„Destroy to build stronger... Is this definition of bond?"
It wasn't as hard as he thought at the beginning. Sooner or later, he started to cope with this small feeling of emptiness. The environment became so strange to him, even though he had known it for so long. Behavior changed slightly – no change for others and a big change inside himself. First weeks were unbearable, next months were odd, another years were normal. Graduation came and passed by, leaving him in the new space of adulthood. The time, when he had to make his decisions for further life. The university time... 3 years passed. School ended, but not his education. The train was moving through one of Japanese countryside, which was exposing its natural beauty and peacefulness. Giving a hard sigh, he was looking through the window, cursing himself for not bringing any book to read or anything to do. Pictures moving in fast speed when thoughtful eyes were forcing his brain to image many complicated things.
'And what if I see him?'
This thought was making his stomach twist. He had 1:300000 (or even more) chance to meet this face in that place or somewhere around he was supposed to stay. He couldn't say the same about the university, 'cause... well, miracle happens? Though he wasn't sure if he'd call this 'a miracle'. More like 'a catastrophe'. Anyway...
"Next stop: Tokyo University. Arrival time: 5 minutes." Speakers announced, making him sigh. He was so close to that place, it made his heart skip. The scenery also changed. No trees, but heavy buildings. No empty roads, but streets full of people. No countryside, but city. How couldn't he notice the change? Again, HE was the cause.
"Station: Tokyo University. Station: Tokyo University." It was his stop so he grabbed his heavy-like-hell bag and other more-heavy-than-hell bag with food, prepared by his family. Bumping into strange looking strangers, he made through crowd of people and out of the station. Comparing to the place he had been living for his whole life, here was totally bizarre. Hurry, movement, stress – three suitable for him words to describe the city.
And that was the day Kurosaki Ichigo started his student life in Tokyo...
Sometime later...
"What the hell do you mean by saying 'NO ROOMS AVAILABLE?! I booked one for me through the phone about two weeks ago!!" The orange locks were shining with fury, though his brown eyes were more scary. The receptionist, small girl with two black pigtails and sad look, shook in fear while being scolded. "I'm not going everywhere without my room, dammit! Check this damn reservation again!" The girl was in nearly crying state, so she went out of her desk, looking for someone to help her. Ichigo huffed. He hated that form of incompetency, especially when he was supposed to start his university classes in a week. The girl showed up again, this time accompanied by a tall, blond man with green-white striped hat, old-fashioned clothing and sandals. The stranger grinned widely and grabbed a green-white fan.
"Welcome, welcome, my dear guest! How may I help you?" the guy, who seemed to be the owner of the hotel, greeted the orange head.
"I made a reservation and was supposed to move in today, but it said no room is free." Ichigo tried his best to say it calmly, but the owner way of listening to him was getting on his nerves.
"Whoa, that's probably a little mistake! I'm sure we're going to solve that matter! Would you mind telling me your name, Mr...?"
"Kurosaki Ichigo."
"Oh, yes, Kurosaki-san! I'll search for your name immediately! Ururu, could you please hand me the list of our guests?" The black haired girl gave her owner the list with all names. "Hmm... That's weird. Your name is truly not signed here, I don't under-Oh my! And what's that doing there?" Ichigo was again ready to explode, when a little piece of paper caught the owner's eye. He took it and read everything quickly. It was a reservation, made by Kurosaki Ichigo. "What a silly thing! It must have been detached! But no worries, everything seems to be alright now! Ururu, give our new lodger a key to room 15. Kurosaki-san is going to stay here for a whole year!" Ururu handed a small, silver key, with a '15' engraved, over the student. "Enjoy your stay, Kurosaki-san, and remember! All problems goes to your faithfull owner of the hotel, Urahara Kisuke!" Ichigo nodded and thanked all the stuff. He felt quite guilty about scolding the receptionist girl, but it wasn't his fault that his reservation got lost. He reached the number 15 and opened the door. There was a small kitchen, even smaller bathroom with toilet and medium living room/dinning room/bedroom (room 3 in 1, Ichigo thought ironically). But then he couldn't complain, everything was on its place and seemed to be simple in use. 'So that's how my independent life is supposed to look like, huh?' He was quite worried. His dad insisted on giving enough cash to pay for the room for whole year, but he refused to take it. If he really wanted to live independent life, he had to earn his own money. 'I'll unpack my things later, now it's time to see region.' He took a shower first and changed into cleaner clothes (it was cold outside, so he put on his red jacket and a black cap). The surroundings didn't seem to be bad, he was going to live in rather clean district. There was a small shop near, cute cafe, all kinds of shops with clothes and 10 minutes further he found a big shopping centre. The rest of the day was for him, so he decided to check the centre thoroughly. Inside, there was almost EVERYTHING. Fun centre with bowling and arcade, all exclusive boutiques, lots of restaurants, shops and even a big waterfall-like fountain. This place was spacious and Ichigo found himself gawking at the sight. He shook his head and made his usual scowl. Shopping centers were really fun, but not when you were alone. Maybe if he made some new friends in the university he'd hang out with them here. But still, he was an outsider...
