I heard a scream as I was walking towards my room and I instantly knew that one of the newbie's touch Gillies sword. Some people never listen.

"Cammie?" Bex asked as she reached the top of the stairs with her suitcase. "I looked for you downstairs, but you weren't there." She said with a confused look on her face.

"Yeah, sorry. I didn't realize that you can't function without me." I replied. That was mean, I shouldn't have said it. We walked in to our room and she sat on her bed looking at me like I was crazy.

"What's your problem?" she asked. Just then Liz and Macey jumped into the room and hugged me. I kept trying to pull away.

"What's wrong, Cam? Aren't you happy to see us?" Macey asked as they proceeded to their beds.

"I would just love to have some happy family reunion but if you'll excuse me, I need to go say hello to my mom. You'd better hurry up, the welcome back dinner is in 20." I said as I walked out of the room.

I didn't get very far because they pulled me back onto my bed, shut the door and Macey began, "Who the hell are you and what have you done with my good friend Cammie?"

"Yeah" Bex continued. "What's wrong with you? We're your friends, remember?"

"I remember a lot of things. And you wouldn't understand. Actually, I'm sure you would understand, but no one can help me. It's no biggie. I'll just have to get over it." I replied.

"Oh, cammie. Are you upset because Zack didn't contact you all summer?" Liz asked.

That was it. I was pissed. I was so sick of everyone thinking I would die without the great Zack Goode.

"Oh, yeah. You caught me, that's it. No, that's not it! Are you mentally retarded?" I said sarcastically. "No I'm not upset because of Zack. To tell you the truth, I'm glad he didn't contact me. He made my life harder than it had to be. Simplicity, girls." I said standing up and walking backwards towards the door. "Zack is just a guy. You need to learn that yourselves. You also need to learn that I don't need to tell you absolutely everything." I said as I left the room. "By the way! It's good to see you guys! I missed you!" I yelled walking away.

I was on my way to my mom's office when I was stopped by Tina.

"Hey Cammie! Is it true that you vacationed with Zach in Hawaii this summer? Did you really get attacked by a Russian arms dealer and win?" she asked excitedly.

"Leave me alone, Tina" I yelled walking away from her. "It's none of you business."

"I'll take that as a yes!" she yelled back excitedly.

"Hey kiddo" My mom said as I entered her office. "I'd love to chat but I can't right now I need to do a little paperwork before the welcome back dinner, see you later." She said pushing me out the door.

That was weird, and it had lie written all over it. I proceeded to the great hall and just waited the ten minutes until the girls started to arrive. Bex, Macey, and Liz sat down next to me and I knew they had talked about me while I was gone.

"Hey. We decided that if you don't want tell us, your best friends, what is wrong with you, you don'thave to." said an angry looking Bex.

I knew what they were planning right away.

"Let me guess. You guys think that if you stop bugging me about telling you what's wrong I'll want to tell you. "I smirked.

"How did you…"Liz began but I cut her off.

"You're all just so predictable. Think about it, maybe I'm not telling you because I don't just don't want to, because you wouldn't understand. You're all being so needy and clingy, it's highly unattractive. I thought you would know better, Mace. Just leave it the fuck alone. Forget about it."

Macey opened her mouth to say something but my mom began talking instead.

We said the opening vows and then my mom continued, "Welcome, it's good to see all of you again. We have some more guests though. Come on in Boys." My mom said as the doors flew open an in walked those fifteen familiar faces of the Blackthorn boys strolled in.

I turned my attention back towards my mom. But no one else did. They all squealed as she continued, "Since the exchange program worked so great last year, we have decided to continue it this year. Enjoy your dinner, and I look forward to a new year." She smiled and walked back to her seat.

Just then Jonas, Grant, and Zach sat down in the seats across from us, Zach was smirking of course. I noticed that Bex, and Liz were freaking out. But I really didn't care. I saw this exchange as just another obstacle, and I knew it was another opportunity for more lies to enter my life.

I finally made eye contact with Zach as he began, "Miss me, Gallagher Girl?" while his smirk grew bigger.

Bex answered for me, "No Zach she didn't. She's made that very clear to us. Don't even bother, she's been acting different ever since we gothere and she won't tell us what's wrong."

