Chapter 3 suicide and pixies
I stood at the edge of a cliff staring at the horizon I felt the wind ruffle my hair softly I shut my eyes as I prepared to fall. I opened my eyes and looked down and the waves as the crashed against the cliff and the sharp rocks below, foaming like rabid dogs. I took a deep breath and let myself fall I wasn't scared as I plummeted to the ground I had no fear I was glad that I would no longer be a burden to this earth.
BANG. I hit the rocks. I lay here perfectly fine "YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME'' I yelled looking around. I looked around "the rocks are broken" I laughed hysterically repeating it over and over again my sanity was gone for weeks after that. I tried so many ways it wasn't even funny.
I stabbed myself, the knife just got mangled didn't even pierce the skin. I tried walking in front of a car, it didn't even make me budge it just got all fucked up and did a flip over me. The list goes on and on. Every time I tried and failed I lost even more of my grip on reality and my sanity.
With the last piece of sanity I had left I decided to try one last time. I was going to starve myself...
*2 weeks later*
I was lying on the forest floor weak and hungry my throat burned I just prayed that a hunter didn't decide to come to this part of the woods even though I was too weak to move I know that if a hunter was to come past now I would have no second thought of killing them not because I'm a cold blooded killed, mainly because my instincts would take hold.
I felt something poking my leg. I inhaled deeply it was an animal it didn't smell as appealing as a human but it was enough to make me lose control I sprang onto the unsuspecting creature which turned out to be a deer. I drained it and let the carcass fall to the ground and I felt oddly satisfied and I realised that I felt barely anything from the deer I realised that animals although have emotion they did not have the same emotional depth as humans so they didn't affect me a smile spread across my face I had found a solution to my problem. "Why did I not think of this before, stupid Jasper stupid, stupid, stupid'' I muttered smacking myself in the face.
I sighed and shrugged and started to run. I ran for a few days slowing down if I liked an area if I liked it even staying in places for a few weeks learning to control my urge to kill any human that I could get my hands on it was a very slow process so I tended to stay away from towns.
I decided to go into a small town after about a month of running nonstop mainly coz I felt like getting out of the rain for once. I refused to talk to anyone or make eye contact. I found a nice little diner an went inside I had only taken 3 steps when this enthusiastic little pixie type girl came bounding up to me ''geez keep me waiting will you?'' she said crossly with a happy enthusiastic undertone
''sorry ma'am'' I said politely and nodded slightly is greeting and she smiled at me
Heeyyy sorry if my story id lame but hey it's my first time so be nice and this one will end soon btw. So pretty plz review so I know what to improve on and what is good ect ect also if u have any story ideas for me I would be forever grateful coz I can't think of anything 4 my next story anyways thanx and I don't own twilight just so ya no hahahaha xx