"Ichigo...?" Someone said his name out loud in a questioning tone. That was weird, he didn't remember knowing anyone from Tokyo, if he wasn't counting HIM. And that voice definitely didn't belong to HIM. Yet, it was still familiar to... "My freaking god! Ichigo!" He turned around and regreted it, because a medium-high girl with long, black hair and quite big breasts hugged him so tight he wasn't able to breath. Who would have thought, that he would meet HIS younger sister, Shiba Kuukaku? "What a fucking surprise! So much time passed! Long time no see! Ichigo! If not this stupid hat you're wearing, I'd recognize you immediately!"
"K-Kuukaku-c-chan... I c-can't... breathe..." He admitted it was a big surprise to him, too. Meeting her here was a sign, that the risk of meeting HIM was even higher. Squeezing all air from his lungs, Kuukaku decided to stop the torture. She was smirking at the sight of suffering Ichigo. "Gah... T-Thanks... Nice... to see you... too..." The breathing was normalized and he looked at the girl, which had the same light blue-green eyes with long eyelashes like his ex-friend. Though something was different. She completely changed her style of clothing and make-up. Her hair had some red highlights and her ears were pierced more, than once. She was dressed in black jacket, red top and brown miniskirt, standing on dangerous high-heeled boots. Where the old image had gone? "R-Really long time, no see..."The girl grinned. Her eyes had lots of black-blue eyeshadow, making her face psycho. To tell the truth, Kuukaku was like a small female copy of HIM, so seeing her appearance and comparing it to HIM was really making the orange sick. "How are you?"
"Perfectly fine, as you can see." Ichigo doubted her statement.
"You've changed a lot." The meaning of 'a lot' wasn't enough for Ichigo to express his impression.
"So have you!" 'Comparing me to you, I don't think so...' Again she smiled one of her dangerous smiles. "What are you doing here anyway?"
"Ah, I'll be studying in the Tokyo University, medicine to be precise."
"Wow, that's fucking cool, man!" The way she was speaking was really inappropriate for girls, in Ichigo's opinion. This city changes people, after all. "Nii-san also got into the smoking TU! That'll be blazing if you two... Oh, wait! Why won't you two go and see each other now!? Come on!" Ichigo blinked, firstly at odd words Kuukaku used, secondly at what she wanted to do. Was he going to see HIM!?
"W-W-Wait, Kuukaku-chan! I don't think it's a good idea!"
"That's an awesome light bulb, man! Idea worth fucking A!"
"...what?"
"You two haven't seen each other for 3 damn long years! Actually, my whole family haven't heard YOUR freaking voice for 3 years, 'cause the goat-face, the midget and the fairy at least were phoning us!" She pouted, but got confused when Ichigo stopped her dragging to only-she-knows place. She glared at him and tried again to move the orange head, but the other put some resistance. "Why the fuck you don't want to see my brother? Aren't you a goddamn friends?" Ichigo furrowed and broke free from girl's grip. Maybe he was acting like a jerk...