Zach's smirk seemed to fade.

"Oh hey cammie?" Macey asked. "How do you know Jack Daniels? I was talking with him at one of my father's political events a few weeks ago about some of his ex- clients, and he mentioned you. He asked me for your number, so I gave him the digits to your cell."

"Macey! You can't just give people my phone number! I told him I didn't want to talk to him!" I said angrily. And then as if on cue I my phone rang. The caller ID said "Jack Daniels".

"Oh, look who it is. Thanks Macey." I said sarcastically.

Ianswered the phone and began, "Hey Jack!" in my happy girl voice.

"Hello Cammie. It's good to talk to you again."

"You too, Jack." I added a giggle for dramatic effect.

Just then I noticed that our table had become silent and Zach, Jonas, Grant, Macey, Bex, and Liz were all looking at me

"Cammie, I really need to talk to you. As you know I work for Hollywood Records and they….why don't I just tell you in person? Could you meet with me at the studio tonight around eight? My company is willing to give you three thousand dollars just to here me out" he begged.

"I….." I sighed. I wasn't expecting this. "Make it 7:30, but don't worry about the money because the chances of me accepting whatever offer you have this time are not very high. Do me a favor though, bring the disk. I…lost mine."

The truth was I didn't want anyone at Gallagher getting theirhands on it.

"I will. Goodbye." He finished in his Australian accent.

"Bye, Jack" I replied. I closed the phone and put it back in my pocket when I realized that I was sitting at a table full of spy's who most likely heard the whole conversation.

"Well...are you going to answer my question?How do you know Jack?" Macey asked.

I had no idea what to say. If I lie to her, I become a liar just like them.

"This is not the time, nor the placeto talk about this!" I said, and I walked away.

I headed back to the dorm room, and they all followed. When we got in, everyone sat down on their own bed, plus Jonas on Liz's, Grant on Bex's, and Zach on mine.

We were lying on my bed and Zack had his arm around my neck.

Surprisingly, I didn't mind. Zach looked happy about it, but I could see in his eyes that he was worried about me.

"So Cam, right time? Right place? I think it's time for you to answer some questions." Macey demanded.

I really didn't want to, but I was intrigued so I replied, "Try Me".

"Ok, how do you know Jack Daniels?" Macey asked.

"Uh…I met him one day in Roseville when I was dating Josh."

Zach's muscles tightened at the mention of his name.

I smirked at him for that and he blushed! Zach Goode blushed!

"Well you obviously saw him more than once you two seemed comfortable together."

"Yeah…I was…yeah next question. Can't answer that one." I replied.

I couldn't answer that one without lying, and if I lie then that makes me a hypocrite.

"What's the disc?" Liz and Jonas asked at the same time. They looked at each other and blushed.

"Next question."

"Come on, Cam!" Bex argued.

"Well, Bex, my options for these questions are lie, or say nothing, you pick." I retorted.

"I have a good question!" said a very eager Zack.

"Did you miss me?" I was trapped. But I had to do it. I couldn't lie. I had to treat it like all the other questions.

"Next question." I breathed.

Everyone was shocked. Zack looked hurt, and I felt bad.

An uncomfortable silence had settled in the room until grant broke it with, "Do you have feelings for Zack?"

This one was easy.

"Yes."

That seemed to perk Zach up, and it made me feel a little less guilty.

"Um….I have to go. Zack?" I asked as I stood up.

"Yeah?" he replied.

"Do you want walk me to the door?" I asked.

I said it made me feel a LITTLE better. I had to make it up to him. He smiled as he walked over to me.

"Yeah, I guess I'd be cool with that." He laughed.

"Don't think were done with this, Cam. There will be more questions when you get back." said Bex as we walked out of the room holding hands.

"So….that was informational and cryptic, very cryptic." Zach began sounding as if I had just deflated his ego.

"Yeah, don't take it too personally." I laughed.

Just then Tina walked up to us yelling, "Whoa Cammie! First you vacation with him now this! You too are so-"I cut her off with, "Tina! Shut up! Leave me the hell alone!"

She ran away, clearly surprised that I would talk to her like that.

