Wow I know its been far far too long but here it is. I'm really trying to make more happen but I have to build up to it first. So anyway here we go. All the normal stuff and I don't own Twilight!

Jpov

As Alice waved goodbye and scurried up the stairs I turned back to my own set of stairs and went back to the crematorium. Feeling more hopeful than I had in a while. Alice had given me a reason to keep going, a reason to want to wake up. That was more than I could have ever asked.

Apov

I was with Jasper in the gas chamber outer room I think about two weeks after we first met there. I was itching at my left forearm. Jasper grabbed it and stroked it where the blue ink stained my skin.

"18357" he whispered. "This is new." he remarked casually.

"Yeah it is" I said with a shudder the memory coming back to me.

Flashback.

I was working being my usual quiet self thinking of the next time I would get to see Jasper again when the jeep pulled up.

"Rosalie." one of them said with a curt nod. She responded in the same fashion with a tight lipped smile on her face.

"Just a routine inspection." one said with a smile. "Maybe a role call?" she nodded again.

"Ok everyone line up!" she called. We all immediately stopped our work and ran to get in a few make shift lines.

The first man pulled out a list and began calling numbers and as he did an inmate would respond.

"Oh wait." Rosalie said walking quickly towards the man with the list. "A few of the inmates don't have numbers yet." she said looking at the inmates as a whole.

"Why not?" he asked looking at Rose angrily. "Are you unfit to run this operation?" he asked accusingly. "Part of the job is to make sure the scum you're watching has everything required."

"Excuse me I don't think that-"

"It's my fault." Edward said quickly. "If the inmates she's speaking of are the ones I think she is than I was the one to have selected them. I suppose I took them too quickly, and the hadn't been tattooed yet. I take the blame." he said

"Which inmates are you speaking of Hale?" he asked Rosalie. She pointed to Emmett, Bella and I. "Step forward." he ordered and we did so automatically.

"Are these the same ones?" he asked Edward who nodded immediately. "Right then well we can't keep them unnumbered now can we? They'll need to come over as soon as possible and get that issue fixed.

The next day we had been walked over by Edward to a building near where we first arrived. He looked pitying and a bit guilty the whole way there. When we got there I saw why. The needles that they used hurt terribly and the numbering was so degrading I thought I would gag.

I was just glad to get out.

End of flashback.

"I wish they didn't." Jasper whispered.

"It really wasn't that bad." I lied immediately.

"No I'm not worried about how much it hurt." Jasper said quietly and then continued. "I was hoping they wouldn't do it that way if I ever found a way to get out you would be able to go."

"But so would you, even if you had a tattoo." I said.

"Well you could get out yes but if someone ever finds you. Which would happen eventually they would know where you had come from and if they weren't a friend you would be turned back in and re-deported immediately or maybe just killed on the spot." he was looking at the numbers with a look of frustration on his face.

"Even if they hadn't tattooed me it wouldn't work." I said resolutely feeling touched that the first thing he thought of when he considered breaking out was me.

"Why not?" he asked sharply.

"I wouldn't go without you." I said sticking my chin out defiantly. He looked at me for a long time no definable emotion in his eyes.

"Then I'll never leave you." he said with my same defiance.

Epov

I stopped at where Bella was working and said "Hello Bella." in a conversational tone. She just nodded and didn't even bother to turn around. I was expecting that. She had gone back to being cold towards me after the day she thought that Emmett and Alice had gone to the gas chambers.

I didn't know why either. I had felt that we were so close. That she was so close not only to being able to stand me, but also to her actually liking me. But clearly I was wrong; clearly that was never going to happen.

I sighed and walked away.

Later that night I tried the same thing again, and again she didn't respond. I must have done something I decided, something.

" Bella can you come here for a minute." I called in a way that she wasn't able to say no to.

"Yes?" he hissed coming to stand by me. I took her to the back side of the barracks.

"Bella what did I do?" I ask her pleadingly, her face looked pained and then she turned it into a mask of anger.

"What did you do?hmmmm let's see here. Oh killed my family, ruined my childhood, destroyed any feeling of safety I once had-"

I shook my head and cut her off. "Bella you know I did none of that personally. What did I do?" I asked stressing the "I". She turned away from me.

"I just told you." she said staring at the ground.

"No Bella you didn't , I know you don't believe ANY of what you just told me. I know you know that none of that is my fault." I said.

"Just let me go." she said looking at me desperately.

"No not until you tell me what I did wrong!" I said just as pleadingly. She shook her head and looked away again. "Bella." I said grabbing her chin and making her look at me. Her panicked eyes met mine, she stared at me for a long moment her expression softening, and then just as suddenly turning once more to stone.

"That." she said. "That's what you do. I want so badly to hate you!" she said in a sudden rush of passion. "I should be able to hate you. I'm supposed to hate you! But I don't ;I can't. I don't want to feel like you're helping me. Like you care about me. But I just can't help it! This isn't how it's supposed to be! I should be able to hate you without having to try, I shouldn't be feeling that I might one day love-" but she stopped there blushed and looked away.

My mind swam. She didn't hate me. But she hated me because she didn't. But she thought she might love me too? I felt overwhelmed.

"Bella why? Why should you have to hate me? Because I'm a Nazi, Bella I don't believe in it at all. I wouldn't even be here if it weren't for my father! I was forced Bella! Neither of us is here by our own free will! Bella if there was anything I could do to get you out I would! Bella you have to believe me!" she looked at me for a long moment panic growing in her eyes.

"I do." she whispered finally. "Everything you've done for me makes sense now." she continued softly.

"Bella do you see how different I am from-" but I stopped and just looked at her, she was staring at me fire burning in her eyes. The eyes that had been so dead or pained since I met her.

"Yes I see that you're different" she said. And then she grabbed my head and pulled me down to her. I responded before I even knew what was going on. I pulled her back with me deeper into the shadow of the building. I wrapped my arms around her waist holding her to me; protecting her. In the end I was the one who pulled away. When sense had finally come back to me.

"Bella." I whispered. "This isn't safe." her expression fell. "No Bella believe me I still feel the same way about you I promise I do. But we can't do this here, if someone saw….. I just don't want you to get hurt." I finished awkwardly. She nodded. "But I'll find a way I promise you I will." I told her. She nodded and then smiled.

"Thank you." she said quietly. I wasn't sure how to respond but at that moment Rosalie called out quietly.

"Edward is Bella with you? She need to get in here before they get suspicious!" she grinned and ran to Rosalie and then disappeared into the barrack. I smiled and leaned against the building staring up at the sky. The stars were shining a little brighter tonight.

Bpov

That night I went to bed smiling more than I had in what felt like years. Alice noticed immediately as I crawled into our bunk- we had been offered separate ones but we wanted to be as close as possible after being separated from so many others we loved.

"What?" she whispered. I couldn't say it out loud here, I was afraid someone might overhear me. Though I didn't think anyone here would try to hurt me in normal circumstances these weren't normal circumstances and I wasn't sure who I could trust.

I took her arm and began gently tracing the "Edward" unto the skin. We had done this when we were younger (and things were simpler) when we wanted to tell each other things secretly. By this time my eyes had adjusted and I saw her expression.

"Really?" she "wrote" back.

"Yes"

"Finally!"

"Oh Alice."

"Details."

"Kissed"

"Ah!"

I smiled at her then said out loud- in a whisper though. "Goodnight Alice." Though I wanted to talk to her into the night like we used to I was exhausted and had a full day of work ahead of me. But that didn't stop the smile from staying on my face as I drifted into sleep.

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