"I don't have time for that. I have to go to-"
"If you didn't have the freaking time, then you wouldn't be right here, right now." She interrupted before he could come up with a believable excuse. Dammit, her sense of lying was sharp. She huffed and put her right hand on his left shoulder, making him look in her eyes. "Look, if you two had a fight back then or quarreled, I don't give a shit. But you had been friends for almost 7 years and I bet you had had fucking worse times before that stupid problem, a few weeks before our departure. 3 damn years passed, you two grew up, you two now probably are not bothered by what happened back then, so freaking make up!" Ichigo was surprised. Kuukaku was even more concerned about his lost friendship than he was. All of the sudden, her face turned from angry-irritated to quite saddened. "After leaving our old Karakura, Nii-san was quite lifeless. He looked so miserable, when mom or dad was receiving the phone from goat-face and when I or Ganjyu were talking to Karin or Yuzu. You never wanted to talk to him, so he was never asked to pick up the phone." Again, she got angry. "To be honest, I really fucking hated you back then. So was Ganjyu." Ichigo's mood went down. He felt like an asshole. Everything she said was true. He even remembered the times, when dad and sisters were begging him for one little word to HIM. "We were flaming you every freaking time your family was calling. Nii-san figured out how we despised you and tried to calm us down. He was freaking telling us that he had done something bad to you and so he expected you not to call! We couldn't fucking get it!" Her hold was strong enough to make Ichigo slightly suffocate, but she calmed down, again anger backing up. "After around 2 years we cooled down and Nii-san seemed to accept the fact that he wouldn't hear anything from you. He wasn't so down like before and he made a few new friends. I was still thinking about you and him, but decided to stop blaming you for everything. Unfortunately, Ganjyu still hates you." Ichigo expected that, after all he and Ganjyu weren't on good terms since their childhood. "You know, if you don't want to see him, then I'll just go. Though, I think you owe him saying a small frigging 'Hello', at least!" She huffed and turned her back at him, slowly going away.
"Wait!" His insides were really moved by her words that forced him to stop Kuukaku. The black haired girl turned around and gave him a questioning look. "Umm... I'll go with you... to say-GUH!! HEY, LET ME GO!" He couldn't finish his confession when Kuukaku grabbed his neck and, with a big smile on her scary features, dragged him to the place, where whole Shiba family was. It was Sunday, and every Sunday her siblings and parents decided to go to the Tokyo Shopping Center to grab a dinner or look through clothes and other stuff. Kuukaku go so excited that she didn't notice her brother, Ganjyu, who got hit by her accidentally. "Oh, you're here..."
"It hurts, Nee-chan! Watch where you..." 16-year old Ganjyu, a bid, muscular kid with not so pretty face and eternal scowl just noticed something odd, coming along with his scary sister. He was dressed in macho-style and wearing sunglasses to hide his small eyes, also sea-green, also with long eyelashes. "And what the fuck are you doing here?" His words were spoken to Ichigo, who tried to get rid of the neck pain, caused by overexcited Shiba girl. The moment he erased some of the pain was the moment Ganjyu grabbed his rugged shirt and shook him violently. "I asked: what the fuck are YOU doing here?" Ichigo blinked. Damn, even though he was 3 years older from Ganjyu, that kid had a really tight grip.
"Ganjyu, stop it. He's here to see Nii-san." Kuukaku said in a threatening tone, still having on her mind all Ganjyu's hate towards Ichigo.
"Che, as if I'm going to let that son of a bitch see our Onii-chan. Over my stinky dead body." The grip tightened, Ichigo was sucking painfully for air. Kuukaku grabbed her little brother's hand and tried to pull him away from the orange head.
"GAH!" Oh, he was so going to have bruises after that.
"Fucking stop it! You're hurting him!" The girl shouted.
"So the fuck what!? He deserves it!" Ichigo was slowly losing consciousness and two Shiba siblings were fighting with each other, brother suffocating him and sister trying to set him free. This scene must look funny in front of people, though some of theme were terrified and called for security. Fortunately, no guards came, when Ichigo heard someone shouting.
"GANJYU! KUUKAKU! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!?" HIS voice. This was definitely HIS voice, though it was hard for Ichigo to hear it clearly, he was still dizzy after lack of oxygen. "STOP FREAKING STRANGLING HIM!" And with those words Ichigo finally gasped for sweet air. Ganjyu glared at everyone, at his furious sister, at coughing orange head and at his coming big brother. "What the hell has gotten into you!? You can't walk and make strangers suffocate!" Kuukaku blinked in cofusion and looked at Ichigo. He had his back turned on them and the black cab was hiding his orange locks completely. It was not like Ichigo wanted to stand like this, he was just trying to catch his breath.
"But that fucking bastard deserved it!" Ganjyu whined, but was shut immediately by his brother.
