I dislike saying this BUT Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds, if I did we'd see a lot more going on if you get my gist....

Derek found himself staring at that box more and more. It was like his dirty little secret, the one thing in his life that he didn't tell Penelope. The one thing he felt he couldn't share with her. The only other time he'd felt like that was with Tamara but even then it was different. That box was almost sacred to him now.

This time as he looked at the box it was with him sat with photos of Penelope strewn across the floor. He'd walked down the stairs to find the living room floor, seats, table top all covered with every photo he had of her. He really didn't realise how many he had of her but he never thought it'd be this many. He leant forward and gathered some in his hands. There were 9 years of photo's here, 9 years of friendship and as he looked at the way he held her, 9 years of loving one woman wholeheartedly.

The photo's showed Penelope in her many ways. There was the somewhat professional Penelope, from when they she first started on the team, in suits with a splash of colour. Then there was her as her part in the team became more and more permanent, her clothes becoming more colourful than anything. Her hair in its many do's but mainly her hair sat down in curls, some with pink streaks, or brown underneath, or just pure blonde. Then there was the here and now, her hair now a crown of light auburn, a new crimson look for her. Her lips still sat with their nearly permanent smile, the redness of her lipstick making her stand out even more, her eyes still glinting behind her ever changing specs.

After contemplating for too long Derek stood up, grabbed a bottle of water and the nearest pot of aspirin, he had a killer headache coming on and he knew it was self induced. He headed upstairs and sunk onto the bed, it was too hot, he was too hot, to get into the bed so he just lay on top of it. It was as he just stared and felt the headache ebbing away he felt his phone vibrating.

Picking it up he didn't look, he just flipped the phone open. 'Hello?'

'I hope you're not sleeping sunshine.' Came Penelope's melodic voice down the phone to him. 'How dare you do that on your day off?'

He laughed. 'I've got a headache silly girl, was just taking a nap to help.'

'Ahh poor baby, would you like mamma to come and look after you?'

'Naw, it's okay baby, as grateful as I am, I'm just going to sleep it off but how about later you and me do our movie night? The classics, I'll bring beer and take out.'

'And for that Morg's I'll remain in my PJ's.'

He inwardly groaned but kept himself composed. 'I'd have been disappointed if you were wearing anything else.'

'How about if I was wearing nothing?'

'Behave baby girl.' He said as he rolled over. 'I'm gonna have to leave you and your dirty mind for a bit while I tackle this head ache.'

'Okay handsome, have you got the blinds shut?' She asked him worriedly.

'Yeah baby.'

'Slight window open?'

'Yup.'

'Clooney got the garden to himself?'

'Of course.'

'Bottle of cold water near?'

'Yes.'

'Aspirin near?'

'Got it.' He hadn't expected her to be that in tune with him but then again why should it surprise it.

'Good, just making sure hot stuff. Shut those gorgeous eyes and ring me when you're up, if you're not up for tonight I'll just sprawl out of the couch. Sweet dreams stud.'

'Thanks baby girl.' He said with a smile as the line went dead. He put his phone the bedside table and settled more, he just closed his eyes and went to sleep.

Walking up he could tell the afternoon was now in full swing and he stretched and lay still for a bit, he's headache was definitely gone now and he was thankful for that, the smile still on his face from Penelope's concern he got up and opened the blinds.

Walking down the stairs he hummed a song he hadn't heard in a long time, he went into the kitchen and grabbed himself another drink, seeing Clooney on the deck he went out and sat with him, he stayed out there in the untroubled bliss of the summer air and finished his drink.

Walking back in the reality of his feelings hit him harder than before. On the once empty coffee was now covered in open CD cases, CD's everywhere, his ipod now out, he looked up, and saw that the hi-fi system was on. On approach he saw a notepad and drew in a heavy breath before taking the paper and taking a seat.

'Get a grip Derek.' He told himself aloud as he read some of the CD cases. Finally looking at the pad in his hands he sucked in a deep breath and forced himself to read it.

It always occurs to me
How lovely you look today
Just how you smile that way
Makes my heart melt
Seemed like just yesterday
When you stole my breath away
You walked into my life
You completed my soul
When you walked into my life
You completed my soul

Derek looked for the song that it was but couldn't quite grasp it, he couldn't believe how close a song had gotten to his true feelings, he'd had enough of sleeping if he was going to spout the truth anyways.

I knew I wouldn't forget you, and so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moving, the smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided, you're the one I have decided who's one of my kind

Shaking his head, he'd done it again and he couldn't get his head around it.

When you feel it in your body
you found somebody who makes you change your ways
like hanging with your crew
said you act like you ready but you don't really know
and everything in your past- you wanna let go

He didn't want to stop now; he wanted to know what else was there.

Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love

'Trust Justin 'frigging' Timberlake to put it so simple.' Derek said as his left hand ran the course of his head in frustration.

I'm finally in love (yeah)

I know what it is

I know how it feels for the first time, I

I'm finally in love

And I wanna feel this good

For the rest of my life

Derek shook his head as his eyes ran with the scribble, it was evidently his writing so he had to literally face the music and see what the last song was.

Girl I've tried and tried a million times
To get you off my mind
It's not that easy noooo
It's not that easy
Don't you know how hard it is for me

'God Baby girl if you knew what you did to me.' He said exasperated and fell back into the couch, after a few moments of utter silence; he opened his eyes and looked up at the box. 'More stuff to go in there it seems.' He muttered and gathered himself together.

Pulling the box down he looked and couldn't help but smile, all this for one woman. Picking up all the CD's he put them inside, pulling the paper from pad he added it and then finally all the photos went on top. Closing the lid he put it back before grabbing his phone to ring Penelope.

A/N: Right my itunes helped me here!!

Songs in order:
Justin Nozuka – I'm At Peace

Train – Hey, Soul Sister

Usher – You Got It Bad

Justin Timberlake – My Love

Mclean – Finally In Love

Lemar – It's Not That Easy

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