"Cammie what is-"

"Hold on a sec, let me just say goodbye to my mom."

He looked at me like I was crazy.

"What! She'll never let you go! Just go over the wall" He said.

"That would be lying; I'm trying to cut back on that." I said as I walked to my mom's door.

I opened it to see the ugliest most heartbreaking thing I've ever seen. I saw my mom. On the out. With Mr. Solomon! My heart shattered.

"Mom?" I asked.

"Cam, I know what you're thinking" she tried.

I really wanted to cry, but I wasn't going to break down in front of her. I wasn't going to give her that satisfaction.

" Unless you think I'm thinking that you are a huge tramp, then no, you don't know what I'm thinking. I'm going out. Maybe I'll be back later; maybe not…Oh and just so you know, I am NOT calling him dad." I spat at her.

"Cameron, you-"Solomon began but I cut him off. "Save it Joe! Save it for someone that gives a shit! Go on a mission and never come back! Just leave me the hell alone! All I know is that she's a tramp and you are the most heartless son of a bitch I've ever met" I yelled.

I couldn't believe that I had just said that to them but I liked it. The urge to cry was gone. The urge to kill was arriving. I realized that the entire school had seen that so I stormed out and grabbed Zack's hand dragging him with me. We walked down the tunnel in silence until I sat down on a bench and Zach sat beside me sliding his arm around my waist.

"Cam, I'm so sorry about your mom."

"Oh please Zack! Spare me! I don't need your pity! She's not dead, she's just a slut!" I said angrily.

"Cammie what is wrong with you! This isn't like you! You don't yell at your mom or talk about her that way! You don't swear! You don't keep anything from your friends or me! Why are you being like this?" He yelled as he stood up.

I stood up too.

I said "You keep shit from me. But I fucking love you." And I kissed him. I just said it. It rolled right of my tongue it was easy. It lasted about three minutes, and when we pulled away he smiled.

"I think that you love me too, but I won't ask you, because I know you'd lie." His smile faded.

"You know, Cam. You seem to have something against lying, but lying is part of being a spy."

That was it. I knew it, Zach was right. I had made up my mind.

"I know. And that's why I can't do it anymore." My mind was made up, I was leaving. I was going to get out of there; I was going to be free.

"What do you mean?" he asked. I didn't answer, I grabbed my phone out of my pocket and dialed Jack's number.

"Cammie? I thought you were going to meet me at the studio?" he answered.

"Remember that last day I recorded for you, when I turned down your offer and you told me that if I ever changed my mind I could call you and we could pick up where we left off, no questions asked?" I asked.

"Yeah" he replied, confused.

"Well, if you can have a limo in front of the academy in an hour, I'm all yours."

"Are you sure about this?" he asked.

"Yeah, but….I'm gonna need a lawyer"

"Are you in some sort of trouble?" he asked.

I'm technically a minor, and you need a parents consent to sign a legal document, and my mother would never agree to this.

"No, it's nothing like that. Emancipation" I explained.

"Oh….I'll get right on it. I'm heading straight to the airport now, but my driver will pick you up at the front gate in an hour. I'll leave a ticket for you here, and I'll meet you at L.A.X. You won't regret this. I'll see you soon" he finished.

I hung up and slid the phone back into my pocket. Zach and I were now sitting side by side on the bench.

I looked straight into his eyes as I answered, "I mean….I'm leaving. Indefidently." He immediately got upset.

"What am I supposed to say to that, Cam? Why?" He asked.

I began to cry as I answered, "I'm sorry, Zach. I'm so sorry. It's just…I can't…I can't do this anymore. I mean I can't be this anymore, I'm living a lie. I just…..don't know what's real anymore"

"I love you and you love me, that's what's real!" he yelled.

"What else do you need to know?" he asked trying to calm down.

"Sometimes that's just not enough. There are things you know about me that I don't even know, everyone around me knows things about my life that I will probably NEVER know and every time I try to figure it all out, I fail. Every time I ask someone I get a "It's classified, Cammie" or a "I tell you when your older, Squirt" and I'm sick of it!" I yelled.

"I'm sick of not knowing!" I stood up and started walking back to school.

He followed and yelled, "You can't just walk away, Cam! Were not finished here! Were gonna talk about this!" I continued to walk.