"You two, go to mom and dad, they're looking for you. And go fast, so you won't have any problems later!" HE shouted and pointed at the nearest restaurant. Ganjyu mumbled something under his breath and Kuukaku smirked, both of them walking away The oldest Shiba sibling huffed in annoyance and moved to the loudly breathing stranger. "I'm horribly sorry for those two, sir. Is everything with you alri-..." The boy couldn't believe his own eyes, when he saw the face of strangled man. Ichigo didn't move, too afraid to look up. Somehow it was comfortable for him that HE hadn't recognized him before, but now everything changed. He sighed and decided to challenge the familiar aquamarine orbs with his ocher ones. "I... I-I... I-I-Ichi...go?" It was KAIEN. Despite his two freaky siblings, he hadn't changed at all. No dangerous look, no cliché macho look, but the same old Kaien. Blood was rushing through his veins, heart beating like a madman. His throat was blocked by an invisible ball.
"H-Hi..." It was the only thing he could choke out. Ichigo wished to make himself disappear or bury himself under the ground. Both of them stood still, gawking and brain dead. Ichigo though he had to say something more, he thought about more complex speeches, but nothing came out. "Hi, K-Kaien..." For so long he wasn't using this name. He even tried to delete it from his mind. But now it didn't mattered. Suddenly, Ichigo's eyes grew wide. Kaien moved closer and embraced him tightly, burying his pale face in the orange boy's neck. All emotions of loneliness and missing flew from his old friend to him. To be embraced by Kaien like this... He dreamed about it billion times. The hug was returned and now both boys were kneeling on the shopping center's floor and embracing each other tenderly. Ichigo felt so relieved, the moment almost made him cry. "Kaien, I-"
"Don't speak!" The black haired boy growled. "I don't want to hear your voice right now." The tanned face paled. Was he hated now? Was Kaien furious? "You fucking bastard..." The voice was cracking, indicating coming wave of tears. The boy was whispering dangerously. "3 years without even a damn word. A WORD. And now you're here and just saying 'Hi' to me... I've been telling myself that if I happen see your fucking face, I'll just pretend you're a complete stranger and ignore you. Or, at least, I'd fucking beat you into a pulp so you would be able to feel the pain in your next 9 lives. AND WHAT THE FUCK I'M DOING!?" His embrace tightened, so Ichigo's. Kaien started to shake, making the other wonder whether it was form anger or sadness, or maybe joy? "I'm freaking HUGGING you! It wasn't supposed to look like this, do you hear me!?" It wasn't a whisper, but a really loud shout. Ichigo nodded silently. Kaien wanted to hate him, but it was useless. The bond between them was too strong to be broken, even by him. Of course, it got pretty damaged but neither Ichigo nor Kaien could forget about each other. "AGAIN, you made me do some strange things! That's fucking unfair!"
"I'm sorry..." Ichigo used the silence, which appeared a little after Kaien's last shout. "I'm really sorry..." The black haired seemed to calm down a bit and a dark aura surrounded him and Ichigo.
"Oh, I really hope you're awfully sorry..." Kaien's head straightened up and he was directly facing Ichigo, warm sea gaze changing into icy-death glare."...because I won't let you get away with this...." Ichigo gulped loudly, afraid of the scary face of his old friend. "3 damn long years. You owe me 3 years. And I don't care how or when you're going to pay this debt, but you should know I won't show you any mercy..." His face came closer, Ichigo was shaking in fright. "And don't you ever dare to disappoint me again or I'll destroy you before you say 'I've just shoved my balls'. Do you understand that? You'll be dead."
"Y-Yes, s-sir..." The orange head shook his head in approval, making Kaien glare for the last time and change mood. Ichigo was dumbfounded, when suddenly his old friend started to laugh.
"Eh, you don't even know how much I missed your eternal scowl, dumbass." When he stopped his laughter, Kaien wiped off his tears of joy and looked at his confused friend with a warm smile. "I was thinking if you're gonna get into the TU or not. And it seems miracles happens!"
"Hey, what the hell!? I got there, because I freaking studied a lot! It wasn't that easy, you know?" Ichigo growled, meeting for the first time in three years Kaien's annoying jokes.
"That's what I'm telling you about miracles..." The black haired smirked. When was the last time he made fun of Ichigo? A long before his departure... Something rang and Kaien felt his pocket vibrating. He picked up a small, black mobile phone and checked the incoming call. Ichigo waited patiently for him to reply. "Uh... Hello?"
