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It's often just enough to be with someone.
I don't need to touch them.
Not even talk.
A feeling passes between you both.
You're not alone.
-Marilyn Monroe
Chapter 5. Promises, promises.
Taylor's POV
We got back from the hunting trip earlier than expected. I couldn't take it. For
some reason all I wanted, was to be with Elaina. Jasper couldn't take my pouting any
longer. He sent me waves of calmness, but it didn't help.
We reached home. There is a heart beat. One I know too well. She is here. I ran out of the
car and into the house at vampire speed. I saw Alice sitting on the on the floor while Elle
laid on the couch asleep. Then Alice hit me with all her memories of their earlier
conversation.
I stood there for a long moment until Alice spoke. "She's been through more than I had
thought. She's been so alone." I think if she could, Alice would be crying.
"How long has she been asleep?" "About an hour. She'll wake up in 3 minutes and 42
seconds." "Okay." "Alice got her cell phone and called Esme asking her to get some food
for Elaina. "She will be hungry when she wakes up." "When is she going home?" "I don't
know. She hasn't decided." "Wait. Alice you said you were going to take her home. Why
is she here?" This is her home. Or it will be.
"Alice what are you talking about? You know what? I don't want to know." Alice glare at
me. Elle started tossing and turning. She opened her eyes. "Oh. Sorry I guess I fell
asleep." "No problem. You needed the sleep." "Sure." Esme opened the door then and
smiled widely. "Hello Elaina. I got some food for you. I'll prepare it for you now." 'Oh,
thank you very much." Elaina smiled wide at her. That's sweet of her. She reminds me of
my mother. The look alike too. Elle thought sadly. Her smile turned down just notch. "Oh
your welcome dear." "I'm turning 18 in 7 months, 3 weeks and 4 days. Then I will be
on the first flight to Italy." "Do you want to be…this?" I asked. "I want to be with my
family. I'm tired of being alone. And so, if I have to become a vampire to make this
happen then that is what I will do." She said. But her mind betrayed her. I don't want to
be a monster. But my mom and dad. They are not monsters. And neither is this family.
They still have their hearts. So maybe there is hope. But if I become a monster after I'm
changed I will find a way to die. "Elle. I will not that happen." She would not become a
monster. "Let's hope so." She looked up at me and we stared at each other. And for once,
I felt like I wasn't alone. And for the first time of my existence, I liked it.
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Elaina's POV.
I looked at him. I could not look away. He walked closer and my heart beat got faster. He
sat on the couch next to me. We looked at each other and did not look away. I blinked of
course, but he did not. I do not know how long we sat there speechless and not touching.
But as we sat and looked into each others eyes, I felt whole. This feeling passed through
me and, I knew at that moment, that I was not alone in this world. But I knew it would
not last. He would leave, abandon me, and I would be alone. He would leave like every
other person in life. No, I wont. I heard him think. Yes, you will. You all will. One day, I
will be on one side of the earth and you will be on the other. "Elle, I promise you that you
will never be alone. Never." I want to believe it. But that's the same thing my Daddy
promised me. He lied. He broke that promise. How do I know you wont? "Elaina your
dinner is ready." Esme stepped out of the kitchen smiling. I stood up and walked over to
her. "Thank you." I ate my dinner in silence. My mind blank. My heart blank. I was
blank.
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Taylor's POV
How could she think I would break the promise? I would never. She was done eating. I
listened to her as she asked Esme if she could use the phone. She called Jenny and told
her she was at some of her new friend's house. Alice asked if she wanted to sleep over.
Alice was jumping up and down excitedly. She hasn't had a sleep over since she kid-
napped Bella. Elle asked Jenny and she said it was fine. She was going to stay. I was in
the living room sitting on the couch. She came in and sat next to me. A little too close. I
inched over a little. My self-control was still not perfect. Alice came into the room with a
huge grin on her face. Her thoughts echoed her expression. A sleep over! Oh how
exciting!! Fun, fun, fun!! Oh my. They are sitting mighty close aren't they. Don't get your
panties in a wad Taylor. She was being stupid. Taylor? Elle thought.
Yes?
I don't know why, but I feel like I've known you my entire life. And I, well when I'm close
to you I don't feel so…alone. I feel…safe.
I honestly did not know what to say. So I told her they way I felt. And I never tell people the way I feel. The only way they know is if Jasper tells them.