"What is it gonna take to make you stay? What do I have to do, because whatever it is, I'll do it. I would go to the end of the Earth for you and you know that, Cam." I stopped walking and turned to face him, tears streaming down my face. "You're my Gallagher girl; you can't just leave me like this. I need you" He was just making it worse; everything he was saying just made it harder to leave. I walked faster, so did he. "That's not enough for you? What else do you want me to say?"

"I want you to shut the fuck up!" I yelled.

I wished I didn't have to go back to get my stuff. I wished I could just leave without saying goodbye. I wished this could all just be over. I could tell he was trying to hold back tears, but failing miserably.

They began to fall as we entered the school and walked up the staircase. Everyone stopped what they were doing, as their eyes followed us down the hall.

We stepped into my dorm room and the second Grant noticed that Zach was crying he stood up off Bex's bed and asked, "What happened? What's wrong?" I didn't answer.

I grabbed my suitcase from the closet and began tossing my clothes into it. "Cammie is leaving. For good" Zach answered.

"No she is not" Bex said like an over protective mother.

I stopped what I was doing and looked straight into her eyes. I got angry.

"How the hell do you think you're going to stop me?" I wiped the tears from my face with my sleeve.

"I'll hold you down while everyone else tries to talk some sense into you since your obviously not thinking clearly" she challenged. I could tell she was angry.

"Fuck you!" I yelled and continued to grab more clothes out of the closet.

I noticed the shock on everyone's faces from what I had just said as Macey stood beside Bex and said, "Who are you and what the hell have you done with my best friend Cammie? This isn't like you, Cam. You don't swear, and you don't treat Bex like that. Just sit down, Cam, let's talk about this. We're your friends, we can help you fix this. Don't do anything rash."

I didn't want to keep talking in circles so I walked into the bathroom and shut the door. I took off my uniform and changed into converse, skinny jeans and a black sweatshirt. I pulled my hair into a messy bun and left my bangs hanging on the side of my face. I fixed my eyeliner from crying, grabbed my tooth brush and opened the door. Zach was still standing in the same spot, but everyone else had sat down on my bed.

I tossed my toothbrush into the suit case as Bex said, "You know, Cam, it's funny, your upset about lies, and yet I don't remember you ever mentioning anything about a record deal. I don't even remember you mentioning that you sing" Zach had told them. "You're being a hypocrite"-I cut her off

"and you're being a huge bitch! You don't think this is hard enough for me already? You're just making it worse! It kills me to leave you guys like this, and I know that it hurts you and I'm sorry, alright? I'm so fucking sorry, but I can't stay here anymore and you can't make me! This is not want I want! I don't want to be a spy; I just want to be normal. I want the biggest lie in my life to be that my boyfriends cheating on me, or that this is not my real nose, not that my father is dead, and my boyfriend might've had something to do with it!" I yelled.

I knew I had taken it too far, and I shouldn't have said anything when Zach asked, "Is that what you think?"

The vulnerability in his eyes made me cry again as I whispered, "I don't know what to think, Zach? Everybody has warned me about you. Aunt Abby says that I don't know you as well as I think you do and maybe she's right. You won't tell me anything, and neither will anyone else, so I don't know what to think"

He quickly walked over to me and softly replied, "It's not like that, Cam. I love you, and you know that. You don't know he'd dead. He could still be out there somewhere. I…." He stopped.

"You can't tell me, I know" I continued to cry. He pulled me into a hug and whispered, "Please don't go" into my ear. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I love you" I sobbed.

We each pulled back but kept our foreheads together, we were both crying. "What am I supposed to do, Cam? I told you, I need you, you get it, you understand me."

"Please just let me go. If you really love me then you'll let me go. It's for the best." He kissed my forehead and hugged me again before helping me pack the rest of my things.

"Zach you can't be serious! You're just going to watch her walk away?" Yelled an outraged Macey.

I was breaking apart with every with every word they said.

"She's right, and there's nothing I can do" he said.

Bex and Macey had come to the realization that I was in fact leaving and began to cry.