"Kaien! What is taking you so long to answer the phone!?" A loud, female voice could be heard.
"Nice to hear you too, Kiyone. What's up?"
"You know, it's about our party tonight! Remember, the one we've been planing for two weeks!? I thought I'll invite some people, who will go with us to the university! Sentarou will bring more snacks, so can you bring some booze!?" Though it was supposed to be a private call, Ichigo could clearly hear what the girl was saying. As he remembered, Kaien wasn't a party type, so it was quite surprising. "Are you in the TSC with your family!? I'm bringing stupid Sentarou with me and we're gonna meet you in 10 minutes!" Ichigo sighed and made a sad expression. The reunion is going to end and he hoped they would at least go somewhere and talk. Kaien took a glance at his orange friend and sighed, too.
"Oh, yeah... The party..." His voice wasn't as enthusiastic as Kiyone expected. "Well, I think I..." He again looked at Ichigo, who seemed to listen to his conversation with a small disappointment. He smiled at him, making him confused. "You know, something came up and I don't think I can go." Kaien grinned, when he noticed his companion's face lit up.
"WHAT!? You're freaking kidding, right!?" Not only the female voice was heard, but also Ichigo's expression shouted the same question.
"Nope, I'm deadly serious."
"Then what the hell are we supposed to do!? Everyone wanted to see you! And what about our booze!?"
"I'm sorry, but if you have any spare money, then buy everything."
"But-!
"Sorry again. See you tomorrow!" And he hang up.
"Are you sure it's alright with them?" Ichigo asked quietly, still not believing what Kaien had done a moment ago.
"I've been forced so many times to go with them to all parties in our city. One refusal won't be a problem." The orange head nodded, not wanting to interfere with Kaien's private matters. It was still surprising that he acted so normal, as if the matter between them had never happened. Recalling his feelings for Kaien, Ichigo felt quite uneasy. "Okay, so… You're coming with me!" The boy grabbed the tanned wrist.
"What the-!? Where the hell are you taking me!?"
"Oh, I'm dragging you to my family! I'm sure they'd like to see your face!"
"But-!"
"No 'buts'. You're in debt, remember?"
"I know that, but-!"
"And what I'll do if you make me unhappy?"
"…"
"Well?"
"…kill me…"
"Good, as long as you understand." He made a cocky smile while they were entering the restaurant, where whole Shiba family got surprised to see the orange head Kurosaki (Kuukaku made a Cheshire-cat-like grin and Ganjyu glared with full hate).The dinner was awkward at the beginning, Ichigo didn't know what to say or how to behave, even thought everyone were acting so normal. Then it was strange, after every question answered by Kurosaki, the youngest Shiba made a sarcastic comment or just interrupted him. However, he had to stop his hateful acting towards the guest, because Kaien was darkly glaring at him and even stomped a few times on his foot under the table. The main topic of everyone's conversation were memories of the past times and plans for future. Ichigo found out that Kaien picked Arts in the TU and also Teaching course. Well, with his talent and good way of teaching, it was no surprise. After two hours everyone stood up and left the place. Shiba parents decided to go on a date, like they were doing when they were young. Kuukaku had an appointment with her friends. Ganjyu said out loud that he don't want to be near the sickening orange head, so he just went away. And so, both boys were alone. Kaien was really curious about where Ichigo was living, so he was whining and threatening until Ichigo gave up and lead to the hotel. The way to his apartment was silent, none of them wanted to say anything. Or they were too embarrassed to start the conversation first. How ironic, 3 years without a word and they couldn't make a simple dialogue. Ichigo found the right building and opened the door of the room '15'. Kaien chuckled silently, thinking how the door number suited his friend's name perfectly (Ichi - one, Go - five).
"It's kind of small…" The words were spoken as if it was Ichigo's fault for having a little room. The guest took of his shoes and jacket and inspected the place, where his friend was supposed to live in the nearest year.
"Well, for me it would be large enough." He moved to the kitchen, smiling at its tiny, yet adorable size. "I'm jealous. I'd also like to live alone."
"Yeah, though I'll need to find a job if I don't want to be thrown out." His friend was moving to the '3 in 1' room.