Elle, I feel the same way. I have always wanted to be alone. But ever since I met you I,
well, I don't want to be alone anymore.
Taylor. You promised me that I would never be alone again. And I feel alone when I'm
without you. So, never leave me okay? Are you ever going to leave me?
She was staring at me. And I had to tell. And I had to tell the truth. I was going to anyway
but there was something that made me have to.
"I will never leave you. As long as I can help it, you will never be alone."
I put her hand in mine and we interlocked our fingers. "Um, do you guys want to watch a movie?" Alice asked showing up with a movie in her hand. "I already know your answer. And this is what we are watching."
She said smiling holding up "The Goonies." "It's a classic." She said putting it in. She went and sat beside Elaina. We kept out fingers interlocked thought the whole movie. When it came to an end I remembered that everyone should be home from school by now. "Alice where is everyone?"
They went to the reservation to see Jacob and Nessie. "Okay." Just then Carlisle came in the front room, home from work. "Hello, Elaina. How are you feeling?" "Oh, I'm fine thank you." I need to talk to him. I mentally passed on the message to Carlisle.
"Elaina would you like to come up to my office?" "Yes please." She looked at me and I released her hand. I'll be here. I thought to her. She smiled a little and followed Carlisle up the stairs to his office. I listened in as they had a conversation that took me by surprise.
Elaina's POV.
I entered Dr. Cullen's office and saw the massive paintings on his wall. It was of the Volturi. It looked just like it did when I was there. "Elaina please sit. What was it that you wanted to talk about?" He asked as I sat on the chair in front of his desk.
"Well, Dr. Cullen-" "Please call me Carlisle." "Okay. Well, Carlisle, I was wondering if you found some medication I could take." "Oh. Well you have a very rare case of panic attacks Elaina. It's brought on by memories and things that trigger that memory. There really isn't any medication I can give you for that. I can give you something to help you sleep better, but it is not necessarily for the dreams. It will knock you out for a good 4-6 hours but that's about it." Great. "Okay. Uh, thanks."
"Is there something else you want to talk about Elaina?" Could he see it on my face? The look on his face was a good enough answer: Yes, yes he could. "It's nothing really." "Elaina." He gave me that fatherly look that made you want to answer. "Why do all of you not like Aro?" "Oh." He obviously was not expecting that. "Aro is a fine man. It's just because of all the trouble that he has brought on our family. But I have known Aro for many centuries and he really thinks he is doing good." I heard many scoffs from the house around us.
"Well, Carlisle, thank you." "No problem Elaina." He smiled at me. I stood from my seat and walked out the door. I explored the house on my own for awhile. Then I walked in a room with glass as walls like the others but this one had such a beautiful view. It was a over look of the horizon. The forest was below me and the sun was setting.
I had never seen anything as beautiful as this. "It is very nice isn't it?" I turned already knowing who it was. Taylor smiled and stood next to me. "Yes it is. I hadn't thought such a green place could be so nice. Or have such nice people in it." I smiled at him and he took my hand and interlocked our fingers. I immediately felt whole.
"Who's room is this?" It was pretty messy. "Mine." He smiled at me widely hearing my thoughts. We laughed together for a moment. I don't remember the last time I really laughed. It was foreign to me. It will all be okay Elle. Don't worry. I'm here. I'll always be here. He promised me. "I'm so scared Taylor. I'm alone and scared and worried and I just feel so weak."
I stared remembering the first time I had a panic attack. I remembered the monster. The things she did to me. I felt so stupid. I stared looking around the room in fear that she would be there. Like I had a monster in my closet. But she was only in my head. My heart was going frantic. I saw Carlisle come in. I couldn't hear anything.
Carlisle was talking to Taylor who was still holding my hand. They looked so worried. Taylor was holding me now. I couldn't feel my body anymore. I was sweating. My chest was moving rapidly now. I tried closing my eyes to calm myself but I saw her face when I closed my eyes. And I got worse. I heard a terrible screaming sound. Oh. That was me.
My eyes flew wide open. I was in Carlisle office now. He was giving me some kind of a shot. Taylor was still holding me. My eyes felt heavy. I was afraid to close them. But I was no longer in control of myself. My body was jumping franticly as Carlisle and Taylor held me down. Esme and Alice were in the door way looking worried. Alice had a phone to her ear.
Taylor looked at me and was saying something. But I could not hear him. My body slowly calmed down as I fell into unconsciousness.
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