Did that mean I was out for 15 years? No, it couldn't be. Being a werewolf, especially a werewolf surrounded by vampires all the time, made him grow quickly. So could I have been out for about 5 years?

Either way I wanted to cry, that was too long without seeing everyone I cared for. Entirely too long.

"Hey Mom, how are you feeling? Well guess what happened today? I transformed Mom. I changed into a wolf today. I was mad at Cassandra because she was in my room moving things around and I just exploded. It hurt in the beginning but Dad was there to help me out. The pack helped me out too. I'm russet colored just like Dad but I have black on the tips of my tail and nose and paws. I guess that part is from you. Isn't this awesome? Paul said that I shouldn't have changed until I reached 16 so I guess I'm only a four year old in a teenager's body."

He chuckled deeply and I couldn't help but smile. My little boy changed today!

But the smile quickly fell off my face; did he say a four year old in a teenager's body? I had been out of it for four years?!

It couldn't be, no, today was the day I was waking up. I concentrated so hard until I felt like my face was about to explode.

I took a gasping breath and leaned my back against the table part of the bench.

Then in came sounds and Chaska growled, "Cassie, it's my turn with Mom, I'm not done talking to her yet!"

"Oh shut up CW, you're not her only child you know. I have stuff I need to tell her too so hurry up!" Said my little girl. She no longer sounded like a small child, she sounded like a woman.

I put my face in my hands and cried, I was missing out on their lives. Why did I have to be asleep so long? Why couldn't I wake up? Didn't I just have a cracked rib? Why was this happening?

I cried so hard that my body shook with my sobs.

"Fine Cassie, go ahead, I'll just talk to her later tonight." There were steps and shuffling then I could hear Cassie's voice loud and clear.

"Mom you'll never believe what has happened. Well I guess I should tell you a little bit more since you may have forgotten. I just turned three even though I look like a freaking fifteen year old. It's so awesome Mom, I have boobs now! Embry won't stop looking at me and I'm getting all these tingly feelings for him in the pit of my stomach. I don't want to tell Dad about it because he wouldn't understand, you know? Oh, I also got my period. It's so annoying because I get all these cramps and stuff but it's okay because Rose and Alice are helping me out. Well when Rose isn't praising Aaron for being such a smart little ten year old and everything."

"Cassie honey, can I please have a word with your mother now?" The new voice rattled my soul. It broke through the pity party I was having for myself.

It was Jacob, he sounded so hard; not like the carefree man I used to know.

"Sure Daddy. Bye Mom, I love you. Wake up soon, 'kay?"

With that she skipped out the room and there was the sound of a kiss. Probably Cassandra kissing Jacob on the cheek, I smiled slightly, I guess she was still a Daddy's girl, just like her Momma.

His steps were slow and soft, like a predator approaching his prey. I nearly jumped out my skin when he spoke because he was so close to me so suddenly.

"Melanie my love. I miss you more and more everyday. It's so hard without you here. Without you seeing your children grow, or without hearing your beautiful voice." There was a pause as he started to get all choked up.

The clear blue sky developed some clouds and I looked up, waiting for it to happen, waiting for it to start raining.

He continued, "Erin came back, told us she found Sebastian and Aphrodite. They're living in Germany now. Living happily ever after and though I'm happy for her I couldn't help but be jealous. Because I know that that should be us, we should be happy watching our children grow into young adults but I'm the only one seeing them. Damn it, I don't even know it you can hear me. It scares me because Edward isn't picking up anything in your mind. I heard him talk to Carlisle about it, they think you're brain dead Mel. Brain dead. I started to deny it the first few years but now, after four years, I don't know. I mean, you could be in pain right now and I wouldn't even know. I- I was talking to Carlisle about taking you out of your misery. But I'm so hesitant because in my heart – through our imprint – I know you're still there but my brain is telling me something different and I don't know what to do Mel. I wish you were here, you would know what to do."

He started to cry; I could feel my heart break with the sobs that came from him.