"Wow, a bed with a use of sofa. And it's quite big." Kaien jumped on the bed to check the mattress. Ichigo swallowed when he heard the creaking sound, made by Kaien. He cursed his sick imagination. "Well, soft enough." The black haired decided to lie on the mattress and stretch his arms with a big smile on his face. Again, Ichigo's fantasies ran wild and he had to turn his back on Kaien to hide his unexpected blush. What the hell was he thinking?
"U-Um, you want to drink something?" He mumbled, still not facing his friend.
"Hmm, tea would be nice." He sat up again, quite intrigued by the orange's behavior. Ichigo nodded and went to the kitchen. He opened the first shelf… empty. Another one… the same. It occurred him immediately.
"Fuck… I haven't bought anything in the shop…" Kaien blinked and laughed, Ichigo felt more embarrassed with every second.
"That's fine, I can have a glass of water from the tap." Even if his friend said so, this didn't make him feel any better. But he didn't have any choice, so he took two glasses, poured some water and gave it to Kaien. "Thanks." Ichigo nodded and wanted to stand near the wall, when the black haired grabbed his hand. "Where are you going? This bed is big enough for both of us." Again, Ichigo froze. Was he turning into some kind of pervert? Kaien made a questioning look, so he just nodded and sat down a little too nervously. It was quite obvious for him that bringing his old friend here wasn't a good idea. Through last 3 years he had to deal with his loss and forgetting wasn't an option. His imagination about Kaien was too big. The same scene from THAT day came to his mind. How he felt so hot, how he made his friend feel pleasurable, how he was getting turned on with every thrust, every kiss, every moan… "WHAT?" He snapped out of his thoughts, realizing how red he was. Kaien jumped in surprise and looked with confusion. "Eh…I-I thought you said something."
"I haven't said a word." The boy replied, still puzzled. Ichigo nodded and tried to focus on his glass of water. He tried to look at Kaien unseen. The other was taking a sip from his own glass and when he ended, he sighed in relief, lips all wet and slightly parted. And then he looked at Ichigo, who was just staring at him. "You're alright?" The orange shook his head violently and looked away, deep crimson coloring his face. "You look like you're bothered with something." Ichigo shook again in negative response, alarmed by drawing attention of Kaien. "Are you feeling okay? You're all red."
"T-That's probably from fever…" Made up sickness would be a good excuse to throw Kaien away and stop thinking about stupid ideas. He didn't want to lose control, again.
"I don't think so." The pale face moved closer, only few centimeters away from flamed Ichigo, who blinked from confusion and scare. "You think it's hard to figure you out? Your eyes are screaming for me." The brown eyes looked in terror of being caught. Damn Kaien and his sharp sixth sense. He felt his blood and adrenaline rushing all over his body. His hands wanted to grab his friend and take him. He turned his away, but Kaien got closer.
"You'd better go." His breathing hitched, when he felt the other's body mildly touching
"So I was right."
"Whatever, just go home!" His body was shaking with want and Kaien was not helping him with his self-restraint.
"Why is that?"
"Shut up and stay away from me!"
"I don't want to!"
"Dammit, Kaien!" The orange head grabbed others shoulders and pined the boy on the bed. They were looking at each other, Kaien shocked and Ichigo angered. "You freaking don't understand. The last thing I want is to hurt you. And now the first thing I want is to fuck you, so don't mock with me and go away!" The aquamarine eyes looked in confusion, but they got colder and the black haired frowned.
"Why is it always about what YOU want?" His wrists were set free and he slightly got up, face directly facing Ichigo's. "Why the hell doesn't my word count? Must I accept everything you want?" The change was shocking and the orange was speechless. Suddenly, his friend moved closer and kissed him softly. Ichigo blinked and noticed how the other was blushing and how his eyes were glittering. "Care to ask what I want now?" Ichigo swallowed, still not sure about Kaien's further actions.
"What do you want?" He asked and again, another kiss was given, this time longer and deeper.
