Chapter 22. Who's happy? Not me.

I looked down at the small child in my arms. I looked up at them all. "Can we keep her?"

Elaina's POV

"You want us to keep a human child with us?" Jasper asked as if it was not possible. "I say yes. I mean of course we can. It's not like we can let her go back to that rotten house." Rosalie said with a look in her eye. Rose has always wanted children. The look in her eye was just like mine. It was the look of pure need. Need to have this child with us and know she is safe. Because let's be honest, where is safer than a house full of vampires?

"I am fine with it." Esme said with a smile. And of course Emmett said, "Heck yes! Finally someone who will want to play in the mud with me!" "Of course you know I'm saying yes." Alice said. Bella and Edward nodded their heads saying yes. "Jacob and Renesmee wont have a problem with it either." Alice said.

"Yes." Jasper said. "It's fine with me." Carlisle said. "Elle is this what you want?" Taylor said looking at me. I took his hand in mine. Through my thoughts he saw just how much I wanted this. How much I needed this. "Then it is fine with me." Taylor said smiling.

"Okay, well then I need to go shopping. Rose I need you to go on the computer and search what human children eat. And please look for healthy things." Esme said getting her purse. "Of course." Rosalie said running upstairs.

"Elaina?" I heard a tiny little voice whisper. I looked down to see Journey just waking up. "Hey buddy. How are you doing?" I said setting her down on the couch. "I'm a little hungry." she said looking up at us. "Hello dear," Esme started, "I'm Esme. I was just about to go shopping for some food. What do you like to eat?" She asked smiling. Journey sat straight up. "Well, I love pizza. Mac and cheese is good too. Oh and apples! And I LOVE Poptarts!" Everyone but myself had a look clearly saying they had no clue what she was talking about.

"Maybe I should go with you Esme?" I suggested. She nodded her head with a smile. "Hey Journey while they are shopping, do you wanna play dress up with me?" Alice asked. "Yes yes yes!" Journey said standing up and taking her hand to go up stairs. "Your hand is really cold." She commented. "Yeah I know. I'll tell you all about that in a little bit." Alice said excited.

I got my shoes on waited for Esme and Rosalie. "Hey honey." Taylor said standing beside me. "Hey." I said sighing. "What's wrong?" He asked. "Everything just seems like it has happened so fast."

"That's cause it has. You haven't had a chance to mourn your parents."

"I haven't had a chance to do a lot of things." I hugged Taylor tight. I love this family and where I live. I love what I am and who I am. I love Taylor more than myself. I love Journey. So why am I so unhappy? Is it because the one thing I looked forward to since I was four was seeing my parents, but now they are gone? My whole life had been torture. Since I was four I have been away from my parents, been inflicted with the worse pain you can imagine, and nightmares so bad, that I hardily slept at all. I have been raped and abused. My life has been hell. But all that is over now. Those human memories are faded, the pain is gone, as are the nightmares. Now I have love and a life. So why cant I be happy?

Taylor, hearing my thoughts, said, "I don't know. It will take time for you to adjust. But you will Elaina. I promise you will." he said with a look in eyes that said he meant it.