Me: You guys, I really am so terribly sorry for not updating earlier. I just moved and so it's been quite a busy time for me.

Cal: And this has nothing to do with your recent obsession with 'The Nanny'?

Me: And you liking Gillian has nothing to do with her, and I quote, 'radiant personality'?

Cal: ...

Me: That's what I thought. Anyways, I don't own Lie to me or any of it's characters. So please don't sue me, I don't have money. Trust me.

Cal: It's kind of sad you're telling the truth about that.

Me: It's kinda sad you haven't told Gillian how you feel even though it's obvious.

Cal: I'm going to go ahead and say review please since she likes those and pay no attention to what she says up here. She's had one too many peanut brittles. So like I said, review!!

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Cal woke up the next day feeling alone, as if something were missing. His eyes were still shut closed, not wanting to be blinded by the sun's rays. He couldn't help but feel like something was off, like something that should belong there wasn't and it bothered him. He thought about the sun again and then remembered; sunshine, rays, brightness, warmth... Gillian. His eyes suddenly shot open as he scanned his room panicking; nothing. Cal bolted out of bed and ran down the stairs, searching frantically for the woman he had already grown accustomed to seeing every morning by his side. He ran into the living room when he heard a soft voice from behind him.

"Looking for something?" he jumped at the sound of the melodic voice then quickly turned around to see Gillian Foster in a simple sky blue t-shirt and jeans.

"You nearly gave me a bloody heart attack Foster." Gillian chuckled softly.

"Calm down, I'm a big girl. I can take care of myself.", she wore that smile that he loved so much, "Care for some breakfast?" she asked turning around towards the kitchen. She already knew the answer to her question, proven when Cal followed her into the kitchen. She picked up two plates of blueberry waffles off the counter and set one in front of Cal's seat. She sat down in front of her plate and eagerly grabbed a fork.

'She looks radiant.' Cal couldn't help but think as he looked up at her. He then heard that soft voice again.

"So what was with you just now? Did you think I was kidnapped or something?" she joked as she took another bite of her waffles.

"I was just alarmed since I've grown used to smelling lavender shampoo and feeling a soft source of warmth next to me when I wake up." Cal mentally kicked himself after he realized that he might have been a little too descriptive. Gillian could feel her lips stretching into a big smile.

"Well I've been exposed to that too except you don't smell of lavender shampoo. You just have that distinct man smell on you." Gillian looked up and they both chuckled at each other's descriptions. Then Cal saw a questioning look come across her delicate features.

"Is something wrong?" he asked.

"No, it's just... your eyes. They're... glowing." she didn't know exactly how to describe it. A confused expression came across his face.

"What?"

"I'm not sure how to explain it but your eyes are... bright. Like more than usual." she suddenly felt a little embarrassed at revealing that she paid attention to his eyes, something she secretly loved about him. She saw the eyes as a portal to a person's soul, no matter how sappy that sounded. Cal suddenly recalled Zoe mentioning once as well. It had been only once, when they had gone on vacation with Emily and he had felt happier than ever before. Zoe had described his eyes as being 'literally sparkling'. He couldn't recall a time where he felt any more happy and in love... until now.

"What was that thought you just had?" Gillian didn't miss things that easily. She had seen him when he had the expression of sudden understanding.

"Nothing luv." he got back to eating his waffle hoping she'd drop it.

"You're lying. Come on Cal, it's a conversation about eyes. I understand sometimes lying is necessary, but come on." she truly was curious. She'd never seen him like this.

"Sometimes things are deeper than they seem. So did Torres say anything about a new case?" he continued to look down and took another bite of his breakfast.

"Just a court judge wanting to know if his wife is cheating on him or not. She said she and Loker would handle it and you're deflecting."

"Yes and usually when I do that it means drop it. It's pretty simple Foster." he said rather harshly. Gillian straightened up at his words, trying not to feel hurt. She stood up and washed her plate.

"I think it's best if I go to the office and check how things are going. If you'll excuse me." she started walking out of the kitchen.

"You don't have to be polite you know? I can tell you're angry." she froze when she heard him. She slowly turned to face him.

"Excuse me?" she asked, now a bit irritated.

"You're pissed aren't you?" he stood up.

"I think that's for me to know. And for your information I wasn't pissed until now so maybe you stop wasting my time by starting these pointless arguments." Cal's jaw clenched.

"You're the one who wouldn't drop it, Foster." the stress he put on her once married name didn't go unnoticed.

"What's the matter with you Cal?! Why is something so simple as this suddenly taboo? I'm your friend, friends talk, and I'm sorry if something came up that you didn't want to remember but you could at least tell me that instead of hiding it and taking it out on me. And even if you didn't want to remember it, it seemed to me like it was a pretty happy thought. Why can't you talk about something that's making you happy? Is there something wrong? Something wrong with me?" her voice had gone slowly from angry and hurt to sad and scared. It would've been easier to run, to go to the office and let time pass, but the easiest option was not always the best one. If things were to be resolved, they had to talk. She couldn't handle going from having a nice conversation to having her feelings hurt so quickly. She didn't want to hurt Cal either. It was about time that the line be pushed aside for a second and that walls be let down. They were standing closely in the kitchen's doorway. Gillian looked confused and hurt. Cal immediately regretted what he had done. Gillian was not to blame for him loving her.

'That's it, isn't it? I love her. I'm in love with Gillian Foster and my way of trying to tell her is by not telling her at all. I'm a bloody fool.' he was suddenly sick of denial, sick of hurting her, sick of hurting himself because he was too stubborn to tell her how he felt. He didn't want to lose her, push them further apart, but if he didn't tell her she'd definitely take it the wrong way and he'd lose her anyhow. Cal unconsciously had moved closer to her. She looked at him with uncertainty as he took her hands in his and pulled her closer to him. He then hugged her tightly, as if he were scared she would disappear any second now. She put her arms around his waist and rested her head on his shoulder. She heard him sigh then speak.

"I'm sorry Gillian." she was surprised and content. He rarely used her first name and when he didn't call her Foster he called her love.

"I'm sorry too Cal." she said sincerely, a small smile on her face. She looked up at him. Without her heels, she was about 2 inches shorter than him.

"And whatever it is, I understand if you don't want to tell me. I won't push it." She was greeted by his smile.

"What is it?" she still smiled, although she saw something else flash on his features.

"Just you, love." he replied contently.

"Just me what?" she was a bit amused.

"That's the answer to your question earlier."

"Which question?" now she was confused.

"What was that thought you just had?" he quoted her. He saw surprise on her face but before she could reply her cellphone started vibrating. Realizing she was still hugging Cal, she put her arms back down next to her sides and pulled out her cellphone.

"Hey Loker. Yeah. What? Ok, we'll be right there." she looked up at Cal, who knew what was coming. It seemed now was not the time to tell her.

"We have a case."

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