A/N: For this I used my Word definition of Mourn: "transitive and intransitive verb to feel and show sadness because somebody has died". I tried to deal with the popular image society has of mourning: crying, funerals, black clothes, etc. And I also tried (you can review and tell me whether or not I succeeded) at showing Gibbs' strength in his reaction to both Jenny's death and that image of mourning.
This one was challenging (I kind of avoided writing it for a while) so please give me an honest opinion of what you think of it.
Thanks to ellie for the encouragement while I was actively avoiding this. You're right, it was kind of cathartic.
26-Across Mourn
Mourning means showing sadness that someone is dead. It means wearing black and crying, it does nothing to express the anguish of seeing her blood on his hands. It's a stand in word for a feeling that is inexpressible, a feeling he has known too many times in his life. If mourning means to show sadness, he won't mourn her death. He'll sit here, getting blind drunk from cheap bourbon, trying not to remember the way her eyes shone when she was pissed or how she would bite down on his shoulder as she came. But he will not mourn.