Jasper's Life
Chapter 3: finally free
I was out finally free of Maria and better yet her dream of power had left with me, I should feel happy, why do I feel horrible? Why do I still suffer?
Garrett, Charlotte and I continued on our way we were currently making our way to the north we were sick of the fighting in the south.
But no matter how far I went I could not escape my power and the need to feed, sadly they were a bad mix a very bad mix. This was the cause of my suffering. No matter what horrible stuff I had done I was still a man of compassion and it was unbearable to feel the pain and sheer terror of my unfortunate victim. Even though they are dead and gone I can still hear their begs for mercy, for their lives, their shrieks still ring in my ears.
I cannot escape death, I try but death follows me no matter where I go or what I do. I was never taught to control my thirst the burning in my throat is unbearable and I was always taught when you were hungry go feed end of story because we were at the camp to fight not feed , so even though I am no longer a newborn I have a new bourns control over my unquenchable thirst for blood.
So now I stalk my next victim, a young man looks about 25, tall and muscular with short black hair and blue eyes. ''I'm sorry'' I whisper and lunge at him. I drain him as quick as possible trying not think about who's son, father, brother, uncle or friend I had just stolen and what I made him leave behind, but I still managed to feel his terror, pain and longing for his family to be ok after he is gone.
I sighed and buried the body on the out skirts of town. After that I went to find my companions who had finished their meal as I arrived.
We continued on our way slowly heading north. And with each passing day, with each kill I made the more I hated myself and the more I wanted to die.
I can't take it anymore. I had to get away. While my companions were out hunting I left I just simply left. I ran and ran never stoping not even to feed. I had nothing left nothing to live for and a hell of a reason to die.
My only way out was suicide so that is what I will do... but how?