"I want you." Something in Ichigo cracked. The leash of restraint, which was trying to hold his desire, broke. The way Kaien whispered his wish, the way he was looking so needy and his ignored want was too much for him. He lay on the top of Kaien and kissed him hungrily. His tongue got full access to his friend's mouth and it seemed to be restless. He wanted to violate him, make him shiver from pain and pleasure, he wanted it so badly. Every moan coming from the black haired boy sent him waves of desire. Kaien moved his flushed face away, trying to catch his breath after mind-blowing make out, exposing his pale neck. Ichigo took the invitation and started to kiss smooth skin, feeling other's hands running through his orange locks. His tanned hand moved under Kaien's shirt, touching slim chest tenderly and forcing another series of moans. Damn, it was so hard for him to control his need of holding the other forcefully and fuck him rawly. But he kept saying to himself that this way would be even better for them both. His hand moved to his well-shaped abdomen, slowly going down and under Kaien's trousers. Felling Ichigo's fingers brushing his arousal made his breathing quicken. The sensation felt really good and he wanted even more, so he lifted his hips.
"Kaien..." Ichigo whispered into other's ear while abusing delicate earlobe. "Are you really sure about this?" His left hand smoothed the black haired head, while the right moved up and down in slow tempo. This slowness was making Kaien go crazy.
"Ngh... Ye-aah..." It was getting faster and hotter. The touch was too good and he wasn't aware that he started to move with pumping. Ichigo was staring at Kaien's face. The red color was really juicy and matched perfectly with half-lidded sea gaze and messy black hair. His mouth was parted, giving either loud panting or long moaning. This was the second time he could see such a beautiful sight. It was as addicting as the pleasure Kaien was receiving. His blood was pulsing and he knew his friend was so close to his limit, so he quickened the pace even more. "Ah! Ahh-I-chi...Haa...Ichigo, I'm... close... Ahhh! MPHM!" Just when he wanted to cry in pleasure, the orange head locked his lips in deep kiss and muffled the sound. It was as he was swallowing all the shout of ecstasy and it was really turning him on. Kaien came on the tanned hand, riding out his heat as much as he could. Later he relaxed, breathing heavily. Trying to save the picture inside his mind, Ichigo looked at him from above and kissed gently on his forehead. Kaien looked up, seeing the orange head was backing away, so he caught the tanned hand and didn't let go. "What are you doing? We're not done yet." His voice was hoarse from his high. Ichigo send him a questioning look.
"You want to go all the way?"
"Of course I want, you thick-headed idiot!" Kaien sat up and wrapped his arms around Ichigo's neck. "You left me agonizing for 3 years, with my head occupied by the images of the evening, when we did it for the first time. Through that time I was only thinking about you." His face was serious and Ichigo couldn't help, but feel pure happiness inside. "I've been waiting for 3 years, so don't you dare to leave me now..." And so he kissed deeply, moving closer and closer, that he was already on the top of Ichigo and sitting on his lap. The orange head started with taking Kaien's shirt off and tossing it somewhere in his room. His shirt also disappeared and both boys were making out passionately, touching their chests and smoothing their hair. Kaien could feel himself getting turned on again, so he started to move on Ichigo's lap, rubbing their clothed members. Both of them moaned through their kiss and Ichigo decided to get rid of their pants. While trying to take off their left clothes, he kissed the pale skin roughly, leaving small trail of red marks and receiving small whimpers. Kaien let his friend throw his pants a boxers away and he was sitting completely naked. He could feel Ichigo's gaze on him, so he turned his head away in embarrassment. Why the hell didn't he feel secure now, just like he had been before? Firstly, Ichigo wasn't staring at his naked body like now. Secondly, last time he had been forced to have sex, so he just didn't care about being seen. And finally, he was drunk... Ichigo must have noticed his partner's embarrassment, because he moved closer and kissed him tenderly.
"You're really beautiful, Kaien." The black headed blushed even deeper.
"D-Don't say that..." Actually, those words made him feel really special.
"I will say that." He wrapped his arms around the slim waist. "And even more." His hand was moving down until he reached Kaien's entrance. The other yelped at the contact. "I want to make you feel good."
"I think I've heard that before." Kaien smirked, before he felt something entering him from behind. The feeling was really strange, but not as painful as it was on the first time.