The sky darkened quickly and started to pelt me with rain. Something happened that never had before. The rain came down so hard that it actually stung me when it landed. It was so painful to be standing there in the rain but there were no trees or any shelter to go to.

I could do nothing but stand there and take the pain of the rain.

"Please Melanie, I'm begging you. Wake up; I don't think I can live any longer without you. The kids can only keep be going for so long, I don't know what I'm gonna do if you don't wake up. I feel like I'm just going through the motions of life, not really living because my heart and soul is laying down right here. You're my heart and soul Mel. I love you so much it hurts to see you like this."

I stood up and looked up into the sky. I tried my best with the rain hitting me in the eyes but I didn't care if I went blind.

I yelled up to the sky, "I'm here Jacob! I love you too! Please don't give up on me!"

Then I curled up on the ground and chanted in my head over and over, 'Wake up, Melanie. Wake up!'

It went on like this for what seemed like another four years but soon the sky started to clear. It was weird because I could still hear Jacob's soft cries.

The sun came out from the cloudy sky and shone down upon me. It warmed my skin and I stood back up smiling.

I kept the mantra up, 'Wake up, Melanie. Wake up!'

Soon, like glass, the sky started to break and then in a few moments I felt like I was being teleported through space and time. I saw flashes of colors as I moved through this weird teleportation.

It came to a screeching halt and I was surrounded by darkness. I could still hear Jacob beside me crying but I also felt his heat. I could also hear the heart monitor as well as people downstairs trying to live life normally but couldn't because they were sad for me.

I was back in my body! I was no longer in that peaceful meadow that seemed so much like a beautiful prison.

Now all I had to do was find where my body parts were again and tell them to move.

The heart monitor picked up and Jacob stopped. He squeezed my hand as I found my eyes. I tried to open them but they were so heavy I felt like giving up.

But Jacob broke through my urge to quit, "Mel, Melanie? Are you waking up baby? Come on, do it for me, do it for your family. You can do it sweetheart."

The heart monitor started to beep wildly as I found my hands and squeezed Jacob's to let him know I was alive and kicking.

He let out a sound of joy and started yelling, "Everyone! She's waking up! Melanie is waking up!"

The room was soon filled with voices, all cheering me on. I could hear my sisters crying, my children were at my other hand and they sounded like they were crying as well.

Edward was somewhere in the room probing through my thoughts, "Well she isn't brain dead, that's for sure."

With all these people cheering me on, I found the strength to find my limbs and flexed them appreciatively.

My eyes fluttered, for a split second I saw the room then my heavy eyelids dropped down on me again.

I made a noise of frustration deep in my chest and tried again. This time I caught glimpse of the room for more than two seconds before my eyelids fell again.

I let out a gust of air and I heard Jacob laugh by my side but I felt his tears falling on my arm, "Such a trooper Melanie. You can do it, we're all rooting for you."

With one last try, because my energy was depleting rapidly, I tried to open them again.

This time they stayed open for more than a few seconds. They stayed open long enough for my vision to clear and for me to see everyone.

The Cullens looked the same of course but my family looked so much older and wiser.

Ana had her thick red hair into a messy bun on top of her head and she smiled at me when my gaze landed on her. Her gray eyes were dark with emotion and tears and I think I smiled back at her because she started to cry harder.

Wendy had cut her long blond hair into a bob that framed her heart shaped face. It made her look like a sophisticated buisness woman and no longer like the college party girl.

My parents looked the same, just grayer and with more wrinkles. Grandma Lee amazingly actually looked younger. She had no wrinkles on her skin and her red hair was a vibrant color again. I guess she discovered the miracle of plastic surgery.

Then I turned to my children. Chaska was almost as tall as his father and his black hair was cut short. His hazel eyes were more yellow now as he looked at me with tears that he refused to let fall because he was such a manly-man.

My beautiful daughter was just that. She looked like a model with her brown hair sweeping her shoulders and her green eyes sparkling as she let the tears run down her face.

