A/N: this chapter is really hard to understand… kinda…. But yeah, whatever….

Disclaimer: Twilight and all its characters belong to Stephenie Meyer

Time seemed to be going faster and faster. It seemed as though the earth was spinning faster and faster. It seemed like everything was going to come to an end much sooner than I had thought.

"This isn't happening," Jasper muttered emotionlessly into his hands.

I placed my hand on his knee. "Jazz, it's going to be fine."

"No!" Jasper turned to me angrily. "It's not going to be fine!"

"You've got to trust me. My vision of the Volturi is still solid."

Jasper raised his chin defiantly. "I thought you said you couldn't see anything."

Shit. "Uh…"

"So are you lying to me about the Volturi or your visions?"

I sighed and curled my knees as far up as I could. That wasn't as much as usual. "The Volturi. I was trying to make you feel better."

"Alice, this is my fault." He shook his head. "I never should have even spoken to you."

I sucked in a breath, feeling as though I was just punched in the stomach. "You wish you never met me?"

"If I hadn't, you wouldn't be in this situation."

People on the plane were looking at us strangely. Mostly me though. And I knew why.

"I'd rather be in this situation than have never met you." I slid my hand into Jasper's. He stayed still. "I love you."

It was a moment, but finally Jasper mumbled "I love you."

I smiled and rested my head on his shoulder, yawning and closing my eyes. "'Night."

I could feel Rosalie's eyes burning a hole in my back, but I had no idea why. I bent my head close to Mom's. "Why is Rose trying to kill me with her eyes?"

Mom frowned deeply. "She was pregnant, but she lost the baby. The day you called, actually."

My eyes widened and I took a deep breath. "Well, that explains it." I looked down at the lump that I called a stomach.

"How is that you're…so large already?"

"Jasper thinks it's because it's half vampire and…taking my life force?" I smiled sheepishly.

"I thought he was dead. How could he produce healthy sperm?" Dad asked, rubbing his chin.

I shrugged. "I don't know."

"Is this going to…kill you?" Bella whispered.

I stared at my feet. "I don't know."

"It's half monster Alice, of course it'll kill you," Jasper growled.

Mom covered her face, but I knew she was crying. Dad wrapped an arm around her shoulders.

I heard someone coming up behind us, so I turned. Rosalie with Emmett trailing behind came up. "You'll die?" Her face showed small traces of worry, but that's it. The rest was curiosity. I knew what she was thinking.

I shrugged. "I keep saying, I don't know."

Rosalie was thinking that if I died, Jasper would die, and she would be left to care for my child. It would become hers.

And though I was hurt by this, I was glad she wasn't pissed at me anymore. And it was then I realized, this wasn't the Rosalie I knew. She was different now. The loss of her baby changed her. Possibly permanently. Maybe she would never be the almost always nice and happy for me older sister who was just too beautiful for her own good. Maybe she was doomed to be an ice queen for the rest of her live.

Jasper shocked me by glaring at Rosalie. "Let's not talk about Alice dying. I could easily get rid of it with the help Carlisle."

I gasped, backing away from him, my hands protectively over my stomach. "Don't touch it!"

"Come on Alice, it'll be over in no time."

"You said I was missing out on having my own kids! And now, here you are, trying to get rid of my baby! You fucking hypocrite!"

Bella covered Renesmee's ears, wincing.

"Alice, all I'm trying to do is save your life," Jasper murmured, taking my hands.

"Jazz, please respect my decision when I say I'm going through with this. I already love this baby and to take it away from me now would be the cruelest thing anyone could ever do. Please just listen to me."

"The cruelest thing that could happen to me is losing you."

"You might as well be losing me if you take away my baby."

I could tell Jasper was wavering. He hated hurting me. "Alice…" was his final plea.

"Jasper," I responded evenly.

He sighed, closing his eyes. "Fine."

I hugged him. "I'll live. You'll see."

Jasper held me tightly. "I pray that you're right."

"Aren't I always?"

That night, I had a dream (not a vision) that would change everything.

With Aro's vampiric power of knowing a person's every thought, if he touched Jasper or me, he would instantly know that my family knew. After killing us, they'd kill my family.

I sat up, staring at the dark in horror.

"Alice?" Jasper asked worriedly.

"They'll know," I whispered.

"Who will know what?"

I turned to him, my eyes wide. "The Volturi will know that my family knows! They'll kill them, Jazz!"

Jasper's eyes narrowed in decision. "Looks like we're giving your family a choice…"

"And so you see, the creepy ultra scary vampires will know that you know about their existence. If we haven't done anything about that, they will. They'll come and find each and every one of you and kill you. It's my fault and I take all the blame. I'm so sorry," I finished. I studied each and every shocked and horrified face in the living room.

"And you're asking us," Edward finally said, "to choose a premature death or eternal life as a vampire?"

I took a deep breath and nodded. "I'm so sorry."

Edward sat back, placing his thumb and forefinger on the bridge of his nose. "This is a nice little mess you've cooked up, huh Pixie?"

I nodded again, slowly.

"I guess a vampire's life wouldn't be that bad."

"Edward!" Bella cried, turning to her husband in shock.

"Feel free to join me Bella."

Bella blinked a couple times. "Well what about Renesmee?"

Jasper stood, bringing her attention to him. "When she's old enough not to be an immortal child, you can change her."

"Immortal child?" I asked in confusion.

"A story for another day." Jasper sat back down beside me.

"I guess…" Bella bit her lip. "I'll go with Edward on this one."

"I wanna kill some bears!" Emmett cried, fist-pumping.

"I'd be even more beautiful," Rosalie murmured. I wondered why she wasn't totally against this, wanting more time to try to get pregnant again.

Dad was staring at his feet, deep in thought. "I guess," he started, looking up, "I'll go with the rest of the family. My children need me. Or so I'd like to think."

Hurriedly, Mom agreed also.

"I just need you all to decide when you want the change. It takes three days and it's the most excruciating pain ever," Jasper warned. And then he sighed. "A full-time job taking care of fucking newborns and my pregnant wife."

I reached for his hand, pressing a kiss to the cold flesh. "You're an amazing man, Jasper Whitlock."

Jasper smiled slightly. "I guess that makes you an amazing woman, Alice Whitlock."

I grinned at the sound of his surname tacked onto my name.

Dad stood. "I should be first."

"Shouldn't we go away for a while? Somewhere with no humans, only animals? Like…a private island," I said, turning to Dad.

"Isle Esme?" Dad asked in surprise.

"Yes, it'd be perfect!" I cried, jumping up. A sharp pain shot through my stomach and I groaned, sinking back into my seat. Jasper held me, assessing me with his eyes.

"I'm fine," I assured everyone, a hand on my large stomach.

"We should figure out the order now," Jasper told the group.

"I'll go after Carlisle," Mom offered.

"I'll be next," Edward put in.

Bella's eyes darted to Edward. "I'm after Edward."

"I'll be after Bella," Rosalie said.

Emmett sighed loudly. "I guess that makes me last."

"I'll be changed after I have my baby," I said brightly. "I mean, our baby."

Jasper frowned, surveying every face in the room. "It's settled then."

The only reason I made Alice is pregnant is not because I want this story to be like Breaking Dawn, it's because I didn't want to make Alice a vampire without giving her a chance to have at least one of her own children… Just explaining that.