"If that's the case, then I will make you feel better." Another thing was added inside him and this time he felt himself being stretched. Ichigo moved his fingers in and out of Kaien, hoping to find the trigger to his partner's greater pleasure. With every second the intrusion was getting more and more uncomfortable for the boy, but then he felt Ichigo's fingers touch something inside of him, that made him moan loudly. Ichigo smirked after reaching his goal and hit the spot a few times, savoring sounds of pleasure, which Kaien was giving. "I'll be going in." He whispered to his friend, who seemed to be in bigger need than he was. Ichigo analyzed the position they were in, Kaien on the top of him with his legs spread and him, on the bottom. "Do you want to do it this way? Ngh!" He felt the pale hand grabbing his member and positioning it under himself. "Kaien..." The black haired started to go down, sinking inside of him Ichigo's arousal. The sudden heat and tightness all over him made the orange head groan and cover his face with his hands. Kaien bit his bottom lip to hold back his cry and stopped for a moment. The entering was damn painful and Ichigo's was too big for him. How he wished he was at least slightly drunk, so he wouldn't be bothered that much. Ichigo felt his friends hesitation, so he placed both his hands on slim hips and pushed them down. He was fully in.
"Fuck!" Kaien cursed loudly, letting single tears escape from his sea eyes. "Don't move me! It hurts!"
"Sorry, but you'll get used to it faster." Even if he said that, he really wanted to move. Not just 'move', but 'move really fast'. But he really didn't want to hurt Kaien. Actually, he knew what his friend was going through. After all, he had been fucked many times by many men. Probably this sign of sympathy was the only thing that held him from being violent. "Are you okay?"
"Just... give me a minute..." The intensity of pain was gradually dropping, but it was still troublesome. The tanned hand touched his bare erection and pumped it lightly to relax him. He moaned softly and decided to move. Ichigo watched as his partner lifted up and fell down in a slow rhythm. At first it seemed as if Kaien was really concentrated on the movement, but everything changed, when Ichigo's member hit the pleasurable spot. "Ngh... Ahh..." He lifted himself faster and he felt Ichigo under him was also moving up and down. "Ah... Ah... Ichigoo..."
"Kaien..." Ichigo was using both his hands to move the black haired faster. "Ngh... Does it... feel good?"
"Ah... Yesss... Ichigo...." Kaien embraced the orange head tightly, his sinking and lifting no longer controlled. "I want...Haaa..."
"What do you want?" Ichigo ran his hand through Kaien's chest and rubbed his nipple, making the other moan.
"Ah... want...Ah! More!" Ichigo bit other's neck painfully, but instead of pain the black haired felt even more intense pleasure. Kaien clawed his nails in his friends back, also giving a masochistic pleasure to the orange. "Haaa...Haaa! Ichigo! Ichigo!"
"Come, Kaien. Come with me." He grabbed Kaien's head and they kissed, though the word 'passionate' was not enough to describe its heat and lust. "Ka...Kaien! Gh!" Ichigo cried and came first, filling Kaien's insides. It was so wet and even hotter that the other couldn't bear it any longer and came as well, shouting Ichigo's name a few times, until the high was ridden out. The boy collapsed on the orange head, trying to find his normal breathing. Ichigo embraced Kaien tightly and pulled himself out of the exhausted friend. The other was dazed and snuggled into the broad tanned chest. For a moment the orange head had a strange thought. Was this really a reality? If not, then he'd rather be killed immediately, before this dream ended. After 3 years he had a chance to fall into his friend's... Correction, just-lover's arms and embrace him tightly. And never let go. "Kaien?" He ran his hand through raven black hair, hoping to get a response.
"Yes?" The answer was said sleepily, meant the other was already drifting to sleep. Ichigo caught some air to say something, but then he got silent (well, he made something like a 'Ee..' sound). Kaien looked up, curious about what Ichigo wanted to say.
"Um... Nevermind." The orange head looked away and blushed. In their circumstances he couldn't just say IT. Hadn't he hurt Kaien's feelings before? And what if the other would react in an opposite way? "Goodnight." Kaien blinked a few times , before he gave a warm smile and cuddled against Ichigo even more, that he placed his head under other's chin.
"Goodnight." He answered back and both were lying silently, though none of them fell asleep. Kaien embraced Ichigo even tighter, moving his head even closer to his lover's face. "Ichigo?"
"Hmm?"
"I love you."
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AG-RO-TAG's NOTE!
YAY! HURRAY FOR THE REUNION ^^
I've figured out that this chapter contains even more cursing than in the rest xD Bad Kuukaku, it's all her fault xD
I guess this chapter is even longer than any of my written ones... And it contains a LOVE COMBO xD
They're together, so it's the end of "Be here"! MUHAHAHAHAHA!
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No, I was just kidding... Wait for more!
Hope you liked it ^^
And so, I'm really thankful for all reviews I've received! Hope there'll be more in the future!