About 5 minutes later, I finished packing all my things. Zach grabbed my bag with his right \hand, and my hand with his left, and he walked me to the front door, with Jonas, Bex, Grant, Macey, Liz, and the rest of the student body following behind.

When we got to the front doors, my mom and Solomon must've heard all the commotion, because they quickly opened her office door and stepped outside.

"Cammie, what's going on?" my mom asked.

"You and Mr. Man Whore here should know" I mocked. "I mean, being the big great spy's you are, between the two of you, I'm sure you could figure it out." I finished.

"Stop it, Cam. What is this about?" She asked.

I disregarded her question as I continued, "You know, you told me that you knew I'd been sneaking out to see Josh for a while before finals, were you just lying? Did you just say it to protect your ego? Did you think that if everyone knew that I beat you two they wouldn't respect you as much? Because I'm sure if you knew that I was sneaking out to see Josh, you would know that I was going to the studio to record with Jack Daniels every Saturday for quite a long time. I'm sure you would know that in the next 24 hours I'll be in LA signing with Hollywood Records".

"And I'M sure YOU know that a minor needs parental consent to sign a legal document, and as your mother, I will not allow you to leave the premises, let alone, the state. Go back to your room, and will discuss your punishment in the morning." She finished.

"Oh, so the three of us will discuss it in the morning? As a family! I get it!" I said gesturing to Mr. Solomon.

"My lawyer will send over the emancipation papers right away, because if he's a member of this family now, then I want to get out of it as fast as I can" I spat at her.

"Alright, why don't we discuss this at another time, Mrs. Morgan? I think you just need some time to clear your head" Mr. Solomon tried.

"Fuck you" I replied. "Cameron Anne Morgan! I taught you better than this!" my mother yelled.

"No! You taught me to lie, cheat, and kill people!" I yelled back.

"Is that what this is about?" she asked.

"You're upset about your father? Cammie….he's still out there somewhere, I just know it." she said softly.

She was really pissing me off.

By now I wasn't yelling, I was screaming like a mental patient, "No he's not! He's dead! And it's his own damn fault! This is the he chose for himself, and this is the life you're choosing for me, but it's not your choice to make damnit."

That was all it took to make my mother cry. It was then that Mr. Solomon realized that there was no way around this, that we were going to do this here and now in front of everyone.

"Maybe you're right, Cameron, Maybe he is dead, but if he is, he did not go in vain." He yelled.

"Your father is a great man, an honorable man, and he loves you very much." He finished softly.

"My father WAS a great man, you're right, his intentions were good, but the outcomes were bad. I'm sure that when he enrolled me in this school he intended for me to make history and become a great spy, but look how that turned out. I'm sure when he left on that mission, he intended to complete it, and look how well that one turned out. I'm sure that when you were the best man at his wedding, you never intended to be fucking his wife years later, but you are!" I yelled.

"If he's dead, then it's not really cheating now is it?" he asked angrily.

"If she were sleeping with any other guy but you, I wouldn't give a shit, but you were his best friend! And what a great friend you were, you let him get himself killed, and I blame his death on all of you. I don't need to run around avenging it, because you may as well have done it. I don't blame the Circle of Cavan or whoever physically killed him. It was his fault, it was your fault, and it was her fault, and I hope you burn in hell for it!" I screamed, tears running down my face.

Zach pulled me in for a hug and whispered, "Your cars here,"

"Will you walk me out?" I asked. He nodded.

I opened the door, but stopped, when I heard my mother ask, "You're not coming back….are you"

I turned to look at her and said, "You'll see me again"

I turned back around but stopped yet again when I heard a sheepish Tina ask, "Does that mean you'll come back?"

"No" I answered.

"That means that you'll see my face on the side of your cereal box and you'll hear my music on the radio and hopefully it will convince you to get the hell out of here while you still can" I finished.

That was the last thing I said to my sisters before I left, I warned them.

Zach and I proceeded to the end of the driveway where we had a semi- make out session until he said, "You better get going, you don't want to miss your flight," with tears in his eyes.

I hugged him for a while longer than normal and sobbed into his shirt. I kissed him one last time and said "I love you" He opened the door of the limo and I climbed in. Just before he closed the door he said, "I know"

And that was the last time I saw Zachary Goode….