I left the best for last, the love of my life. He looked more rugged, like he's just spent the last four years living off the forest. His body bulged with a little more muscle yet he still wasn't too bodybuilder-ish for me. His dark brown eyes pierced into my soul as I felt our imprint flare up again.

"Melanie, you finally came back to us." He said with a small sob.

I smiled at him and tried to sit up. But my body gave up half way through the movement and Jacob had to help me.

I swallowed and tried to see if my vocal cords were still in working order.

"I-," my voice was a little scratchy and Carlisle was near me with water before I could blink.

I eyed it carefully, I still didn't know if my body remembered how to use my esophagus and I didn't want to risk choking myself.

But if I wanted to talk I needed to drink it. So I took it and drunk all the water. It slid down my dry throat and I felt a little better.

"I am happy to be with all of you again. Thank you for sticking with me for the past four years."

They looked shocked, "You were conscious the whole time?" asked Edward. I nodded at them.

"I was in a meadow and everyday I could hear all of you speak to me. I just didn't figure out how to leave that place until just recently."

I looked towards my children with tears in my eyes, "I'm so sorry my dear sweet children. I've missed out on most of your lives."

Cassandra hugged me, "It's alright Mom, and it's only been four years."

I shook my head, "But look how you've grown. I missed out on most of your firsts. Do you know how important that is for a mother?"

Chaska rolled his eyes with a smile, "Mom, there are things called cameras and video recorders you know. Dad had a whole arsenal of our precious memories. Because we knew you'd wake up one day and want to see everything you missed."

I pulled him to me and hugged him, "I love you baby." Then I kissed him on his forehead like when he was little.

He scowled and said, "Ew, no kisses Mommy!"

I laughed until my stomach hurt. He said that exact same thing the day Cassandra was born.

Carlisle ushered everyone out of the room, "I'll be back to check on you soon Melanie. I'm glad you're finally up."

I smiled at him, "I am too. And thank you for taking care of my family."

He just shrugged, "After all that you have done for us, I consider you an honorary Cullen now."

I laughed and he smiled then closed the door softly.

Then I was left in the room with Jacob.

"You heard what I'd said didn't you?" he asked. His voice sent shivers down my spine and sent vibrations through my body.

I smiled to myself, knowing that everything was still in working order, thank God!

"I did, and I think that's what brought me out of it."

He was silent for a while just staring at me, "What is it Jacob? You're making me feel very uncomfortable."

He shook his head, "I'm sorry, I guess it's just so weird. I haven't seen you move in four years Melanie. I don't know what to feel, I don't know what to do. I felt like you abandoned me."

I motioned for him to join me on the bed. When he did I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his forehead.

"I was always here for you Jacob. I just wasn't able to respond. I still loved you through every second I was in a coma."

His tears were on my shirt, "You don't know how happy I am to hear you say that Melanie. You don't even know how happy I am to hear you say anything at all. You could have said you hated me but I would have still jumped for joy the moment you looked at me."

I smacked him on the arm lightly, "Now why would I say that I hated you?"

He shrugged, "Maybe because I should have protected you better from Aro. Maybe you wouldn't have been in a coma for four years had I'd done something differently."

I held his face in my hands and made him stare into my eyes, "Jacob Black, after all that we've been through, you want to tell me that you think I'd hate you for something like that? You underestimate my love for you Jake. I love you more than I love life itself. You and the kids, I looked forward everyday to hear your wonderful voices. It kept me going, it kept me alive."

"I love you so much Melanie, you don't even know."

"I love you too Jacob, so much you don't even know."

And with that said, I pulled Jacob close to me and kissed him long and hard. I gave him enough kisses to make up for all lost time.

When he pulled away, Jacob smirked at me and said, "Do you think if we're quiet they'll notice our activities?"

I smiled, "Probably not, but I'm just glad to have the horn dog that I know and love."

He kissed me once more, "And don't you forget it baby."

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